Looking in the mirror

This blog is a little bit of everything all in one. I consider myself to be a spiritual (not religious) person. I grew up just outside of NYC and will always consider myself a 'city girl'. I love crafts and DIY projects. Anything else just ask.

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Freedom

There’s an amazing freedom when you realize that you never want children.

No pregnancy. No temper tantrums. No added stress. No pregnancy fat. No waking up at 3am bc ur child is crying. No diapers. No yucky baby.

Money to travel and live life. Room to rescue cats and dogs. Sleep! No pregnancy pain. No 18+ year overall burden on freedom and way of life.

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What am I suppose to do?!?!

I can't anymore. I give up. How are we gonna be able to handle seeing each other pratically every night when most times we have time together something goes wrong. It's not even important sh* ... it's like 'who really cares who does this in the long run' stupid stuff. I try to say I'll do it and all but apparently that means i am mad and not saying anything and just saying okay whatever means I'm mad too so wtf am I to do?? If I'm so horrible that no matter what I do I'm annoyed then maybe you should rethink this marriage stuff and get out of it while we can. Idk. If I knew it'd say it ... maybe I'm just trying to figure out my place. My role in us. Idk. Maybe I'm still depressed. Maybe I am gonna have to work on building myself up. How many years have I felt like nothing? ... how many jobs were just a paycheck and a place that I never thought I'd get out of?? Yes I am excited that I'll be 100% better off than I was before but maybe I'm gonna have to learn to breathe again ... to get myself to know that's it's gonna be alright ... to teach myself to be strong again after being broken down by rejections and leads at catering. I'm not a switch ... just because things are gonna change doesn't mean everything is magically okay. Idk. I guess I just have to learn to breathe again ... P.s. I'm always gonna be miserable when I wake up because I'm tired ... ... basically I act like a 2 yr old when I wake up, a 8 year old when I am really excited and or happy and the rest of the time I don't know ... ... I'm sorry I've been like that for as long as I know and that's not gonna change.

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Always look forward

Just sitting here thinking how amazing it would be to have a real adult job. Something that I can know what my income is, something on a regular schedule, something with weekends off ... wow how awesome to bexome an adult! Sick of my current situation. My job goes from 20+ hrs one week to no hours the following and 8 the next ... and it's supposed to be ft. Like how do you expect me to pay health insurance if you don't give me hours? ALSO partially everyone works aginst you or at least the leaders do and people LLOOVVEE to gossip and just basically be immature. ... ... ... seriously some people need to get a life!!

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Watch: Meghan Tonjes just put America’s weight and food double standard into perfect focus 

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Another day, another night, Probably end up in a fight. Stress and tension all around, Turns our world upside down. Once was love turns to hate, Praying this is not our fate. Wondering what we will become, When we start to just be numb. Take the bottle, take a drink; Just so we don’t have to think. Keep it up till we fall down; While our heads spin around. Tomorrow is a brand new day, Maybe we can make it go away. Hope we can begin again, This is not our end.

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Ever feel like you are gonna scream any second and you aren't sure why? . .. ... .... ..... .... ... .. . That's how I feel right now . .. ... .... ... .. . UGH

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“And I’m just trying to survive Will I make it out alive Troubles keep bringing me down Trying to turn my life around Its just another day Finding my way”

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You attract the energy that you give off. Spread good vibes. Think positively. Enjoy life.

(via debaitable)

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“He is richest who is content with the least, for content is the wealth of nature.”-Socrates

Our backcountry campsite at Fern Lake, Rocky Mountain National Park.

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Prayer for Today:

Father, thank You for being my Source and Supply. I declare that my trust and hope is in You. I choose to rest in You knowing that You have provided everything I need for today in Jesus’ name. Amen.