letters to the moon

unspoken words of yenyen and arline

[yenenline]

I don't even have the energy to tell others that it's getting bad again. I don't have the energy to talk to them and explain what's going on. I know you're supposed to reach out when it gets bad. But sometimes, I just can't.

[yenenline]

i read a therapist said,

"there's a difference between executive dysfunction and laziness, if you really were lazy, you'd be enjoying yourself. you wouldn't be feeling sick to your stomach with shame, guilt, and anxiety"

and uhmm...

[yenenline]

bedrotted today. woke up at 11:40 am to eat, and slept again at 2pm, then woke up just earlier at 6:40 pm and yet, i. still. feel. so. tired.

[yenenline]

i wanna dance in the rain

[yenenline]

Today we created this account on my phone with Arline on video call. We'll be posting anything we want here; letters, poems, paragraphs, any piece of writing that could express our thoughts, could speak our mind... and our heart... as much as we can. We believe it helps us somehow, I think. We just want to.

we like to bleed this way. whatever you call it.