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This is a small preview, I’m still working on chapter one.
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The town of the rich.
Hashfield was a small town surrounded by a huge wall. In this world— their world, there were two kinds of people;the fortunate who lived inside the wall and the outsiders.
Having lived outside of the wall for years, you’ve grown to hate the people living inside of it. Of course, the feeling was surely mutual. Insiders thought of people like you as low lifers, to them, success was equivalent with the number of cars one had at his parking lot.
To the outsiders, life inside the wall seemed dim and shallow, no colors of the real world. It was the moment you got accepted into the Hashfield Collage, that you realized a lot were about to change in your life.
“You know, maybe I kind of envy you sometimes, the outsiders” his voice honeyed, you couldn’t help but chuckle because his attitude had suggested everything but what he had just stated. Envy the outsiders? Kim Taehyung would burn Outfield to the ground if he could, you were sure of that.
“Oh really? You’re not a big fan of the wall yourself? you queried “Who would’ve thought!”
“I think no one really is” he looked at you and you were suddenly reminded of the boy you’d met years ago. Maybe he had a bit more to drink, you guessed. You knew him all to well to know he wouldn’t say such things sober.
“The poor work to live and the rich don’t get to live. We can remain inside the wall as long as we don’t do anything foolish.” He’d continued “Isn’t that scary? That maybe you’ll never do anything foolish? Or courageous, or anything worth a damn?”
Namjoon reaction—calling him a ‘friend’ when he clearly has a thing for you
❀genre: smut, a bit of fluff
❀collage au
(This was originally supposed to be a quick reaction but something happened to me and I couldn’t stop writing)
“Look, Jisoo, I’d agree with you, but then we’d both be wrong” you flash a cheeky smile at your best friend. She’s being going on and on about how this Kim Namjoon guy had a thing for you.
You can’t lie, you’ve seen him around in campus and sometimes you’d wish he would suffocate you with these thighs of his. Ugh. The perfect combo, lean yet masculine physique with a brain that actually functions for a change. You’ve seen the way these collage girls were circling him around and you can’t blame them, the guy was a catch.
But he was not your crowd of people. He was outgoing, social and had loads of what you like to call “the lad friends”. You guessed his main activities were partying and getting shitfaced every night.
You’ve talked to him a couple of times. He uses the same bench as you to read now and then. You would eventually take sneak peeks at the books he was reading, check if he had any taste or not, and the result was always better than what you expected. This guy knew books. He was not just reading what was on the best seller’s that week to look sophisticated in front of others.
When he caught you peaking he’d started having small talk with you. You swear you’ve never experienced a better conversation flow with another human being. This guy screamed comfort. He seemed genuinely curious about the things you were saying. None of that painful act of pretending to be interested just because he wanted to get laid. You had been talking with him for a month straight and aside from a few moments of some what flirty looks his actions never suggested something more.
His aura was welcoming and he always paid attention to the little things. Unlike some other shallow guys out there, he felt…different.
But how different could he really be? You’ve seen the people he hangs out with. Kim Taehyung? He had a relationship with three girls at the same time. Didn’t even apologize for being the biggest jerk in history. You’ve heard Jung Hoseok’s body count was reaching a 3 digit number AND Jeon Jungkook once fucked 4 different girls at the same night.
Just thinking about it makes you sick. It pains you to admit but there’s only one truth to this. Even if Kim Namjoon was interesting, he was definitely a person you needed to stay away from. All the data point to a big fuckboy alert!
“Come on y/n…. If he wasn’t even in the slightest interested in you then why did he tell me explicitly that he wanted you to attend the party??”
“An invitation to a party doesn’t mean anything. Besides, I’m sure I’m not his style. Have you seen the type of girls he hangs out with? Yikes.”
Jisoo smirked at you “Oh, I see you’re stalking him now?”
You shake your head “Don’t be ridiculous! We take Econ together, that’s all. What? Am I supposed to cover my eyes every time I see him?”
“Maybe you should” Jisoo came closer to you “Y/n, we’re going to that party”
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“This is a big mistake, I’ll get bored within the hour” You scream at Jisoo over the loud music.
“Don’t be a whiney ass and enjoy yourself for once” she handed you a drink.
Enjoy yourself for once. You and Jisoo’s definition of enjoying one self were clearly very different. You scan the room to look for any familiar faces you could talk to. Unfortunately, not a lot of your acquaintances attended frat parties.
Your head motion immediately pauses when you meet eyes with Namjoon across the garden. Was he looking at you this whole time? You feel your cheeks burn.
Initially, you don’t know how to react but eventually you flash him a small smile and focus back on Jisoo
“Kim Namjoon just gave me the biggest stare of all time” you say as you down your drink
“What!?” Jisoo’s eyes widened “This is the time where I say I told you so.”
You think for a second that maybe Jisoo was right all along. But that just makes the whole thing more dangerous for you. You can’t lie, Namjoon is attractive, but you knew he was trouble. Maybe he liked you today and then liked another girl tomorrow.
Suddenly, you feel a hand touch your shoulder “Hey y/n, Jisoo. Glad you guys made it” Namjoon’s low voice pierced your ears.
Jisoo gave you a look before replying to him “Hey!! We couldn’t miss such a night!” She smiled “right y/n??”
“Yeah!! Totally” you cheer kind of awkwardly.
Namjoon’s eyes fixed on you. You felt his stare eat you up. His whole presence felt angelic yet overwhelming. “Do you guys maybe want to join us? We’re sitting right by the pool”
“Oh! Sure, why not!” Jisoo answered almost immediately
You were walking towards the pool, Namjoon was pacing right next to you, he was so close to the point where you could sort of smell his cologne. You swear you could get drunk off his scent.
“I have to be honest, I didn’t think you’d actually come” He chuckled
“Are you disappointed?” You teased and raised an eyebrow.
You see a dimple smile making its appearance, how can this dude be so incredibly hot and cute at the same time? “I think pleasantly surprised would be the right way to put it”
Why do you feel like you can not breath? He hasn’t said much, yet you feel yourself burn up all of a sudden. “Good to know” you smile back.
“Joon! You have to see this” was the first thing Taehyung yelled when you arrived to the place where the guys were sitting “12 o’clock, Hobi making out with Mina from 3rd year. Can you believe it? After two years of trying to get it, he finally succeeds”
Of course the main talk is girls. No surprise there.
“Jungkook bitch, you owe me 20 bucks” Taehyung eyed Jungkook
Your expression screamed disgust. Apparently, Namjoon noticed “They are not as bad as they seem” he elbowed you.
You give him and awkward laugh “I’ll take your word for it” You lie.
“Guys, this is Jisoo and y/n. Can you stop trying to head lock each other and say hello? You’re embarrassing me” Namjoon introduced the pair of you to the boys who were still arguing about the bet. 
“Oh, hey girls.” Taehyung paused to inspect Jisoo’s face. “Hey, business and shipping? Ain’t it?”
“Oh, yeah, right!” Jisoo smiled
“Hyung aren’t you taking that class for like the third time? How many times can you fail you recon?” Jungkook teased him and Taehyung answered by giving him a slap on the shoulder.
“Hey y/n, do you want to go grab a drink? I think you’ll need it if you are to tolerate these guys” Namjoon offered.
“I trust you know best” you smile and quickly follow behind him. His shoulders wide and his muscles very visible even through his airy shirt. This guy was a whole statue.
“By the way, I’ve never seen you at parties before. I think I saw you once at the December ball but that’s about it. Not really a big fan of these kind of things, are you?” He suddenly said. You can’t really decode his words. How did Kim Namjoon know you even went to the December ball? You’re pretty sure you didn’t even talk to him that night.
“Interested in me much?” You give him a cheeky smile but he was just looking at you, a couple of seconds passed without him responding “I’m only joking! It’s true I don’t really attend these sort sort of things.”
“And what do you do for fun miss y/n?” He laughs and you swear if you could bottle the sound and get drunk on it you would.
“Oh you’ll think I’m lame”
“Try me” he said in a serious tone while starring right through your eyes. Suddenly, your body felt too heavy for your legs to bear. How can he get to you like that?
“Okay…” You start, him looking at you like that didn’t help control your train of thought, but you manage to get a hold of yourself “So you know that little corner cafe on willow street? Every Friday they have these comedy music nights. A guy-“
“Park Jihoon and the little funny guitar, yeah! I used to go there every Friday during my freshman years! Do they still do that old thing? I swear the pun with the atom never failed to make my day.” He started laughing again.
“Whoah what? You’re telling me you’ve been to the shrieking shack?” That place was a little treasure you’d found earlier this year. It was an amazingly cozy place, perfect during the cold winter time. The staff were all so kind and wore these big oversized colorful ties. But the people going there were all much older than you. You’ve never heard someone your age talk about that place. Let alone a person like Namjoon.
