虚实.

[xushiasfafaf]

independent  roleplay  account  for  honkai  star  rail's  caelus,  a  member  of  the  astral  express.  written  by  zero,  29,  he/him.  sideblog  to  wuhei.

[khierion]

Caelus supremacy🫶

[xushiasfafaf]

“Whoa, whoa, take it easy! You got pretty banged up back there, and you don’t want to go making yourself worse.”

for  a  moment,  caelus  forgot  everything  again.  the  rush  of  the  fight,  the  aftermath,  the  destruction  on  his  own  body,  versus  the  dead  bodies  laid  about  ..  it  took  hearing  his  voice  for  everything  to  start  to  settle  inside  his  head.  star  leans  against  the  fool's  body,  eyelashes  fluttering  as  he  opens  inquisitive  golden  hues.  “  ..  it  felt  like  i  was  in  penacony  again.  all  disoriented,  confused,  EMPTY,  unfulfilled,  lost  ..  like  i  was  losing  a  very  big  piece  of  me.  ”  caelus  speaks,  but  he  knows  he  doesn't  make  much  sense.  it  is  rather  rare  for  him  to  express  his  thoughts,  often  leaving  others  outside  of  his  chaotic  and  conflicting  mind.  aside  from  dan  heng,  who  he's  shared  countless  nights  with  -  a  lack  of  a  real  room  of  his  own  the  cause  for  such  unintended  vulnerability  ..  most  did  not  know  what  truly  goes  on  inside  of  him.  did  he,  really,  either  ?  the  stellaron  inside  his  chest  burns  brightly  ..  it  takes  a  toll  on  his  shell.  some  days  were  worse  than  others.  the  shivers,  the  aches,  the  inability  to  walk  straight.  hm,  he  cannot  blame  sampo  if  he  faces  bewilderment,  regarding  his  situation.  taking  his  companion's  opinion  into  mind,  trailblazer  remains  stationed  in  his  spot.  head  lowers  to  take  a  look  at  his  wounds.  they  didn't  look  good  at  all.

[xushiasfafaf]

caelus  is  cynical.  each  world  that  he  goes  to  introduces  him  to  an  array  of  characters,  most  of  which  make  him  realize  how  dark  the  world  truly  is.  despite  a  lack  of  core  memories,  unable  to  recall  how  he  grew  up,  a  certain  disgust  lingers  within  him  when  faced  with  questionable  morals.  yet,  he  isn't  surprised.  when  coming  into  contact  with  new  people,  he  will  always  believe  that  they  prioritize  self  interest  first  over  care  for  the  masses.  he  can  be  proven  wrong  on  this  account,  and  actually  actively  encourages  others  to  prove  him  wrong,  but  he  doesn't  have  much  hope.  he  is  used  to  being  lied  to  -  his  whole  existence,  his  entire  purpose,  is  shrouded  in  mystery,  despite  his  desperate  attempts  to  uncover  the  truth.  it's  hardly  a  surprise  to  learn  that  ..  everyone  else  likes  to  lie  for  gain.  caelus  follows  his  gut  when  interacting  with  others.  if  you  rub  him  the  wrong  way,  then  it'll  be  hard  to  change  his  opinion.  it's  not  impossible,  because  he  doesn't  believe  in  being  black  and  white  with  relationships,  but  it  won't  be  easy,  either. 

[xushiasfafaf]

a  couple  of  things  to  note  about  my  portrayal  of  caelus  -  i  don't  acknowledge  the  whole  raccoon  /  trash  can  stuff,  he's  not  stupid  at  all,  and  he  doesn't  talk  that  much  ..  unless  he  has  something  to  say,  that  he  feels  will  contribute  to  the  conversation  at  hand.  he  is  quiet,  in  his  head,  a  lot,  cares  for  people  too  much,  which  shows  through  his  selfless  actions.  those  on  the  astral  express  are  the  people  that  he  puts  above  all  else.  he  is  an  “ex”  stellaron  hunter,  with  foggy  memories  of  elio,  kafka,  blade,  silver  wolf  and  firefly.  his  opinion  on  them  is  mixed  because  he  doesn't  have  the  full  story.  he  will  react  realistically  to  being  betrayed  by  them;  for  example,  he  still  doesn't  forgive  firefly  for  lying  to  him. 

[receiptsofwhiskey]

𝐒𝐎𝐅𝐓 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒 ♡

“I never noticed your eyes were this [colour].”

“Your heartbeat’s really loud.”

“You asleep?”

“I like this, being so close to you.”

“Your hair keeps falling into your eyes, do you know that? Here, lemme just—”

“You’re so, so, so pretty.”

“I just — I’m breathless, okay? Whenever I’m with you, it happens.”

“You make my heart beat so quick.”

“You always know how to make me smile.”

“You’ll always be safe with me.”

[Kisses the other on the cheek]

“Always.”

“I can’t imagine being anywhere but here with you.”

