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that whole “i dont care” act is dead and tired. you dont have emotions? cool. go seek therapy and be toxic somewhere else

[xoee]

I just feel defeated because before my shift I was anxious because I feel like I'm not good enough compared to my friend who works there (we'll call her R) but I still managed to force myself to think more positively about things and have a more positive attitude by the time I arrived to work even though I was still anxious. And then I got through my shift or at least most of it so I was more relieved but also stressed because R was there and I feel like whenever she's there I just look bad because all of the customers know her and want to talk to her but not me, which is understandable because I know im shy asf. And then after everyone left she said our boss wanted her to tell me that I need to pick up my pace and that we're not gonna be slow forever and I honestly just feel fucking worthless and like I should just give up on even trying to bartend anymore and I feel so pathetic because a few years ago at an old job I was like I need to move out of my parents house asap because its not healthy for me and I decided the quickest thing to work towards would be bartending because I didn't need a degree and im so frustrated with myself for spending all of this time towards it when I don't even have the personality for it and I just feel like a failure and I have no idea where to go from here or how I will ever manage to move out of my parents house or find a job that im actually good at and enjoy doing. I just feel so lost right now and have no idea what to do with my life or how im supposed to succeed at anything.

[xoee]

Merry Christmas, fam 🎄🎁⭐

With love,

An emotionally unstable asshole

P.s. I can't sleep

[sinfilth-moved]

[xoee]

Tbh im so depressed all I want to do is sleep because at least then I can't feel anything or think except for the occasional bad dream and it also prevents me from eating.

I can't stand to be awake or live with the thoughts inside my head and its fucking torture.

I haven't washed my hair in almost a week which is probably a record for me 👍🏻

I honestly feel so fucking worthless and im sick of it

[xoee]

It would be great if I could STOP fucking eating when I'm not hungry jfc

[xoee]

Man i feel so fucking worthless rn

Can't tell if my bf cheated on me or not and I hate it. I wish I could just know 100% one way or the other.

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[axngelic-princess]

Servin’ looks 🌟

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[lilacwine1966-deactivated202212]

There is nothing more tender than playing with someone’s hands…..it sounds so dumb but stroking each other’s palms & tapping on each other’s wrists & twisting your fingers together & squeezing each other’s hands…..it’s like having a conversation that no one else can hear!