against the stream

i like going against the mainstream... if you can't handle that, it's time to leave. Selin - 29 years old - manager at Office Coffee Co. event organiser for the underground fighting ring.

[yildizxselin]

Aesthetic

Late, dark nights with a fireplace on. Red lipstick staining the rim of a wineglass. Little black dress. Leather jacket. Motorcycle. Clean apartment. Pile of books in the corner. Looks through eyelashes. Bright smile. High heeled boots. Record player with a pile of vinyls. Tease.

Stats

Full Name: Selin Yildiz Age: Twenty nine Date of Birth: November 20th 1993 Hometown: Salt Flats, TX Length of time in town: Born and raised, only left for college and university Gender: Female Pronouns: She/her Orientation: Bisexual Occupation: Manager at Office Coffee Co. by day, Event Planner for the Underground Fighting Ring by night.

Biography

Arda and Beste Yildiz moved from Istanbul, Turkey around ten years before the birth of their first child of two. Their son was born and a few years later, their daughter Selin was born. The kids were born into a wealthy, strict, hardworking family. Father Yildiz was working as a surgeon in the hospital of Salt Flats, while mother Yildiz became a manager at the bank. And it was made clear from a young age that they expected the same from their children.

Selin grew up with the pressure of gaining high grades. So she did, as well as gaining some pointers on her resume by being a part of the cheerleading squad and the organization of many events at the high school. The first stones to her career were set. These were qualities that she brought with her as she grew up.

But even though Selin had followed the rules while growing up, it was something that she struggled with while growing older. Her brother had no trouble with it. He followed in the footsteps of their parents. Selin, however, found herself a managerial job at Rattlesnake's. A job she kept up for several years. Her parents disagreed with it, letting her know that if she wasn't going to change things, they would not keep contact with her anymore. Selin refused to change jobs, and up to this day she only has contact with her brother from the family.

A few years ago she learned about the Underground Fighting Ring and it was exactly the challenge Selin had been searching for. Something that wasn't so ordinary. Sure, working at a stripclub wasn't ordinary. But it still was missing a thrill. So Selin changed her daytime job to becoming a manager at Office Coffee Co., but picked up the event planning for the Fighting Ring. If only her parents knew what their daughter was doing…

Throughout the years, Selin has never found someone to share her life with. There were flings but never someone who could keep up with her search for a thrill in life. These days there aren't many people who want to be with someone who doesn't tell what she does in her free time, a secret that Selin always keeps behind until she's absolutely sure that the other person can be trusted. Not even her best friends know about her work for the Ring.

[1anonyymous1]

you can do everything right and still feel sad at night

[willbeckvr-a1]

Will instantly nodded in agreement, though Selin had a point that he himself had to start considering more than any other time in the past that he’d lived in town. The prices everywhere had been raised exceptionally high, and he was well aware from the many documents he’d had to go over at the hotel that the business changes were the reason. Will expected change, but the price hikes everywhere had seemed truly sudden. “I’m with you on that too, probably going to have to start keeping close tabs on take-outs, as much as I love the Mexican food there.” He remarked. “Wow. And it’s not like you had a choice.” His head shook with a scoff as she told him about the the frustrated customer she had. They could join the club like the rest of them. “Figured it hit the Coffee Co now too..but you know you’re right, I highly doubt people will go without buying coffee every day regardless.” 

[yildizxselin]

“I am going to slim down my amount of orders to start with instead of going with big changes and just directly close the tab,” Selin said with a chuckle. She knew that it was probably better to just close it directly but she was not fully going to say bye to an order at her favourite pizza place. It was just not happening. Talking to someone who was also managing at a location meant talking to someone who understood… That was nice for a bit. “And if they go without buying coffee every day… That’s a problem for tomorrow. I’m not going to worry about it too much, I haven’t seen a decline in sales so far yet. Have you?”

[maeve-ryan-deactivated20230706]

Maeve kept her back to Selin as she spoke, if only for the reason of keeping her expression concealed from the other; she felt safer, out of view like this. A part of her, a smaller, wiser part of her, could acknowledge that maybe it hadn't been a good idea to fall into bed as easily as they did. But another, larger, easier-to-listen-to part of her had longed for... for the comfort of the familiar. For, even a moment, even if only about this, Maeve had wanted to be seen, and known.

But that feeling was easier to do something about than put into words, so when the conversation was heading in a very specific direction, Maeve was happy to oblige. Now she found herself in a position to have to speak instead of do. And that just wouldn't do.

"Done with me again already, hm?" The words were quiet but insidious. An unfair low blow, delivered by the sharpest knife. She hoped she looked more tired than hurt when she finally did turn to face Selin, but couldn't be sure.

