If you played the original Chapter 1, you'll notice this is essentially a different game. The original came in in at 26k words, the rewrite is 469k. The prose has been overhauled from the ground up, with richer writing, deeper characterisation, and far more branching to reflect your MC and their choices. Scenes that existed before have been rebuilt rather than revised, and there's a significant amount of new content that wasn't in the original at all.
What happens:
Arrive at the villa and meet your fellow islanders one by one as they enter.
A one-on-one conversation with one of the nine other islanders before the coupling, who you spend that time with is your choice.
The coupling ceremony, where you'll be paired up for the days ahead.
Word count
469k words total (+443k from the original Chapter 1). Individual playthroughs are a fraction of that, the word count reflects how much the content branches to account for your choices and your MC.
A note for returning players: Chapters 2–11 are no longer accessible while the rewrite is in progress. Chapter 1 is the only playable content for now, but it's a much more substantial Chapter 1 than the one you remember.
Game Summary:
Welcome to Summer of Love.
You and nine other singles will enter a luxury villa and couple up, spending a month in each other’s company, along with a few extras along the way – you’ll live together, eat together, sleep together, and hopefully, fall in love together. Sound familiar? Thought so – but instead of coupling ceremonies being split by boys and girls as is typical in shows like these, the public will be the ones deciding the order of who gets to pick, and as the cast is an all-bi one, you can pick whoever you like, so long as they haven’t already been picked.
At the end of the month, the most popular couple will win £500,000. As for the other couples? As there are no dumpings, everyone has the potential to find love, and those in exclusive relationships by the end could also win £100,000 per couple.
Ready for your summer of love to begin?
summary. romance author!reader has a stalker. the bau gets involved in her case. as spencer tries to solve the case and protect her, their feelings for one another blossom like characters in one her books. (partially inspired by s1:e18).
romance author!reader x spencer reid (criminal minds), 2.8k.
It all started with a bouquet of roses.
You had gone out for groceries one evening and came back to see the floral arrangement sitting on your front porch. Twelve red roses in a black vase, with a note attached to one thorned stem.
“I am your husband, your prince, your god. Kneel and worship me, my beloved thing.”
It’s a quote from your latest romance novel, Reflections of Desire, which follows Prince Evander and Princess Zadie through their tumultuous arranged marriage, meant to reunite their two war-torn kingdoms.
The note wasn’t signed. A first, you’d hoped it was from your agent, Aleena, who was known to spoil her clients with little surprises. You shot her an email to thank her for them, only to be met with confusion.
You wrack your brain for anyone who would have done such a thing: Your family doesn’t read your books, by your own request. Your circle of friends is small, and they also don’t go out of their way to read your work.
You tried to write it off as a fluke, odd thing, tried to move on and ignore it.
And then, the notes didn’t stop.
You have a P.O. box for fan mail, but these letters came straight to your house, no return address or stamp. Ramblings of a stranger, someone who has read every one of your books, who seems lustfully inspired by your fantasies spilled onto the professionally published pages.
“It may sound silly, but the way you pour your heart out on these pages makes me feel like I know you. I can feel your desperation, sense how badly you want to be loved. And I can give that to you.”
You’re not surprised when the local police do nothing. No one’s harmed you, physically, but you’re on edge all of the time now. You’re triple-checking locks, looking over your shoulder. You’ve made your Instagram private, but with your thousands of followers, there’s no telling if you’ve shut out the culprit or not.
And then, David Rossi comes to town.
His books are published by a friend of your agent, and the two of you end up at the same dinner. He’s talking about his job with the BAU, the horrors he sees.
“Do you ever deal with…stalking?” you dare to ask, gripping your glass of champagne like a lifeline.
“Occasionally,” David replies. He’s a profiler, and you can feel the way his eyes observe your every move, can practically see the cogs whirring in his head. “Why?”
The conversation among the rest of the table has moved on. Only Aleena knows what’s been going on with you, and you wonder if she invited you here on purpose, so you could speak with him. By the way she’s excitedly flashing her engagement ring to keep the attention on herself, you figure that’s exactly why you’re sitting at this table, in an uncomfortable outfit, eating overpriced food with strangers.
“I’ve been receiving letters,” you manage to spit out. “Creepy, disgusting letters from some man that has read my books. He sent flowers once, too. Last night, I found a cake. My book just became a New York Times best-seller. He said it was to celebrate.”
“I’m sorry to hear that. Let me guess: Local police told you they can’t do a thing until he escalates.
You nod, feeling your throat get tight. You refuse to cry here in this fancy establishment, in front of a man you hardly know.
David pulls a business card out from his wallet and slides it over to you. “I can’t make any promises, but give me a call tomorrow. I’ll see if my team can take a look.”
Social skills have never been your strong suit, but you don’t care if it makes you look weird when you throw an arm around his shoulders and give him a brief hug. If it bothers him, he doesn’t show it.
/
Your conversation with Rossi gives you a glimmer of hope. The letters started coming two months ago, and you’ve been on edge ever since. The money from your books is technically enough for you to relocate, but you’re worried that won’t stop it. You can hardly sleep, and you’re completely unable to work on the draft for your next release.
After scanning all the letters and emailing them over to the team liaison, Jennifer Jaraeu, you sit and wait restlessly to hear back.
Rossi calls you an hour later: The team is in, and they rest of them will fly out tomorrow.
You breathe a deep sigh of relief.
Then, your doorbell rings. The sound makes you jump, heart racing. You aren’t expecting any deliveries, and the idea that it’s him…Your fingers hover over your phone screen, ready to dial 911 if needed as you creep towards the front door.
You peer through the peephole to see a coffee cup from a local café sitting there, with a note taped to the top: “Your usual” with a winky face.
And the hope flickers once again.
/
The coffee cup you left to rot outside is now being placed in an evidence bag by a local cop.
Rossi, and two other agents who were introduced to you as SSA Emily Prentiss and Dr. Spencer Reid are standing in your living room.
You feel suddenly self-conscious of your space, the brightly-colored knick-knacks and shelves and shelves of books—some classics, some non-fiction, but an over-whelming amount of them are romance. Romance as a genre is so often ridiculed, and so you rarely share your enjoyment of it, let alone your career with people you aren’t close to.
You tell all the details, everything you can remember since this started.
“So these quotes in the letters, they’re from your books?” Emily asks.
Feeling shy, you nod. “They’re full of references to them, too.”
“How do you mean?” Spencer asks.
Your face burns. “Well, I write…what people refer to as dark romance books. The plots usually revolve around… toxic relationships. The things he says about being obsessed with me, wanting to protect me, to own me…It’s rhetoric I use in my writing.”
“So, the unsub has definitely read all your books. That’s interesting, because men usually only make up about 15% of romance readers, and even then, it’s more likely for those men to be gay and reading about queer relationships rather than heterosexual ones,” Spencer rattles off. “Sometimes, stalkers become obsessed with the work of an artist, which leads to an obsession with the artist themselves—I wonder if the opposite may have happened here.”
“Like, he was already stalking me, and found out what I do for a living?” you ask.
“He read your books to feel close to you,” Emily states. “You’re writing these books that center on love, and sex”—You squirm uncomfortably under her gaze—“so he thinks that the men in your books are the type of man you want.”
“It’s not,” you find yourself needing to say.
“We understand that, and we’re not trying to judge you,” David says. “We don’t mean to imply that you brought this on yourself. Stalkers, they become obsessed with the smallest, simplest things. Maybe he took your order at a restaurant, and when you tipped him well, he interpreted it as flirting. Or you held the door open for him at the store. It wasn’t your fault.”
And so, the investigation officially began.
With a list of all your known acquaintances, the spots you frequent, and the list of all your social media followers, the team set to work combing through your life.
And, to your horror, your books.
