The Emptiness Is Heavier Than You Think

I love music and video games. My favorite band is Bring Me The Horizon.

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I haven’t used this account in years but am revamping it in the event that Twitter completely crashes and burns. I typically don’t post much on any social media because I just don’t have anything interesting to share about my life, and have my accounts just to follow my interests and such. If and when I do post it will probably be all about the band Bring Me The Horizon because I absolutely love them unconditionally.

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Throwback to young Aleks with some of my screenshots from his older videos <3 Part 2

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Throwback to young Aleks with some of my screenshots from his older videos <3

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AHHH THE FEELS!!!

SlyPKC still lives <3

I can’t even express how ecstatic I would be if they ever did record something together again, they are such a great duo; and Sly wanting to shrink down so he can fight all the illness Seamus has been having, that’s just so precious <3<3

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Not sure when this was recorded, but hell, it’s video with Gunner that I hadn’t seen before which makes me ridiculously happy.

The only reason I even found this is because I follow Ian Milham (Dead Space’s former art director) on Twitter, who tweeted about it. So thank you Ian!

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It’s so hard to think of the Creatures without Seamus. Like a lot of others, I can’t say his departure came as a surprise, but to hear it actually be confirmed still hit me hard; watching the Goodbye Seamus video had me in tears. There will definitely be a void in the group, just like when Sly left, and I’m going to miss seeing him on the Hub so much. 

But he feels that leaving the group is the best thing for him right now, and that’s what matters most, his health is what matters most. All this time he’s been gone, the only thing I’ve wanted more than anything is for him to just get better again and to be as healthy and happy as he can be. He will always have my support %110 and I will be right there to welcome him back on his own channel whenever he feels able to return. Here’s to hoping that 2016 will be a much better year for him <3

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Some Recent-ish Gunner Stuff

Pic from Twitter in October of this year.

And also, whether or not you believe in paranormal stuff, Gunner can be seen in an episode of My Haunted House titled ‘The Rocking Chair’ which originally aired just earlier this year.

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Every time I see Ash tweet that Seamus is still having problems and not feeling well, my heart sinks. Not only have I been hoping and wishing for him to get better, I’ve been praying for him as well.

I really don’t blame Ash for being annoyed with the people who keep complaining about Seamus being inactive. Those who obviously care more about him uploading videos than his health or well-being aren’t real fans in my opinion. I miss him just as much but if he’s having all these health issues, then I don’t give a fuck if he’s inactive because of it, more than anything I just want him to take care of himself and try to get himself feeling well again. And what upsets me more the longer time goes on without him doing anything, is knowing that he’s still not feeling better. He’s been feeling crappy for so long now that he probably doesn’t have any energy to even attempt recording or such and that should be entirely understandable, but apparently some people are too self-centered for that.

And seeing Ash say that he actually pushed himself to record and upload when he wasn’t feeling well before is just really disheartening, to know he felt obligated to put making videos before his health because a portion of his fanbase are insensitive assholes who only think about themselves, that really makes me feel terrible for him. He should NOT have to feel that way. Period.

I will still hope and pray for him to get feeling better, but for now, the only other thing I can say is that I’m glad he has Ash by his side through all this. And I hope he does know that he does have fans who could care less about his absence because we care about HIM as a person, and just want him to get well above anything else.

So, much love and well-wishes to Seamus and Ash, and I can’t even put into words how much I hope things get better.

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My 1st Experience with Far Cry 3

I’m a huge lover of video games, especially first person shooters, but I had never played any of the Far Cry games before, so I wasn’t particularly interested in the third one at first, until one of the commentators/LPers I’m subbed to on YouTube started a playthrough of it, and I only got as far as Jason making his first escape before deciding I had to play it for myself and I am so glad I did.

