I salve, soothe, save

indie Cole from the Dragon Age franchise. semi selective & mutuals only. Same mun as ofxelvhen

[ofxelvhen]

Semi Hiatus

It seems I go on these pretty regularly these days. But, as I’ve been medicated for a month now I’m starting to really have to adjust to the brain bugs that aren’t the bipolar or the Big Depression. And I’m discovering there’s…. a lot more there than I expected.

As such, I’m going to spend this month (and possibly next) with a focus on poetry. I sort out my head easier with it, it’s a much more emotional outlet, and I feel less like I’m obnoxious with it as I’m not writing and posting and writing and posting and no one reading it. tho I feel annoying talking about it a lot but that will be far limited

As always, I will be around on here, keeping an eye on the dash and blog, and I will be around on discord. If anyone wishes to talk I am generally going to be more than happy to. But I am also expecting to….potentially not be very great company at times as I untangle some of these knots so if I don’t reply quickly it’s not you. 

Mutuals, if you want added on the disco then send me your IDs, I’ve found that the emoji in mine makes it hard to look up. I will also be adding the other tumblrs I manage to my mun page should you wish to find me there as well.

[ofxelvhen]

He remembers and he’s not sure why. Thren’s seen the way others’ eyes drift past Cole, how he can come and go without being noted by anyone. Seen people struggle to remember who he even is when Cole is mentioned around them. Perhaps it’s because of the way he sees them shiver upon remembering, perhaps it’s the distrust that he’s still learning doesn’t mean he has to draw his blade for.

But he remembers. He doesn’t struggle, he doesn’t shiver. He told Cole he could stay; Cole had saved them in Haven. And he wasn’t a shem, he was a spirit. And Thren had never seen a spirit he could talk to before, never one he could touch, could interact with. It was interesting. He was curious.

So it hardly surprised him when he found himself once again on the top floor of the Herald’s Rest looking for him. “Cole?”

“It hurts,” Cole replies from his corner, sitting on a crate. “But you forgot. Like the time you broke your ankle and kept working.”

Keep reading

[gambling-duelist-blog]

Let's play the 'Word Association Game'! Send my muse a word, any word, and they'll respond with the first word that comes into their head.

[xfcompassion-blog]

@lathal from x

“I know. I was stupid,” Iveani said.

Part of her knew that wasn’t true. If she knew a kid in an identical situation, she would never blame them for anything. Children need love and attention. If their parents aren’t providing that, of course they would turn to someone who they thought could. Without any life experience, of course they wouldn’t realize that that could be dangerous.

She understood that intellectually, so why was it so difficult to internalize?

“You were trusting,” Cole corrects, tilting his head slightly. She knew it wasn’t her fault, he need only teach her to feel it. To touch the hurt and soothe it. It was old, calloused and buried from time, but all hurts were open to Cole, it did not have to be open and bleeding for him to help.

“You were hurting and you trusted. He took advantage. He took your trust and twisted it, but you still know how. You live and every day free is away from him. It makes you stronger.”

[xfcompassion-blog]

Character Thoughts: 🦁 Cullen / 💰 Josephine /🐦 Leliana

im making a meme send a symbol for my oc’s thoughts on a character

“The lyrium’s song is gone. He doesn’t miss it, only sometimes he thinks he does. It’s too silent, too quiet, he can think all his thoughts, feel all his guilt. He wants to be forgiven, but no one alive can.”

“She’s bright like a flower, like a song, like a smile. She’s lost sometimes, looking, listening, never sure what for. Her siblings? The ocean? She doesn’t know what, only that she is lacking it.”

“The left hand reaches far, or has it only come far? It is dark in the hallways. It is dark and I left her. I was only there for my friend, she was there for the mages. She did what I thought I was doing. She set them free.”

[xfcompassion-blog]

“Silently, he wonders. Wishing, wanting, wondering, but then the thought is gone, like air. Where did it go? Where does a thought go when it is gone?”

[aline-pntct]

dragon age chara part 1

[witchdoodle]

im making a meme send a symbol for my oc’s thoughts on a character

🤞 Blackwall 🥖 Cassandra 👻 Cole 🦁 Cullen 🐍 Dorian 🐲 The Iron Bull 💰 Josephine 🐦 Leliana 🐝 Sera 🥚 Solas ✏️ Varric ❄️ Vivienne

🍷 The Warden/the Hero of Ferelden 🦅 Hawke

🔪 Briala 👑 Empress Celene 🤔 Gaspard ➕ Divine Justinia 💪 Krem (and/or the Chargers) 🏹 Lace Harding 🤡 Livius Erimond 🎵 Maryden 🤓 Professor Kenric (Jaws of Hakkon) 🌋 Valta (The Descent) 👶 Sutherland & crew 👿 The Viddasala (Trespasser) 💚 Other (give a name)

[rp-memes-and-things]

Mun & Muse Questions

   Questions for the Mun about the Muse

 1. What inspired you to make/pick up this character?    2. What is your favorite ship (be it romantic or otherwise) with your character?    3. Are you anything like your muse?    4. Whats your favorite thing about your muse?    5. What’s one thing you wish you could change about them?    6. Do you think you would get along if you met in person?    7. Do you ever wish you could be your muse?    8. What is your favorite random headcanon?    9. Do you think your muse is attractive?    10. How long have you played this muse?

