Chapter 15: karma. (pt 1)
None of you were ever supposed to feel love. You weren’t supposed to know the concept of love, so why was your heart so empty?
You slowly walked over to Luka as tears fell from his face, he looked up at you.
“…it’s your fault.” You mumbled before punching him in the face.
“Stop acting like her death wasn’t your fault.” You pulled him by the hair as you stared into his eyes,
“it’s all your fault. You don’t deserve to be saved. I don’t deserve to be saved.” You shove him onto the ground, “but atleast I have a better chance at being saved than you.”
Me, together with you. We head to the distant star below.
You weren’t sure what you were going to do now.
she was in ragged clothes, shakily holding a gun tha she snatched from one of the men that was in the rebellion.
“…Mizi.” You breathed out.
Another bang. This time, in Isaac’s leg.
to eternity, or perhaps even beyond.
You couldn’t do anything besides stare at her. It was like time was frozen.
had she been alive this whole time? Waiting for the right moment?
Mizi grabbed the laptop from Isaac as she started to change the controls of the rocket.
You finally knew what she was doing.
“MIZI!” You scrambled back onto your feet as you ran to her, the rocket stopped.
At last, we reach the star below.
it wasn’t her fault, though. You would’ve done the same thing. Right? You would’ve brought everyone down with you. If it meant not feeling the pain of everyone else. And yours.
To eternity, or perhaps even beyond.
Mizi sat by a tree in the garden as tears dropped onto the grass, you simply stared down at her.
“…y-you’re pathetic.” You breathed out, “crying… who does that anymore?” You scoffed.
you. You do it. Every night.
she kept on wiping her tears, “Y/N… why are you so mean..? I just- I just… want to be your friend!” She cried out.
It's not like you didn't want to be her friend.
You glanced at your guardian from the corner of your eye, who was shaking its' head. You knew what that meant.
"...Because you're just... weird."
It was nice. It was quiet, it almost felt like no one else existed but the two of you.
Till wrapped his arms around you from behind, holding his fragile heart.
"Please... take it." he whispered, burying his face into your neck.
When twilight falls and gently embraces us.
You didn't touch him, atleast, not on purpose. You wanted to, though. Your heart was no where to be seen. But Till could see it, when nobody else could. His heart was crushed onto your chest as tears fell from his eyes.
Our hearts bursts into joyful bloom.
You looked up into the sky helplessly, unable to do anything but stare at the rocket that was now falling. The others were trying to grab the laptop from Mizi, but she held on tight.
Held on tight to the fantasy that this was all a nightmare.
You both aren't much different, are you?
We ride the wind to a place beyond time.
You gripped the gun that shot Hyuna. Maybe deep down, you knew it was your fault. And that you blamed it on everyone else to make yourself look righteous.
If I'm with you, this love.
"Ivan. You wanna know something...?" You turned to Ivan as you ate your food.
"Talking to me willingly? That's a new thing." He didn't dare look at you, knowing you might scoff at him if he did, and he wanted to listen to your rare words.
"...Every night, I always go to the room that Till's guardian keeps him in. And I listen. I hear my singing from his room. He watches the same video of me, over and over again... He knew I was listening." You paused for a moment, noticing Ivan was staring at you.
"...Or- maybe I'm just not desperate enough to have feelings for anyone here." You immediately covered your mouth,
"I have to go." You abruptly stood up, quickly walking away from what seemed like the most embarrassing thing that's happened to you.
Ivan stared down at his plate. You were coming around, slowly, but surely. It was progress.
But something kept gnawing at him.
What do they have... that he doesn't?
It was another one of Till's dreams.
Except, you were willing to love him in this one.
The water was cold. The wires that were inside the both of you were uncomfortable. The light was causing a headache for you.
Because you were with him.
You leaned back in the tub, "Till." You smiled at him, grabbing his hand. His head perked up.
"You wanna know something?..." You leaned closer to him, grabbing his other hand as well.
"I really do... love you." You pressed gentle kisses on his wrist, he couldn't take it anymore.
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