hm. spiraling very badly because i've been left on read for two different texts in a row over the last few days & i'm cognizant of the fact it's stupid because we only met up twice but that does not quell the Mental Illness™️ especially with an unconfirmed but suspected borderline diagnosis on the table. have already been dissociating like wild off and on today because of feelings of rejection & abandonment (again, knowing this is irrational does not immediately nullify them) & have been working thru impulses to relapse & self harm.
perhaps i should just remain single for the rest of my life & not dip my toes back into the dating waters 🤔 don't think i can do this each time i get a crush that falls thru tbh
every therapist that told me i have a remarkable amount of insight for someone w/ all my shit going on & that's a blessing can eat it bc it doesn't actually Help anything. i'm just aware of the background processes contributing to how i'm feeling but i can't Get Rid Of The Feelings
Martin Luther King isn't evidence that peaceful protesting works. He's evidence that even if you're peaceful, they'll still kill you.
The change wasn't in response to people listening to Martin Luther King. The change was in response to the riots that happened after he was murdered.
If you're able to command that protesters be peaceful, then you're able to command that the ruling class be peaceful. And if the ruling class were peaceful, the protests wouldn't exist.
boy came over last night & we cuddled while watching (talking & eating wendy's over) a documentary he loves about why the world is How It Is from a leftist perspective starting in the 1950s but then he switched it up & put on hey mary lou: prom night 2 because it's his favorite horror movie & then he slept over & we were cuddling & kissing all night in our underwear & he's so goddamn sweet and attractive 😭😭😭😭
i couldn't really fall asleep because i'm not used to sharing a bed considering it's been like over 10 years since i shared a bed with someone i'm interested in & he kept apologizing cuz he thought it was bc of his snoring (he sounds like a chainsaw) but no 🥹 it was just because of You send helppppppp i'm terminally ill with the faggot
His name is bruno, he's been on this site for over 10 years doing the same damn cryptonazi shit with the previous urls historically being newkidzonmycock, and posts memes to get his blogs popularity that ppl always reblog. He openly posts swastikas and antisemitic shit
And will use any slur he wants to as a fun little countercultural moment i guess. A lot of gays on this site interact with him and simply will never care that they're interacting with a nazi despite being informed or seeing the literal antisemitic drivel he throws around constantly.
He reliably uses icons of women characters from fighting games btw so it's an easy telltale sign it's a new account of his.
yesterday new hire who can't follow simple directions starbucks gives for building drinks asked chatgpt to give him a step-by-step recipe for some starbucks drink they have in japan and THAT he could follow.
he's a business major. the ones we're supposed to think are big smart problem solving heroes but he needs a goddamn ai to give him instructions instead of following step-by-step recipe instructions already provided to him
date went sooooooooo well and he's so much more attractive in person & we went to dave & busters for the sole purpose of him winning me a fucking stuffed animal like a cheesy corny ass movie 😭😭😭 and we got a marvel comics printout picture thing 😭 and we kissed under an overpass next to the delaware lmaoooooo
so far it's looking like this guy is feeling better & we are as of now still on for a date tomorrow & i am Freaking Out!!!!!! all over again!!!!!! bc he has just been sooo fucking sweet & funny
but it's gonna be okay!!!!!! (<- me when i'm screaming lies to myself)
also have an interview with another newspaper tomorrow morning & a meeting with ppl from my store & ppl from the union tomorrow afternoon. AND also have to do laundry.....
feel like i'm finally like entering my ass into Adulthood like why is my saturday so busy bitch!!!! AND next wednesday i'm gonna be out canvassing other non-union starbies to try and convert them :)
also date is postponed because he is very plagued by The Allergies today but he was sending clothed thirst trap photos & when i tell you i was screaming & hollering abt this one of him shirtless in overalls holding a hoe in a barn.......i like literally had to sit down 🫠
like the way he understands i am not looking for a hookup and the most he's sent is him shirtless because he respects that....emotionally feral for him.....
also date is postponed because he is very plagued by The Allergies today but he was sending clothed thirst trap photos & when i tell you i was screaming & hollering abt this one of him shirtless in overalls holding a hoe in a barn.......i like literally had to sit down 🫠
broke the reporter's brain when she asked me what my pronouns are and i said i use any pronouns & she didn't know how to take that and asked for specificity so i just told her he/they & she was also confused by that & then afterwards she was asking for general demographic info & asked about my gender identity & i was like "i'm not dodging the question because i don't want to answer we just aren't in a gender studies class and i don't feel like breaking down my feelings on gender" because i had the feeling the term agender alone would have ruined her further let alone explaining the concept & how my identifying as that partly stems from a place of gender abolition
but the media team rep from the union was listening in on my interview & said i did a perfect job & answered her questions really well :)
Actor Jonathan Joss was just murdered for being gay and married to a trans man. On the first day of pride 2025. He was best known for playing John Redcorn on King of the Hill.
I had no idea he was gay but he was married to a man named Tristan Kern de Gonzales (on valentines day 2025!)
They lived in San Antonio Texas where his family is from and he grew up. He was 59.
In Janurary 2025 his home was burned down which made news. It killed some of his beloved dogs. He didnt elaborate beyond he believed it was arson (gofundme is still up and i suggest donating to help his funeral costs and his husband
We are raising funds to support Jonathan Joss, the beloved voice… Logan Kostroun needs your support for Help ‘King of the Hill’ Actor Jonath
Update: de Gonzales says hes fine he just wants justice but i still think its nice)
Now we know he and his husband had been threatened by several neighbors for being queer. They told pigs, pigs being pigs did nothing before or after it happened.
Yesterday Joss and his husband went to check their mailbox wherein they found one of their dogs skulls (statement from his husband
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As they weeped and mourned in shock, a neighbor, Sigfredo Alvarez Ceja, came out and aimed at de Gonzales…but Joss jumped in front of the bullet and was instantly killed.
Ceja, homophobia murdering coward, tried to take off but de Gonzales had called pigs who vaguely tried to do something. He was arrested and his bail set for $200k. Or as my sister said who the fuck sets bail for a murderer?
San Antonio.
De Gonzales is clearly mourning, posting pics on Hoss’ fb page. This one really struck me
This is why we need pride people, and not rainbow capitalism. Please donate to the gofundme and let san antonio cops knows what you think. De Gonzales said multiple neighbors had threatened them…id like to see those people investigated for arson.
Go into pride with rage and knowing. Have joy, kiss puppies, dont bow to homophobes. And maybe enjoy a little king of the hill.
UPDATE
Jonathan Joss’ husband Tristan kern de Gonzales identifies as trans on his facebook page.
Which explains the ramp up of hate and why the murderer shot at de Gonzales (Joss pushed him out of the way). So this is also a transphobia related murder
