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it's fine i don't even need to be part of social groups or friend groups anyway (giant hole appears in my chest spontaneously) ? what's that

slamming head into concrete wall would be 10/10 rn, would a b s o l u t e l y hit

too bad im glued to my bed lmao

fuck my life and the decisions i made that got me here

i fucking hate myself

im scared of falling into old habits

but hey, back at square one again

nobody to ask me if im okay, check up on me, care

i put myself here

shisasan

August 23, 1927 Journals of Anais Nin 1927-1931 [volume 4]

O U C H

ĭ̴̹ ̵̨̔c̷̥̈́ä̴͙n̶̢̂n̷̛̹o̷̠̽t̶̼̃ ̶̲̇ȓ̴̳e̸̳̓s̵͔̾ẗ̴̗́ ̴̮̀

s̶͖̿l̷̹̊e̶̙͌e̸̗̅p̷̻̀ỉ̴̳n̸͎̂g̶̻̀ ̶̠͑m̶͙͌ā̸̮k̴̞̉ẻ̸̬s̷̄ͅ ̵̛̜m̵̭̌y̵͈̚ ̷͈̎d̶͎͘e̴̡͊e̶̞̋p̵̢̈è̸̺s̷͖͛ţ̶͆ ̵̩͝f̶͇̉e̸̘̋a̸͘͜ŗ̴͗s̷̜̈́ ̴͖͑c̶̬͂o̶̳͝ḿ̶̖ĕ̴̮ ̴͈͒ț̸͂ó̴̥ ̴̲̈ĺ̵̥í̵̹f̴͎͝e̷̮͊

ì̴̡ ̸͓͂w̸̛͙a̵̛̲k̷̦͛ě̷̦ ̴͙͑ì̴͕n̷̩͝ ̷̼̑a̷͜͝ ̴̺̐d̵̛͉a̶̬̽z̶̤͠ë̵̬́ ̷̜͝h̸̀͜o̶̥̓p̷̻͝i̷̖̔n̶̘͋g̵͍̏ ̶͖͊ẗ̴̰h̶̒ͅa̵̜̋ṱ̶̕ ̶͖̚i̸̜͗t̷̳̉’̵̳͌s̵̥̒ ̵̤̋n̷̠̋ộ̵t̵̤̕ ̷͙̉ř̴̰e̸͎͛ḁ̷͆l̷̥͛

h̵̛͜ơ̵̫p̸͔̾i̸̙͆ṅ̶̤g̴̉͜ ̴̅ͅṯ̶̅h̴̡̔a̷̢̍t̴̞̎ ̵͇̈́ĩ̶̳ ̵̳̾h̵̛͖å̴̢v̷̤̿e̸̥̍n̴̜̔’̶̳̀ṫ̸̪ ̷̻͘l̷͜͝o̸͎̓š̷ͅt̶̻̿ ̶̰́y̴͖̽ô̷̯ǘ̴̟

#im terrified