Chocolate Luxury

•ivoirienne - model - writer - romance•

[xtoffeyversace]

I haven’t been on here in awhile. Not sure if anyone uses tumblr anymore or if I have any followers who are actually human.

I need someone to talk to.

I feel like I’m going crazy and no body understands me. I’m happily 6 months pregnant by my man. But ironically this pregnancy has me so angry like 80% of the time.

At this point I don’t want to complain to my friends anymore. I could complain about it to my man but he just don’t get it. I could talk about it to my mom but I don’t really like her advice :/ i call my dad to talk about it sometimes but if I keep calling him when I’m upset he’s gonna start to get really worried, even tho I feel like he’s the only one that gets me. So now I’m at a point where I feel like it’s best for me to just work it out alone. My sisters actually aren’t bad to talk to but who wants to hear someone complain a l l o f t h e t i m e?? Plus they have their own kids and families to deal with.

I have a therapist but she actually sucks?? I stopped meeting with her.

I’m just mad at everything! But mostly I’m mad about the things I can’t control but have to deal with like everything is ok. I know that’s life. But it’s not my work life or my social life where I have to pretend. It’s my personal life. And I feel like this is my time to be vulnerable enough to express my frustrations but i actually can’t. I’m trying to work things through with this pregnant mind of mine and sometimes I’m ok sometimes I’m not. And I’m so annoyed like all of the time. I mean ALL OF THE TIME. By everyone!!!! I mean literally everyone. Even my closest friends. So I’ve found more peace in isolation because the ppl I love don’t deserve my attitude. I’m less annoyed by my man but unfortunately he catches all the heat of my frustrations because I have a lot of displaced anger. I feel bad for him. Im not like a nightmare or anything but I know he doesn’t know how to help if I don’t tell him what’s wrong. But I cantt tell him what’s wrong.

I know these emotions are totally normal during this time but naturally I’m so unbothered by everything, so now that I’m bothered and annoyed by everything more and more, it’s just starting to feel like a lot. This isn’t me.

Like I want to punch a wall??!!!??? Throw some glass, scream my head off, jump off the roof of my house, (without injury ofcourse) something that’ll help me get some anger out.

Now his family and my family have dinner tomorrow and I’m kind of dreading it cause I’m just so upset and I have to pretend not to be.

Overall Im having a chill pregnancy. It’s just these damn hormones!!!

I truly can’t wait to get this over with. But then my new life begins. And that’s not going to be so simple either.

There’s so much I need to figure out.

[xtoffeyversace]

This is 30✨

[xtoffeyversace]

Yeahhhhh I officially hate traveling . I always end up getting upset and all my expectations get crushed. I’m over it. I don’t think traveling is for me.

[xtoffeyversace]

All Smiles ☺️

[xtoffeyversace]

wanted some digitals 💛

[roeroe-world-deactivated2025011]

there’s just something about black motherhood that just warms my heart. ❤️🌹 sending love to all black mothers.

[xtoffeyversace]

[xtoffeyversace]

off guard

[xtoffeyversace]

I’m really dating the man of my dreams 🥺🩷

[m0untainslut]

Life has an interesting way of pulling you in the direction you’re meant to go in regardless of how far you’ve wandered off…

[luvdesiree]

God*

[theblackfemininesociety]

Routine.

That’s what going to set you apart from the rest this year, making a routine that’s beneficial and aligned to the lifestyle and goals you want to accomplish. Having the discipline to execute your routine everyday is going to put you in a better position in life.

The “taking it day by day and seeing where it takes you”mindset is OVER, pray it out, plan it out, stick to it, and watch it grow ✨

What is your ROUTINE?!

Start planning and getting ready babes.

We are not going easy on you this year.

— The Black Feminine Society 💋

[xtoffeyversace]

Night Time Affirmations for me:

I have goals that i will complete.

No body will stop me.

I will not doubt myself.

I will not feel overwhelmed.

I refuse to take no for an answer.

And I will be that bitch while on my journey.

Taking it one day at a time.

I am adequate.

I am enough.

I envision my future to be a certain way.

I am enjoying my journey.

I will not stop until I become her.

Even after I become her,

I still won’t stop

Actually,

Im already her.

And we not even close to being done.

[goldcoasthoney]

[theambitiouswoman]

Green Flags in Communication 💚💬

"I want to know when I hurt your feelings."

This shows they are willing to understand and acknowledge the impact of their actions.

"I don't want you to feel alone in this."

This shows empathy and indicates that the person is supportive and does not want the person to deal with issues alone.

"I've been struggling with ___”

This demonstrates vulnerability and trust, as the person is open about their struggles.

"How have you been feeling about ___? I know it's been on your mind a lot."

This shows concern for the other person's issues or worries, showing that they are listening and care about what's important to the other person.

"I feel __ when you __; are you open to trying __ next time?"

This is an example of constructive communication.

"What do you need from me when this happens with your family?"

This shows awareness and sensitivity to the persons family dynamics and a willingness to provide support.

"I appreciate when you ___.”

Expressing appreciation is vital for positive reinforcement and acknowledging the efforts and qualities of the other person.

"I didn't handle that well."

This is a sign of self-awareness and accountability, recognizing one's own mistakes and being open to learning and growth.

"I'm sorry, I was wrong to say that. I'll try to be more mindful in the future."

Shows you are able to apologize genuinely and a commitment to improving behavior.

"Tell me more about that; I'm really interested in hearing your perspective."

Indicates a genuine interest in the other person's thoughts and feelings.

"I noticed you seemed a bit off today. Is everything okay?"

It shows you are attentive to the other person's emotional state and a readiness to provide support.

"I'm here for you, no matter what you need."

Offers unconditional support, creating a sense of security in the relationship.

"I love how passionate you are about your hobbies. It's inspiring to see."

Expresses admiration for the other person's interests.

"Let's work on a solution together. What do you think would be fair?"

Focusing on collaboration rather than conflict.

"I trust your judgment on this."

Trust and respect for the other person's decision-making abilities.

"Your happiness is important to me. Let's make sure you're taking time for yourself."

Prioritizes the other person's happiness and emphasizes the importance of self care.

"It's okay to feel that way. Do you want to talk about it more?"

Validates the other person's feelings.

"I appreciate how you handled that situation. You're really good at ___."

Praises specific strengths or skills, boosting the other person's self-esteem.

"I know we disagree, but I respect your point of view."

Acknowledges differences in opinion while still maintaining respect and understanding.

[xtoffeyversace]

Get you a man that looks at you like this 🖤

[sacred-dwellings]

[theblackfemininesociety]

Delicate.

She’s to be handled with care, but not like glass more like a bomb.

🏷️ @jourdanriane