i absolutely adore your blog 🐛
i first discovered you about a month or two ago when i saw your drawing of bill cipher in that get-up from Mary Poppins, and i've been lurking ever since.
let me start off with: i LOVE the way you draw bill! especially his eye! i'm a sucker for a well-drawn bill eye. (i've scrolled through your art of him several times,, COUGH COUGH,,,)
it's nice to see how other people interact with his character! as someone who has an interest in bill (this is my 3rd "relapse" in falling for him again. he makes me wanna peel my skin off.), i very much love seeing your selfship art. it's helped me feel less awkward and uncomfortable depicting him in any vaguely romantic manner with a character of mine, whether it be drawing it out or just imagining it in my head. it feels like im suffocating less now. 🐛👍
I love reading through your wir3 brain tag as well as scrolling through your reblogs!! i've actively started regaining an interest in WOY again thanks to you!
in conclusion? thank you for being yourself.
im gonna go put the phone down now and stop burning my retinas. it's pitch dark and light mode is putting me in excruciating pain.
...so um. I like... opened tumblr because I missed my far away train from a con I'm already gonna have way too little time in and I was suuuuper upset because cons are new and rare for me still and this is a bigger one for our standards and I genuinely wanted to chuck my phone to the train tracks and buckle down because of all the other bull that's been going on too and like I was just expecting yk maybe some people have liked my incredible reblogs of incredible other artists or liked the silly bill laugh rating thing.
I was NOT expecting... this. I've been doodling and drawing Bill for like 7 years and it means more than anything to me that people can find ENJOYMENT out of the way I depict him because he's SO important to me and I always worry about doing injustice to his character. I like. Literally took ages to draw Bill for the first time ever when I got into the fandom because I was SO terrified of "ruining" him by drawing him "bad"(as if I don't enjoy even the dumbest of doodles other people make of him)
It's so wild to me to hear anyone has enjoyed my selfship stuff because I have been convinced like nobody cares outside of friends who tease me sometimes just cuz we are friends and they find entertainment in my delusional ass. I cannot describe the... feeling reading this gave me, to know I've provided some kind of relief of shame for someone who selfships w Bill, because I know how important that is to me too and how much I still struggle with it, my brain convincing me everyone in the gravity falls fandom must HATE me and see me as lower for selfshipping with him.
Honestly it's no wonder considering all the hate Bill selfshippers have had expecially in the past, often fueled by misogynistic ideals and just unreasonable hate for people simply taking comfort and ease in a way that feels good for them and is hurting no one. Like I've never seen the amount of hate on Ford selfshippers or Stand selfshippers etc that Bill selfshippers get and it sucks! I genuinely sometimes doodle selfship and frown and feel horrible and like I hate myself like "he wouldn't care" "he'd hate me" "he'd be disgusted" and it's SO untrue. Bill is the LAST BEING ever who would JUDGE you for being weird or a so called "freak". He'd CHUCKLE at your selfship and ruffle your hair and pinch your cheek and then smack your back and call you "cute" and then float away to fiddle with something else at the worst. And I try to think about that.
Anyway not to ramble too much(too late), I'm really, really glad to have you here. And if you wish to remain anonymous, that's cool and I get it. I'm gonna assign you with the title "anonymo" because in my brain it's like "Ano-Ny-Mo" and it sounds cute pfft. Anyway that'sss so if you ever want to revisit my askbox and let me know it's you, I can throw some y/n x Bill doodle your way w the context of a specific asker.
Which by the by for anyone reading this—I can take y/n and Bill doodle requests! Platonic or romantic, choose your poison. Lets rip that triangle apart from the seams by pulling his hundreds of limbs for all of us!!
HELP BLOCK WIR3 BRAIN IMMEEEDIATELY STOP HAHA NOOO I'M EXTRA INSUFFURABLE ON THEREE. I AM COMMANDING YOU!! RESTRICTED. NO ONE IS SUPPOSED TO GIVE A SECOND GLANCE TO MY DUMB RAMBLES EXCEPT MEEEE.
Omg... woyyy.. yess... join the cult, join the cult, JOIN THE-
I'M gonna CHOKE on my grin~☆ =D
Being on lightmode is such Bill behavior. Disgusting.