Dr. Spencer Reid could apparently read at a superhuman speed, and had not only been tasked with staying with you in your home for protection, but with reading your books to help “understand the unsub’s psyche”.
It was impossible to concentrate with him around, feeling so vulnerable and exposed: A stranger in your house, combing through your sexually-charged writings—a very attractive stranger to top it all off. The writer in you couldn’t resist the thought spirals: A hot detective, protecting the innocent victim, alone in her home. She puts on her tiniest nightgown before telling him she’d feel so much safer if he watched over her while she slept. He knows it’s wrong, but he can hardly help himself as he crawls into the bed beside her, and his fingers find their way inside her…
Although his presence was meant to reassure you, it only made you feel more on edge.
He had already finished your first novel, Demonology, about a woman who sells her soul to find true love—only to fall in love with the demon she made the deal with. In that one, the demon, Dante, is who Hazel loses her virginity to, and with a raspy laugh, he declares that she’s let a demon steal her purity, like the filthy slut she is.
Now, he’s halfway through The Stranger, about a camgirl whose new boyfriend is suspiciously similar to her number one fan. That’s the one where the male main character, Ravi, fucks Willow on a livestream, telling her to show all her fans who really owns her.
God, this poor FBI agent must think you’re a fucking pervert.
You find yourself tiptoeing around him as you make yourself dinner, wearing baggy clothes and avoiding eye contact. You try to write, but the only characterization you can come up with for a new love interest is a geeky, long-haired law enforcement agent, and so you shut your laptop in frustration.
You overhear Spencer take a phone call.
“What is it? Okay. Yeah, I’ll ask her. I’ll call you back. Bye.”
You peek your head out of the kitchen to where he’s sitting.
“Our technical analyst went through all of the accounts that follow you on various social media platforms, and there’s one account that stuck out to her—It’s a private account with no profile picture. The username is sir.drsle. Those letters, those are the first letters of the names of all the male love interests in your books, right?”
“Yeah, it is. That username rings a bell…”
“He’s commented on almost every post you’ve made on Instagram in the past few months. They’re innocent enough comments. When you posted about your latest books’ release, he commented ‘Can’t wait!’ and you replied with a heart emoji. That was the day before you received the first letter.”
A shiver went up your spine. “Can you track it?”
“My team is on it.”
“Thank you,” you said.
Spencer gave you an awkward smile.
“I mean, if you guys are getting close, I guess that means you don’t have to sit through any more of my writing,” you joked, trying to ease the tension.
He furrowed his brow. “I was actually planning to finish, just to make sure our profile is thorough. The account could be a dead end; it’s just the first lead we’ve gotten.”
“Oh.”
“That’s not to say you shouldn’t have hope, I just mean—Sorry, this is why the team doesn’t usually leave me to do the socializing,” he said, flushing pink.
You can’t help but chuckle. “Don’t be sorry. I’m not great with people, either.”
“That’s interesting. The way you write…You’re very perceptive. I mean, your characters are incredibly fleshed out.”
“Really?” you asked. “I mean, thank you, I guess…I didn’t think you were paying that much attention.”
“I have a eidetic memory. Once I read something, I don’t really forget it. Even if I were just skimming, I’d still have processed the majority of the information,” he explained.
“Well, I’m still sorry that you have to read it.”
“Why?”
“Because it’s…well…”
“I’ve read decades worth of sexual fantasies from deranged serial killers. This is tame to me,” he interrupts you with a little smile.
You smile back.
By the time you go to bed, Spencer’s started your third book, The Pact, about a girl named Clementine who gets married off to a mob boss to repay her father’s debt. You set up the couch for him to sleep, but when you go back downstairs in the morning, it doesn’t seem like he’s rested at all. He’s nursing a mug of coffee, and is now nearly finished with book number four, Blood Hungry, about a vampire named Lucien and the hunter who falls in love with him, Gemma.
“Couldn’t sleep?” you asked.
Spencer shrugs. “Most of the team don’t sleep much during an active case. Time is precious in our line of work.”
“I could make you breakfast, if you want.”
“That’s okay, I wouldn’t want to impose.”
“Well, you already helped yourself to my coffee machine,” you tease.
Spencer looks like there’s an apology ready on his lips before he catches onto the fact that you’re joking. He nibbles at the end of the toast you made him as he begins your latest book, the one that seemingly started this all.
“Can I ask you something?” he says after his plate is cleared.
“Go ahead.”
“What is it about…these topics that seem to draw you in? Or, I suppose, the people that read it? I really don’t mean to judge, but as someone who works in the criminal field, I understand the psychology of why women fall for toxic men—daddy issues, thinking they can fix him—all those tropes. But you don’t play into those. Your female characters are usually just as toxic as the men. Take Clementine, for example: She knows that her husband is involved in organized crime, but she doesn’t ever try to talk him out of it or bring him into the light. She loses herself in his world to prove to him that’s intelligent and indispensable to him, and…”
He notices the amused curl of your lips and stops rambling. “Sorry. Uh, I guess my question still stands, though.”
“I think, for me at least…When you grow up as the girl that nobody seems to notice, when you don’t stand out in a crowd, you don’t get asked out…You develop this fantasy about how it feels to be wanted. And there’s something alluring about the idea of a guy who is willing to break social norms for you, to break laws to be with you. When most guys don’t offer you a second glance, you start to crave the other end of the spectrum: obsession. And obviously, I know it isn’t healthy—I wouldn’t want a relationship like any of the ones in these things I write. But there’s something enticing about the taboo of it all.”
Spencer nods. “I think I understand what you mean.”
You raise an eyebrow. “You? I’m sure women give you their phone number wherever you go.”
He flushes. “Definitely not.”
There’s a thick, awkward silence that lingers for a second, before Spencer’s phone rings.
He steps out of the kitchen to take it, and although you want to follow, you wait. You can hear his muffled voice through the wall, but can’t make out any words.
He comes back a few moments later and asks, “Our analyst, Penelope, was able to track the account—Does the name Justin Carpenter mean anything to you?”
You let out a small gasp. “Justin? Yeah, we used to work together. Just after my first book got published, I was working at a grocery store a few towns over. I cut my hours since I was getting some money from my contract, and they hired Justin to fill my spot—I trained him a little bit.”
“Was there anything about him back then that gave you a bad vibe?”
You frowned. “A lot of the people that worked there weren’t very nice to him. He didn’t have very good hygiene, and he wasn’t a fast learner. I felt bad for him, I thought he was clearly struggling and I…I tried to be as friendly to him as I could. He was a little shy around women in general, but I didn’t take it as a red flag.”
“Did you ever exchange phone numbers, hang out outside of work? Did he know about your book?”
“No, I don’t think so. I mean, he might have overheard a conversation between me and a friend of mine who worked there, about the book, but I definitely never hung out with him or gave him my personal details.”
“Okay, well if he has tried to leave you a note in the past day or so, he would have likely noticed the police presence and been scared off. Right now, all our evidence is circumstantial—I hate to say this, but now all we can do is wait.”
“For what?”
“For him to try and contact you again. And this time, we’ll be ready for him.”
summary: your car breaks down on a case, and sharing a motel room with your least favourite coworker becomes quite the challenge when he insists on pushing all your buttons. fortunately, you know just the way to get him to shut up, even if it's just for the night.
genre: smut (MDNI) word count: 10k (oops)
tags: fem!reader, enemies with benefits, petty arguing, sub!spencer, dry humping, unprotected p in v, they're freaking it raw, creampie, oral (f receiving), come eating, edging, overstimulation, mentions of birth control (pill), accidental L-bomb, motel sex, spell-checked but not really proofread
notes: part two of overexposed | this is the smuttiest thing i've written so far, i think.
Rule number one of working in the BAU: never agree to draw straws.