“All my choices lead me to you.”

“I’ll never give you up.”

“I sleep better if you’re around.”

“You snore in your sleep. But… it’s adorable, okay?”

“I like this. A quiet breakfast with you.”

“There’re billions of people on this planet, and I love you. How incredible is that?”

“I trust you.”

[Holds the other’s hand when they think the other won’t notice]

“You keep staring at me instead of watching the film. What’s up?”

“Let’s push all of these stuff away. I wanna dance here right now with you.”

“Are we really doing this? Are we really slow-dancing?”

“When you laugh like that, it just — you’re so beautiful, you know that?”

“No, sorry, you laughed. I … I never saw it before. It’s — pretty.”

“You haven’t laughed in a long time, and I guess I was staring ‘cause I forgot how that looked like.”

[Puts head on the other’s shoulder]

“I will never let you go.”

“You’re the best thing to have ever happened to me.”

“You wrote me a song?”

“You’ve got a fever. Of course I’m not going anywhere.”

[Suddenly feels around the bed to search for the other’s hand / body when they’re sleeping]

[Extends a hand when they see the other was searching for it while they’re sleeping]

“I just feel calmer. When I’m with you.”

“You’re not in bed. I came looking for you.”

“What are you doing up? Come to bed.”

“It’s weird. I never thought I could feel like this, but you showed up. Now, it’s like I don’t wanna go on knowing I might lose the feeling.”

“I don’t mind sharing the blankets with you.”

“You’re cold. Come here.”

“You always do that. You always warm me up.”

“Stay.”

“It’s getting crowded. Here, hold my hand.”

[Hugs for a very long time]

[Puts feet on the other’s lap]

“I’m so proud of you, you know that?”

“I love you.”

[astrronomemes]

HURT / COMFORT : STARTERS

a collection of quotes, phrases, and sayings for when your muse needs a little TLC. change & alter as needed.

THE HURT:

“Nah, it’s not that bad. I’ve had worse.”

“I don’t think I can walk that far… or at all.”

“I’m fine. I don’t need your help.”

“Will you stay with me? Just until I fall asleep?”

“I’m sorry, I’m just—I’m just really tired.”

“I don’t need a break. I’m okay.”

“It was my fault. It was all my fault.”

“I think I need help.”

“So, I don’t think I’m dying, or anything, and it’s probably not that serious, but… I’m kinda bleeding. A lot.”

“Is the room spinning right now, or is that just me?”

“No, I’m okay, I just… I hit my head. Really hard. I’ll be okay, just give me a second.”

“I’m not sick! I’m fine!”

“No, I don’t think any of my bones are broken, or anything like that. Just bad bruises.”

“Yeah, but you should see the other guy.”

“I’m fine. This just happens sometimes. It’s normal for me.”

“I’ve got a headache.”

“Seriously, though, I’m fine! Stop making such a big deal out of it!”

“I’ve been taking care of myself for a long time. I don’t need your help, and I definitely don’t need your pity. Fuck off.”

“Please tell me I don’t look as bad as I feel.”

“I think I’m running a fever.”

“So, what’s the prognosis, Doc? Am I gonna live?”

“Stop fussing over me! I’m not a baby!”

“Can I stay with you tonight? I just… really don’t want to be alone right now.”

“No, I-I’m okay. It was just a nightmare. Go back to sleep.”

“I… can’t actually remember the last time I had something to eat.”

“You shouldn’t be here. You’ll get sick, too.”

THE COMFORT:

“Honey, have you been crying? What is it? What’s wrong?”

“I think you’d better take a break.”

“It’s not your fault, sweetheart. You did everything you could.”

“You don’t have to go through this alone. I’m right here for you if you’ll just let me in.”

“There’s nothing wrong with you. There is absolutely nothing wrong with you. Don’t ever let yourself believe that there is.”

“You really don’t realize just how many people love you, do you?”

“If you’re not going to take care of yourself, at least let me do it for you!”

“I’m sorry. I know it hurts.”

“You’re not alone, baby. You never have been.”

“Let’s get you some food.”

“You’re dead on your feet, poor thing. Come on, you need some sleep.”

“Stay where you are. I’m coming to get you.”

“Tell me where it hurts.”

“How many times have I told you to be more careful?!”

“It’s okay. It’s okay. I’m right here, okay? I’m not gonna leave you. I’m never gonna leave you.”

“Oh, honey, you’re safe now. I promise. I’m not going to let anything happen to you.”

“Go ahead and take a shower. I’ll fix you something to eat.”

“What happened to you, baby?”

“I’ll kill that bastard. I’ll kill him for what he did to you.”

“You look like shit, man.”

“Whoa, whoa, take it easy! You got pretty banged up back there, and you don’t want to go making yourself worse.”

“I’m not trying to baby you. It’s called taking care of my friends.”

“Sweetheart, you’re burning up! Why didn’t you say anything? Why didn’t you tell anyone you were sick?”