“Careful how you talk to a veteran y/n. I’ve basically helped to build the place” he chuckled.
“Y/n is that you?” A familiar voice greeted you.
“Jimin! Oh my god, hey! It’s been ages since I’ve seen you!” You hug him.
Jimin was a great soul, he majored in contemporary dance and ballet. He had been traveling for the past couple of years enrolling in some extra ballet classes in the magical city of Paris. You envied him for his talent and admired him for his passion.
“Girl, you have to come visit me. You’ll love Europe!”
“I would also LOVE to have some money in my wallet” you laugh “Oh Jimin, this is my friend, Namjoon. We go to collage together”
Namjoon gave you a look and soon after shook Jimin’s hand “What’s up. Nice to meet you”
“Nice to meet you too! But y/n, I’m so so sorry, I have to go. I was actually on my way out just now. I sort of uhm, have a thing-you know” he coughed “I’m leaving in two weeks, can we please meet before that?”
You knew Jimin was probably off to his ex boyfriends house. They broke up before Jimin left for Paris but every time he got back he’d have a couple of hookups with him. “Oh yeah! I bet you’ve got something very important right now, you better go quickly” you teased him “I’ll text you tomorrow, ok?”
Jimin laughed so much his eyes were barely visible “definitely! text me! I’ll be off then! Bye mister Kim Namjoon” he playfully said and was out of your sight a second later.
“You two seem…close” Namjoon suddenly commented
“Yeah! We were! But he has been studying abroad for like two years now.”
Namjoon’s facial expression was quite enigmatic “Did you guys ever… you know”
“Oh no no no.” You pause to make a small chuckle “Jimin isn’t exactly interested in, well, girls like me, or to be exact, girls in general”
Namjoon’s eyes widened and he immediately bursted into laughter “oh… I see” he made a pause “So tell me then, how come the old soul that never goes to parties finally attends one?”
You feel your cheeks burn red. Partly because the reason you went was him. You don’t know why, but the past month you and Namjoon hit it off very well and you wanted to test Jisoo’s crazy theory, you wanted to make sure for yourself if Namjoon was interested in you or not. Now the problem was, even if it turned out he did like you, you didn’t know what you’d do exactly. Namjoon was a really nice guy, but he didn’t come without his red flags.
“Just wanted to try something different, I guess”
“And how’s that 'different' treating you so far?”
What could you possibly tell him? That you have enjoyed every minute you guys have been talking? That you think that just by staring at you he could make you feel things no other guy could? You barely can admit all of that to yourself. “I think pleasantly surprised is the right way to put it” you repeat his words from before.
You see him smile at that. “You know what y/n? I’m really happy you came”
How can he make your heart beat so fast with just one sentence? “Oh really? And why is that?”
“I don’t know, I guess… I just like talking to you, you know? Whenever I’m around you I feel at ease, like I can tell you anything. I feel different when I’m with you, but in a good way”
“Wow” that sound escaped your lips without your consent
Namjoon laughed “Why? Is it too weird?”
“No! Definitely not weird, more like, I don’t know, surprising?”
“In what way?”
“Well you’re… Kim Namjoon, you’re the 2021 class president and you’re like the most popular guy in the whole campus right now.” You made a pause “And I’m just..-“
“The most interesting girl I’ve ever met” he cuts you off
The way he was looking down at you made butterflies grow in your stomach “You really think so?”
He gently grabbed your waist and pulled you closer to him “I know so” he leaned down, you swear his eyes had the whole galaxy painted inside of them. You couldn’t even breath properly at this point. Kim Namjoon was too close and the only thing you were thinking about was how well his kiss would feel “God, you’re so beautiful” he said and pulled you in for a soft, gentle kiss.
You couldn’t believe your senses. Kim Namjoon was kissing you and you really thought the earth had stopped spinning right then and there. You could feel his big palms traveling up and down your back.
His kiss was breathless, jubilant, filled with the joy of life, and you should stop him, he is no good to you, you know that, but his scent is delightful and his lips are so warm.
Unconsciously, your hands reach the inside of his shirt. His skin hot and soft at the touch.
"y/n" he practically moans your name, and just the sound makes your knees go week "Don't do that, I don't think I'll be able to stop"
"Who said anything about stopping?" You say and go back to kiss him even more passionately this time.
“There’s a lot of people here, my room is upstairs, would you perhaps want to-“
“Yes.” You immediately say. You don’t care about anything anymore, you’d let your future self deal with the consequences of today’s actions. The only thing that has been lingering in your mind is how good he’d feel inside of you.
The moment you’re finally alone in his room, he lifts you up, swinging you around and kissing you. It was like a dream. Namjoon was everything you wanted. You’re reluctance about getting with him didn’t matter any more, the tingly feeling in your stomach overtook every single bit of hesitation you had. You needed him.
“God, you’re lovely” he exhaled
He looks at you as he sinks you down on the bed. Planting a soft kiss before his hands quickly begun to peel away clothes, yanking his belt loose, fumbling hurriedly at his trousers.
You look at his lips tracing your skin and the faint moisture left behind, you look at his muscly arms as he lifts you up and sinks you down again, you look at him looking at you, with eyes brighter than the sun itself. Was this all a dream?
When your dress was finally off he undoes your bra clasp on the way down. Slowly planting kisses on your collarbone, the tops of your breasts, your sternum, and you arched you back as you were needy for more.
His lips finally reach your nipples .Your boobs smooth under his hands, your nipple firm under his tongue, and there, that makes you squirm again, a little more insistently this time.
“Fuck, I’m so fucking wet right now, I feel it” You moan
You see him raise an eyebrow. A vivid smirk painted on his face “Let’s check, shall we?”
He splays his hand low across your belly, and the first brush of his thumb over your clit makes you breathe in sharply and him forget to breathe at all.
“I’m your friend?” He breaths in, his voice dangerously low
“Oh come on” You manage to say in between moans “what was I supposed to tell Jimin?”
His strokes and flicks are light and teasing, his thumb carefully circling around your clit. He gives you a slow, constant, unyielding pressure that makes your breath come up short, makes your toes curl in the effort not to move.
“I’m gonna fuck the word ‘friend’ right out of your pretty little mouth” he covers your mouth with an intense kiss before slipping two fingers of his free hand inside of you, and you makes a noise like triumph and want all wrapped up together. If his fingers felt like this, you can’t imagine how his dick felt like.
“Hmm?” He doesn’t look up, he keeps his eyes on his hands, on you, spread out beneath him “You like that baby?”
God, just the way the word 'baby' sounded coming from his mouth could make you come right this second. You look at him, his eyes look as hungry as his voice sounded. This dude was out of this world.
“Please Namjoon, I want it, I want you inside of me right now”
Namjoon lowered his underwear, and simply pressed his hard member on your slit. You could feel his balls softly caressing your clit as he made subtle movements while kissing you. “Such a needy little thing” he teases “Tell me how bad you want my cock inside of you”
“Oh..” you moan “I’d do anything, please…give it to me… fuck me like you own me” you whined as you used your pussy to caress his length up and down. He seemed to enjoy they way you touched him.
“Fuck y/n… that feels so good” he rests his forehead on yours.
“Imagine what my inside will feel then” you whisper in his ear “I’m such a tight good girl” you move your mouth in front of his, bitting his bottom lip as he growled when he felt your movement grow faster
“Fucking hell” he immobilized your body with his hands and pressed you down to the bed. He immediately shoves his dick inside you, filing you up to the brim before staying there for a couple of seconds and then pulling out completely. That movement made your vagina crave to be filled all the way up again.
“More” you whine, a dopey expression all over your face. You were so needy of him, but you didn’t care.
He lowered his left hand towards your thigh and gave it a big squeeze, kissing you aggressively while doing so. He quickly braced himself back into you, you felt your walls completely wrap around his member. It felt magical.
His strokes long and steady in the beginning. Every time he went in and out completely you felt the pit of your stomach burn in pleasure. Namjoon was doing everything right, you can’t lie to yourself, this is the best sex you’ve ever had. Normally with other guys you don’t even come close to coming, but now, you feel yourself trying not to do so.
“You like my dick being inside of you baby?” He plants a small kiss on your neck and goosebumps run down your spine.
‘Like’ was nowhere near good enough of a word to explain how much the sensation of him thrusting his hard member in and out of you made you feel. “I love it Namjoon… I just love it…”
You’re words must’ve turned Namjoon even more on, because his pace immediately started becoming faster and sloppier. Every time your skin touched a loud sound could be heard. Namjoon was thrusting deeper and deeper into you, and every time he’d fill you up completely you’d cry out his name.
