ย ย ย ย โณ In which you were childhood friends. Lovers. But now as the grand hall glittering with banners, he announces his betrothal to a princess. He never looks in your way, not even once. Yet you still flinch when he says honor above desire.
The hall glittered like it had swallowed the stars.
The banners lined the high stone walls, royal blue and burnished gold, their threads shimmering with every movement of the chandeliers. Nobles filled the room in waves of silk and armor, murmuring in the language of politics, toast and hidden glances.
You stood at the far end of it all, tucked in the shadow of a carved pillar, half hidden behind a servantโs path. You hadn't meant to come, not really. But your feet had carried you here, anyway. Quietly. As you always did, when it came to him.
Caleb stood at the center, flanked by his knights and high councilors, his posture perfect as ever. The Duke of East. Commander of the Crown's Guard. Future husband of a foreign princess, sent from the West to end a war.
He looked every inch the man they needed him to be. He always had. And he didn't look at you. Not once. But you watched anyway.
Watched the way his hands stayed still even as the crowd erupted in cheer. Watched the way his jaw tightened, just barely, as the princess, elegant and unfamiliar, offered her hand. Watched the way he lowered his eyes only to the scroll as he read his vows aloud.
"By the grace of the Crown, and for the good of the realm, I pledge myself to this union. Not for desire, but for honor." That was the moment you flinched. No one saw it. Not really. But it happened. Like a pulse in your throat, sharp and deep and final.
You had always known this was how it would be. That Caleb would choose the path of righteousness, of sacrifice. That he would do what needed to be done, because someone had to. Because he'd spent his entire life protecting people from pain. Even if it meant becoming a vessel of it himself.
But it still hurt.
So you didn't cry. You didn't make a scene. You just stood there with your hands folded quietly in front of yo. Until one drifted, unconsciously, down to your stomach.
It was still early. No one else could tell. But you knew. And the weight of it made your spine feel too fragile to stand beneath the chandelier's gold.
You waited. Just a little longer. Hoping and praying that he would look. That he would find you. That some part of him would still search the crowd for the girl he once kissed under the tree. For the woman he would whispered promises to under breathless moonlight.
But his eyes never found you. So you left.
You slipped out before the final toast, through the servant halls and into the cold air outside the palace gates. You didn't stop until you reached the old cottage at the edge of the dukedom. The place he once brought you to feel free when you came with him into the duchy. Where you'd whispered about building a life. One without war. One without titles.
That night, you packed nothing but silence. But before you left, you wrote him a letter.
Caleb,
I heard what you said tonight. 'Not for desire, but for honor.'
You've always known the difference better than I have.
I know you didn't choose her. I know you chose peace. You chose your people. You always do.
But I need you to know something. I'm leaving not because I hate you. But because I love you too much to stay and become something else you have to carry.
I'm expecting. I wanted to tell you. I wanted you to look at me and just know. But you didn't.
Maybe it's better that way.
They'll be alright. They'll have my name, not yours. They don't need your title. Just your heart. And I'll tell them one day that you gave that to the world, even when it cost you everything.
I hope it's enough.
I love you. I always will.
But I won't let this be your undoing.
You'll be a good duke. A husband. A leader.
You always were meant to be.
Yours once, (Your Name)
You sealed it. Held it. Pressed your lips to the edge like you were kissing a goodbye. And then you dropped it into the fire.
The flames took it without hesitation. Just like the world took him.
You left that same night, before the snow could fall. No carriage. No escort. Just your hand at your stomach, and the memory of a boy who once told you that if duty were not real, he'd choose you every time.
You believed him. Which is why you never made him choose.
-
Caleb had never believed in love forged at court.
He'd seen too many alliances built on strategy, too many handfastings stitched from political desperation rather than any true desire. So when he was told, ordered, to marry the Western princess in exchange for peace, he didn't expect kindness.
But she surprised him. Not with softness. But with clarity.
"You know why I'm here." He said plainly, voice crisp like frost. "They're offering me to your kingdom because they believe I'm worthless." She answered and he didn't argue. She was right.
She lifted her chin and studied him. Not with challenge, but calculation. "Do you know what I want, Duke Xia?" Caleb leaned forward, hands folded atop the council chamber table. "Revenge."
That made her smile. Small. Sharp. Sad. "Yes." She replied. "I want justice for the disgrace they forced me to carry. For the man that was forced to watch me became a war trophy and do nothing about it because everyone deemed me unworthy of the throne."
Caleb met her gaze. Steady. Unflinching. "Then I will help you take it." The princess blinked. For a moment, she said nothing. "But in return." Caleb added, his voice low. "Do not expect my heart. It was given long ago and it still belongs to her."
"The commoner." She said, without hesitation. "The one the court whispers about." He inclined his head. "Yes."
She didn't sneer. Didn't scoff. Instead, she leaned back in her chair and folded her hands delicately in her lap. "Rest assured, Duke. I have no use for your heart. I have someone waiting for me too. If he's still alive by the end of this game, I'll return to him. That is the only vow I intend to keep."
Caleb nodded once. "There's one more thing." He said. "When the time comes, I will take her into the duchy. She will live safely, untouched by this farce. Any slander, any name. If it touches her, I will consider it an act of war."
The princess didn't blink. "Then I suggest you act fast. Because you have enemies who would rather see your world burn than watch you be happy."
So as the night of the engagement came, Caleb stood beneath the blinding lights of the grand hall, surrounded by the echo of clinking goblets and hollow applause. Everything smelled like flowers and polished metal and power.
It was supposed to be a victory. But all he could think about was you.
You in that sun drenched orchard where he first touched your wrist and thought of forever. You barefoot in the rain with mud on your hem, arguing with a merchant about fair prices while he watched, arms crossed, hopelessly taken. You who never asked anything of himm but who he would have given everything to, if the world had allowed it.
He had tried to send word. Tried to reach you before the ceremony. But something or perhaps someone, was keeping you from him. Every message sent returned unanswered. Every rider sent out reported only silence. And the longer the hours stretched, the more he felt the panic curl beneath his ribs.
As he said the ceremonial vows beside the princess, his voice didn't waver but something inside him cracked. The words tasted like ash. "I pledge myself to this union. Not for desire, but for honor."
When the final toast rang out and goblets clinked like bells of war, Caleb turned fast, desperate and scanned the crowd. But you weren't there. Not in the corner where you always stood, half behind a pillar. Not near the stairwell. Not by the doors. Not anywhere.
He'd hoped, even against reason, that you might come. That you'd let him find your eyes just once. That you'd see him, and know that this was all temporary. But you were gone. And for the first time in years, ever since becoming the duke, the commander, Caleb Xia felt fear press down against his lungs.
The moment the final guest turned their back, he summoned his closest aide. "Find her." He said. "Find her now." The man hesitated. "She's-" Caleb's eyes snapped to him, colder than winter steel. "Then look again. Burn the map if you must. I don't care how long it takes or what it costs. Bring her to the duchy. Quietly. Safely."
But it was already too late. By the time his riders reached your old cottage, it was empty. No footprints. No carriage prints in the dirt. No belongings. As if you had vanished from the world without a trace.