It doesn’t matter how many times Rossi assures you that his games aren’t rigged, they absolutely are. They have to be, because Reid and you get paired up so often, you’d think you were best friends.
Nobody wanted to take on a six-hour side mission—three hours there, three hours back—to speak to the ex-wife of this week’s unsub, yourself included. So, naturally, Rossi had raided the local PD of their toothpicks, snapped the ends off of two of them, and presented them to the team with this devilish smile that said I know exactly how this is going to go. You don’t even know why you agreed, if we’re being honest, because you too knew damn well what would happen when you plucked that toothpick from his conniving hands.
You pulled the first short straw, and you got to watch in silent, not at all surprised frustration as Spencer pulled the second one. You had had half a mind to take your stupid toothpick and jam it into Rossi’s eye, but you restrained yourself; after all, you’re supposed to be the better, more mature half of your duo with the world’s most idiotic genius. He had tried to protest, arguing that he was too valuable of an asset to essentially abandon the investigation, but the team were quick to throw the two of you out of the police department and into an SUV that had spent all day boiling in the Louisiana sun.
That leads us into rule number two: never trust an SUV.
After three hours of suffocating in that cursed car, choking on the thick, oppressive air, you had arrived at the home of the mysterious ex-wife. Another hour-and-a-half of questioning later, you were free to embark on your journey back to the team.
Tragedy struck not even an hour even into the drive. The car stuttered, screeched, and stopped dead in the middle of traffic. You’d tried just about everything you could to breathe life back into the overheated corpse of the SUV, but it was no use; you had broken down.
And just like that, the dam broke and the tense, carefully maintained silence between you and Spencer shattered into pieces.
Standing there, on the side of the road, Spencer had yelled at you—or you had yelled at him; you don’t remember who started it—until you were red-faced and people in their functioning vehicles were craning their necks to watch the scene unfold as they drove on by.
You called Hotch. Spencer dialled triple-A. Both phone calls crushed whatever remnants of hope you dared cling to.
On your end, Hotch informed you that the unsub had just taken a hostage—surprise! The BAU needed every bit of information you had gathered from the ex-wife, and they needed it now. He barked orders at you over the phone, telling you to check yourselves into a motel and call him back ASAP, and abruptly hung up.
On Spencer’s end, triple-A had kindly told him that the car was fucked—hurray! Something was wrong with the engine, apparently, and you needed to wait for roadside assistance to bring their tow truck.
But you didn’t have time to wait, not when there were lives at stake. So, you dialled Hotch’s number right there and began relaying everything you had learned over the sound of cars speeding by: details about the unsub’s failed marriage, his childhood, and—
Spencer had snatched the phone from you the moment you dared stumble over a word, damn near tearing your arm off with it. He promptly appointed himself leader of your botched hostage negotiation, and he left you to explain the situation to the very confused—and rightfully a little concerned—roadside assistance workers.
The negotiation continued into the back of some good samaritan’s car, and the two of you were dropped off at what looked to be the shittiest motel in the entire state. It was at that point you stole the phone back and ordered Spencer to speak to the receptionist whilst you walked the team through the safest way to approach the unsub.
In the motel room, you were finally able to put the team on speaker. You set the phone on the desk and, after two hours of anxious pacing, the unsub was finally detained.
And that brings us to the present, and to rule number three: never expect the BAU to come to your aid, no matter how desperately you may need it.
You’re lying face-down on the bed, listening to Hotch’s static-laced voice as he informs you, in essence, that all is well. Spencer is still standing, hands stuffed into his pockets, nodding along with everything being said.
“When can we expect to be picked up?” he asks.
The pause that follows his question is a damning one. A death sentence delivered through thick silence.
“The two of you will be staying at the motel for the night,” Hotch says. You can hear it in his voice, a slight awkwardness; he knowswhat he’s doing, yet he’s doing it anyway.
It’s fine, though. It’s just one night in a shitty motel. Really, it could be worse—
“But I only booked one room.”
Your head shoots up so fast you’re sure you almost break your neck. You scramble up onto your knees, already shaking your head in disbelief—refusal to believe.
“You’re fucking kidding.”
Spencer looks mortified.
“Reid,” you warn, “tell me you’re not serious—”
He huffs, like you’re somehow the idiot in this situation, and crosses his arms. “I didn’t think we’d be staying here!”
“You didn’t— oh my God. How?” You bark out a hollow laugh. “How are you so fucking stupid?”
The phone speaker crackles, picking up the faint sound of Morgan’s laughter.
Spencer’s cheeks are starting to turn red. “I just assumed that—”
“IQ of 187, they said” you mutter, exasperated. “God help us all.”
“I’ll— I’ll go to the front desk.” He’s already heading for the door, raking his fingers through his hair as he walks. “I’ll get us another room—”
“The front desk closed thirty minutes ago.”
“...oh.”
You take a deep breath, turning away from him as you redirect your attention to the phone. Your lifeline. Clearing your throat, you put on the calmest, most amiable voice you can manage and say, “...Hotch?”
“You’re two hours away,” he says plainly.
“Please.”
“By the time we get you back here it’ll be almost three in the morning.”
“I’m begging you.”
“The answer’s no. The two of you will handle this like adults, and we will see you tomorrow.”
Just when you think he’s about to hang up, another voice comes through the speaker. Morgan’s.
“Have fun, lovebirds.”
Spencer scoffs so loud you’d think he was choking on something. “Excuse me?”
“Nothing!”
The call disconnects just as he lurches forward to grab the phone. He holds it in his hand for a moment, staring down at it with frustration that amounts almost to rage, before tossing it to you with a strangled huff.
“I can’t believe this.”
“I can’t believe you only booked one room,” you counter. “Seriously, what did you think was going to—’
“Alright, I get it. I’m an idiot.”
“Mhm.” You flop back onto the bed with a sigh, letting the silence hang in the air for a moment before adding, “Hey, at least we did it.”
“We?”
“Uh…yeah?”
Spencer pulls this face. Disgust mixed with disbelief. It would be comical if it weren’t directed at you. “You barely contributed.”
“Oh, come on—”
“You spent half of that negotiation just…lying around whilst I gave all the information—”
“Information that I got from the guy’s ex-wife.”
“Only because you wouldn’t let me speak to her.”
“Because you don’t know how to talk to women.”
Spencer’s pacing ceases, and he turns to you with a scowl. “Sorry?”
“I was doing you a favour.” You look up at him with a mocking smile. “You would’ve embarrassed yourself if you’d spoken to her.”
His lips curl at the corners, and you’re sure that he’d be shooting lasers from his eyes if he could, zapping you into oblivion. He opens his mouth to speak, closes it, then opens it again to say, “You are such a—”
“A what?” you ask, raising an eyebrow.
And he closes his mouth once more.
Sitting up, you shuffle to the edge of the bed and cross your arms expectantly. “Go on.”
You can see the tension in his jaw, the way he’s grinding his teeth subtly. He spends a good few moments just staring at you, probably trying to explode you with his mind, before he turns away with a sharp, catty huff.
“I’m never agreeing to anything like this again,” he mutters.
“Good. Me neither.”
There’s nothing provocative about your words—you’re actually agreeing with him, for once—yet Spencer spins back around to face you all the same.
“You’ve been nothing but irritating all day,” he spits.
“And all you’ve done is complain.”
“At least I’m not incompetent.”
“Beats being an arrogant little bitch.”
Again, Spencer turns on his heels and begins walking away. “That’s it,” he announces, “I’m taking a shower.”
“Running away. Real mature—”
The bathroom door slams, and you swear it shakes the very foundation of the motel room.
Closing your eyes, you take a deep breath. Try to calm yourself as the reality of this horror movie-worthy situation catches up to you. You’re to share a room with Spencer Reid—share a bed—because of his stupidity, and he had the gall to call you incompetent.
