A message to the1,500 of you still following me
I stayed up way too late so excuse any writing errors or rambling, I’m so tired
I’m leaving Tumblr.
Once I log out of this account there will be no way whatsoever for me to log back in because my old email account is not able to be accessed and I don’t remember the password to this account as well.
I wanted to say two things before I log out:
1. Thank you to the many friends I’ve made on this website in the past 7 years, thank you to those who have been around since I was weird nerd who barely knew how the internet worked. I’m friends with many of you on Skype or Facebook. You can message me if you would like to leave a skype name or such and I will respond back before I log off. I’ll give it 24 hours.
2. I have been dealing with challenging mental illness for over a decade. I would almost say my entire life. Through this blog I have both been able to receive encouragement from my mutuals to make it through a rough patch and notice what triggers my anxiety and depression.
One of the things I noticed was that this website itself was stressing me out and triggering me into panic attacks when I saw something that wasn’t tagged or when there were website-splitting arguments (especially about human rights and mental illness). This, my friends, is why I am leaving tumblr.
A website like this shouldn’t send anyone into panic attacks because of it’s content. It was a hard, but burden-lifting decision to leave this site, because I’ve made so may memories on here and gone through so many stages of my life through my blog. I have been getting better and better the less I use this website and I can’t wait to continue my life as a wife to my loving fiance. this time two years ago I would have never seen myself marrying someone.
On a final note, if you find yourself wanting to self harm, having suicidal thoughts, or if you are in need of someone to talk to, I will put some numbers and websites below. You don’t have to go through this alone. I know personally how lonely it can seem when so many bad things are happening around you.
Don’t put talking to someone off, don’t make excuses. I’ve felt what it was like to not be depressed and not have anxiety, though it was a long road, and I hope and pray daily that I never fall into it again. You are a brave human being and you have come so far. Please do not hesitate to reach out for help if you need it.
HOTLINES
Depression:
Suicide Hotline: 1-800-SUICIDE (2433) – Can use in US, U.K., Canada and Singapore
Suicide Crisis Line: 1-800-999-9999
National Suicide Prevention Helpline: 1-800-273-TALK (8245)
National Adolescent Suicide Helpline: 1-800-621-4000
Postpartum Depression: 1-800-PPD-MOMS
NDMDA Depression Hotline – Support Group: 1-800-826-3632
Veterans: 1-877-VET2VET
Crisis Help Line – For Any Kind of Crisis: 1-800-233-4357
Suicide & Depression Crisis Line – Covenant House: 1-800-999-9999
Survivors of Bereavement by Suicide: (UK only) 0844-561-6855
Beyondblue info line: (Australia only) 1300-22-4636
24/7 Crisis Line:(Canada only) 905-522-1477
Lifeline Australia: 13-11-14
Teléfono de la Esperanza (Spain only) 902 500 002 / 91 459 00 50
Domestic Abuse:
National Child Abuse Helpline: 1-800-422-4453
National Domestic Violence Crisis Line: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
National Domestic Violence Hotline (TDD): 1-800-787-32324
Center for the Prevention of School Violence: 1-800-299-6504
Child Abuse Helpline: 1-800-4-A-CHILD (1-800-422-4453)
Domestic Violence Helpline: 1-800-548-2722
Healing Woman Foundation (Abuse): 1-800-477-4111
Child Abuse Hotline Support & Information: 1-800-792-5200
Women’s Aid National Domestic Violence Helpline: (UK Only) 0345 023 468
Sexual Abuse Centre: (UK Only) 0117 935 1707
Sexual Assault Support (24/7, English & Spanish): 1-800-223-5001
Domestic & Teen Dating Violence (English & Spanish: 1-800-992-2600
Relationships Australia: 1300-364-277
Alcohol & Drug Abuse:
National Association for Children of Alcoholics: 1-888-55-4COAS (1-888-554-2627)
National Drug Abuse: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)
Al-Anon/Alateen Hope & Help for young people who are the relatives & friends of a problem drinker): 1-800-344-2666
Alcohol/Drug Abuse Hotline: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)
Be Sober Hotline: 1-800-BE-SOBER (1-800-237-6237)
Cocaine Help Line: 1-800-COCAINE (1-800-262-2463)
24 Hour Cocaine Support Line: 1-800-992-9239
Ecstasy Addiction: 1-800-468-6933
Marijuana Anonymous: 1-800-766-6779
Youth & Teen Hotlines:
National Youth Crisis Support: 1-800-448-4663
Youth America Hotline: 1-877-YOUTHLINE (1-877-968-8454)
Covenant House Nine-Line (Teens): 1-800-999-9999
Boys Town National: 1-800-448-3000
Teen Helpline: 1-800-400-0900
TeenLine: 1-800-522-8336
Youth Crisis Support: 1-800-448-4663 or 1-800-422-0009
Runaway Support (All Calls are Confidential): 800-231-694
National Runaway Hotline: (US only) 1800-231-6946
Child Helpline: (UK Only) 0800-111
Kids Helpline: (Australia) 1800-55-1800
Youth to Youth: (UK only) 020-8896-3675
Kids Help Phone Canada: 1800-688-6868
National Youth Crisis Hotline:(US only) 800-442-442-4673
Pregnancy Hotlines:
Pregnancy Support: 1-800-4-OPTIONS (1-800-467-8466)
Pregnancy National Helpline: 1-800-356-5761
Young Pregnant Support: 1-800 550-4900
Gay and Lesbian Hotlines:
The Trevor Helpline (For homosexuality questions or problems): 1-800-850-8078
Gay & Lesbian National Support: 1-888-THE-GLNH (1-888-843-4564)
Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, and Transgender (GLBT) Youth Support Line: 1-800-850-8078
Lesbian & Gay Switchboard: (UK Only) 0121 622 6589
Lothian Gay & Lesbian Switchboard – Scotland: (Scotland Only) 0131 556 4049
Other Hotlines:
Self-Injury Support: 1-800-DONT CUT (1-800-366-8288) (www.selfinjury.com)
Eating Disorders Awareness and Prevention: 1-800-931-2237 (Hours: 8am-noon daily, PST)
Eating Disorders Center: 1-888-236-1188
Help Finding a Therapist: 1-800-THERAPIST (1-800-843-7274)
Panic Disorder Information and Support: 1-800-64-PANIC (1-800-647-2642)
TalkZone (Peer Counselors): 1-800-475-TALK (1-800-475-2855)
Parental Stress Hotline: 1-800-632-8188
Parent Help Line (Australia only): 1300-364-100
National AIDS Helpline: (UK Only) 0800 567 123
Mensline Australia: 1300-789-978
Beat - ED hotline: Helpline 0345 634 1414 Youthline 0345 634 7650 (UK only)
Want a country by country list? Here are some more resources: helplines
The following sites also provides a country by country list of helplines available:
befrienders
international suicide hotlines
ibiblio
Unsuicide
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