As if you knew he would come for you and made sure he never could.
Caleb stared out the window that night, long after the embers died in the hearth. The engagement had served its purpose. The world believed the lie. Peace had been signed. No war would come, at least not now.
But the only name on his lips was yours. He whispered it once, to the cold glass.
He would not marry the princess. That was never the plan. One year and a half. That was the deal. But the days stretched longer without you. The weeks colder.
And he began to wonder. If you had already chosen never to return.
-
You arrived just after dusk.
The lanterns had already been lit, casting a warm, honeyed glow over the village's narrow paths and stone worn homes. It looked almost exactly the same. Smaller than you remembered. Softer, maybe. But not forgotten by time.
The old mill still turned. The baker's window still fogged with morning flour. A few children ran barefoot through the puddles left by yesterday's rain and someone was singing down the road a lullaby that hadn't changed in twenty years.
You were home. Or at least, back where it all began.
The cottage at the edge of the forest had been abandoned but it didn't take much to settle in. A little cleaning. A few mended curtains. A garden patch revived from the dead.
The neighbors remembered you. Old faces with more lines around their eyes but still the same warmth in their smiles. They didn't ask questions when you said you were staying. Just brought fresh bread. Herbs. Cribs, though you hadn't said anything.
You thanked them anyway. And most days passed quietly just like that. The ache in your chest never fully left, but it dulled, worn into something familiar, like a stone smoothed by years of riverwater.
And sometimes, when the wind shifted just right, you could almost hear your own laughter echoing across the fields. Younger. Brighter. Back when your hands were calloused from climbing trees and your only worry was whether or not Caleb would beat you to the blackberry bushes again.
The tree was still there. The one you always went to. With roots that curled like old fingers and branches wide enough to shelter two young dreamers from the sun.
It was where you first kissed. Messy, surprised, and full of promises no child should make but did anyway. This us where you taught him how to string wildflowers into a crown. Where he sat there the night the knight came, cloaked in black and silver, to tell him the truth. That his blood was noble, that he belonged to a world of titles and things far too heavy for someone so good.
You held him through that. And later, he held you through worse. It had always been the two of you. Until it wasn't.
And now, you sat beneath that same tree, fingers brushing the bark, whispering stories you had no one left to tell. You didn't bring flowers. Just your memories. Because that was all this place needed. It didn't belong to the man he became. Not the duke. Not the commander.
This tree, this patch of sky belonged to you and Caleb, as you once were. And even if he would never sit beside you again, this place would always hold the shape of him.
Your stomach ached when you thought of him too long. Not just from the child, growing steady within you, but from grief. Because this time, when you looked back. You couldn't go with him. You could only carry the love with you. So you did.
One memory at a time. One breath at a time. One quiet, aching heartbeat after another.
-
It started like any other day.
The sun crept in through the cottage windows, warming the floorboards where the cat liked to nap. You were peeling fruit on the porch, legs tucked under a wool blanket, humming an old lullaby you didn't realize you still remembered.
The baby kicked once, hard enough to make you gasp. You smiled and pressed your hand to your belly. "Impatient, aren't you?"
You didn't expect it to happen so soon. But then the pain struck low and deep. A bolt through your spine that stole your breath. You doubled forward, the bowl falling from your lap, fruit scattering into the dirt. Another wave hit. This one sharper. More final.
The neighbors came running when they heard you cry out. They carried you inside, laid you on the old bed. You tried to stay calm. You had always been good at that but the truth was, you were terrified. Not of the pain. But of doing this alone.
The contractions came harder. Quicker. The midwife's hands were steady. The women around her whispered soft prayers. But all you could do was grip the edge of the headboard and wish.
Wish he was here. Wish his hand was in yours, like the first time he held it under the tree. Wish you could tell him it was okay. That you understood. That you still loved him.
You bit your lip hard enough to draw blood. But you didn't scream. You never did.
You pushed when they told you to. Breathed through the fire in your ribs. Gritted your teeth when the world tilted. And then. A cry. Sharp. Piercing. Alive.
The midwife laughed through her tears. "It's a boy." You were shaking when they laid him against your chest.
He was tiny. Warm. And quiet once he settled into your heartbeat like he knew it already. His fingers curled around the edge of your nightgown.
And something in you cracked open. You cried then. Not from pain, but from something older. Something deeper. He had Caleb's eyes.
You kissed his forehead and whispered his name. A name you chose long ago, before the world pulled you both apart.
You wished Caleb could see him. But when you looked outside, the world was still and golden. And the tree stood silent in the wind.
And you told yourself it was alright. Because this child, this love had bloomed. And it was alive.
-
The sky was bleeding.
Ash and smoke clung to every breath, thick enough to choke. Caleb's side burned where the blade had caught him. Shallow, but punishing. Still, he pushed forward.
There was no time for hesitation. Not when the lines were falling. Not when they had come sooner than expected. Not when peace had collapsed with a single arrow through a messenger's throat.
He ducked a strike, drove his blade into the gap in another knight's armor, and turned in time to catch his men regrouping. His second in command shouted something at him but Caleb didn't hear it.
All he heard was your voice.
All he saw, in flashes between the blood and dust, was the way you used to smile when he failed to catch fireflies. The way you leaned against the tree with dirt on your nose and laughed like you belonged to the wind.
He hadn't found you. He'd tried. Gods, he'd tried. But you'd vanished. As if the world swallowed you whole. And then the war came. He hadn't even had time to breathe.
But once this was over. Once this cursed border was sealed and the treaty rewritten in fire. He would find you. He would. Even if the world tried to hide you. Because wherever you were... That was home.
-
The mornings in the village always came softly.
The mist clung to the trees like a lullaby not yet finished and the dew caught sunlight just enough to make everything feel like it had paused, suspended in that golden hush between sleep and waking.
You were hanging laundry on the line when a tiny whirlwind of energy darted past your legs. "Mavius Caelum Asher!" You called out more fond than scolding.
A small laugh echoed through the garden as he ducked behind the old apple tree, barefoot and already covered in dirt despite it barely being past dawn.
You smiled. Every day, he reminded you of Caleb. The set of his purple eyes. The line of his shoulders. The way he furrowed his brow when he was thinking too hard about something. But it wasn't just the way he looked.
It was the way he moved. Purposeful, determined. How he already insisted on helping the other children. How he stood between the smaller ones when that older boy from the next town got too rough. How he offered you his last slice of fruit without a word, because 'Mama needed it more.'
He was almost three and already carrying the same kind of quiet nobility Caleb wore like armor.
You returned to the house just as Asher ran in before you, tugging at your skirt. "Mama, tell me again about the knight." You crouched beside him, brushing his windswept hair from his forehead. "The knight who fought dragons?" "No!" He giggled. "My knight. Papa."
You hesitated, just for a moment. Then smiled. "Ah, that one." You said, tapping his nose. "Letโs see... once, there was a knight so brave that even the other knights called him Commander. He had eyes like the sky at dawn and a heart so big he tried to protect the whole kingdom by himself."
