feels like my world has grown.

Dreams from times that have run away. Past the place where I’m left alone. I took out the old notebook. And reminisce when I was young.

[ywoosung]

charlietheblue​:

charlie was excited. she didn’t think her day would turn into this. it felt unreal to her that they’ve got a house now. together. “oh, there’s a lot we have to do, but… i like it. it’s a bit bigger than the living room in the boys’ house.” she smiled widely, her hand holding his tightly. “so how many rooms are there?” 

he looked at her with a smile as she spoke nodding his head in agreement. “so, downstairs there’s the kitchen, the bathroom, and the living room.” he led her back out of the living room into the hallway, gesturing to the closed door that was for the downstairs bathroom. “there’s another bathroom upstairs. this one has a shower, upstairs has a bath. then there’s our bedroom, and two other rooms. we could have a guest room and a study, i guess?”

[ywoosung]

charlietheblue​:

charlie was just as bad as expressing her affection with words, so she had no idea what to do. all she can do was reach up to wrap her arms around his neck and kiss him. “i’d love that… i love you.” she smiled at him. she was a bit hesitant just a little moment ago, feeling like it was rushed. but she thought about it again, and honestly, what’s the harm? they spend a lot of time together everyday anyway. “i dont mind it, at all. i do like it a lot so far. but you’re gonna have to show me around.”

her kiss was enough to make him relax. he was worried she’d say no, which he would understand, but he didn’t want things to feel awkward. “okay, good.” he laughed a little, letting go of her waist and reaching for her hand, leading out of the kitchen and towards to living room area. there was a big window that looked over the street, and a large blue couch facing a tv that was mounted to the wall. “i think we should get some shelves in here, for books or something?”

[ywoosung]

charlietheblue​:

charlie’s eyes wandered around. she could tell it was still a bare home, but she could see woosung living here and making it his own. she stood by the island, clearly amazed by the size of this place. although what woosung said next was something she was expecting, but didn’t have high hopes on. “… are you serious?” she asked, looking down at the key and then back at him. “w-woosung, that’s a big step… i mean, i would love to, but… are you sure?” 

he watched her carefully as he waited for an answer, the nerves making his stomach tie itself in knots. when she said she’d loved to he sighed like he’d been holding onto the breath, pushing himself back from where he was resting forwards on the counter. he moved around to her side, reaching out to gently rest his hands on her waist. “i know it’s a big step, and it’s one i want to take. i love you, charlie. and i... i want to keep being with you for a long time.” he was never good with verbal affirmations, but he was trying his best. “and i hope you don’t mind that i wanted to surprise you and got this place without you seeing it. we can still make it ours. there’s lots left to do.”

[ywoosung]

charlietheblue​:

“where are we…” charlie asked when woosung parked his car in the driveway of a house she’s never been to before. she was skeptical, but she jumped out and followed him, still a little behind him. she watched in confusion as he opened the door. “wait… what?!” charlie asked, eyes widening. her mind was running with possible thoughts, and yet she didn’t want to assume. they never talked about this. “you… got a place?” she repeated, taking a step inside and looking around. “what the fuck?”

“yeah, i thought maybe it was time to get a place of my own. not that i hate living with the boys, but it’s been years now.” he shrugged, stepping in behind her and closing the door. there was some modern furniture around, but there were gaps in the interior and a clear lack of any personal touches, like a house waiting to become a home. he led her down the short hallway into the kitchen, which was so clean it was like it had never been touched. it wasn’t massive, but it wasn’t overly humble either. “but i was thinking,” he placed the key onto the island counter, sliding it towards the direction she was stood in. “you could move in with me. if you want to.”

[ywoosung]

closed for @charlietheblue​

“alright, charlotte.” woosung teased as he switched the engine off, slipping his jacket on before getting out of the car. he had parked on the driveway of the blue house in front of them, not saying anything to explain as he went up the steps to the door. he reached into his pocket and pulled out a single, new key, slotting it into the door. “so,” he started as he pushed open the wooden front door, waiting for her to walk in first. “i got a place.”

