[yebnaa]

Youre Even Better Niche and Alone

🏳️‍🌈🇩🇴🇧🇧🏳️‍⚧️ • they/she

I love hashtags, and i love rambling.

[yebnaa]

i want to sit in silence with my lover and while she works, i write, and our toes are touching with the occasional leg kiss and “youre so beautiful _____” in response to “youre soo gorgeous ____”

[yebnaa]

i don’t like sweet things but you’re the exception

[yebnaa]

i write when my titties tell me to. its not a hobby, its a calling.

They whisper to me

[yebnaa]

a run on sentence to a wall:

youre not listening to me.

i talk, and

i talk, and

i cry, and

i cant stop, and

youre still not listening to me, so

i try, and

i try, and

again, and

again

you stopped hearing me, and

,and

,and

And I talk when i pee, and

i suck my teeth, and

i cry when my mind is quiet, and

again when my voice is loud, and

i try when youre unmoving, and

i try when you start to crack, and

again, and

again, and

when its obvious that

Nobody hears me, and

I just, i just

know my words wont

open you up, it

leaves me in a certain place

and, eventually i threw my hands up, and

said, “so be it.”

because when i look in the mirror, and

when i shut my ears tight:

i hear the ocean,

and my reflection is a shell

That day, i put that shell up to my ear,

I pushed my face so close to the mirror it felt incestuous , and

i heard the things that couldn’t penetrate you and,

my ears rung for days, and

[batou]

we, the uglies, deserve love too

[yebnaa]

drag the cold against my skin.

#ICanTakeIt ; so let it seep into me

- carve me open

im yours to take.

play with my scarlet fluids

intoxicate my lungs #ismellyouonmyshirt

; turn me to ruin—

ill tell you “i love you”

youll “love me back”

and ill love you more #IJustCantHelpIt

Dig me 10 feet underneath the brown.

ill give you the space you desire

can i still talk to you through the cracks?

[yebnaa]

truth be told

i still look for your notification every few minutes.

i still hear your voice in accents,

i still have that wallpaper.

it says more about me,

and what im missing

way more than what i want.

[yebnaa]

do you know what it feels like to be gnawed at from the inside?

what it feels like to have worms who’s little teeth are so strong, they easily sink into your bones?

the feeling of my breath hitching and being held

everytime you pick up the phone.

words suddenly aren’t easy anymore

The silence gets comfortable

and i lean into it.

some things are better shown than said.

[yebnaa]

Writing is my truth, its my depths and my brain. To love me is to read me. for hours, get a taste of my soul. this is me, this is raw, this is pure blood to me.

To really love me is to understand me without explicit words.

Read my nonsense and see my truth,

Strip down to skin to warm me.

I will accept nothing less than this;

because for you,

#IAmExposedNervesAndMarrow

[yebnaa]

i’m bored and don’t have anyone to talk to. These are the times i wish i had my very own best friend

id be selfish with their time, because id want them to be selfish with mine.

I feel a little out of place everywhere I go

with everyone I talk to. #Remindmethatimyours

I believe the friendship and love that i want is unrealistic, unattainable.

#ItsNotNeededButWanted

[yebnaa]

responding to my art with your own art >> i love sharing creatives as lovers.

[crossyourt]

What it's like to be black and transmasculine

'Sometimes you just have to pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and find your tribe.'

HAPPY BLACK HISTORY MONTH! Let's celebrate and listen to Black Trans voices always but especially this month. A beautiful, succinct telling of Black transmasculine life

[yebnaa]

not everything needs to be clear

vaguity is a performance.

its a tease, a game, a bit.

You have to watch my words closely to see the meanings. But i know you won’t. i know i will be in #myownworld till then.

I know it will stay a loud mystery till im gone. Then suddenly it will all be clear. #crystal

remember: You have to admit to your wrongs so you don’t get the karma

#itsinyourface

[yebnaa]

insomnia will be the death of me

[yebnaa]

morning doves make feel like im in a movie

[yebnaa]

i don’t want to be Understood

#iwanttobeknown

#iwanttobeone

You know of me,

you know about me.

You hear what i tell,

#Youfeelwhatishow

Get deeper,

Go harder,

love me to my depths and learn the way my blood flows.

#musictoyourears

#bassthroughyoursneakers #Rihanna

Bend me to your will;

#Katara ….

Devote yourself to my song and dance for me.

#Likenobodyiswatching