Laur

Let me stay the sun. writing and photography www.lauriebullock.com

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Ocean joy via Nikonos iv

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too many shows have been tarnished by male creators making their divorces everybody's problem....

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they should make it easier

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what?

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Everything. All of it

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An acquaintance I follow on Instagram just posted about having a “restful, refreshing week with family” and I’ve never been so jealous of a person

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Now that I finally understand German short rows, the (knitting) world is my oyster!

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Just came to the horrifying realization that I have had a tumblr account for literally half of my life.

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I miss my mom SO much. Dementia is such an awful disease and the pain/grief is everlasting. She’s the only person in the world who could tell me how to get through this and she’s gone. She’s the first person Ive ever known, she’s been with me my entire life, no one will ever love me as much as my mom and she’s just gone.

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HAPPY NEW YEAR, CHARLIE BROWN! (1986), dir. Bill Melendez & Sam Jaimes

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Oh, to be a kitty in the sun.

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LBC forever and ever

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when susan sontag wrote “I must change my life so that I can live it, not wait for it”

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Summer daze 🌞

Long Beach, CA

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So let’s, root, root, root for the DODGERS if they don’t win it’s a shameeee

Dodger Stadium | Summer 2023

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Mark | Los Angeles, California | Fall 2023

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Is my life/mood really that bad or has Southern California had an unrelenting winter/spring filled with gray overcast skies?

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Having to advocate for your loved one and argue your way into getting them a test/procedure when the doctor doesn’t think anything will come up only to see something does come up and another procedure is needed and suddenly/finally people acknowledge what you’ve been saying this entire time is such an awful whiplash sensation.

I know I don’t know as much as doctors or specialists…but I know my dad. I know his health history…just because he’s 71 does not mean this shit is just an aging thing for him. I knew it was more than age and it’s finally been confirmed after months. I wasn’t over reacting or too young!!! There was something wrong in his body!!!

And now we have to trust the same specialist who wanted to put off the scans that I pushed for. And the thing is…I think he’s smart. I think he’s knowledgeable and good at explaining medical terminology to people who don’t have training. But in the back of my head I’m always going to be thinking “would he say this if my dad was only 50 or 40?” “Would he be more aggressive about this?” “Would he offer more?”

I have to trust him. I do trust him. But god, why did it have to take four months to get to this point?