"Did he win?" Asher asked, eyes wide. You nodded. "He always did. But not because he was the strongest. Because he believed that protecting others, even strangers was the most important thing in the world."
Asher's small hands curled into fists. "I'm gonna be like him." You ruffled his hair. "You already are."
He beamed at you, not knowing the weight behind your words. Not knowing that somewhere, far from this quiet house, his father was fighting a war that had stretched longer than anyone expected.
A war that you read about in town when you bought flour or heard whispered at the market. Hushed tones and trembling voices as wives and mothers clutched telegrams in their hands.
You didn't speak of it often. Not to Asher. Not even to yourself. But every night, after he fell asleep curled beside you, you stared at the ceiling and whispered the same silent wish. Please let him be safe.
Caleb didn't know about Asher. He didn't know about this cottage. But that didn't stop you from telling your son stories. From showing him what honor looked like. From planting a garden behind the house and naming the strongest sapling after Caleb.
Some nights, when the wind changed, you thought you heard his voice. Or maybe that was just the ache.
You stood by the sink as Asher played with a carved wooden sword just outside, chasing shadows and dreams. Then your hand slipped. Only for a second. A tremble. A dizziness that passed almost as quickly as it came.
You gripped the edge of the sink. Steady. But your breath didn't come right away. Not like it used to. You pressed a hand gently to your chest. Waited. Exhaled.
Just a fluke, you told yourself.
Then you looked outside, where Asher was still playing. He had his eyes and everything. His quiet strength, his resolve, the weight he carried even at three years old was his.
And just like that, you smiled again. Even if your days were beginning to slip shorter, this oneโฆ This one was enough.
-
The battlefield smelled of iron and rot.
Smoke clung to Caleb's armor like a second skin, thick and acrid, turning his breath into rasped curses as he pushed past the broken shield wall. The screams were dying down. The fight was nearly over. But his blade still shook in his hand. Not from fear, but from exhaustion.
Another kingdom subdued. Another treaty waiting to be inked in blood and ash.
He tore off his gauntlets, hands raw underneath. The war had dragged on longer than anyone predicted. Five years now, maybe more. Time blurred out here. Measured not in days, but in losses. In names.
He hadn't written in months. The letters stayed tucked in his saddlebag, untouched, half finished scraps meant for someone who never answered. He told himself you were safe. That you were somewhere quiet, far from the reach of title and crowns.
But the silence ate at him.
Each night, he dreamed of a place he never dared return to. A small cottage on the edge of a forest, a woman with tired eyes and ink stained fingers laughing as she stirred soup, the warmth of her touch as she reached for him in sleep. You.
He didn't even know if you were still alive. There had been no word. No name in the casualty lists but also no sign of you in the cities he passed. Every village he liberated, every province retaken, he looked for your face in the crowds. Never found it.
"Commander." Caleb blinked. One of his captains had approached, holding a bloodied helmet in one hand. "You're bleeding." The man said. Caleb glanced down. His side was torn, gash already seeping through his tunic.
He hadn't noticed. "Leave it." He muttered. "I'm fine." "Sir-" "I said leave it." The captain stepped back without another word.
Caleb sheathed his sword. Walked toward the ridge overlooking the valley below. The ground was scorched. The wind carried the distant cries of the wounded. But above it all, the sky stretched blue, painfully, impossibly blue.
Like your eyes when you were crying in his dreams. When you told him goodbye, even though you didn't say the word. A breeze passed. Caleb closed his eyes. Are you still out there?
He hadn't stopped thinking about you. Not once. Even when duty demanded all of him. Even when his betrothal turned to alliance and the alliance into war.
He remembered the day he gave you the necklace. The one his sister had left him. Remembered your laugh, your promise to keep it safe. He had given it to you before the title, before the world went quiet.
He wondered if you still wore it. If you ever told stories about him to someone else.
He never dared to wonder more than that. Because if he let himself think... If he allowed the truth in, the truth that maybe you had stopped waiting... He feared he would fall apart completely.
So he still fought. He still bled. Not for glory, not even for peace. This was no longer about that. But for a chance. A single chance that when all this ended, he could find you again.
And maybe, just maybe... He could finally come home.
-
It had been three weeks since the war ended.
The ink on the new treaty had barely dried when Caleb handed over the command sigil, set aside his title, and mounted his horse. No fanfare. No council meeting. Just quiet resolve.
He didn't stop for ceremonies. Didn't stop to say goodbye. Not even to the queen, formerly his betrothed who only offered him a knowing nod as he rode off. "Find her." She had said softly, her crown glinting in the sun. "While you still can."
And so he did. He crossed through forests scorched by battle. Through cities that barely remembered his face. Past the borders of the duchy, riding until the roads became narrow, familiar things. Roots of memory leading him back to the village that had raised him long before the title ever claimed him.
It was smaller than he remembered
The wind carried the scent of old bread and fresh rain. Lanterns hung from the windows like tired stars. A dog barked somewhere near the well. Nothing monumental. Just life.
But Caleb's chest tightened the moment he stepped onto the dirt path. Because this was where everything began.
The tree still stood near the rise. A little older. A little more bent. But it was there like it had been waiting.
He wore no armor now. Only a simple cloak, a travel stained tunic, boots scuffed by months of searching. He didn't want to be a duke here. Didn't want to be anything but a man looking for the person who once held his whole heart in two steady hands.
Some of the villagers glanced his way as he passed. But there was something in their eyes. Recognition, yes. But also something else. A hesitation. A flicker of pity. It unsettled him.
He pressed on, steps slower now. Almost reluctant. Like his body knew something his mind hadn't caught up to yet. Then... A jolt.
A small body crashed into him at the bend of the road. A child running too fast around the corner, stumbled backward and fell with a soft yelp.
Caleb instinctively crouched, reaching out. "Hey, are you-?" But the words died on his tongue. His eyes locked onto the necklace. It was simple. A silver necklace with a very familiar apple pendant. It had been his sister's. The one who died when they were children. Too young. Too soon.
The necklace he had worn for years in her memory until the day he pressed it into your hand, months before everything fell apart. "Keep it." He told you then, voice soft against your hair. "So you know that someone always carries you with them. Even if I'm not there."
His heart stuttered. "Whereโฆ where did you get that?" He asked, voice gone thin, too sharp. The child blinked up at him, wide eyed. Dirt smudged his cheeks. He looked no older than ten.
But it wasn't just the necklace. It was the eyes. Gods. His eyes. Dark, sharp and purple. Strangely gentle. The exact mirror of his own gaze in the mirror, years ago before grief and duty dulled the light.
Caleb's stomach dropped. His blood ran cold.
And all he could do was kneel there, frozen, watching this boy who looked like him, who wore the last gift he gave to the only person he ever loved and realize in a breathless instant. He wasn't too late. He had just lost more than he could ever take back.
-
Caleb barely got a word out.
He had reached forward, hand trembling toward the boy, the necklace, those eyes, that impossible familiarity when someone moved between them like a shield.
"Enough." A firm arm pushed the boy gently behind them. The older man stood tall despite his age, back straight, voice like a blade dulled by time but no less sharp. The village head.