“Ah, I like my name so much better when you fucking moan it like that” he says and started shoving his dick inside of you like crazy. You could tell he was close to coming, and so were you.
It wasn’t long until you felt your walls clenching and your toes curling. The sensation overtook all of your body, it was mad… your heart beat uncontrollable. Namjoon made you feel a completely new range of emotions.
“Ah y/n, I can feel you cumming all over my dick” his voice cracky, You could see how turned on he was by all of this, by you. “Fuck” he shoved harder “You’re so” harder “fucking hot”
Namjoon stopped and pulled out immediately spreading his cum all over your tummy. The sight was breathtaking, you’ve never found a man so attractive while coming before, but then, Namjoon is no ordinary man.
He quickly grabs a couple of tissues and wipes you clean before laying on top of you again, placing another soft kiss this time. His hand playing with your hair. You were both naked and sweaty and a mess but it felt so magical. You wrapped your hands around his broad shoulders, pulling him even closer to you. You didn’t want even a centimeter of distance between you and him.
He suddenly stopped kissing you and simply stared at your eyes. After a minute or two, or maybe three, you're not really sure, time didn't exist right now, he tacked a string of hair behind your left ear.
“Y/n, let me take you on a date. Please. I know you don’t normally go out with guys like me, but I swear I’ll make it worth your while-“
“Park Jihoon and the little funny guitar. How does that sound? Or are you too good for the shrieking shack now?” You chuckled
“I’d love that” he smiled, making your heart melt a little.
Jimin scenario—he says ‘I love you’ for the first time
❀ genre: light smut, fluff
❀ summary:You see your world superstar boyfriend after months of being apart due to hectic schedules, and when you’re finally with him, skin meeting, lips touching, he says something that makes your heart stop.
“I’ve missed you like crazy” Jimin basically growls in your ear while trying to unzip the back of your dress.
You can feel it by the way he was kissing you how needy he was. BTS were mad busy these past couple of months, the days they weren’t traveling (which were not a lot to begin with) they had schedules that went on until late at night. You haven’t seen Jimin in so long, you haven’t touched him in so long.
The way he was caressing your back while softly kissing your neck with his plump lips right now felt so much like a dream you wanted to pinch yourself.
‘I can’t take this anymore, I want to be your boy-friend, I want us to be official. I know it’s going to be hard, but I want to try this with you.’ Was what he told you exactly 6 months ago after a year of being friend with benefits.
You knew Jimin way before he debuted with BTS, you two were always just friends, until one night. A night you’d remember for the rest of your life. You were at a common friend’s house, he was throwing a party, you had a few drinks and Jimin and you ended up saying a lot more to each other than you had initially expected.
One thing led to another and a few moments later Jimin was on top of you, banging your brains out in on of the mansion’s guest rooms. That’s when your thing started.
In the begging, it was strictly sex, Jimin was a member of the most famous boy band in the world, therefore he didn’t have much time for relationships. So you guys just kept fucking, maybe a little more often than expected, maybe with a little more feeling than you hoped for.
It was 6 months ago when both you and him realized you didn’t want to just fuck each other, you wanted to be together. The fact that Jimin confessed that first lifted a huge weight off your chest.
“I missed you too… so, so much” you moan when he hovers his hand over your clothed heat. Slightly touching it, creating the tinniest yet satisfying feeling of pleasure.
“I can’t believe I’m finally touching you” he bit your bottom lip “FaceTime just doesn’t cut it, I thought I’d go crazy” he pulled you in for a passionate kiss, his hands madly traveling throughout your body. When he’d pass over your boob he’d give it a light squeeze, making you squirm every time.
He lifted your dress up completely, leaving you exposed. You feel his hand slowly sliding on the inside of your underwear, and as he starts slowly massaging you clit your breath grew shaky and your heart rate was becoming dangerously high.
“How are you so wet already?” Jimin gave you his characteristic smirk and placed a quick kiss on your lips before focusing his stare on your semi-covered pussy. “You don’t know how much I’ve missed this” his voice low and soft.
You loose all your other senses, the only thing you were all too aware of was his warm hand that was currently drawing circles on your clit. There was a hot burning sensation in the pit of your stomach. Jimin was driving you crazy.
“Enough with the teasing” you grab his hand and drag him towards the bed “come here, you” you pull him in for a kiss as you both sink into the soft mattress.
Jimin pulls away from the kiss after a while, his body hovering on top of yours. He was starring at you without saying a word, his eyes filled with long lost galaxies. He was the most ethereal human being you had ever seen.
“God, I wish I could have this view every day for the rest of my life” he says, his eyes never leaving yours.
You place a small innocent kiss on his cheek “Then I’ll make sure to be there for the rest of your life” you smile and give his luscious lips a peck. Jimin made you feel safe. He made you feel like life was worth living.
“I love you” he suddenly says “and I’ll love you until I won’t have air to say it. But even then, I’ll still love you”
You look at him in shock. You could feel your eyes slightly tear up. Jimin was everything you ever wanted in life, and him saying that to you made you’re heart grow weak but beat fast at the same time. “I love you too” you say as a small tear runs down your face
Jimin smiles when he notices. “Aw baby” he cups your face with his hands and wipes your tear with his thump “You’re going to make me cry as well” he chuckled and gave you a small kiss on the forehead before wrapping his arms around you, hugging you tight, maybe a bit too tight.
He smelled like flowers that day, and you think, that’s the scent you want to wake up to every morning, that’s the scent you want to grow old with. Because if you’re not with him, flowers will never bloom.
“Are you really okay?” Jin asked Jungkook for the second time. The first time he asked that, Jungkook was too busy cleaning up his bloody nose with a piece of fabric he had ripped off his shirt.
“I’m fine Hyung, a bloody nose ain’t nothing” he said as they both entered a huge jet black car in a rush “I told you these Busan bastards had gone soft” he chuckled
“I can’t believe you did that without any back up” he shook his head in astonishment
“Hyung!” Jungkook relaxed his hand on Jin’s shoulder “ I am my backup”
“Stubborn, is what you are” Jin let out a laugh
“Well at least I’m not dead” he winked at Jin, all proud of the fact that he had just knocked out 3 Busan gang members who were working behind everyone’s back. Matahashi has been trying to attack the Korean Mafia units for a long time now. Bangtan knew he was getting more powerful, but they didn’t think their own people could be paid off to work for him.
Jin’s smile slowly died off “Matahashi is getting stronger by the minute. If we can’t trust our own then-“
“Hey hey. We can always trust each other. The 7 of us have been through worse than this. Remember? There’s nothing we can’t do together”
Jin formed a faint smile “It’s funny how you’re the youngest and yet in times like this you know just the right things to say”
“One of my many talents” he chuckled
There was a moment of silence before Jin decided to bring up a little observation he’d made earlier that night “So… what’s the deal between you and that girl?”
Jungkook turned to face Jin “what girl?”
“Oh you know what girl!…y/n” he smiled “ and don’t even try to lie to me, I’ve seen the way you look at her.”
Jungkook broke eye contact and stared at his feet, as if they were going to give him answers “Ahh you know how girls are…”
“Don’t give me that crap Jeon”
“Come on Hyung you know that I talk to a different girl like everyday”
Jin’s expression clearly showed Jungkook that he didn’t quite buy what he had just said. “Whatever…” he sighted “At this point, any contact with people outside of our circle could endanger both them and us. I think you guys should take a break from Collage”
“What..?”
“Should I say it in Spanish? Please don’t make me, my pronunciation is terrible”
“Oh come on Hyung, we’ve been in tough situations before, collage didn’t effect anything.” Jungkook tried to changed the elder’s mind.
“This. This is different. Do you see the Japanese mafia send their own to collage?”
“Yeah that’s why they’re all a bunch of psychos in there” he scoffed “Hyung, I’m not talking about me here, you know Taehyung and Hoseok need this. Maybe you do as well…”
Jin quickly turned his face towards the younger “Need what? A break from reality? Our reality? If I do that then this whole thing will go to shit”
Jungkook remained silent. Because he knew deep down that Jin was right. But he didn’t want to quit collage, especially not now. Even though Jungkook has never shown it, the daily routine of the life he was living before was rotting him from the inside out. Even if he wanted to act all strong, work was too much for him sometimes, collage helped him with that. Sure, the girls and the booze were not bad, but Jungkook loved attending his favorite classes and learning about all the things he was interested in. He felt like he was actually doing something for himself for once. Meeting you was also a great addition to his days. As much as he didn’t want to admit it, Jungkook started being comfortable around you, and that scared the crap out of him…
You close your eyes as you let yourself enjoy the music in you ears. You can’t believe a place like this existed in the campus. You were walking, taking a break from studying the whole day, when you stumbled across a tiny wooden door. Now, you couldn’t possibly ignore it… the door seemed odd to begin with, it was like it was made for an tiny 5ft elf…you barely fit through it and you squeezed yourself across the little path that was hiding behind it. To your surprise, it led you to a small round garden with a fountain in the middle of it. It almost felt like you had escaped your reality and had entered a different realm. This garden was so well kept and it had all kinds of flowers blooming around it. You sat down at the only bench which was placed right in front of the fountain. This place was perfect, it was isolated from the rest of the campus. No people, no Professors… just silence and the sound of birds tweeting here and there.