[ywoosung]

charlietheblue​:

charlie stayed quiet. she didn’t know what to say for a moment. she sighed and shook her head. “it’s fine. don’t worry about it. i don’t blame you for that… i honestly thought the same about you.” she admitted. charlie looked up at him, smiling a little for the first time. “please?” she opened her arms, waiting for her long awaited hug. “i missed you.” 

a smile slowly took over his previous frown as she opened her arms, and he nodded his head. he wrapped his own arms around her and swayed slightly. “i missed you too.” he was quiet and honest, head resting against hers. but he caught himself lingering and pulled back suddenly, clearing his throat. “people are going to think there’s some drama if we stay out here too long.” he joked, tapping her leg lightly and playfully with his foot.

[ywoosung]

charlietheblue​:

“i… of course i care, woosung. just because we broke up, doesn’t mean we can’t be normal friends who catch up sometimes.” she answered. charlie sighed, taking a few steps closer so that she wasn’t so far from him. “it’s never too late. i didn’t know you’d think that… i really thought we were fine. and… and honestly, seeing you there all of a sudden without a warning threw me off. i’m happy to see you again, but not like this. i didn’t want to feel like i wasn’t wanted anymore.” 

he wasn’t looking at her properly anymore, hand stroking his own arm just to busy himself. “it’s not that i’m mad at you, or anything.” he replied more quietly than before, hating how heavy he was feeling now. “it’s not about not wanting you, it isn’t. i almost told you,” he took in a deep breath, looking up at her. “but i think i was scared that-... i just thought maybe you were onto a new chapter, that i didn’t fit into.” he shrugged. “can we maybe start tonight over?”

[ywoosung]

charlietheblue​:

charlie pushed through people and left the house as quickly as she could, not wanting to stay anymore. this was too much. the noise and her thoughts running quickly weren’t a good mix. she tried to stay calm. she didn’t want to be angry, but she didn’t understand why her own friend didn’t tell her he was here. her thoughts were interrupted when she heard woosung’s voice behind her. she stopped and turned around, arms wrapped around herself because she truly didn’t know what to do with them. “that’s what i thought…? but clearly no one wanted to tell me you were here. including you.” she answered, looking very hurt. “you’ve been here for three months and everyone knew? and no one bothered to maybe say ‘hey, charlie, he’s here’? there weren’t any hard feelings in the first place, i don’t understand why you didn’t talk to me.”

woosung felt an awful kind of realisation come over him at her response. seeing her so hurt was something he never wanted to experience again, but here he was living it over again like the day they’d ended things. “i didn’t think you’d want me to.” he confessed, sounding uncharacteristically shy. “it felt too late, like i shouldn’t bother you? i didn’t know if you’d even care.” he sighed, not liking how it sounded now he knew how she felt about him being there. it sounded ridiculous when she clearly wanted to know he was around. “i didn’t want to be the ex that came back into your life annoyingly, i guess.” 

[ywoosung]

charlietheblue​:

three months ago. charlie wanted to punch someone. she crossed her arms and looked over at the boys who were obviously watching them, now stupidly pretending like they were talking about something else. “i came here with choon and our friends…. hold on-” she stopped herself, eyes wide. “so she knew you were here? this whole time?? what the fuck?” charlie pushed her hair back, actually frustrated with her friend. she didn’t know how she was supposed to react. of course she was happy to see woosung again, but she was also conflicted because they weren’t together anymore and she didn’t know if he even wanted her again. “i… this is too much for me” charlie shook her head, walking past woosung once again and heading straight for the door to leave. she’d rather be in a quiet place on her own than have to face everyone around her. 

woosung simply rolled his eyes when she mentioned choonhee, not at all surprised she’d known something they didn’t this whole time. “sounds like choon.” he chuckled, but it was a little sour. he went to speak but she moved past him before he could even response, mouth a little agape as he stared head through the ghost of the girl that had been haunting him long before this moment. he shook his head at his friends who looked him questioningly, only for them to all whisper shout at him to hurry up and move. 

against better judgement, he followed her to the door, but didn’t stop her leaving. instead he followed her out, jogging to catch up with her. “charlie, hey. come on.” he reached out to take her hand but stopped, deciding it wasn’t appropriate even if he was only trying to stop her leaving. “i know this is a shock, and really weird but... you can still talk to me. you know that, right? there’s no need to run away from me.”