Caleb remembered him as he stood up. His beard was grayer now, the limp more pronounced but his presence hadn't changed. This man had taught them how to mend traps when they were still children, taught Caleb how to tie fishing knots, watched over the village like a quiet sentinel.
And now, he stood like a wall between Caleb and the child. His child. "I need to speak with him." Caleb said, his voice soft but strained. "Please. I just-" "You need to leave."
"I came here looking for her." Caleb stepped forward again, heart hammering against his ribs. "I've searched every road, every town, every ruin. I've been looking since the day after the engagement ceremony. I know I was late, I know I should've found her sooner, but I-"
"Too late." The words snapped out of the village head's mouth like a whip. "You came too damn late, boy."
Caleb froze. The boy behind the man peeked around him, curiosity bright in his eyes. But there was something else in his stare too. Something quieter. Like he was studying him. Measuring him.
"I had no choice." Caleb said. "The war-" "And what about before the war?" The village head barked. "What about the months they spent waiting by the river? What about the letter they burned so you could keep your damn title clean of scandal?"
Caleb's breath caught. The village head's jaw clenched. "You should've been here when it mattered." "I'm here now." Caleb said, voice cracking. "I'm here now and I'm not leaving. You think I wouldn't recognize my own child?"
Silence. A heavy, suffocating stillness fell between them.
Caleb's eyes didnโt move from the boy. Not when his stomach twisted. Not when his pulse thundered. He saw it now, not just resemblance. Not just accident.
It was blood. His blood. And he had missed it. He had missed everything.
The village head opened his mouth. Then shut it. Regret flashed in his expression, quick and bitter. "Go." The man muttered, hoarse. "You don't belong here anymore." Caleb stepped forward again. "What do you mean by that? What do you mean-"
But before the old man could speak, a small hand tugged at his clothes. The boy. He slipped past the man's arm and stood in front of him and Caleb, tilting his head. "It's okay." The boy said softly like a secret. "You don't have to fight him anymore."
Caleb move forward without thinking then proceed to lower himself to the boy's eye level, chest tight with something he couldnโt name. The boy looked at him. Really looked. Long and slow and serious. Then asked. "Do you wanna come home with me?"
Caleb swallowed hard. The question shattered something in him. And suddenly, he couldn't speak.
-
The forest was quieter than Caleb remembered.
The old trail wound gently between the trees, dappled with late afternoon light. His boots crunched softly over fallen leaves and small twigs. Beside him, the boy walked in silence, his small figure steady as if he'd done this path a thousand times. Maybe he had.
Caleb kept glancing down at him. The boy's shoulders were squared, hands tucked into the frayed sleeves of his wool shirt. He looked forward the entire time, never once glancing up.
"What's your name?" Caleb finally asked, voice hushed. "Ash." His throat tightened at the name again. Ash. Our son. "How old are you?" "Eight. I'll be nine after the spring."
Caleb swallowed the ache that rose up. His jaw tensed. He almost asked if your birthday had passed, if Ash knew but bit it back. Instead, quieter, he asked. "Whereโs your mother?" Ash didn't answer. He didn't even pause. Just kept walking.
They reached the edge of the woods. The cottage appeared just beyond the treeline. Small, sloped, half covered in vines but still there. Still standing.
A hundred memories surged all at once. The spring evenings spent on the porch. Your laughter echoing under a sky of fireflies. The time you argued over who could chop firewood faster. The way your body curled into his when the storms came. The softness in your voice when you first whispered I love you into his hair, like it scared you to even say it out loud.
Caleb slowed at the threshold, hand hovering just beside the door. But Ash reached forward and opened it first. The hinges creaked like they hadn't moved in weeks.
Inside, the air was still. Not stale, not foul. Just... Still.
The table was clean but dust settled in the corners. A few dried herbs hung from the rafters. There was a plate in the washbasin that hadn't been dried. A chair slightly off center from the hearth. A cup overturned near the window.
It looked lived in. And abandoned.
"Where is she?" Caleb asked again, his voice cracking slightly this time. "Ash- Where is your mother?" The boy didn't answer.
He walked deeper into the house. Past the kitchen, through the narrow hall. He didnโt look back but Caleb followed, heart thudding louder with every step.
The bedroom. The door creaked as Ash pushed it open. Everything in the room was familiar, too.
The quilt still had the same stitched pattern. The windowsill still held the cracked clay pot you insisted wasnโt worth throwing out. The wooden carving he made for you still hung crookedly above the bed.
But it was cold. Untouched.
The bed was neatly made. The fireplace empty. A thin layer of dust on the floorboards, just enough to tell him what he didn't want to know. "Ash-" He began. But the boy was already crouching beside the bed.
He reached under the wooden frame and pulled out a small box, smoothed by age and fingerprints. Then he stood and held it out.
"Mother left these." Ash said quietly. "They're letters. Mother wrote them before she died." Caleb blinked. The room spun. "Whatโฆ?" "Mother said they were for you. In case you ever came back."
He didn't move. He couldn't. Ash stepped closer and pressed the box into his hands. Caleb took it with trembling fingers. The lid opened easily.
Inside were letters. Dozens of them. Some wrapped with string. Others sealed in wax. Your handwriting. His name scrawled again and again on folded parchment, in ink that looked faded from time, from tears, from waiting.
The air in his lungs vanished. "No." Caleb whispered, clutching the box tighter. "No, no, no-" He staggered backward until his legs gave out and he fell to his knees. "This! This can't be!" The box held to his chest like it could somehow undo what had already happened.
He tried to breathe. But he couldn't. He felt it hit all at once. The years you must've waited. The letters you wrote, not knowing if he'd ever return, look after you. The nights you sat by the fire, watching the window, holding onto hope that kept thinning with time.
He sobbed. Raw, broken. Ash stood silently nearby. His voice was soft, almost too calm.
"Mother died three years ago." He said. "Just after winter." Caleb shook. "I'm sorry." He rasped. "I didn't know-" He hold back a scream "Gods, I didn't know-" "Mother said not to blame you." Ash added, voice still even. "But mother cried a lot. When mother thought I was asleep."
Caleb wiped at his face but the tears wouldn't stop. He looked at the boy, his boy, still standing there with too much pain behind his eyes for someone so young.
"Your necklace." Caleb said barely. "It was mine. My sister gave it to me. I gave it to your mother. I-" "You're my father." Ash said simply. The words felt like a dagger and a lifeline all at once.
"Iโฆ yes." Caleb reached out slowly, hands shaking as he never stopped crying. "Ash-" "You can go now." Ash said. Caleb froze, his heart dropped for God knows how many that day. "What"
"You found the letters." The boy said, unmoved. "You got what you came here for. I give you what my mother told me give you. You can leave." "I'm not leaving you-"
Ash's voice rose, sharp and fast. "Then you should have come years ago! Mother waited for you. Every day, every time the sun came up. Even when mother never showed! Mother thought maybe you'd come with the next rider, or the next merchant, or with the rain. Mother waited for you and you never came!"