You thought you’d do some reading while you were there, when you read a sentence that you swear reminded you of Jungkook a bit, you can’t help but think about him again. Damn, he always finds a way to lure into your mind. You haven’t seen him for days. It’s been almost a week since the party, but there was no sign of Hoseok, Jungkook or even Taehyung for that matter. When Tuesday came around, May started to worry at the absence of contact from Hoseok so she decided to text him asking if everything was ok with him. All Hoseok said was that he was too busy working and studying for midterms at the same time, so you and May decided to just give him sometime to relax.
“You stole my spot” an oh so familiar male voice suddenly says from behind you.
You couldn’t trust your ears, so you turn around to see him. Jungkook, standing there like a single day hadn’t pass since the last time you saw him. He was just as handsome and just as dangerous to be around as you remember. “Oh so you’re not dead?” you simply say and quickly turned around, pretending to continue your book reading.
You heard him laugh and after two seconds he was now sitting next to you “How did you find this place? It was my secret”
“That door was so tiny, I just had to see what was behind it” you turn a page starring at your book that you were definitely not reading.
“Curiosity is one of your assets” he smiled
“I didn’t know curiosity was a good thing..?” You raised an eyebrow. Still not believing you were actually talking with him again.
“It depends on the things you’re curious about. And you’re always curious about the right things”
“Jeon Jungkook. Are you complimenting me right now? Did you hit your head or something?”
“No… just my nose” he chuckled “Hey, don’t act surprised y/n. I’ve complimented you before….”
“Oh really? When?” You laugh
“Don’t you remember? I told you how beautiful you were the other day”
When he said that you both remained silent. You remembered that he indeed said that in a text some nights back. Your stomach was a knot again. “Oh that?” You try to brush it off “I mean…weren’t you high? You probably didn’t even mean it”
“I always tell the truth when I’m high. Truths I don’t usually say otherwise” he didn’t even hesitate to reply. Again, you couldn’t read him. You don’t know how he means the things he’s saying, and you’re afraid of misunderstanding the situation. You find you’re self unable to speak again. He was the only person in the world you were tongue-tied around, and yet the only person you really wanted to talk to.
The only thing that came to mind was the conversation you had before he disappeared. “What would you do if you were Elijah?” you ask all of a sudden, completely ignoring his overwhelming compliments.
Jungkook jerked his head up and sighted “I have no idea… but for some reason I’ve been thinking about it a lot”
“Why?” You chuckle “are you thinking about saving the world without telling the love of your life?”
He lowered his face to make eye contact with you “Something like that”
As you carefully examined his face you notice a small scar right under his chin. “What is that?” You point to it
Jungkook widened his eyes and touched his chin. “Oh that? Nothing I just got on a little accident”
“Are you sure you’re okay? It looks a little deep…”
Jungkook formed a playful smile “Are you worrying about me y/n?”
You shake your head “remind me to never show basic human decency around you again.”
“Ha! Just when I thought I was getting special treatment” he laughed “You know I wasn’t going to mention this… but it is my birthday….”
“I don’t believe you” you immediately reply
“It’s true” he chuckled
“Well… happy birthday! I hope this is not a joke”
“It’s definitely real. Aaaaand I’m also having a real birthday party. Jimin wouldn’t let me live other wise…You and May are invited of course.”
“Oh we’re definitely going to be there!”
“Hoseok was going to tell you guys today. He’s been working very hard these past couple of days you know...” Jungkook had an apologetic look.
“I know. It’s okay. I totally get it! Don’t worry. Me and May will be there tonight.” 
Jungkook smiled “I’ve got to run now. A lot of things to get done before tonight.”
“Yeah yeah birthday boy! Go get ready” you patted his shoulder
Jungkook got up and just as he was about to make a step towards he stopped at his tracks. You could clearly tell by his expression that he was thinking about something “y/n?”
“Yeah?”
“I think I could never be Elijah. I’m too selfish for that..” He said all of a sudden
“You’re saying you would choose to be with the love of your life even if that meant it would destroy them?”
Jungkook took a few seconds before responding. “Yeah… is that bad?”
You shrugged “ You know what? Elijah never gave Sophia a choice. You never know. Maybe Sophia didn’t want to live without him. Maybe she would choose to be destroyed instead of having to live a life without him.”
Jungkook looked at you in disbelief “you really think that?”
“Yeah…?” Jungkook was looking at you funny and it made you ponder what the real reason behind asking all of this was “Jungkook, is everything alright?”
He sat back down “y/n, I have to tell you something…”
“Ok” May sighted and sat down next to you “On a scale from one to ten, how bad do you think it would be if-“
“At least a twenty” you quickly replied. You had finally come clean to May about you and Jungkook. At first she was very skeptical, because May and Mina talked a lot and she has heard a lot of stories about that dude. Not good ones. But May thought that if you actually kissed Jungkook one time, then maybe you would loose your interest for him afterwards. And she was not completely wrong. May knows you, and you’ve done that with guys multiple times before. You would be super into a dude for like a week, and once you kissed them it was like some kind of magic spell was been broken. You don’t know what it is, but your brain completely looses feelings after one interaction. Of course that wasn’t the case with Blake. But he was the only exception. You still think that by kissing Jungkook you would magically stop thinking about him, but the real reason you didn’t want to do it was simply because you didn’t want to give Jungkook that satisfaction. You hate how cocky he is when it comes to women and you didn’t just want to be another one of his prizes. Even if it was as a small thing as a kiss, you didn’t want to give it to him. You had too much pride for that.
“Y/n, you know I’m right about this. Just make out with him one time and then poof, problem solved.” May clearly seemed suspicious of your facial expressions and your luck of response “unless you don’t want to do it because you’re scared you actually like him?”
You quickly jerk your head up “No no it’s not that. I just… well I don’t wanna kiss him.”
“But why? Knowing you it would help you forget him for good. God that sounds fucked up tho don’t it?” She laughed
Yeah it did. You never really understood your self either. How did you manage to completely loose all feelings you had for a guy after one kiss? That fact about yourself still puzzled you. “I just… I don’t want to kiss Jeon fucking Jungkook alright? He’s all cocky and annoying and I don’t wanna do it. To be fair, I’m pretty sure I don’t even think about him because I have a crush on him, I think the reason he’s staying in my mind rent free is because of how much of a prick he is.”
May chuckled “You’re definitely in a tight situation there. But if you whine to me about him again I’m gonna have to arrange a spin the bottle game with just you two”
“I’m telling you May, don’t mind what I said earlier. That night doesn’t even play in my head anymore, now that I told you everything and got it out of my chest, I think I’m good” you flashed a smile to May. And you knew she knew you weren’t being entirely genuine when you said that, but talking about Jungkook more would be pointless. Besides, you have exams coming up and you didn’t want to bother with the Jungkook thing more than you already have, it’s simply ridiculous.
You were seated at the huge collage library. May was a couple of rows in front of you. You two promised you wouldn’t sit next to each other otherwise you would get zero work done, and with midterms being right around the corner you couldn’t afford that. Two hours had now passed and your attention shifts from your book to your phone when you hear it’s buzzing.
Jungkook: picture.file
This man had to be kidding. Isn’t he even embarrassed about the show he put on last night? If you were high texting people you wouldn’t be able to breath towards their direction the next day, let alone fucking text them. You’ve got to give it to the dude, he didn’t care what other people thought.
After a couple of minutes of shifting your gaze between your phone screen and your book, you finally give in and open his message. Your eyes widened as you stared at what looked like a picture of you in the library. What the fuck? Is he a stalker now? You quickly lift your head in order to find him. And after a couple of seconds you see him, starring at you. He had his headphones in and two textbooks piled up at the edge of the desk. He gave you a quick smile before opening one of his books.
y/n: creep
You gently throw your phone next to you and started highlighting a few lines from the book you were reading.
Ding
Another fucking message? What is this dude seriously thinking? That you two are best friends that get to text 24/7?
Jungkook: what r u reading?
