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My name is Izzy, I’m an artist who draws whatever I want to draw regardless if it’s popular/trendy or not. I indulge in a lot of self shipping, if any of you guys give me sh*t over that you will be blocked!

I have both generalised anxiety disorder and social anxiety. All diagnosed by many doctors and psychologists at a young age. So please don’t give me any BS. I am also very sensitive and wear my heart on my sleeve. Sometimes I might accidentally overshare or vent a bit. Keep in mind I’m doing my best to manage my mental health. I also have a lot of trauma due to being badly bullied and being in some toxic relationships (not romantic, just very controlling and manipulative friends). Keep in mind I get anxious and awkward easily.

I don’t take crap from anyone anymore. DO NOT USE ME FOR FREE ART! DO NOT GUILT TRIP ME! DO NOT ATTACK ME FOR HAVING DIFFERENT OPINIONS! DO NOT DRAG ME INTO ANY DRAMA! DO NOT TRY TO CHANGE WHO I AM! DO NOT MAKE FUN OF ME FOR MY INTERESTS, LIKES/DISLIKES! If any of you do any of these things you will be blocked.

Judgemental people can heck right off. I’m sick of “cringe culture” and either being dragged into it to be made fun of or to get verbally ab*sed and threatened. If I see any judgemental like behaviour you will be blocked!

I’m just here to share some of my art and have fun. No BS! Also keep in mind I’m just here to share my art, not chat or make friends as A, I tend to be very busy and B, I’ve become totally anti social and have a lot of trust issues. I might make some small talk every few months or something, idk. Remember, I have a lot of trust issues so no one give me a hard time for not opening up immediately. Don’t try and coax me into a false friendship for “free art” or any crap like that either. Thank you.

🌸BIT MORE ABOUT ME🌸

I am an autistic girl who does a lot of drawing. Usually comics of things I like. I love animals with a strong passion and truely with my entire heart believe they’re way better than humans. Animals are a major special interest of mine as I still get all excited whenever I see a dog in public despite being a grown a$$ woman.

I’m a tomboy but I also love cute things and the colour pink. I just don’t like to wear make up and I’m not that into fashion (sorta depends on the mood for me tbh)...and I swear like a sailor.

I’m sensitive, shy and super awkward but have an insane temper! I have a strong sense of right and wrong and will fist fight people who cut in line. Then I cry when some random b*tch calls me a gross freak. Not exactly a good combination, I know. I don’t seek out fights, I only stand by what I believe it right.

I have a pretty messed up sense of humour, pretty dark. I also enjoy horror movies! I have a huge fascination with the supernatural in particular.

I love fantasy as well, anything that seems magical! I have a big fascination with mythical creatures and folklore as well.

I don’t like things with sad endings and super sad sh*t. I’m the kind of girl who always needs a happy ending! You will find me rewriting a lot of stuff to make it so my favourite characters survive AND thrive!

I like video games, especially cosy games! I also like gem stones, cute plushies, plants, badges, stickers, figurines, Pokémon, Sanrio, anything cute really, sweets, junk food, animals, dinosaurs, scary stories, mythology, fanfics with a lot of fluff, writing fanfics of my own, drawing, self shipping, daydreaming about potential ideas for video games, coming up with song lyrics (but having no skill with music whatsoever QwQ), soft, squishy and cuddly things like plushies/pillows and even stress balls, the smell of sweets, the sound of rain and the sound of the ocean, dubstep (especially kawaiistep and metalstep), and some other stuff I probs can’t think of right now.

I dislike large crowds, loud noises like yelling or car alarms (yet I somehow love dubstep and metal. Weird I know), wasps, March flies, venomous snakes, high strong winds, intense heat or cold (I’m so sensitive to both unfortunately), those sort of girlboss characters who straight up ab*se their love interest and act like they’re better than everyone, poorly written romance where the girl is genuinely toxic and the boy is just trying his best but it’s never enough, people who give me sweet f*ck all chocolate sauce and whipped cream on a McDonald’s frappe, getting zapped (you know when you touch something and it zaps you for whatever reason? Can’t STAND that!), walnuts (I’m allergic to them yet they’re EVERYWHERE!), my allergies, being put under any sort of pressure, Karens, those who harm animals, people who push, judgmental people, bullies, pretty much humanity at this point…most of the things I dislike have to do with sh*tty people really.

Anyways, hope you guys enjoy some of my art. Thanks for reading!

Hey, everyone. Look, I know this blog is new and all, but I'm leaving the internet behind me for good. For those who don't know, I have been horribly cyberbullied years ago. I can't get over my trauma from it and keep seeing triggers everywhere. I wanted to thank all the people who actually liked my art and didn't harass me here. Sorry... I got a LOT of bad history with the internet and nothing I do seems to be fixing my trauma. As much as I WANT to be an artist and share my work, I just get hurt too much. It's starting to become dangerous for me as I am having s*icidal thoughts. I have to leave to try and regain my sanity. Unfortunately, I don't think I have what it takes to bounce back and come back here. So I'm saying bye. I won't delete this blog here since people liked some of my work, but I'm afraid that's it now.

Sorry, I just can't recover from all that's happened.

#mental health #trauma #mental illness #depression #vent #tw vent #tw sui vent #sui thoughts

I just wanted to thank everyone here who has been actually showing me some support. Every single like means the absolute world to me. 💕

#update

Artificial Insanity is an AU for Danganronpa I am working on. The killing game is a computer simulation used to collect adrenaline from human brains, which can be converted to power. In exchange, everything they could ever need is given to these human batteries, food, shelter, clothing, even things for their entertainment like movies or video games. But they have to sacrifice their sanity for it. Set in a post apocalyptic world where robots rule and there are human farms, very inspired by the matrix. Saimota is canon in my AU cause it’s personally my favourite ship. Here are some facts about them in my AU below!

