▒ I get what I want.

ind. sel. lisa cuddy

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isavedyourlife:

       stacy’s not exactly SURE how to react either. she’s relieved, of course, that lisa believes her, but unsure of what to do now. this definitely wasn’t how she’d planned this proposal out, but now she’s lost the element of SURPRISE. ❝ i’m…it’s okay, ❞ she finally manages, stepping forward to take lisa’s hands in her own. ❝ look…this isn’t how i wanted this to happen. i was planning a romantic dinner, something SPECIAL, but i don’t…i don’t want to let her ruin this. if we let this drive a wedge between us, she wins, and she’s not worth that. not to me. I LOVE YOU, lisa, and i want to spend my life with you. so…what do you think ? is that something YOU WANT too or…not ? ❞

     she’s genuinely MORTIFIED now  ––  lisa’s skin crawls at the way her mother can get into her head so easily.  she slips in the way she always has,  shifts thoughts around and bends them to what she wants for lisa.  your happiness matters to me,  but only on my terms.  it’s astonishing,  then,  that stacy still wants to hold her hands.  lisa knows she doesn’t deserve this kind of forgiveness,  and yet from stacy it’s always been offered freely.  ❝  god, i don’t CARE if it’s fancy, i ... of COURSE i want to,  i’ve always wanted to.  you ––- you'd let me MARRY you ? ❞

[blossomfully]

You’re not over it if it still makes you angry.

S.Z. // Vodka thoughts #7 (via blossomfully)

[xaedificare]

ensyme:

I’d love to relax but it’s just not realistic

[xcuddy-blog]

When Lisa finally finds her daughter (the older one, of course), she'll find her beating the crap out of a punching bag. "How was your visit with Satan? What sage wisdom did she and Aunt Julia spring on you today?"

        Cue the most genuine smile anyone but Stacy has gotten out of her since getting to Arlene’s. “Mom was HORRIFIED to learn you’re taking judo classes. Haven’t seen her look so scandalized since I introduced her to your mother.”

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isavedyourlife:

         stacy’s searching for answers of her own, particularly since lisa’s assumptions HURT. ❝ i…you really think i’d be that…not even house is that fucked up. i went to your mother to ask for her PERMISSION…thought maybe we could re-build some bridges that way, but she said NO. i was planning on doing it anyway, surprising you at that conference in denver and asking you then, but then THIS happened, and if you really think i’d…i love you, lisa. i love rachel. i love the little FAMILY we’ve all created and now that we can, i wanted to make it official. you really think i’d DO THAT to you ? that i’m so incapable of emotion i’d just…USE the best thing that ever happened to me ? ❞

     “i ...” a scarlet flush creeps up her face and she feels like a bucket of water has been dumped on her. her mother wouldn’t actually ...  but no, there’s only one way to put this together that makes even the slightest shred of sense. “i can’t believe she’d ... god, I’m SORRY.” a few steps backwards that she’s more fallen into than deliberately taken, mind whirling over whether to call arlene or drive straight there to tell her EXACTLY what she thinks of her now. lisa’s looking for words but she’s STUCK, a dozen different feelings threatening to knock her down.

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pathclogist:

“I’m impressed, quite honestly,” Reed laughs, hands falling back into her lap. Her coffee mug is empty now - half an hour’s passed by without her even noticing. “You’ve got to tell me your secret to it.” 

“Don’t ever let it look like you aren’t absolutely sure when you say no. Doctors and children can both smell FEAR.” Lisa grins. She’s surprised to feel the cold in her hand as she picks up her coffee mug –– had they really been here so long? “I sometimes miss practicing medicine full-time, but in this job I get to put my daughter to bed at night.”

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borninanightmare: { ??? }

“ Your E.R? Right, show me exactly where your name is proving ownership of this place and then I might just consider sitting still long enough for you to take a closer look. ”

     He’s clever, she supposes, and while she’s got half a mind to be annoyed with him she’s more than aware that most people aren’t comfortable here. “With all due respect, an intern would be qualified to do this, but since you insist ––-” Lisa pulls her ID card out of her pocket with a half-smile. Dr. Lisa Cuddy, M.D., Dean of Medicine. “Do my qualifications meet your approval?”

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borninanightmare:

@xcuddy liked the t h i n g …

“ If I needed your help, I would’ve asked for it. Now go away and leave me ALONE. I’m fine. ”

        “The PARAMEDICS would beg to differ, based on the fact that you’re in my E.R.. Now how about you let me get those CUTS cleaned up? I promise it’ll be quick.”

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"No, I just know a troublesome person when I see them. It helps to notice people like yourself."

              + @definitelycertainlysatan

         “RIGHT. If you’re trying to ingratiate yourself with the Dean of Medicine you’re off to a rocky start. Did you want something in particular ? ”

[soulstoxics]

[xcuddy-blog]

"You seem like bad news."

             + @definitelycertainlysatan

     “You seem like someone who’s been talking to HOUSE.”

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isavedyourlife:

       ❝ what ? what exactly did she say to you lisa, because i’m having a little trouble figuring out how me wanting to MARRY YOU somehow means i don’t really love you. i’m SMART, but there are some riddles even i can’t figure out. ❞

     “ that i’m just someone CONVENIENT to sleep with when you can’t get to a guy. it just about KILLED her to tell me but she ––- ” lisa stops dead, mouth falling open. tears dry onto her cheeks as she finally manages to LOOK at stacy, desperately searching for sincerity. “ -–– wait, you want to ... MARRY me ? WHY ? ”

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isavedyourlife:

       ❝ no he…did something completely and utterly greg-like. please, lisa. i’m useful to this hospital, but it’ll be hard to do that if i’m IN JAIL for murder. ❞

       “ oh GOD. what’d he DO to you ? that stuff usually just rolls off you. ”

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isavedyourlife:

       ❝ SHE TOLD YOU ? ❞ her voice gets stuck in her throat and she feels a surge of anger rush through her. ❝ well i’m SORRY you had to find out that way but…i didn’t realize that was the sort of thing i’d have to fix. i thought you’d be HAPPY about it. ❞

     “ HOW do you expect me to be happy about this ?  you ... i’ve TOLD you a hundred times how much you meant to me, you MADE me talk to you after I went through hell and i ––- it’s never been me. it’s never been me. ”  she turns around, brushing the tears off her face and letting out a rattly breath.  every word arlene said still echoes as loudly as the moment they were spoken. “ i should have known you’d never actually fall for ––- a woman. for ME.”

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isavedyourlife:

       ❝ well how HEROIC of you. ❞ she laughs softly and darts in to steal another kiss. ❝ my savior. ❞

          lisa grins, nuzzling stacy’s cheek. “that’s my job. besides, I dragged you to this godforsaken dinner. might as well save you from the GUESTS.”

[xcuddy-blog]

;; like the thing for a short starter!

[oopsprompts]

“You can’t murder people just for being ignorant and obnoxious.”

“Maybe you can’t.”