In a blink, it rhymes

Even if life changes it's directions so many times, I hope in the end I will always find my way back to Him

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To me, 25

Happy birthday to me. To the 24 year-old self, thank you. Care for you, I always will. Thank you for holding out so well. Thank you for finding the courage to push through even when things were so tough. Thank you for being willing to give things another chance. Thank you for being so brave and tough. Thank you for being scarred but stronger than ever. Thank you for being alive thus far. (Thank You for letting me be alive thus far). Thank you for being me. Now we know how there will be most likely challenges but thank you for deciding to give it out another try. I know what was in your heart and I promise to continue the run. We are very good at it now, you know? I know what was it that you wanted to get away from so much and I will pray, also try my hardest to be finally free from that fear and sadness. Thank you for holding out so well even when the walls around you were crumbling, even when you were crumbling, too. Thank you for being foolishly brave to push through and for being able to decide that you deserve better than this. Better things are waiting ahead. I know it was really hard to let go but at the very least you know that you can make it through even without him now. And thank you for being twisted enough to cherish and love him still, this time without having to hurt yourself in the process. Hopefully and care for you, I always will. I just love you so much. I cannot imagine being someone else than the one year older version of you. I know that we both understand how we are finally not so young anymore but I know we want to continue the fight. Let us keep on burning the flame and light within while moving forward once again. At the very least now we know that we're ready to be on the different track but cherish him, cherish us still. I just love you so much. I hope this time you are happy. I know I am very happy. I am contented. I am very blessed. And I know I want to know more. Happy 25th birthday, me.

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We all need autumns and winters in our life, just to let some things become dormant, wither and die

then finally welcome new, better things blended in the warmth and sense of familiarity of spring

(and vigor of summer, maybe!)

[thequotejournals]

Spend your free time the way you like, not the way you think you’re supposed to.

Susan Cain, Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can’t Stop Talking (via wordsnquotes)

[thelovejournals]

When someone tells you, “I love you,” and then you feel, “Oh, I must be worthy after all,” that’s an illusion. That’s not true. Or someone says, “I hate you,” and you think, “Oh, God, I knew it; I’m not very worthy,” that’s not true either. Neither one of these thoughts hold any intrinsic reality. They are an overlay. When someone says, “I love you,” he is telling you about himself, not you. When someone says, “I hate you,” she is telling you about herself, not you. World views are self views—literally.

Adyashanti (via wordsnquotes)

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Epik High - 개화(開花) (Blooming/LOST ONE) (Feat. Kim Jong Wan of Nell)  (Keep reading for translations)

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man.. isn’t this like.. really sad..

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It doesn’t hurt anymore or perhaps it doesn’t hurt as much. Does it mean that everything has been resolved? Maybe yes, maybe no. But saying the same things I used to say feels like less burden now. I am also grateful that smiling and laughing out loud is not as hard to do.

I thought I would change into someone better given the circumstances and I know I changed somehow, hopefully for the better. Saying that it does not hurt me anymore or even feeling the lack of emotion towards the thing I still care about, that is what I mean by perhaps we have became wiser as we age. Some lines were drawn but we were fine with it. Somehow we are used to the new definitions we gave to each other over the time, perhaps now we’re used to the dynamics and the distances we have created. Perhaps we really do.

Perhaps now we don’t have to be on the same boat anymore, but I will make sure to row whenever you decide to take a visit. I will be there, but this time neither of us need to make promises. Because we knew better and we are fine with it--is this the kind of closure we need, or do we still need to see how things will alter? Will it change again this time?

In another middle of the night I stay, writing something from my expanded large circle of life, thinking

What a life. I could never be as young again and our moments will never be the same. There would be no repeat for those sweet moments but it doesn’t mean that everything is over now. I will still love and cherish you, maybe not ‘nevertheless’ but nevertheless i do

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Perhaps you have noticed by now but my mind is like a huge circle. It circles, circles and circles around, perhaps so much one would get tired from it. But that circle will always grow larger as I age. Things change, including my mind and opinion about various things in the world. Perhaps you would not be drawn with the same line within it, too. But I don't worry because I know everything changes there

even if some things remain the same

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The gap between can and could. It could be better or it can be better. You and your optimism. We with our respective lives. Where did those lines cross each other, I wonder? But if the terms remain interchangeable, hopefully things turn for the better. I mean for each and our own’s lives

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It’s not that we are wiser now. We just knew better, so we (think we could) prepare better

but what lies ahead of us, no humans could fully know everything

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[V LIVE] CELEBRATE - HIGHLIGHT COMEBACK SHOWCASE

Just like what Junhyung said during the showcase, there will be more than just one highlight in someone’s life. Things surrounding someone will change and that person, too, will change. As that happens, she or he will likely find another highlight in their life, making it hard to describe which one is the highlight of someone’s life. The same goes for me. It is hard to pinpoint which episode is the highlight of my life, but I believe it’s already safe to say that you guys are indeed one of the major highlights in my life.