[yildizxselin]

Selin’s dark eyes were focused on the brunette's back as she stayed silent. The woman wasn’t sure if she wanted Maeve to look at her or not as she said this. She wasn’t even sure if she believed the words that she had said herself. Her own eyes widened slightly at the words that were thrown her way by the other woman when she suddenly mentioned that she was done with her already. Okay, she had not seen that coming. She took a deep breath as she watched Maeve turn around. Her direct reaction was to go into the way she saw defense; in attack mode. But she was a little too stunned to actually go into full attack mode.

“I’m sorry,” were the first words that Selin was able to mutter softly before she completely sat up, holding the sheets against her chest so she would be seated there completely naked in front of Maeve. “Don’t be like that. We said that this was just a fun thing when we started and it’s still like that to me. But I just need a break.” Not completely true, but it was the best way to explain that she was slowly moving in a direction that she didn’t want for herself. “And if this is turning in more than just some fun for you, you need to tell me.”

[knoxwells]

"Yeah, I know what it's like to have that affliction. My ex-wife was always the gardener, so now I don't eat vegetables anymore," he said, slowly trailing of when her eyes narrowed up at him. Knox wondered if maybe he made a mistake talking to her. Sometimes, people were just talking out loud and didn't want to converse. After a moment, probably noticing that he fidgeted a little, she asked him if they knew each other. It was Knox's turn to squint. That was a bit of a loaded question given his past couple of years, but as soon as he had that thought, relief flooded in. High school, tutoring, history essays. "Oh, uh, I think I tutored you in history for a month or so. Yildiz, right? You had the hoity toity parents -- no offense. You were nice, I just remember your momma used to hover when I used to the bathroom."

[yildizxselin]

Selin couldn’t help but chuckle at the fact that the man next to her apparently was unable to take care of any green plant ever, just like her. It made her clear once more that everyone had different talents. It was as if a lightbulb over her head suddenly turned alight at the mention of Knox saying that he had probably tutored her for history. “Oh my God, you’re right. Again, my apologies for my parents. They suck.” She said it matter of factly as if it was written in the same history books that they had studied together. Her mother had been pathetic over the difference in background between them and the Wells family. The Wells’ had been nothing but kind to her and that was something she mostly remembered, over the fact that her parents had been terrible towards Knox. “Well, I am not doing something at the moment with my historical knowledge but it did make sure that I didn’t fail my exams. So thank you for that,” she said with a smile on her lips.

[richmickey]

back office rattlesnakes ⇾ ft. @yildizxselin

The night was about to begin and Mickey entered his office to run over some important admin tasks, wondering why he hadn't hired someone to take care of this shit yet. As he entered he saw someone sitting in his chair, quite comfortable, smirking at him. Of course, it was her. "Selin...to what do I owe the pleasure?" He asked in an attempt to sound important but all he could think about was her daring to challenge his authority this way. "I'll have to have a word with security about your sneaky ways..." He added with a half-hearted attempt at a chuckle, blue orbs fixated on his chair.

[yildizxselin]

Selin was leaning back in the large desk chair and a smile was on her lips as she watched Mickey enter the room. “I think the security still loves me too much, so good luck with that,” the woman said with a chuckle before she sat straight in the seat a bit more so she could look at him a bit better. “I just wanted to come by and see how you were doing with Rattlesnake’s.” Was she a little jealous of the man in front of her over the fact that he had been able to be the owner of the place she wanted to be? Yes. She was not going to deny that. Was she thinking of ways to be able to get back into this place… Just a bit, but that was something that Mickey didn’t need to know yet. She wanted to have a solid plan in place before telling him. “Or perhaps I should’ve just made an appointment with you like any other?”

[francine-walker]

"Ooooh, fake flowers is smart, that way they won't die and you can keep them around for whenever you need them." Frankie said with a shrug of her shoulders. "I suppose that could be true. I hope for her sake that he does more then just flowers for her, or maybe it's like young love or whatever and she's just not jaded enough yet."

[yildizxselin]

Selin nodded in agreement; exactly the reasons why she was in need of fake flowers. They were the save option. She narrowed her eyes slightly as she took in the couple a bit better and then nodded. “They do look a little young so maybe you are right there.” Selin chuckled at the memories of high school and shook her head for just a moment at the memory. “Remember the days that you were at high school and they had those Valentine’s day actions where you could send roses to your classmates anonymously? Those were so cheesy as could be.”

[coltonwrights]

"That's all I'm saying. Any other day of the year an' he'd probably enjoy the flowers but right now? I ain't falling for that again." Colt shook his head with a bit of a grin. There was no way that he was going to fall into the same pattern as what they were watching in front of him, having learned his lesson the hard way with relationships in the past. "You're not wrong but I also think you're talking to the minority 'cause I'm sure as happy as she is right now that there's gonna be so many of 'em all over the place just as happy."

