Helplessly Crushing on my best guy friend
SO, I don't even know how to write this down,and well this is my first time blogging.So, excuse my way of writing. I told myself after my last bad experience with a particular guy that I give myself a break from liking guys or heartbreaks . Well, that didn't last long. A few months after that little conflict . I met this wonderful guy . He seemed really shy,and sort of the bashful type,but I thought it was really cute. The way he smiled ,and how his eyes sparkled behind his glasses . Okay so at first I wasn't crushing on him or anything since I met him during his mission. Your probably thinking how did she end up liking this guy knowing he's on a mission ? Honestly it all happened when I had an emergency surgery I had to go through, because I was dealing with a life or death situation. Out of all the friends I had . He was the only one who was constantly asking if I was okay , messaging on ocassions to keep my mind distracted while I was hospitalized. Once I got released ,and sent home he would visited me every once a week asking me how the area that I had surgery was doing. He even showed he cared ,and stood by side while I rambled about nonsense ,because I was morphine. My family loved him,and still does . Trust me no guy can easily past the 'Oh he's a great gentleman' test my family has,but him he passed within a minute. It was until he got transfered to a different area that I noticed "Wow I really like him..I shouldn't since he is on a mission". It's safe to say I never liked someone like the way I like him. So after a few months since he got transferred we decided to msg one another.we got really close,and got to know each other in a different level. I was open book with him. Something I don't do easily. I told him how insecure my surgery left me,because of scars . He was constantly reminded me that I should love my flaws,because I am still beautiful. He asked about my family. Congratulate me on any accomplishments big or small that I made . Just recently we saw each other since he got released from his mission. I went to his talk. While he gave his talk he wouldn't stop looking at me . I only know because I would see him doing so,and because one of my friends pointed it out. There came a point where I had to look down from how hard I was blushing. Well he noticed cause when I look back up I saw him giggling,and smirking. Right after his talk he went up to me,and gave me this look like he wanted to tell me something. His look was so intense that I could see his pupil dilate. People say he may like me back as well,but how will I know I'm so clueless even when the hints are so obvious. I need help before I tell him how I feel at least a warning, because if the feelings aren't mutual at least I was warned.