You simply double tapped on the screen to view the message, but you didn’t respond. You wanted to make to Jungkook absolutely clear that you wanted to focus on studying. Not a minute passes by when you hear your phone buzz again.
Jungkook: ignoring me, y/n?
God, you could hear him say that sentence. What was his deal? Couldn’t he clearly see you were in the middle of doing something?
y/n I’m trying to study Jungkook.
Jungkook: studying? Sorry my bad
Jungkook: with all the highlighter you were using, I thought you were coloring:)
You mentally roll your eyes and you focus on your book again, entirely ignoring jungkook’s stupid remarks. To your surprise, your phone remained silent for about 20 minutes before it vibrated again. But it wasn’t Jungkook who had texted you this time.
Felix: y/n imma go study in the library rn
Felix: wanna join me? Studying alone sucks
Now that you think about it, you haven’t really seen Felix this week at all. You were either with Hoseok and May or at your room watching Pixar movies. Felix was a decent friend, he helped you get familiar with the classes you were taking, you appreciated that a whole lot.
y/n: one step ahead of you mate
y/n: I’m sitting towards the front. There’s not a lot of people here, I’ll be hard to miss
Felix: you’re hard to miss in general y/n!
There he goes again. May told you a hundred times now that Felix was all flirty with you but you chose to ignore her even though what she was saying wasn’t completely untrue. Felix didn’t make any moves in real life, but when it came to texting, he was obviously saying things that weren’t exactly friendly. Although they were subtle, whenever flirty comments did occur you couldn’t just brush them off. You felt awkward because you truly viewed him as a friend and you always didn’t know how to reply and what reaction to give.
About 10 minutes later you feel a tap on your shoulder
“Wow you’ve already finished chapter 6?” Felix whispered while sitting down next to you.
“Yeah I mean up until chapter 4 I pretty much knew everything already” you said while starring at your book.
“Ah life seems nice when you’re smart” he opened his backpack and grabbed a notebook
“I’m not smart” you chuckled as quietly as you could
“Whoah is that Jungkook? Holy shit I haven’t seen that dude for so long… I heard he’s dating Yuna now” Felix suddenly said.
You froze in place. Jungkook was doing what? Well you definitely know they slept together but dating? You thought Jungkook didn’t exactly date. You shake your head. Why the fuck do you even care about that? “Oh he is?” You say in a monotonous voice.
“I swear Mina just won’t shut up about it” he chuckled “If Mina says they’re dating then I believe her, she’s a super spy that one”
You clutch your pen in your fist. ‘You know, I read once that the best kiss is the one that has been exchanged between the eyes before it reached the lips, and y/n, I think I've kissed you about 10 times already….’. He said that to you 7 days ago. Fucking 7 days ago… and now he is dating someone? That man was the definition of an absolute playboy. The fact that you thought about that night constantly was now disgusting to you. You can’t believe you fooled yourself enough to think for even a second that he was being sincere.
“Wow… I can’t believe this. He’s fucking trash” May said in rage while you took a large sip of the Cafeteria’s soup.
For some reason, you were not nearly as angry as May was about this. You gave it a bit of thought, and it’s definitely for the better. Jungkook is no good for you, you deserve much better than some asshole who is willing to say anything in order to get laid. As far as you’re concerned, you dodged a bullet. “May, chill. Its just as I told you this morning, I don’t care about Jungkook. It was just a phase!”
“Well I just can’t believe he would even date Yuna… I mean that girl is SO annoying. Have you heard the way she speaks? For real, she’s dumber than a pile of unscented hand soaps.” May sighted “can’t believe Jungkook would go for that”
You roll your eyes “Jungkook would go for anything May, don’t you get it? He is textbook fuckboy…” you made a pause “Unscented hand soaps? Really? That’s the analogy you’re going with?”
“Why? It’s a brilliant analogy if you think about it! Like let’s be honest who would even go for freaking unscented hand soaps? Don’t you want your hands to smell nice after you wash them? It’s just so satisfying to have that clean smell!”
“One hundred percent agree” Hoseok suddenly said when he finally approached your table “I have no idea what we are talking about but hand soaps should be scented 100%” he sat down next to May.
“Exactly” May gushed “See? Hobi gets it”
“See y/n? I get it!” Hoseok said all proud
Both you and May laughed. You’re sure Hoseok would know if Jungkook was in a relationship with Yuna, but you didn’t even bother to ask him. You didn’t care enough for that.
“So, what are you ladies doing on this Friday night?” Hoseok asked and you knew where he was going with this. Another party… and to be honest, you kind of wanted to go out. You’ve been studying non stop, a little partying would do more good than harm.
“Do you have any suggestions?” You voiced excitingly
“Well, me and the boys are throwing a ‘welcome home’ party for Jimin. He actually asked me to let you guys know. So? You’re coming right?”
“Of course we are!” May sounded happier than ever “we’re going to be there before 10!”
—
“Y/n it’s literally 10:30 we are so freaking late!!” you heard May’s screaming voice coming from the living room. You had been trying to find your favorite dress for the past 20 minutes. After a couple of heart attacks you finally found it lying under your chair. You swear you would’ve canceled had you not find it. That dress hugs your body perfectly and you just wanted to look as good as possible tonight.
“I’m so sorry” you puppy eyed May as you put your shoes on. “I’m all ready now, we can go!”
“You’re lucky you’re hot y/n” she smirked at you “Let’s go!”
The fact that you are greeted yet with another humongous mansion doesn’t even surprise you anymore. You notice that the party was much more crowded than last time. Damn, Jimin must be popular. You and May slowly made your way to the area where the usual boys were sitting. You hate that you locked eyes with Jungkook almost immediately. His lips curled into a small smile as he held your gaze. You hate yourself for admitting how hot he is. Sitting there, legs slightly open, a hand over his lap while his other softly holding his drink. His sleeves rolled up so his beautiful ink would show. You could fucking paint him.
“If it isn’t the perfect duo!” Namjoon shouted over the loud music “How have you ladies been?” He smiled, his dimples very visible.
“Oh you know…collage life isn’t that exciting” you say, finally snapping away from that intense eye contact you and Jungkook had.
“What are you talking about y/n? Don’t you remember Miller throwing up during Econ? THAT was flipping exciting” Hoseok chuckled
“Sounds marvelous” Jin scoffed. “Hello y/n! Nice to see you again” he handed you a drink.
“Aww you remember what drink I like!!”
Jin laughed “Honey, you drink lemon vodka, trust me, it’s not that hard to remember”
“Says the man who strictly drinks scotch” Yoongi interrupted “don’t let Jin Hyung tease you y/n. I think lemon vodka is a great choice of beverage”
You made an awkward grin “Thanks Yoongi!”
With the corner of your eyes you could see Jungkook starring at you up and down carefully, as if he was a lion and you were a lamb. His eyes were fixated on your hips and slowly moved up, towards your face. When your eyes met, his dopey expression evaporated into a cocky smile. You quickly turned your face the other way, only to see Jimin pacing sloppily towards you.
“Y/n!!! Oh my god I’m so glad you came!!” Jimin hugged you, the smell of alcohol being stronger than his cologne.
“Jimin! Hey…. Great party by the way…uhm… welcome back to Korea???”
Jimin cackled with laughter and you don’t think it was because the joke you made was that funny,,, Jimin had clearly been drinking a bit too much.
“Hey uhm-“ Taehyung’s rushed voiced suddenly made its appearance out of nowhere. You turned around, a worried expression on his face. He was looking at the boys “Busan said they let him go, something about Matahashi making a deal with the Islanders.”
Jin quickly got up from the couch “No, no. Any movement goes through us first.” He frowned his eyebrows
You peaked at May who was just as confused as you were.
“I know, that’s what I told them. They said Matahashi moved his own strings. He payed them good money-“
“To hell with Matahashi alright? Isn’t Bangtan supposed to be leading house?” Jungkook seriously sounded pissed.
“Let’s just kill those bastards already !” Jimin shouted while downing yet another shot.
Suddenly, everyone looked at each other worried, and then stared at you and May awkwardly.
“He’s joking!!” Hoseok made a fake laugh and patted Jimin on his shoulder “it’s… it’s an inside joke you know- a figure of speech” Hoseok reassured you and May. “Right Jimin?” he seemed to be squeezing Jimins shoulder
Jimin looked around confused. “What?”
“For fucks sake” Yoongi pulled Jimin by his hand and whispered something to his ear.
Now May could call you delusional all she wanted, but this simply wasn’t normal. You knew something was clearly happening and they didn’t want you to know. “Everything ok…?” You ask
“Y/n! Hey… long time no see” Tae wrapped his arm around you, in efforts to change the subject “I know you must’ve missed me like crazy” he winked
You laugh and shake your head “ Not a day passed where I didn’t think of you” you joked, earning a laugh from Namjoon and a glare from Jungkook who was sitting right in front of you.