[yildizxselin]

“If you do end up giving those flowers today, just film it for me please,” Selin laughed at the images that formed in her head at the situation but quickly pushed them away because they were not going to be more than that anyways. For a moment the woman scrunched her nose as she watched the couple in front of them, thinking of Colt's words and then nodded. He was certainly right about that. “I don’t know about you but I was about done here at the market. Are you up for a cup of coffee? Or do you need to be anywhere?”

[clonespiracy]

[yildizxselin]

@caoimhinnn

[quinnparra]

"I imagine he messed up and this year he isn't trying to make that same mistake again. Or maybe he just likes gifting. No matter the occasion I think flowers bring in a certain essence for any kind of scenario." Quinn honestly bought a bouquet a few times a year just to bring some decoration. They weren't like roses or anything of that importance but it brought some green to his apartment. Which was why he was here. "No, actually just buying some for my new place. But hey I can get you some too if you're feeling left out?"

[yildizxselin]

“It would explain why she is so surprised,” Selin mentioned as she took a last look at the couple before focusing on the man standing beside her. Her eyes slightly widened and she quickly shook her head. “Oh no, you don’t need to buy me anything. Thank you for the offer but these days many people would be buying those same flowers instead and they would end up living much longer than at my place.” No, it was clear that she was not the best with keeping up with plants and such. Never had been and probably never would be. “New place? Are you new in town?”

[willbeckvr-a1]

“Well, you’re not going to see me disagreeing with that. She did look pretty surprised, not that I’m an expert or anything.” Will had no issue admitting with a small shrug as he recognized Selin, a fellow town business manager. He could easily argue that with her handling the favored coffee joint daily, it was a lot more involved than his position at the Settler’s hotel. No matter where anyone went, residents could be crazed with their morning drink orders. And they both usually had a lot of stories to swap when it came to their jobs. “No, no, none of that But more importantly this is what I did just get —“ Will’s hand held up a bag from Lime Time. “What us managers really care about while on the clock.” 

[yildizxselin]

Selin’s gaze moved down to the bag and she would nearly say that her mouth would start watering right away. Mexican food was always good to have. “God, I couldn't agree more.” The fact that you didn’t have to cook anymore after a working day was the bonus of it all. “Although I probably do have to start learning how to cook more myself if the prices are getting raised more and more on the take outs. I had a discussion with a client this morning over the note I had to put on the counter due to the prices that had raised more this month to cover our expenses.” They had not been happy… Well, newsflash; Selin was not happy with the raise in prices as well. “But I guess the fact that they are still able to afford the cup of coffee they are coming to get religiously, I can’t be bothered by it.” It was a luxury product after all.

[mayabezerra]

"what was that like? did you go to the fifty-four area?" curious as ever, maya had set her drink aside and focused on the possible answer she'd get from selin. "is that really far from here?" maya had kind of traveled all over but there was still so much to see and uncover, and she'd actually forgotten about roswell. "according to what i've read, texas has the most abandoned places. so i can definitely find one reasonably close and we can take a day to explore it." some excitement had her forgetting her work momentarily and latching onto the possibility of this outing with selin. "are you up for a haunted one or would you rather take it slow?" she chuckled a little at herself, she had a tendency toward the more odd and obscure.

[yildizxselin]

“Fifty-one, I think you mean,” Selin said with a chuckle before shaking her head. “Those are actually two different things. Area 51 is in Nevada, while Roswell is in New Mexico. The cultural things are definitely based on ufos and such, there is quite a lot on it. But Area 51 is on my bucket list as well.” She still wasn’t sure if she believed in any of the things that were being described but… There had to be a source of truth somewhere. Selin leaned against the counter, looking at the other woman. “You know, let’s go haunted just straight away. Why not? I mean, gotta start somewhere. What do you have in mind?”

[amourstreetstyle]

[cormacbrcdyyy]

Caoimhín let his eyes dance over her as she talked, joining in on the playful teasing. His smile grew when she said about him being at the end of the aisle, the image now distracting him. He had never thought about marrying anyone before but Emma, and it hurt to think of anyone else that way. This time, though, he was smiling. Maybe it was the alcohol that helped ease the pain he would usually feel when he allowed himself to be this happy. Whatever it was, he was just relieved that for once he wasn't freaking out or triggered. He felt safe with Selin. The pair slowly strolled down the street and Caoimhín swung their arms with happiness, unable to wipe the smile off his face. "Oh, sorry, princess. I forgot you're too precious to walk," he teased, then he stopped in front of her. "Hop on!" They were very drunk.