Caleb flinched. "I didn't know-" "You could've tried harder!" His boy cried. "You could've come before the war. You could've written. You couldโve done something!" The pain in his voice cracked something in Caleb so deep he didn't even know it existed.
"I'm sorry." Caleb whispered. "I'm so- Ash, I'm so sorry." Ash took a step back. Caleb knelt closer in front of him, voice shaking. "I didn't know. I thought I could fix things. I thought there would still be time. I didn'tโฆ I never imaginedโฆ"
He looked at his son. Really looked. So small. So strong. So much like you. "I should've come sooner." Caleb said. "And I'll never forgive myself for that. But I'm here now. And I'm not going anywhere without you."
Ash's lip trembled, just for a second. Then he took a step forward and let Caleb wrap his arms around him. It wasn't forgiveness. Not yet. But it was something.
And in that room, where love once bloomed and then faded, something new took root. Even in the silence. Even through the tears.
[โdark-night-hero] 2025ยฐ
: one down, four more to go. I'll also update Heartbeat Protocol tomorrow... probably. This is actually the first time, I think, that I specifically wrote the gender of the reader since I always wrote a neutral one. Hope you don't mind. I mean, there's a child XD
a/n: *sighs* I should be studying but here we are. This is meant to be a little self-indulgent piece bc everything I hear about the current quest is nothing short of soul-crushing. unlike shaoji, I'm not lying when I say that this as a light-hearted story so please enjoy (๏ผโ๏ผ) p.s. dividers by @bbyg4rlhelps
taglist: @naenaex0xx, @silvermah, @chokifandom, @digitalspool, @winteryreads. Anyone who wants to be added, just let me know :D
synopsis โ you didn't think you were treated any differently by phainon. But as you were preparing to leave amphoreus, you were told that apparently the fancy souvenirs he gave you might indicate something else entirely. (TL;DR an AU where everything gets magically resolved and you go home)
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โHey, guys. I'm recording ourโฆ um, last hours here in Amphoreus before we board the Express again." Caelus adjusts the phone in his hand, brows scrunched up in concentration, before he continues, "we've said our goodbyes to everyone, but honestly, I don't think the waterworks were necessary. It's not like we'd never stop by again.โ
He begins to walk.
โDan Heng's getting our luggage ready for when the crew comes down here to pick us up. Here, this is ourโฆ stuff,โ he angles the camera to capture a pile of bags stacked in an orderly fashion, โwe went here with little baggage and came home with a lot. The citizens gave usย more than we anticipated, but then again, I guess that shouldn't be all too surprising for us considering what we did. And honestly? I'm not complaining. I'm not one to turn down free stuff. But, umโฆ just letting you in on this. One of us hereโฆ got more than the rest.โ
The camera whips towards you, shifting the focus to your face adorned in a faint pink hue.
โSoโฆ [name], mind telling us what gifts you got from a certain Chrysos Heir?โ
Your shoulders raise in alarm and a near imperceptible trace of embarrassment. โH-Heyโฆ don't make a fuss. It's not like you and Dan Heng weren't given anything by him.โ
A snicker is heard from behind the camera. โThat's because we didn't. At least, nothing as significant as yours. I definitely don't remember receiving anything of personal value.โ
You turn your body away as you rub your neck.ย
โC'mon! Tell the Crew what you got! Yo, guys, one of us got special treatment!โ
The camera goes dark, echoing rustles and some muffled voices.ย
โOkay, okayโฆ give us the tea, [name]. Tell us what you got.โ The camera lens zones in on Caelus as he nudges your side. โWhat did the Phainon of Aedes Elysiae get you?โ
Despite his question, he aims decisively at the camera at the long golden plate covered in breathable cloth used mainly for edible goods during transport.
โUmโฆ Phainon got me fish from his hometown. A thoughtful souvenir, in my opinion.โ
Caelus draws his face closer to the camera as if to whisper something to the viewers. โSouvenir, my ass. It's a courting gift.โ He removes himself from view and opts to put all the focus on you. โ[name], I know you're not telling us the full story. Come on! Stop being so secretive! Tell us more!โ
You rolled your eyes. โYou're so nosy. Are you sure this isn't just you being jealous?โ
โDamn right I'm jealous. You got this much delicious food that could last you an entire week!โ
โThe other Chrysos Heirs gave you something too! Stop acting like you weren't given anything!โ
โStop deflecting!โ The camera shows Caelusโ hand pointing at you in an accusatory manner. โNow, hurry up and spill! Tell us more about this gift.โ
It's obvious to Caelus by the indignant frown on your face that you prefer to be anywhere else than here, bothered non-stop by his persistent probing. A beat passes in charged silence, and Caelus is ready to bolt if you decide to retaliate physically. Until finally, you give in with a huff.ย
โOkay, okayโฆ Phainon brought me to his hometown the other day and told me all about the place. He gave me a brief tour around the village, showed me where he lived and even where his parents workโโ
โOh~ introducing you to your future in-laws. How sly of him.โ
โDon't interrupt me!โ You shoot a weak glare at the smirking Nameless behind the camera. โA-And afterwards, he brought me to the lake where he talked about the fish there. Said it was the best in Amphoreus.โ
โSo, he caught a big one for you?โ
โYou should've seen him. He immediately jumped into the water before I could even say anything.โ You burst into a fit of laughter, blissfully unaware of Caelus' intrigued look at the subtext of what his hasty actions implied. โWhen he got out, he brought the fish home and we waited for his clothes to dry on a hill. And then, when we got back, he told me I could walk around for a bit while he cooked the fish. Andโฆ yeah! That's about it.โ
You're greeted by an awkward pause, and the camera is whipped around to capture Caelusโ comically bewildered expression.ย
โN-N-No, I'm being serious. I don't think he was just being a hospitable tour guide.โ
A breeze flies between the two of you; the silence remains unbroken. The serious way he relays that information makes your stomach churn with something fluttery yet uncomfortable.ย
โOhโฆโ You glanced down, fidgeting.ย
โWhat else did he give you?โ Caelus walks closer to the smaller heaps of items placed adjacent to the cooked fish.