BACKGROUND AND HOW THEY MET

Kaito first meets Shuichi in the bathroom having a panic attack, because he is due for his next game. Kaito happens to have been chosen as well and he comforts Shuichi as best as he can. Shuichi got murdered in his first game in a brutal and horrific way, Kaito decided to do what he can to keep him safe and made him his sidekick.

After their first game, Kaito finds out Shuichi has nightmares a lot and struggles with his mental health. He moves into the same room as him to try and help him recover from trauma. Along the way, they fall in love.

RANDOM FACTS (not exactly HCs cause this is my AU lol)

1 - Both men are bisexual.

2 - They are affectionate AF and are always seen cuddling and holding hands.

3 - Shuichi has gotten to the point where he can’t sleep without Kaito.

4 - They are both night owls and stay up late watching TV and stuff.

5 - They like to watch detective shows or shows about mystery, Kaito often pauses and asks if he has figured out the plot twist yet. He doesn’t care if he gets spoiled by him, he just gets amazed by his talent and loves to see it.

6 - Kaito is actually super obsessed with Shuichi’s hair and loves to stroke it.

7 - Kaito takes a lot of selfies with Shuichi because he wants to capture as many memories as possible.

8 - Kaito often likes to pick Shuichi up and twirl him around.

9 - Kaito will literally punch anyone who says something terrible about Shuichi.

10 - Kaito has a LOT of nicknames for Shuichi. There is of course “sidekick” but there’s also “babe, baby boy, Shu, starlight”.

11 - Shuichi loves to wear Kaito’s clothes, but Kaito can’t wear his as they are too tight for him. He tried to once and ended up ripping one of his shirts. He actually felt a bit guilty about it.

12 - Kaito can sense when Shuichi is upset and will go out of his way to find out what is bothering him so he may try and fix it.

13 - Kaito is very strict about Shuichi being completely honest with him. If Shuichi says he is “fine” when he clearly isn’t, he will remind him to be honest with him.

14 - Kaito likes to show Shuichi a lot of cat memes to help cheer him up.

15 - Kaito quitted smoking because Shuichi once voiced his concerns about it. He also stopped because he wants to be there for Shuichi as long as possible.

16 - Kaito actually developed a bit of a “dad bod” as a result of him quitting smoking. He was at first in denial about it and then embarrassed but Shuichi actually likes it and often reminds him of how handsome he is.

17 - Kaito can give out a lot of compliments to Shuichi but when the roles reverse, he gets all flustered and shy about it.

18 - He absolutely adores it when Shuichi blushes, it somehow makes him look cuter.

19 - When Shuichi is upset, Kaito just holds onto him tightly and they just silently cuddle for a while.

20 - Shuichi has some dark circles around his eyes, Kaito actually finds them endearing though. He knows he is getting enough sleep, that is just how he is.

21 - Kaito will randomly wink at Shuichi as a silly attempt of flirting or to get his attention, Shuichi just smiles and laughs a bit every time.

22 - Kaito is an affectionate/happy drunk and will say the most sappiest of things to Shuichi.

23 - Shuichi avoids alcohol though because he doesn’t handle it well and is a sad drunk.

24 - Kaito sometimes randomly drags Shuichi into a tickle fight or even play wrestling. He claims it’s to see how much stronger he got without hurting each other but in reality, he just enjoys it.

25 - Shuichi likes to use weighted blankets, sometimes Kaito tries to lay on top of him to see if that will help as well. It does indeed help. (It did startle him at first though as Kaito practically threw himself onto him.)

26 - Kaito melts the moment Shuichi touches him. He only needs to cuff a hand on his cheek and Kaito leans into his touch.

27 - Shuichi was actually very touch starved before Kaito came into his life. Needless to say, he is well fed when it comes to getting cuddles.

28 - They’re pretty much always together.

29 - They rarely fight but when they do, it often leads to Kaito angrily storming out in a huff and Shuichi crying because of all the frustration. Kaito always comes back though and they make up then. It’s often always very dramatic and emotional whenever they make up after a fight though… lots of cuddling and screaming about how much they love each other.

30 - A lot of their friends say that they’re so lovey dovey that it’s gross, Kaito just gives them the finger.

31 - They binge watch a lot of classic actions movies while enjoying some snacks. Usually popcorn or ice cream.

32 - They still go out to train but Kaito does have a tendency to slack off, it’s mostly because he is too busy watching Shuichi though.

33 - When Kaito is about to lose his temper, Shuichi gently holds his hand to help him calm down. It works almost every time…just not when it’s Kokichi saying or doing something to really make Kaito mad. He tries his best but it’s near impossible to stop Kaito from losing it at Kokichi when he taunts him.

34 - They use the computer to travel to places they never been, although it’s still all a simulation. Kaito and Shuichi have floated in space before inside of a computer. It was one of their first dates.

35 - Kaito is a big softie and will cry watching movies, Shuichi is the only one who gets to see him cry because he feels the most safe around him. Shuichi thinks it’s sweet.

36 - They play video games together and read manga together while cuddled up on the couch.

37 - They go out star gazing all the time. Sometimes they will have a picnic under the stars as well.

38 - Kaito LOVES to make Shuichi laugh and feels so accomplished whenever he does.