The shower turns on. You can hear it through the paper-thin wall, and part of you wants to barge into that bathroom, drag him out by his hair and leave him, naked, on the side of the road. It’s the only way you’ll get any semblance of peace tonight, that’s for sure.
But what would that say about you? That you’re just as childish—as petulant—as he is? You’re supposed to be the bigger person here, the better person.
So you resign yourself to lying in wait, dreading whatever bullshit the next twelve hours have in store for you.
—
Thirty minutes later, Spencer emerges from the bathroom muttering about the disgraceful state of the bathroom. He doesn’t seem to notice, or care, that you aren’t listening to him; you’re frankly too distracted by the state of him. His hair is still wet, and his white shirt has been left untucked, held closed by a total of two buttons. Your gaze lingers, rather unapologetically, on the curves of his exposed collarbones.
Whilst he was showering, you rummaged through your go-bag and pulled out whatever pyjama-esque clothes you could find. You are, as Spencer is always so keen to point out, terribly disorganised; your bag hasn’t been restocked in over a month, and there are more “complimentary” hotel toiletries hidden in there than there are clothes.
In the end, you settled on a plain black compression top that you don’t remember owning, and a pair of grey sweatpants that you’re sure can’t be yours on account of the fact that they are far, far too big for you.
You watch as he unzips his own go-bag—no doubt perfectly organised, alphabetised, colour-coded, and packed with enough supplies to last him weeks in case of an emergency—and raise an eyebrow.
“Calmed down yet?”
Spencer spares you a single, fleeting glance out of the corner of his eye before exhaling sharply through his nose; a punctuated, silent no. But then he seems to pause. Seconds pass as he stares at his bag, unmoving, before turning his head slowly to look at you again.
You’re splayed out diagonally on the bed, taking up as much space as possible as you flick listlessly through the same beat-up book you’ve been nursing for over a month now. In your peripheral vision, you can just about make out the way his focus strays to your clothes. To the thin sliver of skin visible between the hem of your top and the waistband of your sweats. And then he clears his throat.
“You’re paying for the repairs,” he mutters stiffly.
You set your book on your chest and turn to him with a frown. “I am not—”
“I paid for eleven of your coffees last month,” he says.
“And I covered the bill for that stupid Doctor Who edible experience bullshit you took me to the month before.”
“You still owe me a dollar for that.”
“Forty-nine cents,” you correct. “We agreed to round down.”
“No, you insisted that we round down. I told you I wanted the change.”
“Are you really that broke that forty-nine cents makes all the difference?”
“No,” he mutters, pulling a folded pair of pyjamas from his bag. “Are you?”
“No.”
“Then you can pay for the repairs.”
You scoff. “There’s a big difference between some pocket change and a busted car, Reid.”
“The Bureau will reimburse you.”
“Then why can’t you just pay?”
“Because,” he unbuttons his shirt and, honest to God, throws it at you, “it’s your turn.”
“You—” You groan as his shirt lands on your face, and you throw it back at him. “You are such a child.”
Spencer catches the shirt with a cold, sarcastic laugh. “Really?” he asks. “Because it seems to me I’m the only adult here.”
You roll your eyes as he continues changing, but you can’t help but let your gaze wander across his body; his bare neck and chest, now free from the usual confines of his shirt and tie. You’d quite happily take a bite out of him if you thought you’d live to tell the tale.
As he pulls on his pyjama shirt, you sigh. “How much is it gonna cost?”
He shrugs, methodically folding his work clothes before tucking them neatly into his go-bag. “Timing belt replacements typically cost between four-hundred and one-thousand dollars.”
Your face contorts in disgust at his words and, for a moment, you think he may be joking.
Unfortunately, he isn’t.
“Fuck off,” you say. “I’m not paying that.”
“Neither am I. I wasn’t the one driving the car.”
Somehow, your expression manages to sour further. You cast your book aside and prop yourself up on your elbows. “So this is my fault?”
“Is that what I said?”
“It’s what you implied.”
“A timing belt doesn’t just break out of nowhere,” he says, perching himself on the side of the bed. He speaks slowly, clearly, like he’s explaining something to a child. “There are signs—”
No sooner has he sat down do you stand up, effectively swapping places with him. “The check engine light never came on.”
“Still, you should have—”
“Sitting in the driver’s seat doesn’t make me omnipotent, Reid,” you snap, crossing your arms as you glare at him from the other side of this much, much too small room. “You had just as much information as I did—”
“It isn’t the passenger’s responsibility to check for faults—”
“So you didn’t notice, either?” you ask. Not my responsibility is just Spencer-speak for I’m a hypocrite refusing to admit my own oversight. “You’re the one with a fucking PhD in Engineering, you know—”
“And? I’m saying it isn’t my job to notice—”
Oh, and he’s doubling down. Amazing.
“Oh my God.” You’re talking over him now, raising your voice as you rake your fingers through your hair. “Grow up. You’re a federal agent, Reid. Act like one.”
Spencer snorts. “That’s rich coming from you.”
You really wish you were making this up. You wish this were some frustration-induced hallucination, but it isn’t. You’re actually standing here in some run-down, shitty fucking motel, arguing with a genius who was too stupid to book two rooms. You’re sure you’ve seen this be used as a set up to a straight to DVD romcom, for Christ’s sake.
You have half a mind to walk back over there and smack him across the face, but it would only make this worse.
“Maybe,” Spencer continues, entirely unprompted, “if you treated me with the slightest degree of decorum, I would act in kind.”
This is Hell. The car crashed, you died, and this is Hell. It has to be.
“And maybe if you respected me,” you snap back, “I would act—”
“There’s nothing to respect.”
The laugh that escapes you in response to that statement isn’t a pretty one. It’s somewhere between a cackle and a murderous screech. You have to laugh; you’d kill him if you didn’t.
You’re sure that, in the animal kingdom, a laugh like that would be heeded as a warning—and a serious one, at that. A real don’t fuck with me or I’ll kill you noise; a universal language.
But Spencer Reid isn’t of the animal kingdom—at this point you aren’t sure he’s from earth at all—because, in spite of your warning, he keeps talking.
“You’re unprofessional, aggressive, short-tempered, bitter, frustrating—need I go on?”
“You forgot smart and sext—”
“There is nothing about you worth respecting,” he declares, “not when you’re…on my ass all the time.”
It’s the way that he still hesitates before saying ass, even though he has said far worse things to you in the past, that momentarily clears the resentment clouding your mind. Spencer Reid, genius supreme, the man who apparently hates you more than any unsub you’ve come across, can still barely bring himself to curse.
…and it’s the way he’s implying that you are somehow the perpetrator in all of this that has that resentment rushing back tenfold.
“I’m on your ass?”
“Yes,” he says. “You are. It’s infuriating.”
“Infuriating, right…”
“You do nothing but antagonise me,” he adds. “You’re pestiferous.”
“Mhm. And you’re a fucking saint.”
He shrugs. “I think most would agree I’m better than you.”
You purse your lips into a tight smile, letting your gaze wander across the room before returning it to him. “And if they knew you were fucking me?” you pose. “Would that tarnish your pristine reputation?”
Just like that, Spencer’s cocky, confident attitude vanishes in an instant. He scoffs, visibly recoiling at the mention of your relationship as his expression morphs into something half-disgusted, half-defensive. “That’s—”
“I mean, the team are already calling us lovebirds, but what if they knew?” you continue, ignoring the way his cheeks are beginning to flush. “What if the BAU knew that their obnoxious golden boy was sleeping with someone so unworthy of respect?”
When he doesn’t respond, you step closer to him.
“You know it’s funny, actually, that you say that,” you say, “because the only person on this team who doesn’t respect me, Spencer, is you.”
“You don’t respect me, either,” he mutters.
“Why the hell would I?”