“Jay kay! Please tell me you’ve got weed on you man.” Taehyung whined
Jungkook raised his eyebrow “you never give me when I ask you Hyung”
Taehyung formed a boxy smile and sat down on Jungkook’s lap, playfully ruffling his hair “ohhh come on Jungkook!! You’re not going to miss 2 grams”
Jungkook rolled his eyes and reached his pocket “here” he passed a small black box to Taehyung. “That’s the best stuff you can find in Seoul” Jungkook sounded all proud.
“Yeah yeah, tell Yutashi I said hi” Taehyung jumped up “see you around y/n” he said in a rush before storming off.
You face Jungkook with angry eyes. You suddenly remembered the high texts he had sent you the other day, and how he was probably proud of that as well. How he was probably like that to every girl he met. The thought disgusted you.
“What?” He questioned the way you were looking at him. Jungkook seated down and you standing on top of him, the only girl in his view being you and only you. “You look even better from this angle” his usual annoying smirk while he said that.
“I see you haven’t invited your girlfriend” you find the perfect time to tease him.
Jungkook seemed suprised by your words “My what?”
“Yuna? Aren’t you guys a thing now or whatever?”
Jungkook let out a laugh “Me and Yuna? I’d rather chop my dick off”
You raised an eyebrow. You could tell he was being honest. Gosh, Mina just loves to oversell everything doesn’t she? You felt kind of embarrassed. You took a sip of your drink and then suddenly saw Jungkook getting up from his chair, his face reaching yours “why? Were you jealous?” He whispered in you ear
You nearly choked as you downed the vodka. Jealous? Who did this dude thought he was? Please, you couldn’t care less about him and Yuna. “Fuck off” you made a single step in order to get away from him but he immediately stopped you by grabbing your arm
“You know, it turns me on when you talk to me like that” he lightly caressed your shoulder with his thump.
“Let go you dick” you shook your shoulder in order to free yourself from his grip. Why does your stomach feel all weird? You can’t allow yourself to be weak like that.
“Oh yeah sorry, tell your boyfriend I’ll behave myself tonight” he scoffed and took a sip of his drink looking very annoyed
“Boyfriend?” You accidentally think aloud
“Oh you know, mister perfect. That Felix kid from second year” you could see his jaw tensing up as he said that.
Now that was a fucking first. Why did Jungkook think you and Felix were even a thing? Why would he even care to mention that? You swear that man puzzled you every time you talked “Felix is my friend” you simply reply
Jungkook stared at you for a second, his jaw finally loosened a bit as he leaned his face closer to you. His cent making you all dizzy….“Good, he doesn’t deserve you” his eyes almost jet black.
Weird. You swear you were at a party with a bunch of people surrounding you, yet it felt like you were alone with him. For a second, you felt like the world had stop spinning. “Who are you to judge what I deserve or not?” You manage to say after taking a big breath.
The edges of his lips curled up “I just know Felix isn’t for you, he’s too vanilla and you’re too…” he made a pause, his gaze moving from your eyes to your lips “interesting”
You gulped. You can’t even lie to yourself at this point. Jungkook starring at your lips, his face centimeters away and his cologne dancing in your nostrils… for a second, you thought of leaning in, letting your lips touch. Maybe if you’d done that you would magically free yourself from whatever power he seemed to have over you. No, you think. You won’t give in. No matter how hard it was you took one step back. “Whatever…” you were trembling inside, but you tried to make your voice as steady as possible “I don’t need you to tell me whether I’m interesting or not”
Jungkook lightly jerked his head up, you could see his Adam’s apple slowly going up and down. His jawline still sharp and his soft looking neck compelling you to leave marks on his skin. After he let out a small sight he faced you again. “You’ll drive me crazy y/n…”
What did he even mean by that? You couldn’t read this man. You swear it was easy for you to analyze anyone else, but when it came to Jungkook, the whole thing was a blur. “What do you mean?” You ask. If you were being honest, the way he was looking at you made you want to kneel
Just when he was about to say something, Jin interrupted “Jungkook, we need to go”
Jungkook quickly turned around to face Jin. His expression and aura immediately changed, he took a step back to create more space between you and him. “Go where?”
“Busan. You and me. I’m not going to say it again, be at the parking lot in 5” he said and stormed off.
“You better go, he sounded serious” You told him
He looked down “In ‘Fight for us’, do you remember that scene where Elijah wanted to tell Sophia everything? He was ready to literally quit saving the world just so she knew how much he loved her before it was too late?” He said all of a sudden. You were confused at the change of subject, but you liked Fight for us so much that you ignored his change in behavior.
“Of course I remember, I was crying for like 10 minutes straight. He never told her the truth, he just left-Poor Sophia, she didn’t know a thing”
Jungkook shook his head “Do you think what he did was wrong?”
“Choosing his duty over love? I don’t think it’s necessarily wrong, but I wish he would’ve stayed with her you know? I wish he would’ve told her everything”
“if you ask me, he didn’t choose duty. He chose Love” Jungkook made a pause to inspect your face
You looked very confused at what he just said “What do you mean? He left. He went to save the world and never saw her again. How is that choosing love?”
“He had two decisions. Either stay with Sophia and tell her how he felt, maybe even earn a kiss and a couple of hours of love with her and die. Or, he could save the world, and Sophia would live. She would get to be alive and live her life. He chose to sacrifice everything so that Sophia wouldn’t die. That’s choosing love”
You were petrified. You never thought about it like that before. Jungkook’s words came out of the blue and they startled you. God, this man never ceases to surprise you. “You’re right….” You couldn’t help but agree
“I wish I wasn’t…” he looked down, you swear he looked kind of sad when he said that. “Anyway, I have to go” he left before you couldn’t even say anything.
« Jungkook looked at you, with eyes made of brown glitter. You couldn’t possibly explain how beautiful he was under this lighting. “Oh love, life is so short…. Don’t you want to be alive before you die?” »
This is a slow burn smut/angst fic. Take it or leave it
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“Are you ok..?” You enter your dorm, greeting you was your best friend’s petrified face staring at her computer screen.
“I just watched a video of a pigeon waving back at president Putin….so…no I don’t think I am” she replied, the only moving muscle being her mouth.
You smile, “May… I thought your brother died or something..”
“Well with the amount of drugs he’s doing I wouldn’t be surprised…”
“May!! Oh my god” you cover your mouth with your hand in embarrassment
“Kidding!!!” She jumped up from the bed. “Did you finish enrolling to your classes yet?”
“Yep! I’m all set”
There was a pause before May looked at you in the eyes and smiled “Can you believe it? I mean making it to collage is one thing, but being 19 years old is even crazier in my humble opinion”
You both chuckle.
“No for real think about it, remember that time when we got so high and went to pee together in mr Johnson's backyard? That dog of his could’ve turned us into his late night snack if it wasn’t for Blake”
Both of your laughters faded. Blake. Just his name felt like a knife slicing across your heart. It sucks so much that we miss people like that. You think you’ve accepted that someone is out of your life, that you’ve grieved and it’s over, and then bam. One little thing and you feel like you’ve lost that person all over again.
Blake was your first relationship, mister perfect. If you could give him another name it would be Ken. You two were living the perfect teenage couple life, that’s until summer of 2019. You still remember the feeling of your puffy eyes. Dried out from crying all night. You were the one that found him…. Just thinking about it makes you form an unpleasant facial expression, May notices.
“Hey…Y/N, I’m a huge ass, sorry” she caressed your solder
“‘No, it’s not your fault. There’s nothing wrong with reminiscing about old times. Life goes on, right?” Practice what you preach is such a bitch… moving on from what happened to you 3 years ago isn’t easy, yet you still beat yourself up for not getting better mentally.
“This year is gonna be epic! I can feel it in my bones!” May wrapped her left arm around your shoulders, embracing you tightly
“If you don’t let go of me now I won’t be able to feel MY bones at all”
“And then you came and you were all like ‘OH MY GOD WE HAVE TO SAVE THE CHILD’ and then I was so scared I fainted on hoseok’s arms and then you almost sacrificed your life for that kid- IT was crazy y/n you were like superwoman” May was trying to pay attention to the road while explaining her crazy dream to you.
“Oh my god May I had the exact same dream!” You say in a surprised tone.
“Really!?”
“Are you crazy? Of course I didn’t!” You laugh
“Fuuuuck you dude. I’m telling you it was like a whole ass movie”
“Yeah if you’re the one experiencing it, sure” you roll your eyes and laugh.