โJust some antique stuff.โ You kneel down and carefully lift another object swathed in fine fabric. Once the wrapping comes undone, Caelus switches to his front camera to record his slack jaw.ย
โ[name]...โ He starts slowly, the teasing glint completely gone from his face. โThis looks expensive.โ
โPhainon didn't say where it's from specifically. Just that it's a treasured possession he managed to bargain from one of the stores in Marmoreal Market.โ
โFrom Theodoros?โ
The camera switches perspective and locks in on you.ย
โ[name]... I want you to hold my hand while I say this.โ You take his outstretched hand in spite of your bemusement. โI've helped him detect fake treasures before, and he imparted quite a lot of things about the items he encountered in his years of doing treasure appraisal. Thisโ" He emphasizes his point by carrying the dolium and nearly shoving it in your face. "โis an extremely rare artifact. A highly sought out piece of earthenware.โ
You both stare at each other like a pair of birds whose gaze reflects absolutely zero thoughts behind them.ย
โOh my goshโฆ didn't Phainon mention that he doesn't get lucky often? His purchases turns out unlucky more often than not.โ You slap a hand over your mouth as the gradual revelation pieces itself together. โYou don't think heโฆ gave me one of the rare good ones from his collection, do you?โ
โI was about to call him a simp, but I think he deserves more than that title.โ Caelus steals a glance at the camera, his voice dropped to a hushed murmur. โHe's probably way past that point.โ
โDo you think this garment is also of high quality?โ
Your distraught comment prompts him to arch a brow.ย
โHe gave you clothesโฆ on top of the fish and dolium?โ
When you respond with a wordless nod, he has to smother the crackle of jealousy that burns inside him. Seeing you receive all these luxurious gifts makes him feel as though he is witnessing a friend win the lottery.ย
By the time he's done stirring in envy, his jaw nearly crashes to the floor at the sight of the garment in your hands.ย
โ[name], what the hell!? That's one of the expensive ones in Aglaeaโs catalogue.โ
โWhat!?โ You both pull a face in sync.ย
โThe ones for sale are limited in stock! And by that, I mean there's less than a hundred of them. How did he get this!?โ
โOh, man! Now I feel bad! But I can't return these! That'll hurt his feelings!โ
You fold the piece of attire with utmost care and calculation, setting it back inside the finely crafted box tailored to match the garment and offer it protection without sacrificing an ounce of the aesthetic value.
"Don't tell me he gave you more!"
Caelus is all but having a meltdown right now. Sure, the two of you plus Dan Heng had been more than just heroes of Amphoreus. You all put your life on the line for a planet that you've set foot on for less than a quarter of your lifetime, and helped avert any and all forms of catastrophe from coming to fruition. He shouldn't be surprised if the gratitude of the people here in Amphoreus were conveyed through plentiful gifts and endless praise, but something tells him that the way Phainon is gifting you all these things conceal something more than just gratitude and a sense of camaraderie.
He would know, after all neither he nor Dan Heng received anything as excessive or as personal as you.
โHe's bleeding himself dry for you!โ
โDon't say that!โ You lightly slap his shoulder. โM-Maybeโฆ it was something that Aglaea gave him. I mean, they're pretty much family to each other, I'm assuming. Is it so surprising that the revered Deliverer got something expensive and intricately handcrafted by the Goldweaver herself?โ
Caelus picks up on the nervousness that lies beneath your forced optimism. โYou're not buying your own lie.โ
โPlease! I can't bear the thought of him draining his bank account for me!โ You're so deep in your own distress that you fail to catch Caelusโ longing stare at the collection of high value souvenirs you got.ย
โI wish someone would splurge this much on meโฆโ
Before you can reprimand him for his words, you both sense a familiar presence approaching. In an almost comically synced fashion, you both swerve your heads to the sight of the aforementioned guy walking up with his signature charming smile.ย
โHey, you two! Is everything alright over there?โ
โPhainon!โย
Caelus raises a questioning brow at Phainonโs smile seemingly widening as he draws closer to you instead. His camera is still recording everything, and he's nothing if not nosy and bothersome with no intentions of letting this opportunity slip by.ย
He subtly aims the camera at you both, zooming in on Phainon's face enough to capture the minuscule twitches and crinkles every time you respond to him.ย
โDo you two need help carrying these?โ Phainon gestures at piled up luggage.ย
โWe should be fine. I don't want to trouble you anymore than we alreaโโ
โHey, what's with the reluctance?โ He inclines his head towards you ever so slightly, mindful of the space between you while also indulging in his desire for a speck of proximity. โI'm more than happy to help.โ
โI know I've probably said this a lot of times, but thank you.โ You don't think it's physically possible, but Phainon's face grows radiant. โTruly. For the gifts. Especially the gifts. You've been an amazing host and companion to us."
โI'm glad it's to your liking. I want to make sure that you leave Amphoreus with nothing but the absolute best piece of it.โ He flashes you his trademark grin, the one he shares with children and elders, the one he sports when he greets the vendors in Marmoreal Market. Maybe it's a trick of the light, but even his regular smile feels more blinding than usual.ย
It almost takes your mind off the fact that this man is burning through his own life savings just to buy you parting gifts.ย
Somewhere not too far away, Caelus stands unmoving, positioning his camera at you and Phainon like a paparazzi whose rent is due.ย
โLook at them, guys.โ He makes gagging noises. โCan you believe they're that dense? Aeons, you can just see his tail wagging non-stop. How does one resemble an excited puppy so much?โ
From within the screen of his phone, your silhouette huddles close to Phainon's. One would argue that it's actually the opposite. But seeing him outstretch his hand towards like you like a freezing man would towards a fire, seeking comfort yet afraid of touching; and the way he seizes your hand with nimble force whenever you so much as touch one of your carry-on as if to prevent you from doing a task he deems is reserved solely for him, Caelus has a not-so-arbitrary inkling that Phainon would probably spend even more on you if he could.ย
He decides to end the recording when he sees something sticking out of the warrior's pocket.ย
He ends up keeping the camera rolling, zooming, zeroing in on the object when the man himself extricates it from his pants and presents it to you.ย
The image in his screen sharpens from its previously blurry state.ย
A braceletโbrown strings, white beads with a few blue ones. Something glints at the center. By the time Caelus recognizes the sun shape, he's jamming his thumb at the โstopโ button with a frustrated yell.ย
โOh, c'mon! Yeah, right! โNot courtingโ, my ass!โ
a silly poll because life ainโt fun nowadays and i badly want to go back to writing :(
what content do yโall want to see from me? (read: give me three weeks for me to finish my fourth semester of vet school and i will publish something bcs of my draftsss)
oh my god, she is actually back?! (or not, we will see)
jujutsu kaisen (satoru my king)
love & deepspace (soโฆ i am a sylus girlie now?)
genshin impact (ironic because i havenโt touched the game since natlan came out)
honkai: star rail (yโallโฆ i love amphoreusโ story so bad)
i was so shocked to see you again on my dash, hi there !! omg that sounds like a lot to be dealing with, iโm so sorry about the loss of your friend & i hope things get better for you soon. the stress & toll it mustโve taken on your mental health :( life can be so complicated & stressful that itโs hard to take a step back and just breathe . . . iโm very glad youโre back on tumblr though, but rmr to take it easy & to look after yourself first and foremost ๐ฃ๐ may you have wonderful days ahead !!
hello! aww thank you for the nice words (also you seem so nice hehe may i ask what should i call you?)
[tw: mention of s*icide below]
life was so tiring but i am trying to get back on track atm so no worries! i guess writing would be my coping mechanism as of now? ngl my semester went horrible to the point that i figured i should take a break and drop everything in between. losing someone close was painful as it was, but yeah, losing that said person to a s*icide was on another level of pain. it was even more f-ked up for me bcs i have texted my friend literally minutes after he decided to take away his own life (and it just shattered my heart to pieces until today since i have always thought what if i could have messaged and reached him out earlier). no worries!! i am definitely better now and all of my friends are also healing with me so yep this journey of ours is not lonely.
tysm for the reminder! hoping that you take care of yourself well too ๐ค
for the first time in my life, i am currently experiencing a literal slow burn trope a.k.a friends to best friends to more than friends but are still less than lovers??? well, it is definitely not for the weak bcs my attachment issue is screaming at me and the lover girl inside me wants to lock in this guy asap but yeah risking our friendship is def scary and now i understand why people choose to stay as friendsโฆ
happy birthday to my Kiyoomi man (and my momma LMAOO-)
โ-
When the side of the bed next to him is cold, Kiyoomi is immediately suspicious.