Questions for the Muse about the Mun

   11. Do you like the mun?    12. What is your favorite thing about the mun?    13. What is one thing you dislike about them?    14. Do you know any of the mun’s other muses?    15. Do you think you would get along if you met in person?    16. What’s one thing mun does that you’re grateful for?    17. What is one thing you wish mun would let you do?    18. Do you think mun is a talented writer?    19. Do you have any suggestions for mun?    20. Would you ever trade places with the mun?

[xfcompassion-blog]

Pops in rq to drop a Cole (x)

[dreamscapes-rpmemes]

FEVER DREAM sentence starters

starters from the Of Monsters and Men’s album.

Alligator

“I don’t know what you want”

“And now I lose control, I’m fever dreaming”

“Starlit sky grew before my eyes”

Ahay

“If it’s alright, I’ll wrap myself around your cold shoulder”

“You think you know me, but do you really?”

“The cold lingers on the tip of your fingers”

Róróró

“I’m tired and I think I want to go home”

“I know with open arms then I could hold it all”

“In a field full of poppies, I could dream you all away”

“Do you need me to tell the truth?”

Waiting For The Snow

“I used to make mountains but then they grew bigger than me”

“This steel can’t carry me now that things are rough”

“When you are all symphony, what can you offer me?”

“Have I said too much? Did I love too hard?”

Vulture, Vulture

“He lives in darkness, he’s calling my name”

“It’s hard for me to breathe when all I do is feels so heartless”

“I don’t know about these heavy hands, well maybe they can pull me up”

“Am I heartless?”

Wild Roses

“I think I wrote my own pain”

“I couldn’t sleep so I followed a feeling”

“I feel out of my mind all the time”

“Roses, they don’t mean a thing, you don’t understand”

“You keep me still when all I feel is an aimless direction”

Stuck in Gravity

“It’s kinda hard to think about your own mortality”

“This high love that you give me is all I’m missing”

“I don’t know high from low or when I should be letting go”

“Just give me something good”

Sleepwalker

“No time to think about it, it might blow over soon”

“You make me feel like a ghost”

“I still dream in indigo when you’re around”

“This neighborhood feels like it’s always changing”

Wars

“How does it feel to lie alone in your bed?”

“I love you on the weekends”

“It’s alright, we can stay lost here forever.”

“It’s heavy, is that how it’s supposed to be?”

Under A Dome

“Where I met you first, fuck the way we were”

“Heard you call my name.”

“I’m kicking out my heart and it’s overgrown”

“So fuck all he times that I’ve fallen.”

Soothsayer

“The mind is a riddle you cannot solve”

“And I know this can’t be wasted love”

“You’ve become a tempo that my heart knows”

“Will you see me, love?”

[dryadalismagicae]

@xfcompassion  ||  Random Starter  ||

IT HAD BEEN a damn rough morning - one of which had been riddled with terrible events and pressures of which the elf was utterly unprepared for. A damn good healer and alchemist he was but having screaming and crying soldiers at his feet? Having to tend to three or four at once? It was nothing but stressful and once he was able to get a break the elf had disappeared outside to look over the outer wall with a long sigh; “Do you think all of this pain and suffering will end?” He spoke out, feeling a presence of some variety near to his person so he thought he would strike up a conversation. “…Because I think my eyes may start bleeding if I see any more of it-”   

[xfcompassion-blog]

Cole finds himself drawn. There were many soliders in need, dying and reaching out for compassion, reaching for one last kindness before they are no longer of this world and Cole did what he could. He walked upon the dying, those who could not be saved and looked for what he could give them. At times, his hand twitched for his dagger, seeking to end suffering when the end would take too long to come but he doesn’t. There was no one to tell him if this was truly compassion, and he still could not trust his blade against those not raising one against him.

He drifted out as the healer left, feeling himself drawn by his pain as well and he goes towards it. This one was alive, perhaps he could help more.

“All pain ends,” Cole answers, pausing near Lyrian before sitting on the wall and allowing him to see him. He was needed. “Ends in one way or another. All things have their purpose. You help. you end the hurt, you help the pain. They want to thank you, even if they cannot find it in themselves to.”

