Dec 27, 2017
i feel like i’m at a point where this isn’t physically painful anymore and the tears have finally stopped. but at the same time, it’s like i’ve reverted back to the moment when i’d first heard the news and didn’t know wtf was going on and couldn’t believe what had happened. i don’t know how to feel, but jjong has definitely been sending me little bits of light for the past week that have made this easier to bear as time went on, and for that i’m thankful. in my heart i know he’s at peace and in a better place now, and i’m grateful that the pain faded sooner rather than later. i just can’t help but feel that i haven’t grieved enough to warrant that.
