关于vigbean CP的碎碎念：我永远都爱vigbean宇宙中的所有配对，永远爱我的维果莫腾森/肖恩宾，永远爱我的阿拉贡/波洛米尔，永远爱那些世界各地的同好们与我自己创造的维果莫腾森的影视角色/肖恩宾的影视角色的拉郎配对，即便无人再谈论，在心中也永远热爱，自从2021年的四月，指环王三部曲在我的国家重映以来，这团火至今没有熄灭，尽管，我更早喜欢阿拉贡/波洛米尔是在至少2004年—2007年左右，或者是在2003年？我记不太清楚了，那时候的互联网并不像今天这样发达，我不知道原来在那个时间，我所喜欢的CP在全球范围内都有人为它痴迷，直到2021年魔戒电影的重映，才让我知道我在全球范围内都不孤独——即使此时已经过去了15年以上。而今，五年时间又过去了，对它的爱依旧像小小的火光一样在我心中燃烧，时不时的点燃一起只有在一个人隐秘的内心深处才明白的山林大火，我依然在互联网上寻找着关于vigbean宇宙所能找得到的…过去的…现在的同人作品。真是无比孤独的爱，通常人们喜欢一个CP的时间，大概在半年到一年，随着作品热度下降，再换一个CP去爱，但每次当我再重温关于vigbean宇宙里的作品，我又像回到了一种在狂热的初恋里的爱的感受里，这与在现实生活中非常理性，淡漠，对现实的爱不报有希望和乐观的自己，是一种非常截然不同的状态。它让我感觉非常安全，非常温暖，非常快乐。我愿意用剩下的时间都与它在一起，几乎每一次，当vigbean宇宙的小记忆在我心中再度唤起，每当我看到Sean或者Viggo的一些新的新闻，新的照片，新的影视节目……我都会做这样的肯定，是的，我愿意继续爱它，这种情感非常纯粹，非常忠诚，非常持久，只是有一些孤单。
A few thoughts about VigBean.
I will always love every pairing in the VigBean universe.
I will always love Viggo Mortensen/Sean Bean.
I will always love Aragorn/Boromir.
And I will always love every crossover pairing that fellow fans around the world—and I myself—have imagined between Viggo’s characters and Sean’s characters.
Even if no one talks about them anymore, my love will always remain.
When The Lord of the Rings trilogy returned to theaters in my country in April 2021, something that had been quietly waiting inside me came alive again. That little flame has never gone out.
The truth is, I fell in love with Aragorn/Boromir much earlier—probably sometime between 2004 and 2007, or maybe even in 2003. I honestly can’t remember anymore.
Back then, the Internet wasn’t what it is today. I had no idea that, somewhere else in the world, there were so many people who loved the same pairing just as passionately as I did.
It wasn’t until the 2021 theatrical re-release that I finally realized I had never really been alone.
Even though more than fifteen years had already passed.
And now, another five years have gone by.
Yet my love is still there, like a tiny flame quietly burning in my heart. Every now and then, it grows into a wildfire that only someone carrying this same secret love inside them could ever understand.
I still find myself searching the Internet for anything related to the VigBean universe—old fanfiction, forgotten fan art, archived forum posts, new creations… anything.
It’s such a lonely kind of love.
Most people fall in love with a ship for six months, maybe a year. As the fandom grows quieter, they move on to another one.
But every single time I return to the VigBean universe, I feel as though I’ve fallen hopelessly in love all over again, like reliving the intensity of a first love.
It’s such a strange contrast to who I am in real life.
In reality, I’m rational. Reserved. I don’t place much hope in love.
Yet this universe makes me feel safe.
It makes me feel genuinely happy.
If I had the choice, I would gladly spend the rest of my life with it.
Almost every time a small memory from the VigBean universe comes back to me—whenever I see a new interview with Sean, a new photograph of Viggo, a new film, a new television appearance—I find myself quietly making the same promise:
Yes. I choose to keep loving this.
It has endured for decades.
It is, perhaps, a little lonely.