Youโre never up and out long enough for your side of the bed to become cold, you hate the feeling of having to rewarm it under your body (though you assure him you donโt mind too much, as you warm up in his arms).
Regardless, he wakes up with a cocked brow and a small, sleepy scowl.
He makes his way out of the room, adorned only in his boxers, knuckling his eyes and smacking his lips as he searches for you.
He checks the bathroom, only to find the door wide open and dark. Then, he checks the kitchen, seeing it in a similar state, he feels a small sense of panic creep through his body.
Only to disappear when he enters the living room and finds you, sleeping. Thereโs countless black and gold balloons surrounding you, your body curled in on itself for warmth and a cup of cold tea resting next to you. He smiles and looks at the clock. 4 am. You mustโve been out here for hours, blowing up balloons by mouth alone.
โHey,โ he whispers, creeping towards you. He gently lays a hand on your shoulder and shakes you awake, โwhatcha doin?โ
โBalloons,โ you barely manage, voice drunk with sleep and heavy with exhaustion. Your throat sounds raw, probably from so much energy going into the balloon blowing. He chuckles and looks around the room for more details.
Thereโs a small sign with โhappy birthdayโ in black and gold still wrapped in plastic, black party hats and plates on the side table- you probably were planning on having the boys over for breakfast this morning.
โCโmon, baby,โ he says softly, poking you with his toe. โLetโs go back to bed. You need it.โ
โCโme.โ
โHuh?โ
โCarry me,โ you whine.
He rolls his eyes with a smile before bending down and scooping you up in his arms, adjusting you comfortably before making his way back to the bedroom with you cradled in his arms.
โDโt tell โomi,โ you slur, and he snickers softly.
Thinking about Neuvillette finally starting a relationship with you and the melusines immediately noticing it,,
The Chief of Justice, although still seemingly appearing as the cold judge from the courtroom - softens his gaze at the sight of flowers, stopping by a merchant who offers them freshly picked.
The melusines quickly catch on; after all, the judge always tended to leave straight to his home after a long day of work. His amethyst-colored eyes scan the plants carefully, ordering a beautiful bouquet. People who pass Neuvillette by think nothing of it - if anything, better not to disturb him - but the tiny creatures observing him from afar can't stop wagging their tails excitedly, noticing a warm smile appearing on his lips.
The melusines notice how quickly the rain stops after trials. Back when the rain poured down until the sun rose the next day, now it takes a few hours less.
The little creatures hide behind corners and observe both of you; they gasp and cover their mouths when they see Neuvillette kissing your hand goodbye, quickly shushing others.
Every single one of them notices that the chiefโs aura glows with happiness; slowly, some people do as well - they greet him with smile, and Neuvillette reciprocates it.
The melusines giggle to themselves when they see you and Neuvillette together, sometimes loud enough for you to turn around and laugh yourself; their cheeks turn rosy, and before they run away - they mutter an apology and storm off to share the news to others.
But when you finally make it official, they SWARM you. They offer to help you with shopping bags, to accompany you to make sure youโre safe, some even offer to do your hair. Small hands wave eagerly when they notice you. They stop by just to cling to your leg and hug it tightly, and you canโt help but ruffle their hair. They offer you their most prized possessions - after all, youโre the same to Neuvilletteโฆ or thatโs how they understand it.
The melusines craft a special ribbon for you, so you and Neuvillette could match.
It seems like they love you just as much and Neuvillette couldnโt be happier.
โ in which you've gotten drunk... drunk enough to fail to recognize your own lover.
โ silly fluff. soft xiao, had this one in the drafts for far too long and its about time i choke it out... happy white day !!
the moment your slurred words reached his ears, XIAO knew that he never should've let you get your hands on that cursed rice wine.
in a way, he supposed it could be his fault. the one time he had decided to indulge in trivial mortal matters like alcohol due to your constant insistence... well, just look at you.
red-faced, the tips of your ears and cheeks stuck in a helplessly drunken flush, you babbled incoherently with half of your face smushed against the table. xiao could only stare in contempt as you feebly reached towards the already-emptied bottle,
( xiao had taken one sip and refused any more indulgence, claiming it was bitter, when in fact, you had gone out of your way to find a sweeter drink ),
and sigh, massaging the bridge of his nose with a certain disillusionment.
"come on, you're getting to bed." the man was just about done with your hopeless actions. he grabbed your wrist and tugged, only to be met with resistance. you're pouting like a child, brows furrowed lazily as you stare upwards at him.
"nnno. m'not going with you."
"...excuse me?" what in the archons was the problem now? he tugged again, this time with a small margin of force, and was met with an even larger pull back, this time paired with a low whine. "hey, it's late, and all the wine is gone, so just comply with me won't you?"
"i already told you... i have a husband..."
your complaint met the cool night air and the adeptus' silence. his lips were slightly parted as his round eyes blinked once, then twice, in a sort of stunned stupor. "...love, i am that husband."
archons, how had he found himself such a foolish mortal to love?
"don't lie to me!" you shook your head profusely, wiggling around in his grasp relentlessly until the adeptus had no choice but to let go. "i know my husband when i see him... and he's way handsomer than you, stupid..." you stared him up and down with squinting eyes, eyeing the way his ears were beginning to turn pink, and sat heavily in thought as you pondered the man before you.
definitely not your husband.
idiot. with a huff, he easily hauled your body over his shoulder as if carrying something as trivial as a sack of potatoes. you hung loosely over, landing a couple weak punches on his back as you proceeded to prattle on, your defiance seemingly having little effect.
then, you were silent, and xiao had to look back to make sure you hadn't gotten hurt. sure, he had considered once or twice leaving you out there all passed out on the balcony, but not without reason, yet he'd decided against it. you seemed fine, mouth hung slightly ajar as you snoozed peacefully, your eyes shut and cheeks still warm from what you'd downed. the audacity to fall asleep... xiao couldn't deny that his sigh was one of fondness.
"night, this husband of yours loves you."
strange, wasn't the wine from liyue supposedly far less intense compared to the vodka CHILDE had tried back home?
that, or the people here simply were more susceptible when it came to the topic of intoxication. you were no exception โ he'd taken you out drinking, his mistake, thinking it'd be an easy, splendid time.
and don't get him wrong, it was! not just, well... conversation was rather hard to make when the other person was practically unconscious. you're practically splayed across the mahogany table, eyes nearly drooped close and fire across your cheeks.
you giggled. it's a muddled sound, when you're mostly mumbling into the table. "hhhey, pour me another glass~"
childe scans your less-than-ideal state and procures an answer in a little under a second. "love, you've had too many."
you seem shocked at his words, leaning forwards a little with narrowed eyes. your figure sways as you shake your head lazily, from side to side. "wwhhhat? nnno, that can't be right..."
the man holds back an amused chuckle. it's entertaining. "and how many fingers am i holding up?" he holds up just one hand, displaying a reasonable amount of three.
there's a beat of silence. "...nineteen?" you blink a couple times, as if to shake you out of your stupor. "...nineteen," this time, with confidence.
childe claps his hands together, a sudden sound that makes you startled, and he moves to apologize immediately. "we're getting you to bed, love. clearly you've had more alcohol than you can handle."
