Fae

A random blog

[xo-poodle]

:)

[xo-poodle]

I hate feeling like the stupid one in a friend group. I don’t think others are actively trying to make me feel that way but I read too into things and judge myself in that way. No one could even be thinking it but I will.

I think partly it’s also to do with my own guilt that im late to everything and im scared of disappointing my partner with that. He’s always great about stuff but im scared he’s just being nice cause he knows im fragile. I did get him to say how he felt and he did wish we left earlier, which I already knew, and I just feel bad and like I wish I could tell time better. I don’t even feel right blaming it on neurodivergency because part of me feels like im making it up and im just lazy. But I’ve had symptoms of adhd my whole life and I realized that. But I’ll still doubt myself because it became a trend online to self diagnose and I spoke to my psychiatrist and she confirmed that I may have it. But some part of me feels like that’s not valid enough for me and so instead I’d Rather think I must be exaggerating.

I hate that I’ve learned to gaslight myself. I don’t have to be so rough on myself. I can’t tell time. At all. I have never been able to. It’s not my fault. I just wish it didn’t feel like it was.

[xo-poodle]

I feel like when it comes down to it, I really just don’t know anything.

Is this imposter syndrome or is this my reality.

Either way, I’m feeling defeated.

[xo-poodle]

Stuck in a depressive funk because I feel like I’m going to be stuck where I am or worse, be let go and I’ll never be hired by the companies I do actually want to work for.

I was so excited about my applications last week but this week I feel so ill prepared and defeated. I don’t feel like I’m good enough and I even if I will become good enough it won’t be fast enough.

[yamino]

How to draw a fist! 

[morbidkeii]

oH MY GOD. wHAT.

[red-white-black]

[sleepy-time-tea-bear]

[h-el-l-deactivated20200408]

i made one

[flexibility-love-andtrust]

For those that need to hear it:

It’s only manipulation when it’s intentional/premeditated. Otherwise it’s just your words having an influence on someone, i.e. The Concept Of Human Interaction.

Sometimes that influence is good, sometimes bad. But never malicious.

Being conscious of whether your words have a positive or negative impact is a noble endeavor, but you’ll never be a piece of shit unless you’re trying to.

[dragonindigo245]

Oh thank god

[iamliteraltrash1]

You have no idea how happy this made me

[slmnbagel]

i just had to draw this because i feel like screaming tbh

[shunliveshere]

This happens way too much for me now but all I can do is smile and nod because if I say something I’m automatically a sjw and my words are dismissed.

[comingouttomyself]

A German book about racism (called Exit Racism) addresses this and calls it „leaving wonderland“, you will probably never be able to go back there, which is hurtful but also an important.

[superdodirty]

it ok to not be ready

[acceptanceineveryshade]

Please spread this shit like wildfire. People go on and sit through the whole experience and they’re uncomfortable because they just want to please their partner and they don’t tell them that they want to stop because they are not ready. It’s okay not to be ready. 

[lilacbreastedroller]

notice here that consent is revoked without ever saying no and consent goes so far beyond yes/no!!!!!!

[podcastwizard]

hearing the john mulaney “do my friends hate me or do i just need to go to sleep” bit is the best thing to have happened for my mental health because every time i’m afraid my friends hate me it’s around the time i should be going the fuck to sleep

[bladesandstars]

I read somewhere “if you feel like everyone hates you you need to sleep and if you feel like you hate everyone else you need to eat” and it was honestly world-shattering and I wish I’d heard it years ago!

[oceanabylonianshell-deactivated]

Reblog for a miracle to happen tonight

[deactivated6022607-deactivated2]

BITCH I REBLOGGED THIS AT 4AM AND SOME FIT GUY FROM MY HOMETOWN SLID INTO MY DMS at 11PM LIKE GIRL HONESTLY iM

[thomasthetwinkengine]

Can the miracle be that I actually fall asleep at a reasonable time

[datesanddamian]

I’m starting to feel like that miracle is falling into a deep sleep and actually waking up rested. Bless this post.

[whitewolfpharaoh-deactivated201]

A miracle?

I don’t care how big or small I want one

[sortableroseanimations]

I would like and could use a small miracle

[sortableroseanimations]

MY MIRACLE WAS FUCKING AMAZING AND YEAH IT WAS TONIGHT INSTEAD OF LAST NIGHT BUT STILL

[riverblight]

IT WORKED, PLEASE DO THIS YOU LITERLALLY HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE

[oceanabylonianshell-deactivated]

It worked…I had a long convo with someone I missed.

[xo-poodle]

I think I was a test subject in a past relationship

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I think he tested my limits so he could see when I would break

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And then when I broke he didn’t know what to do with me anymore

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So he tossed me

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Looking back that probably wasn’t a bad thing

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Cause when I broke... at least I finally saw him.

[7l7l7l7l7l7l7l7]

yall ever miss your own energy?? like damn wtf happened to me??

[tastefullyoffensive]

[gothicprep]

i wonder if my pets have like a proper language and when i try to speak back to them im just speaking jargon

like for example my cat always speaks to me when I come home and i meow back to her and she’ll meow again & even though i don’t think twice about it to her it’s probably a situation where it’s like

her, meowing: “im glad you’re home”

me, meowing back: “tax benefits”

her, meowing: “why do u always do this”

[commanderflowers]

me

[theplushfrog]

cats actually have a human-specific language. cats don’t often meow at each other and seem to use subvocal communications that humans can’t hear to chat cat-to-cat. however, cats seem to use what humans would call “shout-until-you’re-understood” to speak to humans. so basically, it’s more like:

“I’M GLAD YOU’RE HOME!”

“tax benefits”

“NO, I’M GLAD YOU ARE HOME”

“waffle iron”

“IT’S OKAY. I LOVE YOU TOO, MY DUMB HUMAN”

[defilerwyrm]

The domestic house cat’s wild ancestors have a much harsher voice, too. The going theory is that early cats mimicked human infants which tripped humans’ nurturing instincts, and then selective breeding did the rest.

We make a big deal over how dogs have developed the ability to understand human expressions and tones (and let’s be fair, that is in fact awesome), but cats are possibly the only species that has changed their vocal language to try to communicate with us.

[imayjustbejamesmoriarty]

what I love about this post (apart from cats because cats are ADORABLE) is the assumption that cats have words for tax benefits. 

[programmerhumour]

[naamahdarling]

This is actually A+ cat management. “Mirroring” is a big thing with cats. It’s why they will lay in similar positions several feet apart, or will come and try to do things when you do them. It’s a sign that they love you and want to show. This cat wants to be close to its owner, and also wants to do what its owner is doing, to be involved in some way. Giving them their own thing to use is a really great way to redirect them and allow them to mirror the behavior in a non-disruptive way that frustrates neither party. This is a GOOD IDEA.

[onlyniceandgaystuff]

[doctorslippery]

[semicolonthefifth]

I love how the body structure and the decor of the larger bone fairy creates a nice area of concentration that leads the viewer’s eye towards the tooth fairy. This, aside from the obvious glow and design contrast, help direct the attention where needed and is a brilliant move by the artist.

[jewishdragon]

I went to the artist’s website and they are the same one who made this:

Digital Painting, Illustration, Concept Art for Hire