[ywoosung]

charlietheblue​:

this was strange. charlie wasn’t used to being awkward around him like this. it felt so, so wrong and she wished that wasn’t the case. her eyes landed on the dark mark on his arm, never having see that one there before. but before she could let that thought process; the fact that some things changed and she didn’t know about them, he broke the news. she looked up at him with surprise. “… what?” she asked. “you… moved here?” why did that hurt? the only reason they broke up was that they couldn’t be in each other’s lives anyway because he was away and because they got busy with their own lives. she couldn’t believe that the only thing she wished for happened after they broke up. “s-since when?” she didn’t mean for her voice to crack, and she quickly cleared her throat to act like she was fine. 

he was just as surprised as she was that their paths had crossed like this. having her walk right through his front door was the last thing he’d expected. “to study, yeah.” he confirmed, wondering what she was thinking of him. he hadn’t told her when he moved because he thought it was too late to come back into her life. “three months ago.” he answered, gesturing to his friends who were not-so-subtly watching them from the couch, immediately all looking different directions when he pointed them out. “i know nick. he told me he had a spare room and it just happened.” he shrugged. “so, why are you here? who did you come with?”

[ywoosung]

charlietheblue​:

thankfully, it was someone from her class, and someone who she actually liked talking to casually. so it wasn’t too hard to talk to her and not be so obviously awkward about how she’s avoiding looking at woosung. her heart couldn’t handle this. she still couldn’t move on. and she had no idea if woosung even missed her at all. she momentarily forgot that he was there, that is until she actually heard his avoid near her. she took one quick glance at him before looking down at anything else. the girl with her had no idea what was going on, but she nicely smiled and “sure.” before walking away. that’s when it had gone quiet. charlie had no idea what to say. she turned to him, but wasn’t looking at him just yet. “so… you’re visiting your friends?” she asked quietly, not knowing what else to say.

woosung realised in the silence that he didn’t know what he was supposed to say to her, feeling increasingly awkward with each passing second. which wasn’t something he was used to around charlie. he shook his head, folding his arms, new tattoo on his arm peaking out from his sleeve. “i live here, actually.” he corrected her, looking at her properly with a small smile. one that seemed a little uncomfortable. “literally.” he added with a short laugh. “this is my house.”

[ywoosung]

charlietheblue​:

charlie didn’t want to go to this party in the first place. choon kept talking about nick and yejun’s party nonstop, begging her to go with her and the other girls. charlie eventually had no choice but to say yes, otherwise she’d have all of them ramble about how ‘awesome’ it was later. she’s been in this house for two minutes. two minutes, and she walked into the living room, only to meet someone’s eyes that she didn’t think she’d see again. never again, let alone here. in london. in her friend’s house. her eyes were stuck on him, not being able to move them away. she couldn’t even pretend like she didn’t see him. but was she going to do that? yes. luckily she saw a girl she knew standing a bit further behind woosung and pretended like she was looking at her. “hey! how’s it going?” she grinned, passing by him and going to the familiar girl. 

watching charlie walk straight past him made him feel like he was punched in the gut, looking down at his lap and tilting his head in response to the knock. losing charlie was something he still hadn’t healed from, and her acting like he wasn’t even there hurt him. he knew her well enough to know she had chosen to act like they hadn’t noticed each other. “who is that?” nick muttered to him, noticing where he had been looking before. woosung whispered her name back to him, receiving widened eyes from his friends in response. “like... the ‘love of your life’ charlie?” youjin commented, and woosung smacked him on the arm as if he’d shouted it even though it was barely above a whisper. 

a few minutes later, he was swallowing his pride - and a shot of yejun’s vodka for something stronger - and approaching charlie. he lent against the wall where she was, sliding into the free space of the girls. “hey, can i steal her for a minute?” he asked the other girl, not quite braving meeting charlie’s gaze just yet. 

