xoxo

She/her | 21 cw: 54,5 kg・gw: 50 kg

[xtallxtalesx]

Breakfast 7/2

[xtallxtalesx]

Breakfast 29/1

[cigarette-with-a-bow]

eds are so winter coded idk man

[stalepumpkinbread]

This is how i feel when my parents ask what I’ve eaten today.

[skinscals]

Every body can be triggering.

Underweight people motivate, so they trigger.

"Normal" weight people are competition, so they trigger.

Overweight people are warnings, so they trigger.

If we are to ban one body type and demonize it, we have to unfortunately do it to other body types too. Every body can be triggering. Hope this helps when you next time see skinny person just living. :)

[lucyloosposts]

I feel like the hardest part about having an ed is when your in that awkward stage

when you’ve been so okay with eating, and eating more than you used to

then one day you wake up and notice all the weight you’ve gained and how hard it is to get back into the routine of eating less again.

i’m in the awkward stage right now i went from 48kg to my hw at 51kg which when i right it doesn’t seem like a huge difference but it feels like it. i haven’t been this weight since i was 14 and don’t plan on sticking to this weight neither but it is just so hard to get back on track.

I just feel so disgusted with myself and how i look right now

[vcniillaa]

Biggest fear: Someone noticing

Biggest fear: Nobody noticing

[kiws-stuff]

Its embarrassing to admit that I actually love food. It feels so fucking invalidating

[oucchhoucchh]

every day can be a metabolism day if you’re a #wannarexic like me

[xtallxtalesx]

Shame doesn’t work anymore

[iknowi-dont-exist0]

The fact that I have the PERFECT situation to not eat and yet my fatass won't just STOP 😭💀

[rockyroadsblog]

I need someone to tie me up to my bed and I don’t mean in a k!nky way.

I just don’t want to go to the kitchen again 😭

[onceuponatimeiwasaskinny]

an@ just kicks more when you're scared you'll lose your progress

[sage-skeleton]

starving is starting to feel good again

[xtallxtalesx]

I had to cut my fast short because my friends decided to host a last minute drinking party, and I refuse to miss out on the enjoyable things in life even tho I considered because I didn’t want to break my fast!!

I might’ve drank too much… alcohol is so high in calories it’s disgusting…. But… at least I had fun and isn’t that the most important part!!?

Still wasted, but I’ll just do better next week hopefully🙏

[xtallxtalesx]

Now I’ve tried being a normal healthy weight and eating whatever I want… and it was 100% not worth it for me.

Sure, I maybe felt physically better and didn’t get headaches as much, i could carelessly eat dinner with my family, and I wasn’t as clumsy at work. But damn… mentally I’ve never hated myself more, I was scared to see my friends, I couldn’t go swimming with them because of how fat I feel, I can’t fit into my favorite pants anymore, I couldn’t enjoy partying with my friends because I felt disgusting for putting on so much weight, and was afraid they’d notice…

And my face is fat… (⊙_⊙)

I’ve locked in this week I think

Hopefully I’ll relapse

And obviously I wasn’t recovered, I don’t think that’s what was going on - I just threw my control out of the window but continued to want to be skinny… which is pretty contradictory ᵕ-_-

I am mourning her://

[westiec]

see the THING IS I don't feel like I ever worked hard enough to have "earned" the burnout, which is. probably how we got here.