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Happy birthday to me 🌿

I still can't get over the fact that next year I'll be 20. It's a strange feeling. It's like 18 isn't such a big deal, 19 feels like a bad joke, and 20 feels like a death sentence.

This is my first and probably last "self-portrait." I enjoyed drawing myself, even though it felt like I was doing something strange and out of character.

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Okay, it's first art of my ocs 👉👈

What do you think?

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Let's set the boundaries so no one is surprised anymore.

I'm from Russia, and I don't understand how my nationality affects the quality of my art.

I've been drawing for 10 years, seven of which have been on social media. I started a Tumblr in 2021, and since then I've been blogging in English, not because I want to hide, confuse you, or show off, but because I want to. I want to have a diverse audience.

This year, I've received quite a few requests and offers for commissions, but everyone who wanted them immediately backed out as soon as they found out I was from Russia.

(Only one person wasn't deterred, but I couldn't draw anything for him, for which I sincerely apologize.)

Does this bother me? Partially. Mostly, I'm indignant about it, but I'm not angry.

What am I going to do? Nothing. I won't accept commissions or requests. Only from people I've already worked with.

I don't want to and won't be ashamed or hide who I am. My nationality shouldn't influence my work.

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Besides feelings, I'm also bad at following trends.

So let's jump on the bandwagon

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I'm not good at talking about my feelings for long and often (unless I'm really overwhelmed) and it's even harder to write about it openly to strangers.

That's probably why I can't write sincere and good stories.

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Some scenes

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"some fucking skum touched me!"

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monkey kid calms me down. i really relax when i draw with pencils.

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In my opinion, Mommy Long Legs was the only interesting detail in the second part of Poppy Playtime. A couple of times I caught myself thinking that if this corporation was real and really produced such toys, I would definitely buy Mommy. I think many children would really like such a toy. + play areas in the factory itself. It's so interesting. I would go there as a child.