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[fiftyshadesofselfdestruction]

- The scars still itch even after all those months. - There isn’t a day that goes by without me thinking about it. - My scars still trigger me. Every. Single. Day. - I won’t ever look at the world like I did before this. - There are a lot of days when I hate myself for the things I’ve done to my body. - I won’t ever look at my body without regrets. - There is not a day I don’t think about it. - I thought it was just a scratch, just once. That once became twice, ended up to be hundreds. - I’ve to thinks twice before I put on clothes. - I’ve to live with a secret written all over my body, every single day. - If I’m lucky to have kids, they will see them. They will ask me about it. - I won’t ever look at people the same as before this. - My skin feels different, almost like it isn’t my own. - I’ve to live with a constant reminder of the time when I was unhappy and very very sick. - They won’t go away. - They won’t go away. - They won’t go away. - They won’t go away. - They won’t go away.

Read this before you want to hurt yourself. Because this is true. All these things are true. And please please ask for help. You can do this. You don’t need to hurt yourself. I love you. (via quaemutatio)

[disorde-r]

[a-t-o-m-i-c]

[larmoyante]

You have my permission not to love me; I am a cathedral of deadbolts and I’d rather burn myself down than change the locks.

Rachel McKibbens, “Letter From My Brain To My Heart” (via theunrequitedlover)

[mydearthisbe]

Being a procrastinator with a violent fear of failure is almost hilarious because like 80% of the time I’m like “I’m not even going to think about this” and then there’s like a distinct moment when everything switches and it turns to “I can’t fail oh my god I need to turn this into an A in like a day why am I like this”

[coral]

Cherish your solitude. Take trains by yourself to places you have never been. Sleep out alone under the stars. Learn how to drive a stick shift. Go so far away that you stop being afraid of not coming back. Say no when you don’t want to do something. Say yes if your instincts are strong, even if everyone around you disagrees. Decide whether you want to be liked or admired. Decide if fitting in is more important than finding out what you’re doing here. Believe in kissing.

Eve Ensler (via feellng)

[poetbitesback]

you are almost there I know, every day your body aches  when getting out of bed and most mornings the dreams that linger  on the periphery of your thoughts  look a lot more like a coffin than a cloud, you haven’t flown in so long, but you aren’t sinking you have learned how to swim to the shore and your feet  are finally drying, you are on a path to somewhere so great  that self-care will no longer be  remember to water yourself  like a plant given as a house warming gift you will live in your body and it will finally feel like a home

finding paradise || O.L. (via poetbitesback)

[bandwgia]

[asking-the-death]

[shockingrocks]

[weaksorry]

i hate how im not doing anything w my life like im young and i should be having fun but instead im always on this website or watching movies on netflix and it just gives me such a bad feeling bc i know that one day ill look back and ill be like, “why the fuck did i waste my youth just moping around when i couldve done so many cool things” but fuCk i just don’t know how to stop being like this

[howdoiforgetyou]

I don’t think people understand how stressful it is to explain what’s going on inside your head when you don’t even understand yourself.

(via howdoiforgetyou)

[hipster]

going from “today is a good day” to “i hate my life” takes me approximately 2.6 seconds

[moved-ughjohnwatson-blog]

do you ever get in those moods where you don’t feel like reading and you don’t feel like being on the internet and you don’t feel like watching a show and you don’t feel like sleeping and you don’t feel like existing in general

[kantkid]

soft kisses and hard liquor

[s0liloquy]

Got out alive but with scars I can’t forget.

Bring Me The Horizon (Don’t Go)

[crimsonvenom]