fuck the standards

𖤐kaine𖤐.ny.30. at war with the world around me.☭

[xenomorphius69]

honestly don’t have a will anymore. save a few loose ends to tie up, it may be time to halt the medication and let this disease do what it was supposed to do six years ago. it’s all i’ve wanted for the past twenty years, right?

[xenomorphius69]

Complete honesty; if I knew life was going to get this hard, I wouldn’t have survived. Can’t find a job, have to fill out disability papers for a third fucking time, bills piling up, the love of my life hates me, despite being tired 24/7 I can’t sleep through a whole night.. I don’t know how much I can keep this shit up, it’s getting to be too much.

[elliot-amy]

The VVitch (2015) Robert Eggers

[xenomorphius69]

2 klonopin, 3 10% mojito bevies down, and like an eighth of 35% indo got me feel like not existing

[xenomorphius69]

i have literally ruined everything in my life and no matter how much i work to try and be the best person that i can be, it doesn’t make all of the self-degrading hatred and emotional pain. i want it all to end. i almost told my neurologist about the last time i was this lost. thing is, this one is worse. ten fold. i’m surprised I haven’t blown my br*ins yet, to be completely honest. i need to get out, there just isn’t an easy or fair way.

i fucked up with the most caring, funny, beautiful woman i wanted to spend the rest of my life with. i will always have to live with that. i just need to stop seeing her everyday, because honestly i fall back in love with her every time i see her no matter how fucking much i try not to. she deserves her happiness, far away from me. i’m so sorry.

someone end my life for me so i don’t fuck it up, myself. again. lol

[xenomorphius69]

back to crying everyday again. cool. my life could genuinely end tomorrow and no one outside of immediate family would even care.

when i die, anyone who tries to post about me and say that I was their friend or that we were close, is a fucking liar.

[xenomorphius69]

[j0celynh0rr0r]

What a beautiful day to die

[xenomorphius69]

of course i manage to fuck things up so bad right when i was beginning to think that things are going well.

i wouldn’t be kaine michael caraballo if i didn’t ruin *everything*.

[disease]

Visit Original Link

PORTISHEAD / SOUR SOUR TIMES / 1994

[spacecowboyluna]

I don’t know the right words

I don’t need the right words

I just need to bleed

[greelin]

we need fangs in your neck friday now. More than ever

[classichorrorblog]

Carrie Directed by Brian De Palma (1976)

[bellasstorm2023]

[xenomorphius69]

speaking of agonizing pain in multiple ways, time so smoke more indo at pass out so I don’t feel for awhile.

[coitus-n-carnage2]

[hate5sixofficial]

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