Lucidicious

I love typing and I think its damn fun to. Just writing my random thoughts !!!

[yourslovelylucid]

Someone lately has been making me realise the importance of Patience ! It was so beautiful to listen to their side of the story on how patient can a person be.

If you legit wait for things, and truly want them, you will surely get it. What if you do not get it ? It's for the best...maybe you do not need it in your life, maybe it does not create a major impact for you in your life. Also maybe something more worth it is going to come to you that will make you realise the worth of the wait. What if you get it after a long wait ? That is because it is creating an impact in your life and you need them in your life to sort of evolve in a certain way. Even if you are hurt by the experience, you just need to channelise it in such a way that it actually teaches you something out of it. It will take time to realise, But you need to give it that sort of trust in yourself to understand it. And love always !!

[yourslovelylucid]

Life is so much full of surprises: You always get what you do not expect ! What you are today you may not be tomorrow ! Its funny how you think a certain way and after sometime, when you go back and think about it really irks you in a way.

[yourslovelylucid]

Tara's Thoughts :

Tara :

I had a question a couple of minutes ago. Can my perception towards few things help others grow ? Not literally! Tbh i dont know a lot of things, but whatever i know i feel like people would be in need of it. Ahhh... i know i always have some or the other answer when it comes to others problems and questions. But, what about me ? haha....still in dilemma.

[yourslovelylucid]

Tara's Thoughts :

Tara :

Why do things prick so much when a loved one rebukes ? Don’t we know that they would react in such a way when they are angry or tensed ? But why does it hurt so much when they just say certain things ? Is it so hard to digest that kinda gesture from that person ? So hard to understand even when they are wrong ? Why cant we accept it ? Why is it hurting ? Do i hurt people just like this ? Do people get hurt when i am wrong or angry at things ? Am i hurting people ? If yes, then how can i make it better ? If no, then how can i make it better for myself ? I need to know things !!

[yourslovelylucid]

Tara's Thoughts :

Tara : Its just so exhausting sometimes to just do the daily things that you have to. Doing the same thing everyday. Feels like hell. Doing the same thing everyday and on and on and on.

And the hardest part is that you pretend as if nothing is wrong and everything is just perfect ! Acting is hard...maybe not for some people. But its getting too much to handle.And unfortunately, no one can help us with it coz, yes, we have to deal it with all by ourselves.

WOW this is blowing me up ! Its just that you want someone to understand you just like that, without you even telling them, what do you want, what do you need, how do you feel, what makes you feel loved, what makes you feel better !! The partner/friends or anyone cant know everything, so you are all by yourself.

[yourslovelylucid]

Tara's Thoughts :

Tara :

The pain caused cannot be forgotten...maybe forgived ! The happiness caused will never be remebered. Is that how its supposed to be ? Is this how people function ? Do they even care that they are being loved by someone and cared by ? Do just take things for granted and forget all the good times that you were with them ? Why should people behave like that ? You show all the love, compassion, care and adventure ! And once they are out of your life they dont matter anything to you ?This is the reason people are afraid to get committed ! It destroys people inside and pushed them to another level of ignorance. In this level the affected person will grow negative and hurt himself/herself mentally just like how it hurts when you get hit by a truck ! Figuring out how and what is the solution !!

[yourslovelylucid]

Tara's Thoughts :

Tara :

Just think about it..... when you focus on to the present and take decisons whether they might be good or bad, at the end of the day we take them and implement them ! Now when that moment becomes past....we have to forget that ? How is that even possible ? No one can forget the past !! If its a bad one people will either break themselves or others. If it wasn’t something very beneficial but also not a bad one people try to make peace with it. But if its a good one people take all the credit and wont share the credit even if their folks help them through that ! Happiness is shareable ? Then why isnt sadness ?

[yourslovelylucid]

Tara's Thoughts :

Tara :

When we blame people and the circumstances we also free ourselves from the guilt and the anger that comes with the failure ! When we blame others , we trick our minds that the failure is all the people’s fault or the circumstances were not good enough !

My question is !!!Why should we have to blame others and circumstances for things ? Cant we just take the blame and get over with it ? How many times are we going to accuse people and the circumstances ? How is that even real ? We are all faking it !!We are trying to be happy by blaming others ? For how long ? When people say you should forget the past and focus on to the present and the future !! ? Is that really possible ?