[xfcompassion-blog]

“...I don’t know if I will ever be as I was, Cole. I hurt to many, killed more.” Of her own free will; sometimes. “...Maybe they’re right, and I am a monster.”!

“I killed too and I came back, I didn’t know but maybe that doesn’t matter.” Cole tugs at his hat and looks at her. “You can try, you can’t change back without trying. If you give in and hurt someone you have to die, but you’re stronger than that. You can be better.”

@covctous

[xfcompassion-blog]

Headcanon [ Cole has not, actually, run into a mage from the Spire since he left Rhys in the sewers at the end of Asunder. He went to the Templars with the intent to be killed or otherwise dealt with as a demon only to find the order corrupting from the inside and staying to watch and see if he could help or prevent it, he saw Evangeline change after all, maybe more templars could too.

He’s still there, naturally, when Inquisition starts. If he runs into anyone from the Spire he’s like to reference it at some point in their company when a thought about it crosses their mind. He wants to be forgiven for his actions, wants someone to tell him that it’s okay, he’s better now, he knows better now. Solas can say it all he wants, he wasn’t there.

He, however, hasn’t really had to mend one of his own mistakes before, really, so he’s very uncertain how to go about it. But it’s important to him, and is probably also important to any mage who lived in the Spire. As such he wants to give closure both to them and himself. ]

[archaeologian-blog]

send me a topic to write a meta about my muse on

I might write anything from a paragraph to a whopping essay, but send me something you’ve noticed about my characterisation or just something you want to know about my muse and I will write what I can!

[xfcompassion-blog]

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Ameridan’s face contorts;  for a moment his gaze goes dark.   “ You would say that,  wouldn’t you. “   As an attempt to convince him this is real it is almost pathetic.   The spirit cannot hope to make him believe it simply by telling him that it is.   It worked before,  admittedly,  but it will not work any longer.

He has been weak these past days  —  physically and mentally.   Exhaustion and confusion has made him easy to decieve with lies he would otherwise never have fallen for,  and though he should have known better he has clung to every word spoken by those around him without ever questioning them.   Too caught up in processing what he was told,  he never stopped to consider how it could possibly be real.   He never dared to,  he thinks now,  because he was afraid of hoping and having that hope crushed.

It still might be.   Even if this is a dream,  even if he manages to wake from it,  it may not all be lies.   Maybe Telana really is dead.   He healed her injuries as best he could,  but fever can set in unexpectedly,  and the basin is a dangerous place.   The odds were never good for her,  and worse yet for Haron and Orinna.   They may all be dead.   It may be so.

But even with that possibility,  Ameridan must push on.   The first step was to become conscious of the dream.   The second is to break it.

“ What do you hope to accomplish by keeping me here? “  he asks the spirit.    “ I have seen through you.   You can pretend all you like,  but I have.   So what do you hope to accomplish? “

It doesn’t work. Ameridan hurts too much, Cole doesn’t know how to help, the truth hurts more than the lie and he’s too far lost in his denial to believe the truth now. But Cole has to try, he has to. “I want to help,” Cole answers, voice almost desperate, hands tugging at the brim of his hat.

“This is real, but it hurts you. She loved you, but that hurts you. I don’t understand. How do I help?’ Just remaining here hurts Ameridan more, but Cole’s unsure that he can leave, convinced this is a fabrication, not sure he will, not sure he won’t try anything just to wake up as he believes himself asleep.He thinks Cole’s a demon. Is he?

He’s been in a Fade memory before, but that time he thought it was his own. A memory of the real Cole on the bad day, but this isn’t that. This is real, this is now and they can’t escape it. He could be reminded what was real and taken from the memory, but Ameridan never could. Telana would still be gone.

If he hadn’t learned what he was, would this be the kind of demon he became? Trapping people in their pain and forcing them to confront it? No, don’t think about that, it doesn’t matter, he won’t become a demon again, he won’t. He’s here to help Ameridan.

“I want to make it better, but I can’t bring her back,” he continues, face pulled into a frown. “She would want you to live, not stay here, not hurt. She would want you happy.”

[xfcompassion-blog]

River’s words are polite with Varric, but there is pain in her heart - sometimes it’s anger, sometimes it’s grief but often it’s far more complicated. She avoids him as often as she avoids the Commander, and now Hawke has arrived and River feels like she’s going to scream but she doesn’t feel like she’s allowed - a boiling kettle - threatening to boiling over. ( cause o h b o y )

Drawn to the pain, Cole finds himself drifting to River and reaching for it’s source. Why does she hurt, how can he help? Still reaching, he finds something and turns it over, takes a moment to look at the hurt before he speaks, hoping his words will help. “They didn’t mean it,” he offers. “They didn’t mean to hurt you. They’re sorry, they want to fix it, but they don’t know how.”