May sloppily parked her car in front of a convenience store “Hoseok should be here any minute now”
You rest your head in the back of the seat before you slightly turn it to the left to face May “So… how long do we have to pretend that you and Hobi are just friends?”
“We ARE just friends…” May sighted “Look, he is a very nice guy… plus he has been extremely kind to both me and you. I’m scared that if I push things between us… well… I’m scared he will distance himself. It’s better to have him as a friend than to loose him completely, right?” May looked like she was looking for a bit of validation from you. And to be honest, you understand exactly how she feels. Hoseok has been a good friend to both of you, and you know that May would feel terrible if she was to ruin that friendship.
“I feel you. It’s tough. But if you want my opinion, sooner or later he is going to make his move. Jesus with the way he looks at you sometimes I wonder why there ain’t no ring on your finger already girl” you both chuckle.
May quickly sat up straight “Shhhg he’s coming”
“Hey giiirls” you heard Hoseok’s loud voice while he was approaching the car but as you turn around you notice another male figure right behind him. “Hope you don’t mind, I brought some company” he pointed to his blond haired friend “This is Jimin!”
May was smiling so hard she resembled a host of some kind of a Disney show “The more the merrier! Hello Jimin, I’m May” she waved
“I’ve heard loads of great things” the blonde haired man turned his face slightly towards Hoseok and formed a cheeky smile. “And you must be y/n” he made a heart melting eye contact. This man’s eyes were so expressive you had to double check whether or not you were drunk.
“Heyy!! hope you’ve heard great things about me too” you chuckled
Jimin was still smiling when you said that, but the smile felt different, like he wanted to say something more but couldn’t.
“So, do you guys know where the mall is or should we use the gps?” May asked while unlocking her phone
“Oh yeah don’t worry it’s not even that far from here, we’ll let you know the way” Jimin said. It was like this dude had a constant smile on his face. He looked kind and warm. You wander why you hadn’t met him all this time. You bet you four would get along.
The car ride was fun. You and Jimin listen to pretty much exactly the same music, you argued with both May and Hoseok about that one controversial song you and Jimin wanted to listen to. It was genuinely like you knew the guy for a while. The fact that Jimin and Hoseok are best friends with Jungkook still eludes you. They are so different.
—
“Hey can we go grab something to eat? I’m literally starving” Hoseok made a cute whine while touching his stomach
“Sure! What’s on the menu today? Fried chicken?” May jumped up and down like a 5 year old
“Oh my god, can you read my thoughts?” Hoseok made a fake shocked face.
Suddenly Jimin elbowed you “what’s up with these two?” He whispered while laughing
“I literally could not tell you. I’m still trying to figure it out myself” you chuckled
“Jokes aside, you guys seem to help Hoseok a lot mentally” He whispered again, while still gazing at Hoseok and May “You know I was very hesitant when the guys said they wanted to go to collage. I mean work is so important to us we tend to forget real life exists. And besides it’s very dangerous to be so public sometimes-“ Jimin made a pause to look at you, thinking he messed something up. Work, again. Their damn work. It was all these dudes seem to care about. You couldn’t help but still wonder why it was so important to them. Sure, they were 7 boys living alone, you bet they got stressed over income, but that all just doesn’t make sense when you see them party in these big mansions wearing hella expensive suits. Something just didn’t sit right with you.
Jimin cleared his neck before continuing “Anyway, what I’m trying to say is, I get it now. You know for the longest of time, I would wake up in our house only to face a stressed Hoseok every single fucking day. And now, I see him actually enjoying his life for once. He seems genuinely happy when he’s with you two. I really want to thank you about that.”
Jimin’s words caught you completely off guard. You remember talking with Hoseok one day after a common class. He opened up a bit to you, he told you about how he thought his life was a loop that he couldn’t escape and you related to that so bad. You knew how he felt like, and you couldn’t help but be relieved to know now that you and May actually helped him. “Jimin, you don’t need to thank us for being friends with Hoseok. Hoseok is awesome and has been a very good friend to both me and May. I’m really happy to know he’s doing ok now.”
“Heyy there’s a table here” May yelled “Hey what are you guys doing over there?” She and Hoseok finally noticed that you and Jimin weren’t following them this entire time.
“We’re coming!!” Jimin laughed and grabbed your arm.
“God I haven’t had Korean Fried chicken in so long, I’m literally salivating thinking about it” Jimin chuckled
“Oh right, Jimin you only returned to Korea a couple of days ago, right?” You said as you sat down next to him
“Ohh.. yeah. I’ve been abroad working for so long I’ve forgotten what kimchi tastes like” he shook his head
“How long did you stay abroad for?” You questioned while looking at the menu.
“2 and a half months. But it felt more like a year if I’m being honest”
“Wow, that must’ve been lonely! Considering all of your friends were here…”
“Jimin used to face time me for three hours everyday” Hoseok joined the conversation “I wouldn’t have a problem with it but the time difference was a pain in the ass. Italy and Korea have like a 7 hour time difference”
“Italy?! Oh my god, I love Italy, where did you stay?” May sounded excited. May didn’t ‘love’ Italy, she just loved garlic bread… you’ve told her multiple times that Italy was so much more than the food.
“Venice! Beautiful city Venice was. But since I was working there it took away some of its beauty…” Jimin made a short pause “anyway! Has everyone made up their minds? I can’t wait to stuff my face with some Korean chicken!”
—
You, May, Hoseok and Jimin were not talking at all. That chicken was so delicious you literally spent at least 5 minutes mindlessly eating it, well that was until Jimin’s phone rang.
He made a sight. It was funny, eating chicken was more important to Jimin than answering his phone but he eventually gave in. “You motherfucker didn’t call me ONE day while I was at Venice. Why are you all over my dick now??”
Hoseok was chewing and laughing at the same time, implying that he knew the person that had called Jimin “He never calls anyone when we are away and alone but when we are in Korea he just doesn’t leave us in piece that fella” Hobi yelled so the person calling could hear him.
Jimin laughed “He says you should stop crying about it”
“Whoahh Jeon Jungkook I’m never letting you borrow my clothes again”
Jungkook? Fuck. Couldn’t one day pass without that name being brought up? You were having such a fan time and somehow he always finds a way to ruin it one way or another.
“Oh we’re at the Seoul Mall with two angels eating chicken! Man this stuff is better than I remembered? You need to buy me more tomorrow Jeon” Jimin said to Jungkook through the phone.
“Two angels?” Hoseok repeated “Hey don’t tell him that! he’ll misunderstand dude, just tell him we’re with May and y/n”
“Hoseok wants you to know the two angels are May and y/n” and as Jimin was laughing his face suddenly formed a weird expression and he slowly removed his phone from his ear.
“What happened” Hoseok was still passionately eating chicken
“That little shit hang up on me”
Hoseok chuckled “yeah he does that sometimes”
—
Just when you guys were about to get up from the table Jungkook appears out of nowhere. “Having fun without me?” He said to everyone that was sitting at the table, but at the end he kept eye contact with you, his usual smirk painted on his face. Honestly what was this dude’s problem? Why did he seem to be everywhere you went? Yeah sure he’s best friends with Hoseok and Jimin, but today was supposed to be you having fun with a couple of friends, not him. To be honest, maybe you were being a bit unfair since you just didn’t fancy the man much, but still, he has the nerve to come up here with an attitude?
“You literally said you didn’t feel like going out today-“ Jimin kind of exposed Jungkook but he quickly cut him off
“Hey if you’d ask me a second time I’d say yes! I was just testing you guys”
“Testing us? You’re weird Jeon” Hoseok got up and gave Jungkook a handshake “we just ate tho mate, sorry”
“Hey I’m pretty sure I saw a place with a bunch of arcade games on the second floor, are you guys down?” You suddenly remembered that you wanted to mention that earlier, you wish Jungkook wasn’t here though.
“I’m sooooo down for that” Jimin got up with a jump. “Hobi if I win at Frogger you owe me 50 bucks” he started pacing towards the elevator
“Hey I never agreed to such a deal” Hobi quickly followed behind him.
You got up to follow the guys and Jungkook walked next you staying quite for a while before breaking the silence “You seem to be getting along with all of my friends”
You kept walking, ignoring his existence next to you.
He let out a laugh and placed his hands in his pockets “Cat ate your tongue?”
“What exactly to you want me to say?” You stopped and turned to the side to face him.
“I get a feeling that you don’t like me much y/n. Why is that?” You could sense the sarcasm in his tone and for some reason it annoyed you more than it should have.
“I barely know you Jungkook” you continued to walk.
Jungkook stopped you by grabbing your arm “Now that’s just unfair. You know me far more than you know Jimin, and you two seem to hit it off just fine.”
