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I rather re open a wound than open up to you.

#imdone😂🙏

I was playing with a friend before she texted me to join the call to play with her friends and I’m just waiting for them to finish. I don’t know why I am. It’s not like shes ever cared to wait for me, maybe 20 minutes at most but never hours. Not like I have, which is so embarrassing. It’s embarrassing when they don’t realize how much of a loser I am, how much I’m willing to waste for someone to treat me like I’m a person worthy of their time. Man I’m so tired of letting my relationship with girls get so deep that I feel so much emotional whenever they don’t care about my feelings as much as I care about how they feel

It’s not fair that I’m not able to do the things I love and feel yk happy about it. I’ve always drawn my whole life but somehow I feel miserable when I do. I like to play games and talk to people but I’m scared too. I used to love going outside too but now I’m afraid to walk out of my room and I really don’t know why. It’s like why cant the things I love make me feel good for once

Also I always have to reach out to her first unless she wants to rant to me about her ex or a problem. Genuinely, Im so tired of always being the one friend everyone goes to when their main friends aren’t there. Like genuinely whos gonna pick me first for once #notcool😂🙏

I think two days? A close friend of mine made a gc with new people which I got added into it yesterday. For a month now we’ve been playing games to find ppl to play with and it’s great she finally got a group of people we can talk to but is it messed up that I feel kinda upset about it?? I mean I can tell shes putting all her focus on them and talking to them more which is fine yk she did when she was with her ex you eventually get over it and talk to her whenever she’s free. But it’s like, I don’t feel like I should’ve been in that gc in the first place, I only know two other people which is her friend and this guy we both met, but everyone else is pretty much her friend so I feel like I’m intruding if I talk to them when she isn’t active in the gc. Plus I think one of them doesn’t like me cuz when I first met him a couple days ago he made a comment about how I talk nd that it’s weird and never talks to me unless he’s throwing jabs at something I said. Idk I know Im overreacting I wish she never put me in the gc so I wouldn’t feel so guilty for wishing she be my friend for second.

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Real ones know how it feels to rot in bed with a hand on your chest and the other somewhere you know it shouldn’t imagining the love of your dreams to be real and alive next to you, knowing the relationship wouldn’t last as sweet as you wished….. while listening to Love On The Catwalk, by Her Words Kill.

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I wanted to get all corny with this also I only wrote it after thinking about the Sparda twins LOLL

#Dante and Vergil hit my line

Real ones know how it feels to rot in bed with a hand on your chest and the other somewhere you know it shouldn’t imagining the love of your dreams to be real and alive next to you, knowing the relationship wouldn’t last as sweet as you wished….. while listening to Love On The Catwalk, by Her Words Kill.

Dmc4 nero dmc4 nero dmc4 nero dmc4 nero

#dmc4 #dmc nero #nero sparda #lol #he’s so cool

Cómo me duele perderte 😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏

Embarrassing to admit but I can’t stop tearing up thinking about him, why cant it just be me and you again I feel like I fucked up everything already I mean I know for sure he doesn’t see me how I still see him. Yes we did talk about our feelings but that was last summer, it’s different now. I met a girl I grew to like, she was so beautiful and perfect at everything. Everything I spoke to her I js wanted to give her the world but I knew I couldn’t be the man for her. We tried it out, I really wanted something with her but in the end, you will always be my curse. She even brought you up, crazy to think you’ll always come up in my life no matter what. Im so corny how do I get over a relationship from when I was 14 lol wtf is wrong with me but anywho I started stretching my ears so thats good

I don’t understand how I can be so loud. I tried to keep my voice down but I feel like these thin walls never help. Always speaking about my problems, or other issues I have. Ones that I don’t wish to be heard or noticed. It’s always been my fault, it’s always going to be my fault. I don’t know I wish I could just disappear you know? I always get this guilt after talking with anyone if I’m being honest, it’s like anyrhing I said stuck close to my skin and refuses to leave. I hated this as a kid, and never have that ever went away. Im so tired, I was loud, I spilled liquid on my bed, my cat made a mess, wtf is my life anymore. Sometimes I wished I kept my plan, for me to lose that last hope before letting someone else clean my mess for once. My legs are aching, the sun is raising, I still think about you. None of my thoughts make sense i kmow I already feel corny for typing this all out. The 5 in the morning and I’m still drinking, I’m trying to fight my eyes but I genuinely need

New dmc Netflix so bad lote wise (im my opinion) that I had to bring back my old knowledge and games

I better see some Scott summers/Malereader on my feed now

#cyclops #scott summers

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