You sound almost amused as you cross the room. You close the space between you, drawing closer until you’re standing right in front of him.
Spencer raises his head, arms crossed, to look up at you. He’s glaring, or trying to, but his gaze spends only a fraction of a second on your face before it begins to wander. Lingering on the outline of your chest visible through your top, and then on the waistband of your underwear that peeks out over the top of those baggy sweatpants—embroidered, ironically, with the word sweet.
You watch the way his jaw works, chewing on whatever insult he has lined up, as he finds himself painfully distracted by the sight of you before him.
And you straddle him.
“Why would I respect someone like you, Reid?” you ask as you settle into his lap.
He makes no effort to push you away (why would he?), but he doesn’t exactly welcome you with open arms, either. He tenses up, heat rushing to his face despite his attempts to appear perfectly neutral.
“Tell me,” you purr, placing a finger under his chin so he’s meeting your gaze, “why would I respect someone so— what was what word you used? Pestiferous? Someone who goes out of his way to piss me off, even when I haven’t done anything wrong…and for what purpose, hm?” You rest your other hand on his chest and lean in close, brushing your nose against his with a barely suppressed smirk. “You wanna know what I think?”
“...not really,” he says stiffly.
“I think you like it when I’m pissed off,” you say. “I think that my short temper, and my aggression, and all those other flaws you listed, are all things you like about me. Am I right?”
“No,” he mutters. “Why would I—”
“Because you’re pathetic, and you’re a shit liar.” Smiling, you shift slightly, pressing yourself down against the tent in his pants that has been there far longer than he’ll ever admit. “And your, um, body has ways of giving you away. And I bet you’re real glad the rest of the team aren’t here, right?” you murmur, leaning down to ghost your lips along his jaw. “Because that means we can make as much noise as we like.”
You feel him suppress a shudder as you press a gentle, open-mouthed kiss to his skin. He tenses, but only briefly, as your hand moves into his hair, cradling the back of his head as you trail kisses up his jaw, and it doesn’t take much for him to melt. One hand settles instinctively on your hip, keeping you pressed against his erection, but the other tries, gently, to push you away.
“What’s wrong?” you murmur. “Can’t handle a bit of—”
As you raise your head to mock him, Spencer’s lips collide with yours. He kisses you with a kind of desperate hunger that sends a rush of heat straight to your core and, for a moment, you find yourself wanting to drop the act completely and let him have you—but where’s the fun in that?
So you pull away, pressing your thumb to his needy lips as you don a sarcastic pout. He releases your hip, and his hands roam your waist and stomach, working their way up to your chest. You can’t help but admire him even as he’s feeling you up; he already has that look in his eyes. Weakness. Soft and pretty in all the ways that drive you crazy.
Your throat tightens. Contracting around something terribly familiar and wholly unwanted. Something you’re bound to choke on if you sit with it for too long.
So you pull him into another, harsher kiss, letting a moan slip into his mouth as his thumbs graze your clothed nipples, and it’s a sound that he mirrors as you slowly start rocking your hips against his. His hands drop down to the hem of your shirt, and you pull back long enough to let him tear it off over your head before your lips are on his again.
You set your hands on the back of his neck, gluing the two of you together as you grind yourself against him. You feel the way his breath hitches with each roll of your hips, and you’re certain you could make him finish just like this, without needing to lift a finger, but that would be far too easy on him. It would be merciful, almost, and that isn’t what you’re here for.
Before you can start formulating your evil plan, Spencer pulls away. His lips latch onto your neck, peppering the skin with feverish kisses as he works his way down to your collarbones before dipping down, further, to your chest. Your fingers weave into his hair as his teeth graze a nipple, and you pull hard. Hard enough to make him moan as your mouth meets his and you catch him in another bruising kiss. His hips buck up into yours, shamelessly begging for more friction, but all it does is make you withhold it.
So, with impatient hands, he forces your hips down, rubbing your aching cunt against his cock through the layers of fabric separating them. You break the kiss with a sharp gasp as a violent heat twists in your core, and you push him away.
You watch the rise and fall of his chest as you catch your breath—it’s hypnotic, almost—before meeting his gaze with as calm a look as you can muster.
“I’m gonna go grab a towel,” you say, keeping your voice equal parts soft and firm. “When I come back, you better not have any clothes on. Got it?”
Spencer nods eagerly and without question. You lean back, admiring him for a moment longer before you finally dismount him and disappear into the bathroom.
You take more time than you should, deliberating between two identical motel towels as you listen to the faint rustle of clothes as Spencer strips himself of his pyjamas. You catch a glimpse of yourself in the mirror, shirtless, red-faced, and you feel that familiar pang of self-awareness in your stomach. The kind strong enough to re-awaken your voice of reason, and that voice tells you that this has got to stop.
How many more times are you going to fall into bed with him before this blows up in your face? Before you fall further into this grave you've dug for yourselves, and find yourselves utterly unable to climb back out?
Being the bigger person is a myth. It always has been. It's just a lie you tell yourself—the same one that he's probably been tellinghimself—to further stifle the latent realisation that you are, undoubtedly, just as bad as each other. You're no better than Spencer is, and he is no worse than you are.
You can tell yourself that you're the bigger person, that you're more mature, more sensible, but that doesn't erase the reality you're in. You're standing, half-naked, in a grotty motel bathroom waiting for your coworker to strip himself bare. You're terrible.
And you can’t imagine being anywhere else.
You return to the bedroom with all the confidence in the world and find Spencer sitting, naked, on the edge of the bed, caught somewhere in the space between nervous and excited. He’s wringing his hands, trying to avoid tending to his persistent erection as he awaits your return. Hugging the towel to your chest, you watch him for a moment and let your gaze wander shamelessly over his exposed skin, savouring his anticipatory silence. His still-wet hair sticks to his forehead. Dewy collarbones shine like gold in the dim, yellow-toned light.
You feel it again. A slight tightness in your throat. The beginnings of something awful. But it’s overpowered by the palpable rush of need that takes hold of you as you gaze at him. It’s enough to drive you mad.
Tossing the towel onto the bed, you slot yourself between his legs.
"You're awfully quiet," you tease, carefully brushing his hair out of his face as he looks up at you. You could drown in those eyes, if you let yourself.
His gaze hardens slightly. "Nothing to say."
"You always have something to say."
"False."
He's running his fingers along the waistband of your sweats, barely grazing your skin as his eyes trail across your body.
"True."
He shoots you a glare. "Do you want to keep arguing?"
"Not particularly," you murmur, smirking. Gently, you reach out a hand to touch his cheek. "I'm just surprised. You're being so good—"
Spencer swats your hand away instantly.
"Don't," he warns before returning his attention to your body.
You cross your arms. "You don't like praise?"
"I don't like being mocked," he corrects.
He presses his thumbs against your waist, watching with great interest the way the soft skin yields to his touch.
"Who said I was mocking you?" you ask, feigning innocence.
He scoffs. You feel it against your skin, hot, before he presses a kiss to your hip. "You're always mocking me."
"Not always."
It takes strength to keep your voice steady when he’s doing this; appreciating your body in silent ways whilst navigating a half-hearted argument, like it’s second nature to him. And it is second nature, you suppose. He could probably fight with you in his sleep.
He looks up at you again with this dull, almost bored kind of scepticism purposefully forged to hide something deeper. Something realer. Something that has a weight to it and is far too heavy for this. For you. He tugs gently at the drawstring of your sweats, and the knot comes apart with ease under his touch. The fabric sags, barely clinging to your hips, and all it takes is a gentle tug for them to slip down your legs, leaving you in just your underwear.
His lips meet your skin again, trailing kisses down from your navel to the embroidered elastic of your waistband. His gaze finds yours, just for a moment, in a fleeting request for permission that sends a fresh pang of heat to your core, right where his lips hover. You nod, wordlessly, and he makes quick work of removing your underwear, peeling the soaked fabric away from your needy cunt as you try not to clench your thighs.