[ywoosung]

closed for @charlietheblue

parties were usually uneventful for their group of friends, at least when it came to any negative drama. so woosung was relaxed, sitting on the arm of the couch whilst laughing along to one of nick and yejun’s stories. he was just making a joke, beer bottle moving closer to his lips, when he stopped still suddenly. “what, did you forget the punchline?” yejun teased playfully as the rest of their friends looked at him curiously, but woosung was too focused on the person he’d seen walk in. she was looking as beautiful as ever, and he felt like his heart was in his throat as he struggled to drag his eyes away from her. 

[ywoosung]

there was a small but growing smile on charlie’s face. she knew what was coming for her boyfriend: embarrassment. and honestly, she was very amused with how his parents were already exposing everything. charlie took a glance at woosung, laughing a little at how embarrassed he was. “that sounds so cute. i mean i could see it coming from kitae, but not woosung over here.” she patted his arm playfully, shaking her head. charlie smiled at his dad, the two parents somehow managing to make feel less nervous than she had been earlier. “i’m having a great time, don’t worry. he’s not always so grumpy. big softie, actually.” 

woosung jokingly glared at his girlfriend when she patted his arm, through he was glad the interaction was not painfully awkward between her and his parents. he couldn’t help but smile at comment, though remembering his parents were there made him laugh uncomfortably, never having had an interaction like that. “oh, look at you, kiddo! a romeo like your father.” his dad joked, and woosung just rolled his eyes affectionately. “now, you know that’s not true. you couldn’t flirt to save your life, i hope for his sake woosung didn’t inherit that.” his mother replied, and woosung just shot charlie an amused and knowing look. 

[ywoosung]

the moment charlie saw woosung’s parents approaching, she turned away and tried to keep herself together. she’s never been so nervous about something so small. she downed her entire drink as a courage boost and turned back to look at the little family, standing a bit behind while they greeted each other. she could just tell how embarrassed woosung was. it was a little funny, she wasn’t going to lie.

“uh, h-hello.” she spoke when woosung introduced her, but she really couldn’t say anything else because of how eager his mother seemed it be. it was sweet how excited they were. she shook the woman’s hand, trying her best to smile nicely. “it’s nice to meet you too.” charlie stood back next to her boyfriend, her hand linking with his arm. “are you having fun?” she decided to ask, trying not to be awkward.

“we’re having a lovely time. i haven’t seen kitae since he was... what... 12?” hyewon looked at her husband whilst she thought before looking back to charlie. “it’s so funny that little sung just happened to end up being friends with him again. you know, when they were really little and kitae visited us, they had a tea party together.” she told the story like any endeared mother would, and woosung was leaning so far against the the wall like he was hoping it would swallow him up. “woosung would pour the tea for all their bears, it was adorable.” she laughed, and woosung was just shaking his head, a slight smile on his lips. “what about you? i hope grumps over here isn’t being too bad, and you’re actually having a good time.” his dad chimed in to tease some more, in classic yoon fashion.

[ywoosung]

closed for @charlietheblue​

“oh, crap.” woosung muttered under his breath before taking a long sip of his drink, seeing his parents approach. he wasn’t nervous because they wouldn’t like charlie, he knew they would, he was nervous about getting embarrassed. “woosungie!” his mother beamed as she pulled him in for a huge hug, then kissing his cheek before totally pulling away. “where’s this pretty girlfriend of yours then, kiddo?” his dad asked as he placed a hand on his shoulder, and woosung just wanted the ground to swallow him whole. 

“standing right here, dad.” he laughed awkwardly, placing his hand on charlie’s back and giving her an apologetic smile. “this is charlie. and this is my mum-” he couldn’t finished before his mother was reaching out a hand and enthusiastically interrupting. “i’m hyewon! and this is sangchul. it’s so good to meet you, charlie.”

[ywoosung]

kitae & jaehyun’s wedding. woosung yoon.