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zoey wasn’t the type to cry, to just break down without reason. she was the type of woman that kept her feelings bottled up, dealing with them on her own terms and in her own way of healing. she didn’t cry after justin had left her upon finding out about her pregnancy, she didn’t cry after she gave birth to abel and became worried about how she was going to raise him. she never cried when it became too much, nor did she cry (at least now this bad) when abel was diagnosed with autism. zoey was a strong woman, probably strong enough to worry the men around her most days with her inability to show her emotions like most women did. zach’s words were enough to make her sob in a more hysterical manner, knowing that she wasn’t alone or that she wasn’t letting down her son was the words that she needed in that moment. never feeling like a failure, the more the school called to tell her that her son was uncontrollable despite the medication rushing through his veins, was enough to make her feel as though she was failing the one person in her life she vowed to never fail. ‘‘ i just —- , ’’ before she could even finish arguing, she gave in with a nod of her head. zach was her support system, someone she wanted to build a family with and someone she would be happy to see at the end of an aisle, but she couldn’t help but feel as though she tied him down in a situation he didn’t entirely want. ‘‘ i’m not —– i’m not failing him, right? ’’ she asked, voice cracking. ‘‘ i —- i love you, zach. ’’

Zach had seen Zoey cry once before and it was just as unbearable just as before. He loved this girl so much and he didn’t want her to feel bad at all, he just continued to hold her tight. Hoping his physical comfort would help with her sadness. “You are not failing him at all, you’re doing the best you can and that’s all you can do. Okay?” Zach said kissing her head. “I love you so much, okay? And you got me- no matter what. I’m here for you and Abel because I love you both a lot. You guys are my future.”

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the words came through & finally hit the nerve that zoey needed. the nerve for her to finally break down in the tears taht were coped up in her body since having the diagnosis on paper. she wasn’t alone , she knew she wasn’t alone but yet she became so used to being on her own with abel that she would get upset at zach for trying to help. get upset at zach for acting like the parental figure that abel needed , acting like the significant other than zoey , herself , needed & deserved. curling up next to zach , she took in a deep , shaky breath before the tears began to fall. ‘‘ i don’t —- know how to help. i’m his fucking mother and i don’t know how to help him , zach. who the fuck sucks so bad that they can’t help their own child ? ’’ it wasn’t her fault , she knew it wasn’t , but she couldn’t help but blame herself for the consistent fights with the school. ‘‘ we don’t —- you’re the only one working full time , zach. i can’t ask you to pay for a new school enrollment with money that can be put to other uses , i —- , ’’ she paused , tears falling down her cheeks. ‘‘ i’m just —- scared okay ? there is so much going on. there’s so much happening. everett is trying to get me more hours but i’m worried that he won’t be able to , you’re working so much that you’re stressed as it is , & i keep —- pushing you away. i keep saying you aren’t his dad , but you are. you’re his fucking dad and i can’t bring myself to accept that because i’m so —– used to being alone & he needs help & i don’t know how to provide it. ’’ word vomit , but damn she needed to break down.

Zach felt bad seeing Zoey cry, but he also understood this was an emotional time for his girlfriend and even for him. He had been reading up on books about autism and googling to try and make sure he wasn’t gonna cause the boy harm, but he also knew they were both doing the best they could. Zach wrapped his arms around Zoey hopefully given her the comfort she needed, he loved her and he needed her to know she was not alone at all. “Most parents have no idea what to do, you just have an extra challenge, but I don’t want you for one second believe you are doing worse then anyone else,” Zach replied kissing the top of her head. “And I really need you to understand that you are not alone here, we have been building a life together. You even said you want to have a kid with me some day- so I have to assume we are entering a very serious zone. You have to stop thinking of us being one and one and start seeing us as a team,” he paused. “I’m sorry I gave you the impression that work stresses me out, I like my job- it just normal complaints. And I want to pay for a better environment for him or an aid or something. Because I’m here for both of you. We’ll figure out your job front when we can- but I make enough and what better way to spend my money then on this?”

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‘‘ i know you want me to be calm about this but i honestly can’t be taking the high road anymore , zach. ’’ raising a child was hard enough , especially when the father was not in the picture ; raising a child that was diagnosed with autism was five times harder when neither of the parental figures knew how to handle such a diagnosis. zoey loved abel with her whole being , abel became her safe haven and the only thing that would pull her through on the hard days , at least until zach came into the picture full-heartedly. there were still days , though , that zoey had a hard time allowing zach raise abel as his own , and this action should’ve pushed the male away but yet he stuck around. ‘‘ just because they aren’t educated on how to handle my son , doesn’t mean that they are allowed to punish him as such. he can’t be alone in a corner , zach. not with his diagnosis. he needs hands on exercises , needs someone with patience to be by his side. i’m not putting up with this anymore , he’s not —– broken or bad or misbehaved. ’’ you can tell by her hand movements how worked up she’s getting on the topic.

Zach loved Zoey more than anything in the world, which also extended to her son Abel. Yeah sometimes Zoey had to reel him back and remind him that Abel was not his son- which hurt every single time she did- but he still remained being a father figure in the young boy’s life. Zach just became more careful about stepping on Abel’s actual parent’s toes. “Hey- I’m not gonna tell you that you are not entitled to your feelings because you definitely are- but going down there and screaming at every teacher is only going to make things worse,” Zach said coming deeper into the room, he had just gotten off work and barely got a chance to say hello before Zoey burst. He settled in next to her bringing her close to him. “Maybe--- he hesitated. This was something he had been thinking about for awhile but he didn’t want to impose or make her feel dumb for either not thinking of it or being afraid of not being able to afford it. “Maybe we should look into better schools that are able to handle a kid with autism, I mean there are more out there now and we can figure out the best place for him.”

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“He did really good today, the teachers said that he was listening much better and that he was not sent to the quiet corner,” a proud smile moved onto Zoey’s lips. After finally telling Zach about Abel’s diagnosis, it only made it so real; tears were common in the household throughout the week, Zoey trying to convince Zach that their son was not ready to be in kindergarten with him on the spectrum. “I’m not —— saying that you were right, but I’m saying that you weren’t wrong for fighting me on the subject of school.” @zach-wolff

“I don’t need to be right, I’m just glad he did well,” Zach smiled. He was glad that everything went smoothly with Abel- he was pretty protective over him and didn’t fully trust that he would be calm if something had happened to him. “We should celebrate!”

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he wanted to marry her. he wanted to have kids with her. he wanted to build them a house. he wanted to settle down and grow old with her. he wanted to die when he’s 110 years old, in her arms. he didn’t want 48 uninterrupted hours.

he wanted a lifetime.

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