He drops them at your ankles, and his kisses continue. Following their path down until his mouth is dangerously close to where you need him to be. Before he can get too carried away, you thread your fingers into his hair once more and pull him, gently, away.
The second those eyes are on your face, something violent turns within you. Your fingers still in his hair, caught between moments as you bury the urge to mount him right then and there. It's not like he would complain.
His thumbs brush over your hip bones, moving in perfect sync as he watches you quietly. Studying your micro expressions, probably, searching for a crack that he can exploit; a way to piss you off, turn the tables, put himself in control. But the more you look at him, the more you realise that this isn't what this is. He's just…waiting. Eagerly, sure, but patiently.
He's waiting for you to tell him what to do. He's read the situation, read what you want out of this, and he's moulded himself to it without question—without needing to be told. It's perceptive. Considerate, almost. How he's letting you have this; how he knows you well enough to know that you want this.
And that? That pisses you off.
"Sit back," you say, keeping your voice soft, "against the headboard."
He moves immediately, scooting into position without question. However brief, you feel weirdly cold in the absence of his touch.
Once he's comfortable, you join him on the bed. You settle, on your knees, between his legs, keeping your gaze on his face as hisgaze roams freely across your body. A compliment tries to crawl its way up your throat—an earnest one—because God, he looks perfect. But you clench your jaw, keeping your words at bay; compliments are for couples, and you aren't a couple.
But the words fight back. Compliments converge on your tongue, crowding your mouth, until you have no choice but to pull him into another kiss. Pouring all the things you daren't say into him, as though he may somehow understand without you needing to say any of it out loud. His hands come to rest on your jaw, not your body, and he cradles your face like it's something precious, pulling you closer and closer until you're practically on top of him, one hand braced against the headboard and the other trailing, slowly, down his body.
His breath hitches as your fingers grasp his cock. You feel it jolt in your hand, and one of Spencer's hands moves to the back of your head, hardly giving you room to breathe as he kisses you. The adrenaline, the sheer need with which he touches you, it's all starting to make you feel dizzy. He's stealing the oxygen from your lungs but, in return, you get to steal a stifled moan from between his lips. That's more or less an equivalent exchange, in your books; to have him at the mercy of your hands. To have that stupid mouth of his occupied with something that isn't just insult after senseless insult.
He shifts his hips with a soft groan, bucking up into your hand as you continue to tease him. And he groans again—louder, sounding more like a whine than anything else—when you refuse to change your pace.
What you do instead is pull away. You hover there for a moment, breathing into his open mouth as he tilts his head up, wanting more, and you bask in that delicious, desperate look in his eyes before sitting back. You continue working his cock, slowly, as you wipe the saliva from your mouth with the back of your hand. Spencer doesn't bother tending to his moistened lips; he just watches you, eyes wide like he's seeing you for the first time. Awestricken and gorgeous and—
That noxious dizziness lingers even as you catch your breath. It breaks down your thoughts, loosening the fibres until you're sure your brain is naught but mush. Held together by the low crackle of static that grows louder with each second you spend looking at him.
You realise far too late that you're looking at him the same way he's looking at you. Like a complete fucking idiot.
It's the kind of self-consciousness that hits like a freight train, flattening you before you even see it coming. It throws you off balance in the worst way and you feel vulnerable. exposed. More than you've ever felt in your previous encounters. You've been in far worse, far more vulnerable positions in the past—physically, at least. When you've been under him, or bent over a desk, or at his mercy on your knees.
You're in control here. And yet this is the first time you've felt truly vulnerable. Emotionally vulnerable.
So you do everything you can to counteract it, before it leaves you seriously compromised.
You release your grip on his cock, ignoring the way he whines in protest as you move to straddle his hips. His hands settle, firm, on your waist, moulding themselves to your curves as you kiss him again. Partly to shut him up before he says anything that'll further tangle the static-laced wires in your brain; mostly to shut yourself up before you say anything you know you'll regret. You'd rather choke on your own tongue—or his tongue—than let a single, adrenaline-driven, foolish word slip out before you have the chance to scour it for cracks, for any chance that it may contain feeling.
You grasp his chin, ensuring he’s looking directly at you as you pull back. Your other hand works its way down until it's grasping his cock, lining it up with your entrance.
"You're so pretty like this," you murmur, hot breath filling the minimal space between you as you lower yourself, just slightly, so his tip kisses your entrance, "you know that?"
You almost can't believe your own words—seriously, you had one job—but the look on Spencer's face kills any trace of regret you’d dare have. His breath stutters, you see it catch in his throat as he stares up at you with this wide-eyed expression. Surprised, yes, but voracious. Like you've flipped a switch he didn't know he had.
"I mean, you're always pretty. Too pretty. But this—"
A sharp hiss escapes you as you lower yourself onto his cock. The pain is familiar, not unbearable, but it's there. A stubborn reminder of the importance of foreplay when you're too tight and Spencer's dick is too damn big.
But you can take this kind of pain. When it's controlled, like this. When you can feel your body yielding to him and the pain steadily blooms into pleasure.
You feel him tense. He goes deathly still, muscles straining with the effort it takes not to thrust up into you as you sink, slowly, onto him—that would actually hurt and, worse, it would piss you off.
Carefully, you push through the resistance, letting gravity do most of the work as you continue speaking even as your breath comes in uneven gasps and your voice starts to shake. "When you're all quiet like this, when you aren't…being a fucking nuisance, I could just—"
His fingers anchor in the soft skin of your waist. He throws his head back, eyes shut tight as you take him to the hilt. The noise you make is somewhere between a guttural groan and a needy whine as he stretches you out, and you cup his face with both of your hands, keeping him close as you touch your forehead to his.
A weak, breathless "fuck…" is all he can manage as he exhales a shaky, barely held together sigh. You can feel the tension in his jaw under your palms. The electricity that thrums, wild, under his skin.
You give a tentative shift of your hips, testing the waters, and you feel him shudder beneath you. You pull back a little, enough to get a good look at his face; the tiny twitches of his brows, his eyes, as you move against him.
"That good?" you murmur, letting your hands trail down from his face to his chest, tracing the curves of his collarbones as you settle into a slow rhythm.
Spencer nods, humming in quiet approval as he closes his eyes. You watch the way his lashes flutter, the way the crease between his brows deepens with each rock of your hips, and you bite your lip.
"Say it."
"It—" He flexes his fingers, as though he's just remembered he has them, and his hands drop to your hips, encouraging your movements as he tries to keep his breathing steady. "It feels good," he whispers. "You feel…so good."
His words have you clenching around his cock, hard enough to elicit another soft, pretty little moan from his lips.
"That's it…" you whisper, tone sickly sweet as you lean down to press your lips to his neck.
Instinctively, Spencer leans his head to the side, allowing you access to the sensitive skin as those hands of his grow a little more confident and begin working their way back up to your chest. He cups your tits, and you feel him press his lips to your shoulder before murmuring, "there are condoms in my bag, if—"
You hum against his skin, shaking your head as you nip at his neck. "Don't need them."
"But—"
"I went on the pill," you admit. Quickly, but reluctantly. Like ripping off a band-aid. Like you’re confessing to something that runs far deeper than a simple birth control prescription.
Spencer's hands freeze mid-squeeze, and you know immediately that he's picked up on every implication you were hoping to brush over. "You— what? When?"
"After last time." you raise your head with a sigh and meet his gaze. When he tries to speak up again, you're quick to press your thumb to his lips. "Unless your next words are thank you, I don't wanna hear them."
For a moment, he looks as though he's about to protest. Five weighted words were all it took to pull him from the moment completely, it seems. His eyes are wide, frantically searching your own for something you can't let him find.