I was instantly intrigued by Vaas with just his first few lines of dialogue, but the moment I got RIVETED by him was when Jason was re-captured and Vaas tried to burn him and Liza alive. For a lot of people, Vaas’ most memorable and impactful monologue seems to be the ‘Definition of Insanity’, which definitely is a standout, but for me it’s his rant at the aforementioned point about ‘family and loved ones’. I remember just sitting there watching and listening and feeling increasingly and genuinely uncomfortable as he started screaming “Who the fuck is it going to be?! Them or me?! Me or them?” His anger and torment was just so visceral, he had me hooked from that moment on, and I honestly wished there had been a choice to just say ‘to hell with the Rakyat’ and join his pirates. For him to have been such an incredibly impressive character, it was a huge disappointment that he was killed off so quickly.

Michael’s performance as Vaas impressed me in a way that very few other game characters have, he’s the first video game villain I ever actually LIKED, and I STILL wish Ubisoft would make a Far Cry sequel with Vaas as the main character, and centers on his background/experience with Citra and the Rakyat and all that. Probably won’t ever happen, but hey, a girl can hope, right? :)

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After watching the Road To E3 video of the guys shooting guns, it made me wish even more that Seamus had gone with them cause it would have been SO awesome to see him laying down some shotgun rain for real.

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Really excited for another Deus Ex, but it better still be Elias Toufexis doing the voice acting for Adam as well as the mo-cap. Eidos Montreal already seriously pissed me off when they dropped Stephen Russell as Garrett in the reboot of the Thief game.

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Aleks’ The Big Reveal Video

I’ve been watching Aleks since before he revealed his face, and I have to say, whenever he puts that Optimus Prime mask on these days, it gets me right in the feels. It’s amazing to see how far he’s come, but I’ll still always cherish the Aleks from back then as well.

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gypsy-renegade reblogged this from foxxyphantom and added:

Here’s a link to the video: http://youtu.be/MHyJxPBIQ58I’m pretty sure it’s from their Love, Peace, and Geese video they...

OMG thank you so much! Enjoy I will ;)

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Hi all, I'm a fan of L.A. Guns * Phil in particular ;) * and I was looking through these tags and saw a gif where Phil and Kelly were showing off their tattoos (during an interview, I assume) and Phil dropped his pants to show the tattoo on his thigh, and I was hoping maybe somebody here could tell me what interview or video it was from. Many thanks \m/

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My 20 Things

So, I don't post a lot on Tumblr simply because my life is incredibly uninteresting, and I usually avoid posting anything anywhere that is personal, but I saw these 20 Things/Facts that some of you have been posting and for some reason felt like adding my own, so here it is.

1. I am actually older than all of the Creatures, but still feel young at heart (people also always think I'm younger than I actually am) 2. I too have had issues with anxiety for years and am on medication for it 3. I'm painfully shy, especially around people I don't know 4. I'm short and have very little self-confidence in myself and my looks. I don't consider myself pretty (except maybe a little bit when I wear make-up, but that is almost never since I'm like a hermit crab, so what's the point of putting it on when there's no one else to try to look pretty for?) 5. I like boys, but have actually never had a boyfriend due to being sexually abused when I was a kid 6. I dropped out of Junior High school and highly regret it now 7. I LOVE video games 8. I have a really fucked-up sleep schedule 9. I have one tattoo (which I got when I was fifteen) but would like to get more 10. I've only gotten drunk once, when I was sixteen, with an older guy (sounds like it could've turned out bad, I know, but it really didn't) 11. I'm a total believer in the paranormal 12. One side of my family brings new meaning to the term dysfunctional - you name it and it's probably happened in my family 13. I love animals 14. I'm a bit of a hypochondriac - the littlest thing that seems out of whack with my health and I automatically start thinking of the worst possibilities 15. I am a complete pessimist 16. Lately I feel like I've wasted the biggest part of my life 17. I hate having my picture taken or being on camera 18. I'm closer with my mom than my dad (they're divorced) 19. I've only been out of my home-state (Utah) once 20. I have really weird dreams

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I really hope that he’s ok, it would break my heart to find out something happened to him. I think we should all keep him in our thoughts and hope he’s ok