[TRANS] 131007 Zhang Yixing site update on his 2013 birthday: his thoughts on fan gifts, fan support and what he hopes from fans
(TN: This is an old post from 2013, but it is beautifully written. Iâd never seen it until now so it was a huge shock reading this. Iâve seen excerpts and sentences quoted by fans throughout the past two years, but never read it in its entirety. Please read this, I love how it conveys - even two years on - Layâs hopes for his fans and what he thinks are the most important things for everyone. I sincerely do hope I did justice to this, because it was long and he types very informally, but anyway, enough from me! Enjoy.)
Source | Translation by laymerence
There are 365 days in a year, under the situation where each dayâs 24 hours passes by very slowly, a year and a half have passed~ This year had too many surprises, too many touching things, too much sadness, too much pride.
Every time it comes to my birthday there is a chance to have a platform to communicate with everyone~
This timeâs birthday message I want to have a heartfelt talk, ok? ^^
When I was studying I never thought that I could stand on the worldâs stage
Singing for everyone who supports me, maybe this is just a dream
I just hoped that the songs I wrote could be reaffirmed by everyone,
Or with my own abilities I could do something in the field of music.
But that dream, because of sm company and everyone, and the people who helped me along the way, was realised!
Yet I am a little lost, lost as to what do I need to do?
Maybe I am still that kid who hasnât grown up, yet work gives me responsibilities,
Asking me to grow up, asking me to carry this all the way!
Along this segment of the road, slowly I feel myself changing, and change may be good and it may be bad.
Actually like I said before I am just someone with a special job.
What I want is the same as everyone else, what I hope to have is also the same as everyone else, I am an ordinary person no different from everyone.
These days, although I gained some affirmation. But I have never been self-satisfied!
I will never give up working hard! I want to do the best I can!
I want to tell the people who support me, in terms of abilities I donât want to disappoint everyone!
Maybe it is thoughts like these that cause me to be in my own world a lot of the time, as though no one can understand me.
Friends on the phone encourage me to jiayou. Then thinking about every hero who is supporting me, actually I am very blessed.
It has been smooth-sailing, I should know to be satisfied. But if I canât do it to perfection, will you all still support me?
I often use this phrase to encourage myself
âActually dreams arenât far away, you just need to invest hard work to harvest it.
Although we may miss the scenic view along the way, but you can look upon the rainbow in the distance!â What do you think?
Behind the birthday support that appears simple, how much hard work did everyone have to invest?
And this hardwork and sweat is scattered in every corner of the earth.
In order to give me a short surprise, you may have needed to invest a year of planning, a month of preparation, a day of waiting.
I see this all and really feel it all. You have all really worked hard, been tired, thank you.
Actually I really like seeing everyone raise my support cards, I like to hear your shouts
But seeing everyone fall asleep because youâre waiting, everyoneâs hoarse throats from shouting, everyoneâs injuries because of the crowds⊠I feel my own selfishness.
I just hope everyone looks after their own bodies, and donât get injured
Donât be saddened because of anything, even if you are sad donât be scared!
Because there is me to compose healing songs for everyone!
When Iâm at the airport, there was a fan asking me this, âMy present that I carefully prepared, how is it different from a letter someone else carefully prepared? Why donât you accept presents?â I really had no way of answering her, aside from saying sorry, Iâm sorry.
I am still thinking about whether it was a wrong decision to just accept the letter⊠causing me to now hesitate even when receiving letters.
Actually itâs like this, these are all everyoneâs hearts, I get it, I understand,
Actually everyone being able to come watch our exoâs concert, buy one of our albums, raise one of our support signs, shout once for me, or fans far away who canât meet us, who can only silently say âhappy birthday to meâ in their hearts etc⊠these are all the best presents for me!
Because I heard that there are fans, who, in order to buy an album, or a present, need to save their living expensesâŠ
Or in order to do fan support, will spend all the money they have on themâŠ
I know, actually we are of similar ages
Every bit of money doesnât come easy, every bit of money is hard to come by
So I hope everyone uses their money in a meaningful way.
Also everywhere across the world, there are really so moany people who need help,
Being able to help others is also a wish we all share,
But in terms of finances I also hope everyone does only as much as they are able to!
If there is a bit of misunderstanding here, it may cause people to donate blindlyâŠ
Which is that fans must definitely donate if there is something meaningful, actually that isnât always the case.
On the topic of helping others, we can go be volunteers, do charity work, etc~
In terms of finances, I hope that before everyone gives me presents, before everyone donates, buy some clothes for yourself or your parents and family, buy some things you or your parents and family will like or need, or buy some delicious things for yourself or your parents and family, some nutritious things, to supplement your health.
After spending the money in these areas, then go help those people who need it~ If yo do this.
Thatâs the present you have given me!
These sorts of presents, I want to receive them every year~
I also hope everyone allows your family to like us too~
Actually sitting in front of the TV happily, or coming together to the venue to see us perform, isnât that very blessed?
Also because everyone needs energy to give me fan support right?
You must look after your own bodies, if you donât look after your own bodies how can you always be so passionate, enthusiastically give us support? I know you are all the best, of course you can do it!
Also as for me~ I just have one big head~ one neck, two hands, two legs, two feet, one torso, the things you give me I canât wear them all~ Some of it Iâm scared if I donât wear it, you will all be sad and upset ah.
I canât wear them all, Iâm scared everyone will feel that you didnât give a good present, didnât give it right.
Actually everything you have given are all good! All awesome! Not just the presents, the videos online, the wordsâŠ
This is all your heart and blood! I also like and love it all! I just hope you can happily live each day~
Take care of yourselves~ Love yourselves~ Actually presents arenât so important!
Itâs still that old sentnce, the love everyone has for me is the present youâve given me!
And your support is also the strongest motivation for me to keep walking!
Thank you for all you have given me~ I love you all~
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