[yildizxselin]

Selin softly pushed against Caoimhín’s shoulder the moment he called her a princess. “Hey, don’t call me that. I’m not a princess.” Okay, she could definitely act like one from time to time. But she did not need to hear that out loud. Because she simply did not want to be identified as one. She had worked hard for where she was right now in life. One does not get a manager’s position or work as an event planner without having worked for it hard. And her ambitions weren’t going to stop there. She had plans in mind she was hopefully working towards. But definitely when she wasn’t as drunk as she was right now. “Thank you very much, sir.” And with those words, Selin took a small jump to jump on his back. She quickly wrapped her arms around his neck to make sure that she wasn’t going to fall off. Her chin found its place on top of his shoulder and a content sigh escaped her lips. “Yes, I’m ready for pizza now.” For a moment Selin stayed quiet for just a moment, before softly speaking. “I’m happy you’re here with me Finn, I wouldn’t have wanted to get pizza with anyone else.”

[rhettcastillo]

Annoyance bubbled up into his features immediately. Rhett was someone who was perpetually busy even when people didn't think so. The fighting ring was something that he did when he was starting out — among other things — and time was a weird thing. His other ventures grew and required more of him, as was apparent by him working. Flicking a flashlight to the water damage to illustrate his point, he said back, "This is where my head's at. My fucking businesses, the legit ones." The fighting was some sort of therapy for him, and even when he was more into it, it still didn't take all headspace. It was never meant to.

He understood Selin well enough, she was bored, lived a cushy life, so this was some sort of side project for her. For him, it was different. In a small part of it, he resented her for being here. He almost wanted to hand them all tissues to wipe the dollar signs out of their eyes, which is what he felt they were seeing when it came to fighting. "The boys could use the time to train, no one's been bothering me there for a fight."

[yildizxselin]

Selin couldn’t help but raise an eyebrow at the man in front of her. She had asked it out of interest, nothing more than that. For Rhett to emphasize on the fact that he was knee deep in the work of his legit businesses. It said a lot to her. The woman took a deep breath before pulling her gaze away from Rhett and letting her gaze move through the building they were standing in. She too had a legit business that she worked at but it was clear that things had shifted for Rhett in the previous months. Or at least that is how it felt to her. Otherwise she would not have been standing here right now. “They’ve been training plenty.” No need to worry about that - a thought that she did not add out loud to the one she said. You would’ve known if you had been around. And another thought that was better left unsaid at this moment. Selin wasn’t sure what she felt about the fact that Rhett wasn’t around much. “I’m truly here in interest of you and not of the ring. I want to know where you stand when looking at the future and what place the ring takes in it.”

[duttonremington]

"The truth hurts sometimes." The man countered as he rose a brow in her direction. But they really should change that. There was something so freeing about riding then just driving his truck. It was probably the thrill but it felt like something more. Something that words couldn't just describe. It was a feeling. "Of course anyone to blame but yourself. Not sure it works like that but nice try." Remington was quick to add. "Here I was thinking you might have some memory loss. Glad to see you can still start the thing." He teased in fun fashion. Clearly his words did not back up what he really thought. Bantering was just common and he liked that.

[yildizxselin]

Once more Selin narrowed her eyes at Remington and then shook her head. “You are lucky that I like you,” she mentioned before taking a seat on her bike once more, her bottle of water still in her hands. She took a sip of the cool drink before looking at the man next to her once more. “But all joking aside, we truly do need to do this more often. I keep forgetting how free one can feel while driving.” Because free was simply the word closest to describing the feeling inside of her right now. “And now that we’ve established that… What’s up in your life? Anything worth mentioning since the last time we spoke eachother?”

[mckinleykispiox]

"I think any scenario where he had an ulterior motive for bringing them and not just the reason he gave would be a whole lot better." He was still almost shaking his head at the predicament. The man couldn't fathom a truth like that to willingly come out by any means. Mckinley heard a shuffle and he almost sighed in relief for the woman in question. "Well, least she has some common sense. Sometimes you just have to rip the band aid off. He doesn't deserve any kindness for being that strange." Or weird cause the description was well fitting. "Absolutely not. She probably will be fine with just herself after that trauma. I can't say I blame her." A big yikes for the whole situation. "Surely there are some people who don't get weirded out more then usual. Though, he probably should mention that first hand instead of on the date."

[yildizxselin]

Selin nodded nearly straight away at the words Mckinley said. She indeed could not think of anything that could be worse than the reason the man had given at the start. Her gaze stayed on the man for a bit who truly looked a bit sad at the fact that the woman had left and it made her frown for a moment. “You know, even though I understand the woman completely… I do feel a little bad for him for the fact that his date just ran out.” Her gaze moved back to Mckinley the moment the man with the plush animals in his backpack paid his bill and left the place as well. Which was probably a good idea because Selin had a feeling that they weren’t the only ones who had watched the scenario unfold. “Oh for sure, this is definitely material that needs to be mentioned before a date.” That way he would not get disappointed like what had happened now as well. Selin brought her glass to her lips and took a sip of her drink. “So. Are there any other interesting conversations in here right now that we can eavesdrop on instead?”