New Year, Still Me. But I’m Trying.
Yeah so… I’m aware I pretty much never post anything on here anymore. My bad 🤷🏻♀️. I have a habit of going through intense phases of obsession and then just… not… obsessing anymore. I know sometimes that affects me socially and by extension, the people I meet during these bouts of manic hyper fixation. Apologies.
But that’s not the point of this post. I just wanted somewhere other than my therapist’s office to say this. Maybe it’ll help hold me accountable. Every 6 months, I have to re-sign my therapy paperwork, grade my mental health improvement or decline, and re-establish my goals (for therapy, for my life, whatever). I had that appt last week. Aside from the goal of being less of a bipolar hot mess, I never usually commit to anything else. I don’t like doing New Year’s resolutions either. But, given the timing of the new year and this particular appt, I guess you could say I did make a resolution.
So I make this post so that maybe someone else will help hold me to it? Or I’m just having a weird moment and I’ll delete this in a couple days when I come out of whatever space my head is currently in.
Now. The resolution I made for myself for this year. It’s small. Doing this kind of shit is hard for me. In the past, if I’ve tried to set a goal, I’ve done what most people do and set an unrealistic expectation, a goal too big, way out of reach for someone who doesn’t like being told what to do. So I made a goal easily attainable and likely to surpass if I don’t falter.
Read atleast 12 books by the end of the year.
Simple enough. It breaks down to 2 books a month which is more than reasonable. Even if I was someone who HATED reading, this would be doable. And for the record, I don’t hate reading. I enjoy it. It just happens that I enjoy sleeping, video games, and TV/movies/YouTube more.
So 24 books in 12 months. Atleast. That’s the keyword really. Atleast. If I’m enjoying a book, I can finish it in a week or so (taking maybe a half hour-45 mins out of each day to read). If I am absolutely loving a book, I’ll finish it in 3 days (simply because there are other life necessities that take precedence over “downtime” activities). The biggest problem I have is if I am working my way through a tv series or playing through a certain game, putting the controller down is hard.
The good news is, I’ve finished my two books for January. And considering I only officially set this goal a week ago (and picked up a book for the first time in what feels like forever a couple-ish weeks before that), I’d say I’m doing pretty good.
I’ve got stacks of TBR so I’m not short on resources to accomplish my goal. (I am not a bookworm, I am a book dragon. I love to hoard books. 😅) But suggestions are always welcome. I love supernatural/magic, horror, cozy mystery, and questionably moral dark romance. A biography is acceptable every now and then, too (especially autobiographies).
I will not be keeping track via GoodReads or any other site/app. Mostly because a decent portion of my TBR is advanced reader copies so they are not listed. I’m simply making a list in my phone’s notes app as I go. Title, author, start and end dates. If this post remains by the end of the year, maybe I’ll add my read list to it. Assuming anyone cares then.
That’s all I had to say. So… kbye.
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