"She was disarming."

@youforgotmefirst

I miss the people I meet in my dreams, and I want to save the world. "So it goes." - Kurt Vonnegut My name is Alice, and I'm always wandering or wondering. I'm unpredictable in the most predictable of ways, and I don't make sense most of the time. These are the learnings and burnings of growing up. THIS IS THE GROWING SEASON.

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i am absolutely in love with and fascinated by your blog

I don’t know when this was sent since I am scarcely online here, but thank you ever so much. That is really kind of you to say. I am so flattered. Thank you. I never thought anyone would think of my blog that way. So thank you really!

#rare rainbow anons of joy and unicorns thank you #appreciation galore

The irony I named this blog “youforgotmefirst” originally after a dude totally erased me from his mind so I thought to combine two lines from my two favourite movies, “Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind” and “Peter Pan” (2003) for my new url. Now it’s me forgetting I actually have this blog. Like wow. Like hazy days, you know.

#im not sick anymore if they let me play with the cats

To anyone who has just followed me or has followed me from the start, I am just sorry to all of you that I am rarely on this anymore. I am still growing and getting burned while learning. I'll try to return, but I do appreciate for all who stay and still come. -alice*

I used to be a better person,

but then again, so did you.

#we cant always get what we want

I'm shouting to you at max volume, and you're suddenly tone deaf.

#Cassie #james dean #ill never stop being visited by your ghost

I can't do a lot of things, I'll admit it. But there's one thing I definitely can't do no matter what. I can't listen to the song "The Things We Did and Didn't Do" by the Magnetic Fields without getting nostalgic.

#stephen merritt you snarky devil that i love

I feel like I'm going to spend forever singing to your ghost. Isn't it supposed to reversed? Aren't banshees the ones that forever scream at their living loved ones? It's me to do things in the reverse. I love you before you speak. I hate you before you could ever hit me. I run away when you are already staying. I call when the phone line already died years ago. Sometimes, I pray for a sore throat since I know I won't ever give up on you even I was given up myself. I am stubborn to every single fault because I will always feel like it's my fault for everything that happened or didn't happen. They say it's easy to love yourself, but it's always easier to hate yourself more. Then again, don't they also say not to talk to strangers but are you supposed to make friends and lovers in the first place? Braille them?

#sometimes i need to keep my mouth shut #ghost letters #i learned my lessons now here are the burnings

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#forever chuckie finster #this day hurt #i will hate this day forever #even more than september 23rd and that says something #some things dont change

Yay, survived the number one day a year I hate.

And this would of course be how I return to my first Tumblr account with negativity. :D

#cynicism #Thoughts #im back and no one cares but who cares #wait did i just answer my own question PROBABLY #but its true though

I know you're probably fine,

but I can't help but wonder. I really hope you're okay.

#Thoughts #this will be the end of my sanity

I was tired of living a life that didn't feel like it was mine anymore. I was a stranger in my own reality.

#written

“Suddenly for no earthly reason I felt immensely sorry for him and longed to say something real, something with wings and a heart, but the birds I wanted settled on my shoulders and head only later when I was alone and not in need of words.” ― Vladimir Nabokov, The Real Life of Sebastian Knight

#this is for you #vladimir nabokov #i almost called you several times this week #that would've been um #i should cancel my phone plan #or maybe just your number :D #Cassie #tony

I'm okay now. I have been for some time. It took me awhile while you seemed to get over it faster. I've always been a slow and steady type and you were always half out the door. I was safe and caution and you were dangerous and off the deep end. We bled while revealed within and outwards. Some sights cannot be unseen. Some words cannot be forgotten or taken back. Some things brought us together. Some things separated us. It's not practical or right to point things when we know we both got scars. A badge of honour not quite. A notch on the bedpost doesn't appear so. A piece of shared history in one another's book shelf perhaps. Yes, you broke my heart, but I remember for a time, you did glue the pieces, too. We tear, we mend. Things that end had beginnings, as well. We forget and we remember. SO much has happened, so much was supposed to happen. We cannot change our past, but there is still the future. Oh well, oh well. I suppose in time, we both will be well.

#kurt halsey #written #i wrote this #this is for you #In Time #oh well #so it goes #some things dont change #this is real #the growing season

Now's a present for someone else.

#the past is always better #yesterday #The Past

Who says we all get happily ever afters?

#stockholm syndrome?#we just werent meant for that #we were better than that

And yet I adore him. I think he's quite crazy, and with no place or occupation in life, and far from happy, and philosophically irresponsible – and there is absolutely nobody like him.

Vladimir Nabokov

#vladimir nabokov #quote #quotes #always

a PIECE of mind

I still wear your shirt sometimes. It has become increasingly worn by each use, but I don't mind. Sometimes, I wonder if you still wear that gray scarf I got you almost four Christmases ago. How I wonder if I am ever a fixture in your mind like I used to be. I hope you don't mind.

#Thoughts

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