AKU-MU

Disini, didepan pintu hatimu.

[yourszyx]

Honestly, sometimes I’m tired of being myself.

[yourszyx]

I love you, but i hate you.

- me, 1 a.m.

[yourszyx]

Someone asked me, "when you will get married?" Then I said, "I dont know, I guess when I'm ready ."

Which is weird, because I thought I would get married as fast as I want. But now, I dont know. Would I? Should I? Could I?

[yourszyx]

Dreaming of you. What a beautiful escape.

[mbeeer]

Jikapun pada akhirnya kami tidak bisa bersama, Tuhan, tolong berikan aku kemampuan untuk mengikhlaskan..

[yourszyx]

God, please.

[yourszyx]

I mean, who’s proud of having me?

[yourszyx]

And now I have to lose you forever?

I don’t think I’ll recover from this.

[yourszyx]

In my own world, you belong to nobody but me.

Yeah, I love you. So bad.

[yourszyx]

So, How’s life?

I miss you. I know, we’re in different ways. But, can I?

I mean, let me love you so badly in my heart.

[yourszyx]

“I don’t care if I’m alone at the top. Because I was alone at the bottom too.”

[yourszyx]

“Thank you for being my free therapist, as always.”

- with love, me.

[thoughtkick]

“If I can’t have you I’ll walk this life alone.”

— Sam Smith - Leave Your Lover

[yourszyx]

God, I’m begging you. I am not asking you too much. But, if I am allowed to fall in love, again. God please, allow me to fall in love with someone I deserve. Someone who meant for me. Please.

[yourszyx]

In other way, I knew that I was his world. But I hope he’ll understand that he deserved the entire universe.

[yourszyx]

How are you? Are you happy? Health enough? Always have a good day?

You know what? In every situation there is someone that always care for you and think about you. If you say that you don’t see it. Maybe, not everybody want to get notice from someone they care about. So, for you, always be strong enough to hold every your heavy breath and always strong enough for yourself and people around you because they need you too. And I wish the best for you, always. Always.

[yourszyx]

“I miss you so much.”

[yourszyx]

Even though at the end of the day I’m not with you. All I can do just “The sunset is beautiful, isn’t it?”

It hurts, but it’s okay.