I wonder what my first appointment with a counselor will yield. You think they'll be able to help my anxiety which stems from my fear of public, or help me manage my immense stress that I've been breaking down from every other day, or maybe they'll cure my depression which stems 80% from the fact that all facets of life are organized vertically rather than horizontally.
Perhaps they will write me a prescription for the gun store so that I can buy the shotgun I desperately need, but can't afford, or better, maybe they'll refer me to a therapist that I definitely need, but can't afford.
When weighing the pro's and con's in the context of our capitalist society, which is economically more viable: seeing a ridiculously expensive therapist for 10 years driving me into suffocating debt so that it's not physically painful to meet new people, or putting a bullet in my brain?
Well, under capitalism, and especially since I'm unemployed, the latter, because then i become a statistic to keep the working class afraid of joblessness and resulting suicide. To keep them praising the business elites as they yank food from their fucking mouths saying "who makes the jobs around here, that's right I do you lazy asshole, you could be rich too if you weren't so fucking lazy".
Hoping that my college refund of $600 from 6 months ago can buy enough appointments for me to get a bit better, but since brain issues are medically irrelevant in our society, I think this will afford me 6 visits if I'm extremely lucky, or 3 if I'm not. Kewl beans society.
*tips hat*