But then, instead of probing you with any more questions, he just nods. You can't be sure if this is him giving up, resigning himself to staying on his side of your emotional walls, or if he doesn't even need to try anymore—not when you've made it all so damn obvious. The optimist in you, wherever she may be, is hoping for the former; there'll be less fallout that way.
“So just keep that pretty mouth of yours shut,” you add, slowly re-introducing that thick, mocking tenderness to your voice as you raise your hips, “okay?”
He nods again. Sharper. Eager.
You know he'll find a way to bring this up later—in the middle of the night, probably, when the air feels too heavy and neither of you can sleep—the way he always manages to bring up the things you don't want to talk about. The touchy things. The things that are bound to spark an argument, because you're uptight and he's intrusive and you both loathe each other, and you can't get along unless your tongue is down his throat or his dick is inside you, and even then you still find yourselves bickering.
An impatient shift of his hips is all you need to know that, unlike you, a future argument is actually the last thing on his mind right now. His hands have started working again, mapping out your body like he doesn't already have it memorised as his gaze remains fixed on your face—and, really, you'd rather he be looking anywhere else.
You raise yourself until it's only the head of his cock that remains inside of you and then, after another agonising moment, you drop back down, swallowing his length in one quick, smooth motion. He gasps, you groan, and all thought of that hypothetical argument vanishes as he thrusts up into you, burying himself deeper as your walls pulse around his cock.
Curses tumble, unrestrained, from your lips as you move against him. His hands guide you into a steady rhythm—firm, but not forceful—and you tilt your head back slightly as the tension that has been stringing you together begins to dissipate.
Spencer takes advantage of the exposed skin immediately. He nips at your neck between messy kisses. His breath against your skin is enough to make you whine as you thread your fingers into his hair, and you raise his head just enough to bring your lips down on his, catching him in a disgustingly heated kiss. His hands stray from your hips to your ass, feeling you up with the kind of desperation that never fails to drive you insane as he moans shamelessly into your mouth.
The break in the kiss is abrupt, leaving Spencer nothing to drown his senseless whines in as you trail your lips along the edge of his jaw. You aren't sure what it is, maybe it's your breath on his skin, or the way your hand rests gently on his neck, pressing ever so slightly against his throat as you rock your hips, but something is bringing him closer to the edge. You can feel it in the way his breath catches, the way his hands begin to tremble, the way his sweet moans start to devolve into unsteady whimpers.
You kiss your way to his ear, nip at the lobe as his shoulders start to shake. "You close?"
He swallows hard. You feel it under your palm. "…mhm."
"Good. Now look at me— Reid, look at me."
You keep your voice impossibly soft as you work your fingers into his hair, tugging on the chestnut strands to keep his head up as he tries to hide his face.
He's already a mess. face red and glistening with a thin sheen of sweat, lips kiss-swollen and parted like he's waiting for you to dive into him again, but you don't. You make him hold your gaze, keeping one hand in his hair as the other cups his jaw, and you don't stop. Not until his face is contorting in those deliciously familiar ways and he has no choice but to close his eyes because he is so, so close.
And then you stop.
Your hips come to a brusque halt, stopping just as he is about to find release. You watch him blink, confused, before he meets your gaze with this adorably desperate expression. His chest heaves against your own, and you don your most charming smile.
"You didn't think it would be that easy, did you?"
The softness of your voice seems to fool him for a moment. Sugary words fail to register in his sex-clouded mind. You lean in a little closer, brushing your nose against his.
"You're not gonna come until I say you can."
That registers. His eyes widen, and he's shaking his head before he can even find the strength to speak. The words follow shortly after; a string of breathless nos that are about as useless as they are desperate. It's cute, how he thinks he might be able to talk you out of this—as though this hasn't been your plan from the start.
"I think it's only fair, after all the shit you've given me today," you continue, pouting as you brush your thumb against his cheek, "that you learn a little…respect, no?"
"You…" tension seeps into his jaw, and it isn't the pleasurable kind. His expression hardens, just slightly—probably as much as it can given the circumstances. "…are such a—"
"And that starts with being nice." You cut him off, still maintaining that smile as you look down at him. "If you start calling me names, Reid, then this is only gonna get a hell of a lot worse for you, and better for me. Understand?"
Spencer grits his teeth. His gaze flicks between your eyes and your lips, strays briefly to your body, to where his cock is still nestled inside of you, before returning to your face.
"Unless you want me to stop?" you pose, leaning back.
You don't give him enough time to respond before you're easing yourself off of his cock, but his hands find purchase on your hips and push you back down, burying himself inside of you once more with a force that makes both of you gasp.
"No." he says quickly. "N-no, don't…"
"Thought so." Smugness seeps into your voice before you can stop it, and you cock your head to the side. "So be good for me, and I'll let you finish."
Your mocking tone isn't well-received. Spencer huffs, flexing his trembling hands as he tries to act unbothered. "…Y hate you—"
"Ah," you cut him off with a click of your tongue, shaking your head as you cradle his face. "Come on, honey, you're smarter than this."
Those words must be laced with something. A sedative, maybe. Something equal parts sweet and toxic. Because they quell Spencer's protests immediately. His throat runs dry. He tries to blink it away but it's no use; his mouth moves wordlessly, and he stares at you, dumbfounded, like you've cast a spell on him.
Honey. Who'd have thought that would be his weakness?
You aren't much of a pet names person yourself, but…if Spencer is into it, then you might be open to changing your mind.
…let's not think too hard about what that says about you. Like the birth control, it's one of those things that you're better off notlooking too deeply into—for your own sake.
"You good to keep going?"
He doesn't seem to hear you.
"Reid."
"Yes," he says, brain finally kicking back into gear as he gazes up at you.
"Good."
You reward him with another kiss, muffling the angelic noise he makes as you move your hips. Slowly, at first. Easing him back into it so he doesn't unravel immediately.
You fall into a dance, of sorts. A sick, somewhat cruel dance, but a thoroughly enjoyable one—for you, at least. You murmur praises in his ear, fanning hot breath over his skin as you fuck yourself on his cock, bringing him closer and closer to release until he's a babbling mess and you can feel him twitching and pulsing desperately inside of you, and then you stop. You deny him. You mock him. You let him catch his breath. And you continue.
You do this two more times, and with each instance of denial Spencer grows more frustrated. More overstimulated. More pathetic. He ruts into you, or tries to, but it’s sloppy. Too weak to make any difference. Futile, because he stops as soon as you tell him to.
By the time you even consider letting him finish, he's inconsolable and you're exhausted. But the ache in your legs is nothing; a small price to pay for having him like this. Trembling in your arms. Clinging to you for comfort even though you're the very cause of his suffering. It's terrible, really. You should be ashamed of yourself for getting off on this as much as you do; it's sick, but by God is it cathartic.
Maybe you're power-hungry. Maybe you're desperate for any semblance of control. So frustrated with your own lack of control that you've resorted to taking it out on him. It's nothing he doesn't deserve; it's his fault you feel so out of control. He stirred these stupid emotions within you; it's only right that he be the one to face the consequences—and it's not like he wouldn't benefit from being put in his place for once.
"I-I can't— I can't…"
"Yes, you can."
Spencer's face is buried in your neck, shaking his head desperately as he mumbles nonsense between dulcet whimpers. You keep your voice low as you stroke his hair, babying him in a way he'll probably kill you for later—but it'll be worth it.
His voice is thick, strained, sounding almost as though he's about to cry. And as you gently coax his head up, that's exactly what you see. Dark eyes glazed with tears. They sit heavy on his waterline. Unshed, but there.
You'd probably feel bad, if it weren't the most gorgeous thing you've ever seen.
