I haven’t been on here in awhile. Not sure if anyone uses tumblr anymore or if I have any followers who are actually human.
I need someone to talk to.
I feel like I’m going crazy and no body understands me. I’m happily 6 months pregnant by my man. But ironically this pregnancy has me so angry like 80% of the time.
At this point I don’t want to complain to my friends anymore. I could complain about it to my man but he just don’t get it. I could talk about it to my mom but I don’t really like her advice :/ i call my dad to talk about it sometimes but if I keep calling him when I’m upset he’s gonna start to get really worried, even tho I feel like he’s the only one that gets me. So now I’m at a point where I feel like it’s best for me to just work it out alone. My sisters actually aren’t bad to talk to but who wants to hear someone complain a l l o f t h e t i m e?? Plus they have their own kids and families to deal with.
I have a therapist but she actually sucks?? I stopped meeting with her.
I’m just mad at everything! But mostly I’m mad about the things I can’t control but have to deal with like everything is ok. I know that’s life. But it’s not my work life or my social life where I have to pretend. It’s my personal life. And I feel like this is my time to be vulnerable enough to express my frustrations but i actually can’t. I’m trying to work things through with this pregnant mind of mine and sometimes I’m ok sometimes I’m not. And I’m so annoyed like all of the time. I mean ALL OF THE TIME. By everyone!!!! I mean literally everyone. Even my closest friends. So I’ve found more peace in isolation because the ppl I love don’t deserve my attitude. I’m less annoyed by my man but unfortunately he catches all the heat of my frustrations because I have a lot of displaced anger. I feel bad for him. Im not like a nightmare or anything but I know he doesn’t know how to help if I don’t tell him what’s wrong. But I cantt tell him what’s wrong.
I know these emotions are totally normal during this time but naturally I’m so unbothered by everything, so now that I’m bothered and annoyed by everything more and more, it’s just starting to feel like a lot. This isn’t me.
Like I want to punch a wall??!!!??? Throw some glass, scream my head off, jump off the roof of my house, (without injury ofcourse) something that’ll help me get some anger out.
Now his family and my family have dinner tomorrow and I’m kind of dreading it cause I’m just so upset and I have to pretend not to be.
Overall Im having a chill pregnancy. It’s just these damn hormones!!!
I truly can’t wait to get this over with. But then my new life begins. And that’s not going to be so simple either.
There’s so much I need to figure out.