“Do I? Do I really know you? Cause whenever we talk you just feel Ingenuine. You do things one day and then you act like a completely different person the other. Sometimes you’re nice but others you can be such a dick” you clearly said more than you wanted to say. But you’ve been keeping all of this inside you for a week now. You haven’t told May about the moment you and Jungkook had at the party and it was honestly troubling you for some fucking reason. The way Jungkook acted all sweet and decent towards you but then two days later is cracking jokes with a girl he had fucked the other night is something that is annoying to you in a way you can’t explain. And the worst part is, you don’t even know why… you don’t know why Jungkook has such an effect on you and it scares you.
Jungkook looked down “hey do you wanna go somewhere private to talk? I don’t think-“
“Hell no, I did not go out with Jimin and Hoseok so I could have a therapy session with you. I’m going to play some street fighter to ease my mind” you started walking again. You honestly did not want to do this. Besides, it was pointless to talk to him anyway. Your relationship wasn’t even that deep. You don’t know if you could even call Jungkook a friend, so why even bother trying to solve something that didn’t really need to be solved?
“Street fighter??! I bet you anything you can’t beat me on that game” Jungkook lightly punched you in the shoulder
“Oh consider it a challenge then” you said with what you called your war eyes.
You spent two whole hours playing street fighter with Jungkook. You were surprised to find out he was almost as competitive and stubborn as you were. It was honestly fun, more fun than you initially expected it to be. Jimin Hoseok and May had played pretty much every other game on that store and they were all amazed at the sight of you and Jungkook going round after round on that one game for two hours straight
“Hey you two, I think it’s honestly time to let it go, little kids want to play as well” Jimins voice was slightly audible from the back of your heads. You didn’t care to respond as you were fixated on the game.
“Fuck the kids I need to win 3 more rounds” Jungkook said the sentence like he was rushing to catch a flight he was late for.
“You mean loose 3 more rounds” you teased.
“How old are you guys?” May chuckled “Come ooon I wanna get ice scream”
Your eyes stared at the game and the game only “Cool go get ice scream then. This is important”
“Ok ok how about we just go get ice scream and you two just come and find us whenever you’re done with this damn thing, alright?” Hoseok said
“Yeah yeah whatever” Jungkook was as fixated to the game as you were.
“May I’ll call you when we are done ok?” While you were saying that Jungkook managed to deal some damage to you in the game. “You SNEAKY little rat”
Jungkook laughed “Y/n your positioning was rather weak this round.” He made a posh accent
“You two amaze me…” was all May said before heading off with the guys.
—
After 20 minutes victory was finally yours. You knew this would be the outcome, even though you got nervous at points because Jungkook was indeed extremely good at that game. You never thought you’d meet another street fighter enthusiast.
“You know what, I’m not even mad that I lost. That was legit so much fun” Jungkook said as you exited the Arcade store.
“I didn’t know you could be this cool Jungkook, good job” you chuckled
“What do you mean? You said I was the definition of cool, remember?”
How could you fucking forget? That night has been playing in your head like a damn movie. ‘I think I’ve kissed you about 10 times already y/n’ . How could you possibly fucking forget that. The way he said it was everything you ever wanted to hear from someone yet you didn’t want that someone to be him. He is everything you need to stay away from. You know he is no good for you, yet you can’t help but wonder whether or not you should have kissed him that night, then maybe that thought wouldn’t linger in your head this whole fucking week. You look down, facing him is something you find rather difficult all of a sudden.
“Hey I wanna grab a burger actually, do you mind walking with me?” He asked
“Sure” you didn’t even hesitate. You started walking again and the silence was just unbearable because your thoughts kept getting the better of you.
“I was never able to do that K.O combo, honestly I tried so hard… how did you even learn to do it?” He broke the silence.
You took a second to look at him only to notice Jeon Jungkook had puppy eyes. He seemed so genuinely surprised that you were actually good at that game and it was entertaining to you. “You really wanna know how I managed to do that?”
“Of course I want to know!”
“Well don’t tell anyone, but I do have a secret.”
Jungkook’s eyes lit up “ I knew it! It’s just too hard to do it the normal way and-“
“I was a complete loser during elementary school” you cut him off and he seemed more than confused by your answer.
“What does that have to do with-“
“I had absolutely no friends. I didn’t like any of the kids in my class, and I don’t blame me actually, they were all little assholes” you chuckle “anyway, that’s how I did it. I used to play street fighter all day. I didn’t do anything else. So naturally, I became a pro”
Jungkook shook his head smiling “You are something else y/n”
You bet Jungkook doesn’t even know how these words make you feel. He could say all these things and then act like it’s nothing. You envied him for that. If you could brush things off that easily your life would be ten time easier to deal with. But unfortunately, one of your gifts is over analyzing situations. Thanks for that, universe.
You finally arrived at the dorms. Your bed felt so good after such a long day. You quickly washed up and brushed your teeth. You tucked yourself in your bed and closed all of your room’s lights except a little tiny orange bear light that you had on the edge of your night stand. When you pick up your phone and check your notifications, you find a text message from an unsaved number.
+8210 2679048: Hey, you prob don’t have my number, don’t freak, this is Jungkook
Jungkook? How did he even get your number? Hoseok Maybe? Even if that’s true why would he ask Hoseok for your number anyway? You can’t help but immediately reply.
y/n: did something happen??
Not even a minute passes and you hear a ding from your phone
Jungkook: does something need to happen for me to text you?
What was this? Jungkook thinks you and him have one day of truce and he can just chit chat with you through texts? He had to have known that was kind of odd, considering you barely talk with Hoseok over texts. People don’t talk over text when they don’t talk that much in real life.
y/n: uuhhh yeah. Also my texting hours are 10am to 5pm.
You tried to play it off as a joke but Jungkook texting you for no reason truly weirded you out
Jungkook: I guess you can make an exception for me then
What? Where was he going with this? You found yourself staring at your screen for a minute straight trying to process what was even happening.
y/n: terribly sorry to inform you that we are out of exceptions this week.
Jungkook: y/n I’m glad you’re not majoring in comedy.
y/n: ikr, the competition for all of the amateurs would be too much to bear.
Jungkook: https://youtu.be/yWHrYNP6j4k
Jungkook: this is such a good song
You stare at the text in disbelief. Did he just send you a link to a fucking song? Is this dude for real? Out of nowhere?
y/n: ?
y/n: are you alright?
Jungkook: what? It’s a good song…
y/n: I’m not saying it’s a bad song, but isn’t it too random to just send it to me?
Jungkook: it’s a gesture of friendship.
You laugh out loud as you read his text. Friendship? He couldn’t be serious right now.
y/n: goodnight Jungkook.
Jungkook: going to bed already?? Oh cmon y/n you’re no fun
You roll your eyes, does he think you exist to entertain him? Before you could reply Jungkook sent another text.
Jungkook: picture.file
A picture? A voice in your head screams. You quickly tap on the message and you are greeted with a dim lit picture of jungkooks collarbone along with his sharp jawline. You could see a couple of his tattoos at the edge as well. The picture was hot. And you found yourself staring at it before realizing, what the fuck was Jungkook trying to do? This picture was not an innocent ‘gift’ you send to a friend, and he’d be lying if he said he didn’t do this on purpose.
y/n: ?
Jungkook: picture.file
Another one? God what game is he playing? You opened the next picture and you see Jungkook’s face, just his face smirking at the lens. Fuck he was effortlessly attractive, more than you could admit. You notice his eyes being red and that’s when it hits you, Jungkook is high as fuck.
Jungkook: it’s not fair
Jungkook: I’m the only one sending pictures
y/n: well I didn’t ask for them did I.
y/n: besides, I need to catch my beauty sleep of 10 hours
Jungkook: you don’t need a beauty sleep, you’re already beautiful
Jungkook: how much more can you get
Jungkook: not fair for the other girls
You’re eyes widened and you read those last texts again. No. Jungkook was high and a mess, you can’t be taking what he is saying right now seriously, he probably won’t even remember it tomorrow morning. No no no. You will stop caring about this, over analyzing shit in your head should finally stop. It’s a bad habit.
y/n: goodnight Jungkook
Was all you said before putting your phone on mute and throwing it on the other side of the bed. You closed your eyes and tried to forget everything Jungkook said. Not just today, but generally… you don’t want to overthink anymore. Jungkook is just someone you go to collage with and talk from time to time. Nothing more.
Heyyyy whatttsss up my lovelies!!! I started writing a fic on the forbidden app (WATTPAD). Here’s a link to the first 5 parts I just posted. It’s a Jungkook x Reader slow burn smut. Hope u enjoy it~~