"God." The word escapes you in a breathless sigh. Awe-struck. You cradle his face in your hands, rubbing soothing circles into his burning cheeks as you admire him. "Look at you. So pretty."
What you wouldn't give to snap a photo of him like this. You'd carry it around in your purse; a trump card that you could whip out every time he dared to get on your nerves.
He's still shaking his head. Words reduced to incoherent mumblings as you continue working his poor cock with your cunt. Your legs—thighs, knees, hips—are screaming at you in protest, they have been for a little while now, and your core is impossibly tight; you've been so focused on Spencer, on keeping him on the edge, that you've all but forgotten about chasing your own release. You'll be limping tomorrow, no doubt, and the team will mask their suspicion as concern when they ask if you're okay. You wonder if you'll be able to get away with telling them Spencer hit you with the car; it's not like he'll be able to argue otherwise.
You press your lips to the corner of his eye, kissing away a tear before it can escape down his cheek.
"You wanna come?"
The string of frantic, broken yesses that fall from his lips is enough to make your fucking head spin.
"Yeah?" You tilt your head, ghosting your lips over his as you continue the steady rock of your hips. "What do you say..?"
All you get in response is a choked whimper. One that sounds dangerously close to a sob. He's gripping your hips so hard you're sure he’ll leave bruises, ten of them, mapping where his fingers were anchored in your skin.
"Reid." You're beginning to falter yourself. Your voice is starting to shake as you near the end of your rope—and your patience. "Come on, honey, just—"
"I love you."
It takes you a moment—an eternity, it feels—to understand what was just said. Three words, uttered with such an undeniable clarity yet you're sure you've misheard him. You must have.
But he's burying his face in your neck, hips bucking wildly as he repeats those very words. Whispering them into your skin like a prayer. Over and over. I love you.
Shit.
Shitshitshit.
He was supposed to say please.
When your hips stutter, uncertain, he moves them for you, bringing you down onto his cock repeatedly as his whispers devolve once more into incoherent whimpers. It's enough to knock the thoughts right out of your head, and you're left with nothing but moans to choke on as you try to reorient yourself.
"That's— fuck, that's it…" you murmur, breathless, in his ear. "You can come…"
Spencer sobs—loud and raw and fucking intoxicating—into your neck, and you feel him break immediately. His self-control shatters and he finishes inside you, emptying himself into your needy cunt as you whine and writhe in his lap. But even when he's spent, he keeps going. His hips move mindlessly, feebly fucking his seed into you as he whimpers incessantly.
"Reid." His name comes out in a shaky whisper, in the space between breaths as your heart pounds and your head spins. You cradle the back of his head, holding him close as he trembles in your arms. "Reid, honey…that's enough…"
You hear him sniffle, and you hold him a little tighter, unsure of whether he's even heard you until his hips finally give up. He slumps forward, leaning his weight on you as he finally lets himself relax—lets himself breathe. You place a hand on his back as you allow yourself to do the same, and you melt into each other.
your fingers trail, gently, up and down his back, tracing the curve of his spine as you rest your head on his shoulder. it's too tender of a gesture. too kind. too loving. you know that, but you do it anyway.
He needs this. Comfort. Reassurance. And you're ready to provide for as long as it takes for him to—
"…fuck you."
…come back around.
He mutters those words, quietly, into your skin. The same place he had whispered I love you just minutes ago.
Those juxtaposing sentiments react in your stomach, twisting your insides until you’re full of nothing but tense, aching knots. You bark out a weak, exasperated laugh. You have to laugh; God knows what you'd do if you didn't.
Spencer raises his head and meets your gaze, bleary-eyed and exhausted. And soft. Perfectly, painfully soft. and beautiful. He looks like you could love him.
It could be adrenaline. Heightened emotions. Embers of lust that reignite the second you lay eyes on him. Whatever it is, it has you kissing him again. Pulling him in with such urgency you almost miss his lips entirely. Some deranged part of you wants to hear him say it again. And again. And again. Until it's the only thing he knows how to say. The only thing you know how to hear.
Finally relinquishing his grip on your hips, Spencer's hands move to your face without thought, and he kisses you with everything he has. When you try to pull back, he whines. Pulls you in closer. Refuses to let you go even for a moment. You have to reach out blindly in search of the towel. You feel around behind you, leaning back as far as he'll allow you to until, at last, your fingers graze the soft fabric.
And then you feel yourself falling.
You topple over, pulling Spencer down with you as your back hits the mattress. He groans against your lips and pulls away to find you still reaching for that damn towel. He grabs it for you and, before you can get a word in, kisses you again. You raise your hips, hoping he still has enough brains to understand what you're asking of him, and he positions the towel underneath you.
Pulling out feels like a dam breaking. Punctuated with a wet pop and followed by a gush of something warm. He whines, you shudder, and you don't stop kissing each other until you forget how to breathe. When his lips finally leave yours, his breathing comes ragged. He sits back, kneeling between your burning thighs, and takes in the sight of you with this dazed, almost drunken look that has you throbbing despite your exhaustion. His gaze trails down your body until it settles on the mess between your legs.
"…Reid—"
By the time you're able to find your words, his face is already level with your cunt. He spreads your folds and watches, transfixed, the way it leaks out of you. He licks up your slit, gathering his own release on his tongue, before diving into you. You're so caught off guard you don't think to try and stifle the outrageous moan that tears through you, and you promptly clamp a hand over your mouth as your head falls back.
No amount of oh Gods and expletives can account for the expertise with which Spencer Reid uses his tongue. If he isn't fucking you with it, he's circling your clit with it, teasing and sucking on the overstimulated bud until you're writhing so much, he has to pin your hips down with one hand and finger you with the other.
You're seeing stars before you know it, hurtling towards an orgasm so fast you can barely form a coherent thought before you're there. And you think, for a fleeting moment, that he may keep you there. That is his revenge. And you have never been gladder to have Spencer prove you wrong. Your back arches off the mattress, and you're moaning things that you can't make out through the haze of an aggressive orgasm. It could be his name, a prayer, a curse, or something worse—you don't know.
Your fingers are numb. Your toes, too. They tingle with a static that persists even as your orgasm subsides. You feel Spencer shift. Feel the weight of his head as it rests against your hip. The heat of his breath against your skin.
For a moment, it all goes quiet. Thoughts give way to white noise. Feelings evaporate into a gas that cannot be weighed down by labels.
But peace only lasts as long as it takes for the fog to clear. You return to your sweaty, exhausted body just in time to be swept off your feet by a tsunami of feelings. Anxieties. Emotions that shouldn't exist. You aren't sure when Spencer and you drifted from the shallow end to the deep end. You aren't sure when things changed. When you crossed that line and cast aside your life jacket when you know you don't know how to swim. The only thing you're sure of now is that you're drowning. And the only thing keeping you from sinking entirely is the fact that Spencer hasn't noticed yet.
You nudge him with your foot, navigating your way around the lump in your throat to grumble "needthebathroom", or something vaguely along those lines. Spencer rolls off of you, mumbling something equally incoherent—or maybe you just don't care to hear it—as he rubs his eyes.
It hurts to move, but you do it anyway. You sit up, trying not to wince as your entire lower half screams in protest, and drag yourself to the edge of the bed. Spencer asks if you're okay, you think, and you give him a vague hum in response.
Your trembling legs barely manage to carry you to the bathroom, where you collapse with your back to the door and breathe out a long, shuddering sigh. You'd probably scream if you thought he wouldn't hear you.
I love you.
Immediately, you're dismissing those words. Waving them away like an unwelcome guest. You tell yourself he doesn't mean it. That he can't have meant it, he just…he just…
He wasn't thinking straight. He wasn't thinking at all. Hell, he probably won't even remember it. It's insignificant. Unimportant.
That’s what you tell yourself, at least. And you really, really hope you’re right.
And if you aren’t...then this might just kill you.
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