Yan without cheeks, that's not Yan

Pikachu 25 dreamer & free spirit

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[ypikachu]

academics/career crisis

I am slowing coming to terms with the fact that not everyone smooth sails through med school. People always talk about how difficult it is to get IN, but I almost never heard about how physically, mentally, and emotionally challenging it is to get THROUGH it. Med school is full of geniuses who skipped grades and inspiring individuals who not only excel at learning but also have extraordinary talents outside of medicine. I am an average student in my class at best. I have struggled and am currently facing one of the most daunting tasks of my life. I have made progress, big time, but I am still far from my goal. I don’t feel 100% confident that I will reach my target, especially since there is a time constraint, but what I CAN do, is to give everything I got and put on my best performance. The last few weeks have been an emotional coaster that had me seriously doubting my abilities. I may be trailing behind a few steps back, but I will not admit to defeat. I am taking a breather at the moment, but let me tell you, I WILL get my head back in the game. They say that slow and steady wins the race, right? The only way to go is UP.

[whatshouldwecallmedschool]

When I try to copy and paste something while UWorld is active and get this message:

“Copyright © US MLEWorld, LLC., Please do not save, print, cut, copy or paste anything while a test is active,” I’m like…

[ypikachu]

ugh

[thepowerwithin]

Dream big, work hard, stay focused, and surround yourself with good people.

Unknown (via thepowerwithin)

[wayfaringmd]

A bit of Step 1 Encouragement

Keep reading

[ypikachu]

for future reads at times of need

[wayfaringmd]

Step 1 Study Motivation

Hi. I’m really struggling with studying for USMLE Step 1. I know all the generic advice. I basically have zero fun or moral support, and lots of pressure. Correction - there are a few random people who I have never met in my life - either through gtalk/forums… but that hasn’t helped me in any way whatsoever. I hope this isnt inappropriate or out of place in any way. To avoid rambling that could be off-putting, can you give any suggestions to peak motivation and focus? I think I’m losing it. -doctumbl

[wayfaringmd]

First, on the pressures of med school life: having internet buddies is great (I have plenty, for sure), but they are no substitute for good, supportive, in-the-flesh friends. Are there any fellow classmates / upperclassmen / professors you can vent to? (If not, you can always Skype me @ WayfaringMD). 

On motivation and focus: the best thing for me was to set short term goals. Find something fun and stress releasing you want to do every day during your step 1 study. It can be exercise, sports, tumbling, going to the movies, going out to dinner, etc. Set a goal of X amount of material (reasonable amounts, of course) you need to cover before you can go do that fun thing. You’re stressed out, of course, and you really want to go have fun, so that will motivate you to stick to your studies and get your work done. 

If a goal for the end of the day is not enough, set even shorter goals. For example:

- I’m going to get through 20 pages of First Aid by lunch and then I’m going to make the best grilled cheese sandwich ever made and eat it outside

- I’m going to do 100 World questions and then call my best buddy (make sure you schedule phone dates if your friend is also studying!)

- Just 5 more pages and I’ll have a 5 minute dance party

Keep reading

[ypikachu]

day 5

[ypikachu]

just purchased UWORLD

NOW IT FEELS REAL. 60 DAYS!!!

[ypikachu]

3 months later and i am still healing

it doesn’t help that i’m in the familiar environment with people, places, and things that act as constant reminders.

it doesn’t help that i haven’t been doing well in my work.

right now i just want to be good at what i do. learn as much as i can. and be as successful as i can be. 

i see some people in my life who are juggling their love life and academics just fine. 

how am i doing so poorly in both? 

what am i doing wrong?

more importantly, what can i change to get it right?

the clock is ticking.

[serious]

[danger]

[ypikachu]

“Face it; your ex isn’t as great as you think he is. It’s not that he’s not a great catch on paper. But in practice, he’s a terrible life partner for you for one reason.

He was willing to let you go.

Now it’s time for you to let him go.”

[ypikachu]

Opposite of love isn't hate, it's indifference.

[ypikachu]

when people ask about you, i have nothing to say. it hurts too much to think about it, to rewind the tape, to poke the wound that has not yet completely healed. i am afraid that before i even begin to utter a word, i will choke up and find myself on the verge of tears. i can’t be seen like this in a professional environment. i won’t allow myself to be vulnerable again, at least not in this way.

[ypikachu]

God blessed the broken road That led me straight to you.

Rascal Flatts

[wordsnquotes]

Try to learn to breathe deeply, really to taste food when you eat, and when you sleep, really to sleep. Try as much as possible to be wholly alive with all your might, and when you laugh, laugh like hell. And when you get angry, get good and angry. Try to be alive. You will be dead soon enough.

Ernest Hemingway (via wordsnquotes)

[ypikachu]

i am not whole. i am not 100% healed.

it’s no longer a sharp, stabbing, destructive pain, where every ounce leads to a few drops of blood. i would describe it now as a dull aching sensation somewhere deep in my viscera that may or may not not completely go away. it will always be a wound of the past. i can tell you that much.

the next few months are crucial for me. it is essential to use this pain and anything else and everything else as a strength, to propel forward, to look past the misfortunate events, to focus, really focus on getting better. i want to use it as a fuel to light the fire of my studying, to do well in school, to learn and absorb everything i can, no matter how challenging it is. when in doubt, do it anyway. keep moving forward. put your best effort into boards studying, and do well enough so that you will have a firm say in your future.

[kushandwizdom]