Things have changed so much since your debut days and since the days when I first got to love you. So many things have changed but I am still fully aware of how loving you have changed my life, hopefully for the better. If I didn’t get to love you somehow, perhaps I wouldn’t do what I did in college, perhaps I wouldn’t pursue what I am pursuing today. Although there are always possibilities that the other things were better, the current me thinks that what I have right now is good enough. That means what happened inside these six years since loving you were (hopefully) good enough.

I am glad that I’m still able to see your smile. There were surely times when we were too nervous to smile, but I am glad things unfold the way it is now. I know that there will be more challenges to come, but right now I just want to say thank you.

Thank you for giving it your all to come this way and for continuing to work hard even as things get rough. Thank you for making it easier for me to love you now because you are  smiling so much more these days. I am happy that you guys finally become so, so much brighter than before. I know it does not mean that each of your worries have been erased but thank you for deciding to face it with a bright smile nevertheless. Thank you for having a heart warm enough to sing and cheer for your fans while doing so, too.

May you never lose the happiness within your heart and may there be more good days ahead.

With that being said,

Happy 8th anniversary, Highlight. I love you.

Please continue to burn brightly, tenderly. Let’s Celebrate!

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Waiting could be the hardest part in life. That moment when you want to just rush into your happiness or that moment when you desperately want to get out of misery. Being unable to do anything at that time or neglecting yourself so you couldn’t do anything as you wait felt so unpleasant it could almost kill you inside. But this time I hope it would be worth the wait. I hope good future will come for each of our consicious efforts and may He pardon us for our wrongdoings.

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Perhaps what the younger me needed was time. Time to make peace with everything that has happened and time to make peace with my own idealism, my own wishes, as well as my own thoughts. Several years have passed since then and some parts of me have changed while some of it stays the same. Back then I couldn’t look at such thing happily because it felt like I was getting further from what I needed to be. But I really thank The Almighty God for what has happened especially in the past year. It must have been among the hardest years of my life, but somehow God has brought me through it and let me be who I am now.

I don’t know. I still like to use the words ‘I don’t know’ because obviously there are still many things I have no knowledge of and there are also many things that I don’t want to take care of. It is not fully correct to say that I have made peace with whatever was troubling me, but I hope it does not trouble me as much now. I suppose it could be because it does not hold that much of importance to me anymore or it could also be because.. I have somehow learned that there could also be future without the things I yearned for. Thus, I gave up giving it that much of a thought.

Still, I would be lying if I say nothing bothers me anymore. From time to time I will think about my actions and whether I have truly made the correct decisions. But regarding this, however the result, I hope we are living in full contentment with whatever we have right now, especially from now on.

Surely there are many more good days, days just like today, waiting for us ahead.

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Afterall

perhaps i desperately wanted for something to change, that is why i tried so hard to choose a side, to make a decision, to do anything that would take me away from being trapped in a stalemate. perhaps the younger me wanted to change so much. I wonder if I managed to change into what she had aspired to be? I am the one living in the future of my younger self, but I wonder if the younger me would be satisfied with how I am living now?

As I try to think about it properly, although I am still clueless about the future like always, this time I want to pray for something good to happen. If something bad could happen, I hope something good could also happen. If there was sadness, I hope there would be more happiness in return.

Afterall, there would always be things I have no control of. If so, I will just do what I can always do. Let's pray for more better days to come.

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So, you see. This video has got me thinking for days. , it's about two things. 1) Military Enlistment Military enlistment is an impending issue for all the Highlight guys and somehow I was thinking whether they would go straight to it after they are finished with Celebrate promotions. Honestly, we just don't know at this point, right? I think they must have considered this before they started a company on their own. It is just a matter of time before they actually go and.. I don't know. As much as I want to prepare myself for it, I don't think I will ever be prepared, just like how I have never been fully prepared with any other forms of goodbye, be it temporary or eternal. Not that I am saying it should be an eternal goodbye with them. I don't know what is the best answer but I think at least this is what I am feeling right now. I don't want to ready myself for it, but in time it has to happen, I will do my best to cheer them on with a smile. 2) His Voice After listening to Yoseob's cover of this song, I looked up for the original version online. Turns out the original singer has a very different tone of voice from Yoseob. but he's always been strangely drawn into that type of voice, I think. Perhaps it's his type of ideal voice? That one throat thick voice with a wide vocal range, which enables the singer to reach both low and high keynotes charmingly. In that sense, I love that kind of voice too, especially when it comes to the voice like Park Hyo Shin's. While it may be challenging for Yoseob who clearly is of a higher key (?) Vocal type, I think it's nice that he always dares himself to try singing whatever technique or range as much as he wants to. I encourage him to keep on doing so. And I wish I could hear him singing live somehow next April.

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(via https://open.spotify.com/track/2dSKclTm3Ryp3hBd5jbU3d)

Still most favorite version of Marunouchi Sadistic. From 2009 (when I found it)-forever, perhaps.

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