Active July 2023/Living in 2013

Jay/18/British/I've been doing this for far too long/CW: 73KG /GW1: 65KG/GW2: 55KG/GW3:45KG/UGW:35KG

[xxghostb0nesxx]

Me: successfully hides and ruins food :)

Also me: leaves sweetcorn on the floor of the bathroom, which is embarrassing and has made my aunt well suspicious :(

(now I have to do something about the prawns in the bin lmao)

[xxghostb0nesxx]

Diary - 7/7/23 - 14:21pm

So...I've basically managed to get out of having that meal later tonight so long as I pretend to eat lunch. Absolutley fuming that had I not been such an imbecile I could have been 24 hours into a fast already, but there's nothing I can do now.

Lunch is meant to be prawn salad, I really like prawns, but have been getting sick of them recently - on the plus side, I can say they fucked up my stomach and fast tommorow as well.

Going to carry on chugging my black coffee and hoping for rain and weightloss, in that order.

Was 68kg, almost 67 earlier - hoping to be almost 50kg by the end of next week at the latest, which shouldn't be too hard.

[katherineisd34d]

edtwt friends, help me cuz idk how this shit works 💖

[xxghostb0nesxx]

Reblogs aren't the same as retweets. People reblog everything here, and likes also mean nothing here, it's just a nice treat.

Threads are basically the same as textposts, you can just filter them going through the tags.

Thinspo is just tagged like that, sometimes with a 0 instead of o.

To talk or add something on, most people use the tags and then add the standard ones after.

DMing isn't as popular here, and groupchats aren't a thing.

You can change your blog description and pin a post like on edtwt - most people do stats and basic info in their bio and then pin something funny or a long info post.

Common tags: edblr, edblrr, ed no sheeran, variations on the ana tag, tw ed shit, tw ana shit, thinspo ect.

The actual trigger tag for ed stuff is tw: ed or tw: eating disorder mention - it's good manners to tag things that way, especially with triggering vents ect.

Meanspo and sweetspo are tagged as such, thinspo is the same, tips are normally tagged ana tips.

[xxghostb0nesxx]

wait why did I just remember I had a bunch of squashies as well what the actual fuck is wrong with me

[rorycores]

it's so embarrassing seeing posts like "edtwt refugees leave ur toxicity and fatphobic on twitter!!!!" from people who haven't even SEEN what earlier year edtumblr was like😭 are we just gonna forget how edblr started edtwt and all of the fatphobia, proana, fatspo/meanspo shit?? im on edtwt and edblr, there's literally nothing different besides the app. ive seen some DISGUSTING posts here and on twitter, you guys are so fucking dramatic. especially that "staysluvstraykidz" chick who made a whole rule list as if she owns tumblr saying she can ban people for being rude LMAO, just get over yourselves honestly, you aren't any better because you use a different social media app to post about your life threatening condition, none of you would survive on the original edtumblr.

[xxghostb0nesxx]

Diary 7/7/2023 - 1:41am

Uhhhh...so I sort of ate normally yesterday and then had a salad an hour ago :/ Logically, I know I still probably ate less than an adult should have eaten, but to me it feels like a binge.

Issue is, tommorrow I'm going out to my major city and we're supposed to be having a meal before seeing the show. I've been really looking forward to that meal for a while, but tbh I know I don't deserve it with how fat I've been behaving so I'm going to miss it and just say the chicken I had yesterday has been messing with me. Or pretend to eat lunch (prawns) and then blame that.

Saw myself in a changing room mirror and was actually shocked by how fat I look. Like seriously my thighs are so huge, I can't believe I was stupid enough to think I 'deserve' to treat myself???

Ugh, this is the LAST time I buy clothes in a size 16, it's just encouraging me to give up and be a lazy bitch instead of actually doing something about it.

It's too late to try and purge, but I'm going to chug some black coffee for the lax effect and then just stay up so I can hopefully miss lunch tommorow. I don't care at this point if my aunt gets mad about it - I'm not eating until after the funeral AT LEAST. That's decided.

[blossomingapril]

[n3wdawnfades-deactivated2023071]

One of the biggest reasons i hear about when it comes to not joining tumblr is that no one can find any sp0 but i’m literally going down my feed and it’s all just a bunch of sp0 lmao

[xxghostb0nesxx]

Starting at a new college in September...according to losertown, I could literally be 100lbs/45kg by then, which is fucking incredible.

[xxghostb0nesxx]

Diary - 10:14am

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

I'm officially back in the 140's/60s for my pound loving americans. This is the lowest I've weighed since lockdown forced recovery so I'm so pumped. Having a massive bloating issue though and I don't have access to lax (I also have family issues of gastric problems so they don't work as well anyway) - I'll probably end up just chugging black coffee and not weighing myself again until tommorow morning, just so I don't have a heart attack.

Should be going clothes shopping today, which I'm hoping I'll end up having to do again soon - sort of nervous since my weight loss hasn't been that much yet, but baggy clothes should help hide it (haha)

Might post a haul later if I can get my phone up and running - but that's not a promise, haha.

[iwantthatassgap]

Pretty much sums up my entire 2021

[b0omshakalaka]

coffee all the way! 💞

[she-whodreams]

So basically

[she-whodreams]

So basically

[xxghostb0nesxx]

Happy wednesday to nobody except that one person posting those Austin Butler Elvis thinspo imagines - stupid but makes me laugh every time I see the titles on my dashboard

[bonesofhumility]

my toxic trait is believing that all my problems will be over once im skinny and look masc

[sickandbones]

self care is over, we’re doing drugs again