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sunny’s always hated being an only child -- there was a part of her that was glad she had no other siblings to go through the same trauma as her but on the other, more selfish side of things, she wished she had someone to lean on as a child who understood more than anything. sunny wanted someone to feel like her protector when she felt vulnerable and also someone to trust no matter what. but unfortunately, she’s her mother and father’s only child and must bear the burden of never having the experience of such a bond.
there are a few people who are close, however. and since emma has come into yunhwa, sunny feels as though she could become another someone who feels somewhat like a sibling to her. she’s older than her, a little more put together, which is why sunny adores being around her.
lurking in emma’s office at the museum, sunny watches as emma works on the last bit of whatever she needs to do before they can finally hangout. usually sunny wouldn’t impose on people in their work spaces but she’s off today, which means she’s bored and looking for someone to bother. “do you think going to school is worth it?” sunny wonders, resting her chin in her hand as she looks at her friend. “i don’t know what i want to do with my life, which makes me think that university would be a bust.” ( @yhemma )
“oh! i love superheros!” sunny says with a smile, eyes melting. “but have you ever seen my hero academia?” not that it’s one of her favorites ( er, maybe she did have a thing for shouto todoroki ) but it is an anime about superheros. sunny wracks her mind for other superhero movies she likes-- “did you see into the spiderverse? that movies was so good.” she pauses. “sorry, i’m a sucker for animation. it just works better with most fantasy and horror concepts, don’t you think?”
sunny also has a thing for thor, if she’s being completely honest. but not a lot of the other superheros that have come out have necessarily kept her attention. “which superheros? maybe you can give me some good recommendations.”
sunny tries not to let her emotions get the best of her-- often time just making her clam up and awkward. she doesn’t want eunbi to get a notoriously cold shoulder or feel like she doesn’t feel the same way. but sunny doesn’t think she could handle being as vulnerable with eunbi as she had been in the past-- their breakup had been more painful than she’d really allowed herself to feel since her father died. now that eunbi seemed to be back in her life, she couldn’t help but feel nervous about it but doesn’t want to shy away either; it’s not as if what happened was eunbi’s fault, she couldn’t blame her for wanting time to herself.
“i... feel the same way,” sunny says slowly, hesitating slightly. “but we’re here now. just took some time... which is okay, right?” she sits up, taking her hand away so she can fiddle with some loose strings of her pants. sunny’s trying her hardest to not make eunbi like she said anything wrong, so she looks to her and smiles. “you wanna come over to my place? i have some relaxing... stuff... it might help with your anxiety. haena is really chill... we can just sit in my room and she’ll probably make us dinner later.”
“i was on my way,” she says with a smile, following his invitation to let her inside. “i thought of you as soon as i saw it because i couldn’t wait for you to see!” sunny sets down her things on the ground, carefully placing her guitar case so she can bend down to pull the zipper from around it. “i don’t know if i’d be a good teacher,” sunny says with a small laugh. “you’ve gotta be good at explaining things and i think the best i could do is tell you that if you don’t break at least one bone, you’re not doing it right.”
sunny finally pulls out the acoustic guitar, a light sandy color surrounded by a darker wood. “here she is!” sunny says proudly. “i bought a strap too and picks... the guy said it’d be good to be prepared with a capo too but i think he was just trying to up sale me since i didn’t really know what i was doing.” she lets out a small laugh and sits down at the couch, placing the guitar in her lap, hugging it to place her fingers randomly at the frets. “any attempt to play this guitar will be a good one, since i’m not even sure i have what it takes to be musically competent.”
sunny looks to her drink, her hand absentmindedly pushing the condensation down the glass, watching the streaks of clear become frosted again. she watches a lot of anime, but it’s not a serious hobby. sunny definitely doesn’t revolve her life around it or anything, and there are animated shows she likes better that aren’t of japanese origin, it just happens to be that a lot of them are. “that does sound exhausting,” she tells him with a hum. “i don’t think it’s a requirement. there’s lots of different kinds too, so it’s not necessarily something where you have to like every single show you see.”
sunny gives her friend a smile, taking a drink, and then setting it down to twirl the contents with the small straw that lurks inside. “do you like cartoons in general? not just anime... but like adventure time... or the regular show. steven’s universe? those are all cute. it’s obviously very different from anime and sometimes i guess they can be seen as somewhat childish, depending on who you talk to, but those are some of my favorites. they’re very wholesome.”
yejoon has been one of sunny’s favorite people to annoy as of late. he treats her like a younger sister, which is something she’s never quite had in her life before-- someone protective of her or overly caring. it felt like the comfort she’d never had the privilege of knowing growing up and for that, she always felt very attached to his side. but that didn’t mean that he didn’t get the little sister to compliment his older brother persona. she spent a lot of time, bothering him on her days off and begging him to buy her lunch among other things.
she’s sitting in the garage, weirdly admiring the smell of oil and gasoline, looking at her phone while her leg dangles down off the work table that’s littered with cans of -- car stuff -- and random car parts. yejoon is doing something to her piece of junk car. ( he’d tried to explain it to her but there was no real way for her to comprehend exactly what he was saying when it came to the mechanics of cars, so she only trusts he knows what he’s doing. )
sunny sighs, putting down her phone, sitting up and looking at yejoon with a smile. “would you come with me to get a tattoo?” she wonders, looking at his sleeve. “i want to get something, not sure what, but i’m sure i could figure something out. does it hurt a lot?” sunny’s not sure why she’d be nervous about pain, having fallen off her skateboard too many times to count. she’s had different size bruises all over her, scrapes and cuts of varying shallowness too. “i guess it can’t hurt that bad... but where’s the worst place to get one?” ( @yhchoiyejoon )
sunny’s skating home from work, it’s not too late -- just after noon and the sun is still high in the sky. she’s being impulsive today, not really knowing what else to do with her time besides give haesol a call to bother him. the sound of wheels against pavement is prevalent as she pushes herself around the corner of the street. a guitar is hung over her shoulder, eager to be played for the first time since she’d bought it at a cute music store in busan a few days ago.