It doesn’t seem tbh !

[yourslovelylucid]

Tara's Thoughts :

Tara :

I guess life likes to play games with us sometimes!!

It gives us everything and slowly takes away everything without we realising that its already gone, and then here we are stuck at things that we dont know how to get out of it. Always wondering what our future could be, and how can it affect from the past.

Life is unpredictable...also the people are !Life just goes on...it never gives us chances...the situations and the people give us chances to do things.

If we do not get succeeded by the outcome of it...we simply blame the people and the circumstances. why ? Cause its the easiest thing to do !! 🤷🏻‍♀️

[yourslovelylucid]

Tara's Thoughts :

Tara : You can never really reach anyone's expectations can you ? Its the hardest and impossible thing on earth ! People around you expect you to be in a certain way...they want you to always satisfy their hunger of expectations. Which is not humanly possible !! They cannot reach anyones expectations and they want to force the opposite person to fulfill theirs! and that keeps on going from one person to other and everyone are miserable !!!!!! A friend expects something from one, then the other person cannot fulfill it, and then he expects something from a lover, the lover can't fulfill it, then the lover expects something from a sibling, but the sibling doesn't satisfy the expectations as well....and it goes on !!!! Argghhhh !!! Seriously ? Is life is all about this ? No !!!!!! Its not !!!!! When are you really gonna enjoy the happy moments of your life if you keep on going with this chain ? Who owes you anything ? to satisfy you ? when you want to live your life the way you want, people want their lives to be like that too !!! as simple as it is !!!

[yourslovelylucid]

Tara's Thoughts :

Tara : Why ? Why is a person you love is suddenly is so important ?? There is a friend at one side, and a lover at another ! or parents at one side and lover at another ! How can you just give that power to someone ? You oppose your loved ones who are there in your life since your childhood ? or prior to your lover ! When you have expectations towards your partner/lover and you want them to fulfill them, or vice versa. Why do you forget that your family and friends have the same towards you ? and you wish to kill their expectations and agree things with your partner/lover ? If your partner really likes you ? or loves you ? they should be able to understand your reasoning in fulfilling your expectations with your loved ones, be it anyone !! If that isn't present, are you really loving someone truly ?

[yourslovelylucid]

Tara's Thoughts :

Tara : What happens when someone is showing so much interest in you ? They make you feel loved, beautiful, wanted, etc.

Do they only want the attention from that person they are investing their effort or showing their interest ? Seeking happiness in knowing that people are loving them ? wanting them ? What sort of happiness is this ? Once getting the attention, they simply just bail out !!! watch you burn, and aren't around when you are all thinking about them. Just disappeared ! Leaving people behind, Numb!!! Is this what makes you happy ? Is this what makes you feel good ?

[yourslovelylucid]

Tara's Thoughts :

Tara : Sometimes life is just so messed up!! One day you think everything is perfect ! The other day you think everything is fucked up!! Its good and bad, accepting it all is - well a good thing and the hardest thing to do ! Why do we have to go the hard ways all the time ? Is it really worth it ? The good and bad completes you as a person, for sure !! But who actually realizes and sees it ? Is there anyone in the entire life that sees a person just like they are ? No !!!! Every person wants to change something or the other in the opposite person, but also expects that no one should change or control him/her. Irony!!

[yourslovelylucid]

Tara's Thoughts :

Tara : Sometimes you never really know why you love someone ? There can be many reasons to hate a person, but could there be any reason why you love someone ? And if yes, then what is the reason ? Is it the way they made you feel ? or is it that they knew who you are and what are you all about ? If so why is always only one among them is more connected and the other doesn't even seem to care about it ? What is it that keeps you tied with someone ? If we feel the way we feel, how do we stop ? If not stop, how do we control it ?

[yourslovelylucid]

I have realized, that writing can be my thing ! ahh, not books !! Honestly I would love to write a book one day, but this helps me to post out my thoughts and clear my mind maybe ?

Feels good ! It also feels like I can talk to my self, face to face, which of course I cannot do if I write in a journal ! lol

I may or may not be active, but I hope this helps !!