PSA regarding Such Sweet Sorrow:
First and foremost, I want to say this: Run.
Run far, far away from this site. Do not look back. Do not even second guess your decision to leave.
In August-September, my journey began on Small Town Famous under the alias of Chi. Around the same time, I joined a site called Little Prayer. Almost immediately, I was sucked into Little Prayer and the vibe therein, whereas, on Small Town Famous, I felt like I was on the outside looking in.
My perception only became more skewed after getting close to the then-staff team, which, at the time, was comprised of three people: Cindy, Jelly/Joyce, and Thea.
If I’d known the Hell I’d stumbled into, I would’ve run a lot sooner. I would’ve cut contact completely.
Cindy told me in no uncertain terms that Fia, who ran Small Town Famous, was two-faced and would frequently trash the members behind their backs. Supposedly, that was why she left to create Little Prayer. Before dropping that particular bombshell, she had alluded to it on multiple occasions.
A couple weeks after I had joined, after making multiple plots with Jelly/Joyce, she was suddenly gone from the server and I woke up to a BS announcement from Cindy. I hadn’t gotten a word of warning before Jelly/Joyce had left yet she was still on my friends list.
I was hurt. I was confused. I thought I’d done something wrong.
Cindy assured me it wasn’t me then proceeded to fill my head with what I can only assume are lies. At this point, it is he said/she said.
Cindy informed me that Jelly/Joyce had stolen money and that she was afraid Jelly/Joyce would take off with the skin. She went on to inform me of things that should have been between her, Joyce, and Thea and also made sure to tell me she intended to commission another skin from Yuno.
After Jelly/Joyce left, it did not take long for me to see that I wasn’t really wanted on Little Prayer, so I took my leave. I did this by deleting my alternate Discord account. I did not cause any drama. I did not ask any questions. I did not even attempt to save the characters I had written on that site. I simply cut my losses.
I’d been away from the site for a couple of weeks by that point when I ran into Jelly/Joyce again, who had claimed she was no longer roleplaying. We started talking and she began to provide me with receipts that counteracted Cindy and Thea’s claims. I believed her as much as I could, given the circumstances. I also apologized profusely, despite the fact I’d done nothing wrong. Again, my only crime at that point was associating with toxic individuals.
Despite having told Jelly/Joyce that I was done RPing and that I had no desire to join a new site or staff, I allowed her to talk me into doing just that. She had brought the lore over from a HP site. She made necessary edits to amend it. I tended to the guidebook and to the canons. Our original goal was to open on 12/01. We thought we’d have all of the time in the world. We got people joining en masse somehow, and we attributed that to the fact we tried to keep the site and the lore as user-friendly as possible.
It did not take long for drama to start. Yuno came into the server, and Joyce assumed Yuno was spying on behalf of Cindy. We allowed her to linger in the server for a few days then Joyce made the executive decision to ban her outright.
Following Yuno, there were three more bans, including Cola, one individual a mod said was problematic, and the third was an unknown who had just made their account. Joyce trusted nobody. Initially, given what had transpired on Little Prayer, I did not blame her for her suspicion. Her paranoia, however, rubbed off on me and my agitation over the situation started to show publicly.
Another mod on the site, who was brought on after the very first mod we’d hired had ghosted, and I talked about Cindy. We came to the general consensus that she used her mental illness to excuse her shitty behavior and overall attitude. This mod also confessed that, like me, they just wanted the drama to stop so they could get back to enjoying their writing endeavors. This mod was also banned by Cindy prior to me “ghosting” Little Prayer.
The final straw came today around 10:30 AM. For 30 minutes, I argued with Jelly/Joyce over something that, under normal circumstances, would not have bothered me. I sobbed in public. I begged my grandmother, who has a broken back, to pick me up approximately an hour and a half later. Because of the drama on Such Sweet Sorrow, I missed my appointment with my psychiatrist, WHICH I NEEDED, as I am out of my medication.
Jelly/Joyce and everyone else knew I have health concerns going on at the moment and that the state of my head honestly is not the greatest. In all honesty, I should probably be receiving psychiatric care in a facility with as bad as it is, but I had hope that the site would give me a reason to feel better about *something* because *something* was better than *nothing*.
The nonstop drama has made that an impossibility, however. Please, if you see Little Prayer or Such Sweet Sorrow, go the other way for your own sake. Look at me as your cautionary tale and don’t make the same mistakes that I did.