"what, was i wrong??" there's tears forming in your eyes, and your lips tug downwards in a frown. "u-uhm, fifteen? nno, four...?"
"still incorrect, love. i'm afraid it's time for you to go to sleep. you'll wake up with a hell of a hangover tomorrow morning, but..." he sighed, thinking back to his time in shneznaya, then made a mental note to prepare you a hangover drink in the morning. his hand found its familiar place in your hand, unnaturally warm with your skin rosy from the alcohol. he smiled, turning to glance at you, but ceased when he saw you on the ground, tears now falling from your eyes, quietly sobbing as you shook your head back and forth.
panic immediately sets in. what has he done wrong?? "love, what-"
"nnnno, don't call me that..." you squinted upwards at him, looking quite displeased. "no 'love', 'kaaay? i'm not your love, mister."
he paused. wait, you didn't possibly think that... "love-" oh, old habits died hard, and the word had already left his lips before he could process what you'd said.
"i have a husband, you!!" in some sort of fit, or perhaps better worded as a tantrum, you stood, wrenching yourself from his grip and then hitting him repeatedly in the shoulders, chest, anywhere your fists could reach, really. the alcohol had surely affected your capabilities of combat โ you missed half the time, and what punches did land caused no pain at all.
as your anger subsided, your step faltered, body swaying in the open air before childe reached over to catch you in his arms. he was concerned, naturally. "lov- are you alright?" his worry only grew when he heard no response, but it ebbed with a chuckle when he saw you were already fast asleep in his arms, snoozing without a care in the world.
"a husband, hm? whoever it is, he must quite be the gentleman..."
ALHAITHAM knew his night was fated to end in idiocy the moment you knocked on his door.
it didn't even strike him that you were holding wine, of all things, when you waltzed into his house like it was your own. sure, it wasn't as if these occasions weren't frequent, but really anyone would be surprised to glance up from a quiet reading session only to see their (annoying) lover pressed against the door, repeatedly calling out his name in a sing-song, satire-like voice.
like... calling a cat. it was a realization he made with not too much contentment. silently, he thanked the archons that kaveh was not home โ they knew that he could not handle the both of you.
it was only when you sat down at his table, where he'd been reading up to the point when you barged in, that he noticed. green-tinted glass, a little wind motif on the front... dandelion wine from mondstadt. now, just how did you get your hands on that?
"connections," you had stated. with a note of pride, he might add. what, was he supposed to congratulate you on being able to talk to other people? even he, a person who generally hated people, could do that.
ah, but he didn't hate it. your voice, that is, when you rambled on for hours on end. he didn't have the heart to interrupt you, especially when you were so heated on a topic โ be it work troubles, an especially annoying sailor, or you accidentally dropping your pita pocket into the water when walking along the port, he didn't mind.
"...mmbottle. haaithammm, the bottle..." your drunk complaints reach his ears, and he his irritation is more so disrupted with inward amusement as he watches you in the predicament you've landed yourself in.
"the bottle?" he questions, raising an eyebrow. his hands are crossed over his chest; he's clearly getting a ruse out of this. "just what would you need the bottle for, love?"
your eyebrows scrunch together. he can tell your brain is working at its max capacity. "...im. thirsty?"
"you've already drunk two thirds of this bottle." he holds said bottle high above your head, hopelessly far from your reach. "if you're so thirsty, drink water."
"i don wanna."
"..."
"just... one drop?"
"hah..." he pinches the bridge of his nose, sighing deeply, and places a hand on your shoulder. you barely react, and don't even glance at the sudden weight. "love, you're staying over. you're going to bed."
"bed...?" horror crosses your face, paired with evident irritation. "y...you, who do you think you are, to suggest such things!?" your face is bright red, and you're hugging yourself with one arm and pointing an accusing finger towards the male with the other. "i have a husband!!"
ah. "...what's his name?"
"and why do youuuu want to know?" you narrow your eyes suspiciously at him, but seem to come up with an answer to your own question, for you answer him anyhow. "haitham."
"do you love this 'haitham'?" alhaitham's enjoying himself. when he teases the sober you, all you do is retort back, but now... he can see your flustered expression on full display as you stammer out an answer.
"o-of course! a-and, if you wanted to know, he's waaaaay handsomer.. than ... you..."
just like that, you topple over and sink into the couch, knocked unconscious. a trace of a smile crosses alhaitham's lips as he looks at your sleeping form.
"fortunately for you, this 'haitham' you speak of loves you too."
(a/n) bye i was gonna add kaveh to this one too but i realized oh fuck its white day i said id post a month ago what the fuck am i doing so i just like regurgitated this out and spat it onto your dashboard. ahodfjlds
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7.3k words in the makingโฆ. oh god i will try finish writing this piece by this weekend (also, this fic is long long, i believe 7k of words is just half of the plot i have in mind)
"Fate grants favors to no one. Only those who would fight it with every ounce of their being may earn the right to challenge it."
โ Pierro, "The Jester"
โ Name: Arlecchino
โ Title: Dire Balemoon
โ Head of the House of the Hearth
โ Vision: Pyro
โ Constellation: Ignis Purgatorius
To this day, Arlecchino still recalls that night when she was first appointed as a Harbinger.
Up the stairs and down the long gallery, with naught to see through the windows but a world of ice and snow without end.
The biting wind wailed loudly, now as mirthful laughter, now as somber farewellโ
With a start, Arlecchino came to, the hallucinations of her memory mingling with the sounds of real-life conversation that surrounded her.
The hearthfire burned with vigor, its gentle warmth pervading the room, and its red light glowed on the children's faces, lighting up their innocent, unaffected smiles. If some uninformed passerby were to stumble in at this precise moment, they would surely mistake the scene before them for that of an ordinary, happy family.
But just as Arlecchino raised her steaming cup to take a sip of scalding-hot black tea, the clock began to chime โ and within an instant, the laughter and cheer that filled the room were banished. The flames flickered so that for a moment the light faltered, the faces of all present cast in somber expression.
Placing her cup back down, Arlecchino stood up, and in a calm, measured tone, called out several names:
"Chapleau, you're with Lyney. Retrieve the required intelligence. Foltz, you and Filliol are on guard duty. Stay back and tend to the Hearth..."
"Yes, 'Father.'"
Without a redundant syllable, nor a hint of hesitation, they answered as one.
Not long after, the fire had dwindled and the house fallen utterly silent, with nothing to be seen but a single shaft of infiltrating moonlight, peeking through a gap in the curtains upon a cup of gradually cooling tea.