“hey, so,” she starts, breathing somewhat heavily into the receiving end of the phone. “i don’t know if you’re busy but i... did a thing... by a thing, i mean i bought a guitar. it was super pretty and i felt like i needed to have it. but i’d feel bad if it just collected dust. wanna teach me a few things?” sunny kicks up her skateboard, stopping in front of a familiar house and walking up to the door. “you really don’t have much say since i’m standing outside and i won’t leave until i’ve had a lesson.” ( @yhhaesol )
what’s the best memory you have from childhood?
the best memory sunny has from childhood is summers with her mother. particularly going to the beach with her every sunday to make sandcastles and collect shells.
what’s the worst memory you have from childhood?
the days after her mother died. sunny had never felt so alone, even surrounded by family. she has no siblings so she was alone to process her emotions by herself and in the upcoming days was when her father began drinking a lot. sunny never really had time to mourn the loss of her mother and hated the way that people started to pity her.
what’s one thing you regret and would want to change?
sunny doesn’t really regret much but if she could go back and change somethings about herself, she would have left her dad’s house way earlier than the beginning of high school. for a long time she felt the need to take care of him and make sure that he was safe and because of this, never really had a childhood. she regrets not allowing herself to be a kid and missing a lot of typical moments that most other children get to experience.
what would you say to the person who’s hurt you the most?
to her father -- i wish i could remember you the way that i knew you as a little girl, before mom died. i was never angry, probably because i didn’t know how to be angry and also survive at the same time. but now that anger has festered, i’ve become someone who i don’t really know. all aspects of my personality feel superficial and it’s because you never let me grow into myself. i don’t hate you but i really wish i did -- it’d be a lot easier than hating myself.
what are your top three good and bad habits?
top three good habits -- always on time, very hardworking and focused on projects, tend to be very active throughout the day. top three bad habits -- biting her lips, zoning out when people are talking, and changing the subject when something serious comes up.
yunhwa
do you like living in yunhwa?
for the most part, she does. she talks about leaving all the time but she’s kind of scared of being in a bigger city and feeling alone. she also really enjoys the fresh air and the closeness to nature that she gets while living in yunhwa.
do you have plans of leaving?
not at the moment -- but maybe one day. even if she went away for some time, she’d always have the need to end up back in the streets of yunhwa.
what’s making you stay right now?
her whole life has been in yunhwa, so it’s frightening for her to step out of the city. she feels stable in yunhwa as well; she’s got all her best friends, a nice job, and there’s a lot of aspects of comfort for her.
do you consider yunhwa to be your home?
very, very dearly.
how did you get here?
born and bred, baby.
miscellaneous
your favourite song comes on the radio, what is your immediate reaction?
to sing along at the top of her lungs, of course.
what is your go to comfort food?
definitely a cheeseburger from the tavern with a side of fries. sunny is absolutely obsessed with american foods and lives for the greasy taste.
what is a phrase you use often?
“eunsang, i have no idea what you just said.”
what is something that always makes you laugh?
the movie super bad, her favorite movie ever.
what is something that always makes you cry?
thinking too much about her parents.
sunny hates being in the inn at night. the quiet only enhances the creaky floorboards and windowpanes, allowing wind to scream into small places and raise all the hairs off her skin. there are a few times where she’s sure she’s heard a voice but not sure if the lack of sleep she gets or just the way the mind works when she finds herself alone that’s causing her to hallucinate. even something as simple as having the soft cafe music on helps calm her down when she’s working on closing activities by herself.
“of course,” sunny says with a smile. “not the dark so much as the quiet. it’s... creepy and this place is so old, there’s bound to be ghosts attached to this place, right?” sunny shakes her head thinking about it, imagining inna alone in the office to count registers and do other managerial things. “sometimes i think i see a figure walking into the hall. maybe we should do a seance to figure out what her name is.”
sunny’s taking a passive walk through the forest, not thinking about much. her mind wanders around things that don’t seem to be anymore than fleeting thoughts; concepts and ideas like dreams that seem too out of reach, insecurities that she’s buried somewhat haphazardly, and worries that plague her mind every waking moment. it’s a mix, or rather, a swill, of things and if one were to ask what she’s thinking about, she’s not sure she’d have any way to properly answer the question. but the forest calms these never ending pieces of postulation, so they become quiet enough for sunny to simply exist in the forest, allowing her to become one part of a larger whole.
as she’s unfocused, she steps blindly on a branch, snapping it in two and almost startling herself. but it seems she’s not alone, hearing a voice sound from her general vicinity, a sense of terror coming through the tone in which is used. sunny takes a moment to look around, spotting a much taller man on the trail by himself. “oh, it’s just me. didn’t mean to scare you, sorry,” she says with a gentle voice as to not scare him further. “i think the storm the other day knocked some old branches down, it’s like everywhere i walk i’m stepping on discarded tree bones.”
“me too,” sunny says with a soft smile, looking down at the fish swimming around in the water. she understands why of course, but there’s something so beautiful about the fish that makes her want to reach down and pet one, offer a piece of bread to show the fish how much she appreciates them for just doing their own thing. “what do you think they think about while they’re swimming?” she wonders, looking toward minah with a grin. “maybe about the temperature of the water or how strange the things staring at them look?” sunny lets out a small laugh and shakes her head at the thought.
“our voices probably sound so weird to them,” she dips a finger in the water and sighs happily. “oh to be a koi fish, absentmindedly swimming in a pond.”
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