I've been mulling over this and I need you to settle an internal debate: is Obi-Wan the italic "oh" moment kind of bloke or is he the bold italic, with feeling "fuck" kind of bloke when he realises he's in love with his best friend and that's gonna be a bitch to handle in the middle of a war. I'm leaning towards the latter because I'm a 'Obi-Wan curses internally a lot to deal with Things' concept except he says "fuck" outloud in the middle of his ship's hallway quite suddenly because the final light bulb in the mental neon sign of YOU'RE IN LOVE, YOU FOOLISH MAN finally lights up and there were clones walking into each other because they were just utterly scandalised.
WHAT A QUESTION. i think it's an entire timeline of small 'oh' realizations that then crescendo to the "FUCK" at least.. to me. because i think obi-wan knows he's in love with anakin by some point but he's in utter denial. especially if he's aware of padme's involvement in anakin's life to some degree and refuses to get involved initially. he probably chalks up his emotions to just attraction. anakin patches his wounds and the light catches his eye, and obi-wan realizes how handsome he's gotten. they're sparring and anakin strips his shirt away, and oh, he's strong isn't he? it's anakin teasing him, or the way their bond feels when obi-wan calls ahsoka "our padawan" <3
but i agree. obi-wan is someone that internalizes these types of thoughts - at least when it comes to anakin - so that when it finally hits him he's in the middle of ship, right about to go into battle, when he's like. god DAMMIT. i like to think after siri and satine he gave up on this idea of loving someone, because i'm pretty convinced that obi-wan thinks he's cursed, so these are things he avoids for the most part with a very pained heart. but i'm giggling thinking about anakin having just walked out of a lil meeting to go over their plans for something, and anakin is so catty and bitchy about a decision obi-wan is making that he just storms off radiating pure power and rage and determination that obi-wan finally bursts because he's VERY into that. very into capable anakin who can and still does talk back to him but now it's less of a mentor-y/student thing and more like... (dramatic obi-wan internal dialogue) stars that's really attractive i'm utterly besotted
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