[fadiabh23]

[ben-brnes]

Too many guys think I’m a concept, or I complete them, or I’m gonna make them alive.

[teenageers]

[you-look-good-though]

Job hunting is the worst. I just want a 9-5 at $45k with health insurance and 401k and nobody wants to call me back. Give up, apply for restaurant management positions, 6 interviews and 4 offers in one week. Get a degree, y'all.

[lifemaniac91]

[you-look-good-though]

Hot-Mess Express, Checking In

I left the company I've been with for six years. The past few months I've been working for a new company. We're opening a new restaurant this weekend. Pray for me!

[you-look-good-though]

When I have a stressful day, I either come home crying or too hyper for my own good. Either way, I clearly need fed. Big thanks to Luke for honoring my psychotic requests.

[you-look-good-though]

Dear Precious Folks In My Life,

Stop leaving. Stop leaving suddenly. Please reach out for help. My heart breaks for you. I'm always here for you.

Alex, I'm so sad you left and I hope you found peace.

[you-look-good-though]

I drank.

My cousin invited himself and his girlfriend over last night. He said she had to work early so they wouldn't be over too late. I thought I could do will with drinking a little. I decided to pour light and drink only three drinks for the evening. Well, they came over and we had a blast. I drank twice as much as I anticipated, they stayed until "bar close", I felt guilty all night about breaking my sobriety streak, threw up when they left, and woke up feeling like shit. Drinking is not something I can handle. This is seriously a slap in the face, and I'm going to be in a couple of situations coming up where I know I will drink with colleagues and I don't know how to handle this.

[you-look-good-though]

Sobriety is a pain

I have not had a drop of alcohol in 35 days. AA is terrifying and this "higher power" business keeps me from working the steps. I feel physically better but emotionally detached from everything. A job I loved repulses me and I hate every company who doesn't want to hire me. I have not had friends, only drinking buddies and I feel so alone. I'm tired of being asked when I'm going to start drinking again. ISO contentment.

[you-look-good-though]

Birthday month.

Nov 1) Day off. I cleaned and unpacked. My boyfriend took my car for the day to get a remote starter installed. Internet back up. My sister is coming to visit soon. Feeling unsettled with my position and status at work. Text mentions a visit from corporate, total breakdown.

Nov 2) "Day off." Sick boyfriend. Work 2.5 hrs to be present for corporate evaluation. Bring boyfriend meds. Accidentally poison him with meds he's allergic to. Corporate evaluation returned, we're awesome. Dinner, The Walking Dead with boyfriend and kid. Really good night.

Nov 3) Work, total extreme breakdown. Amazing staff to support my psychotic tendencies. Amazing bosses to calm my fear of termination. Boyfriend leaves to visit with family. Home, two baths. Homemade chicken noodle soup. Whiskey. Stranger things.

So far, so good.

[you-look-good-though]

Update: I close on my first home in 8 days

[you-look-good-though]

Ever just sit outside your house for hours when you get home to avoid responsibilities?

[you-look-good-though]

I made an offer on a house. Cubs won 17-3. Today was a good day.

[gfbaseball]

[you-look-good-though]

I just want to take Javy on a lil date.

[you-look-good-though]

Personally insulted right now by The Mindy Projects "go to bed" closing when I'm over half way through a 24 hour shift trying to accomplish paperwork and inventory. Ignoring any responses regarding the fact that I am hulu-ing while working. I deserve this, and do not deserve this at the same time.

[you-look-good-though]

If you personally know Paul Rudd then please give him my cell phone number. Tell him I'm free 2018 for marriage, if he's interested.