Inky & Tracking Dirt Probably

"Here, for whatever reason, is the world. & here it stays. With me on it." - Douglas Adams

[zaphs-lost-cat]

just my originals

just here screaming into the void

favorite thing i've written:

I dream of quiet conversation, the kind that only ventures out when stars hang overhead. Like honey from a jar, we would pour ourselves out, the space between us filling up with something delicate. My lips sweet and sticky with the feeling of being known, I would stay awake with you until the sun scares away the stars and they take our courage with them.

About Me:

I guess I could include some about me qs. Won't bore you too much, just a few.

Age: Late 20s

Current songs on repeat: Euclid & Aqua Regia by Sleep Token (honorable mention to Rain by them as well) I know they get a lot of heat for being fake metal, and to that I say ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Hobbies: Reading if my two brain cells agree to hang out with me, writing when I'm moody, & rotting w/ whatever dumb show if I'm braindead.

Career: I'm a programmer. Which is quite the mixed bag. Schedule is flexible tho.

Mental Illnesses: jk lol how wild would it be if I included that

Favorite Books: Stormlight Archive by Brandon Sanderson (the goat)

Favorite Movie: The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy (mostly for the nostalgia. I was obsessed as a teenager)Pet Peeve: Saying 'neurospicy'. Do you but pls km first.

Anyways. That's it. That's more than I thought I was going to do but I have work to do so of course this is suddenly the most important thing ever.

<3 Be good. Be wise. (Or alternatively, if you're not either, be chaotic & then tell me about it.)

[zaphs-lost-cat]

I don’t think the world would be better off without me & that’s the only thing that’s stopping me

[zaphs-lost-cat]

I want you close. I want you under my skin.

but the closest I can get is when you’re pushing yourself inside me & I get to look up at you enjoying the feel of me

[zaphs-lost-cat]

no one I have ever met has been strong enough to hold all of me. I am the only one who has ever managed it & even i’m getting tired of this shit

[spicymochi]

chiikawa and friends

[zaphs-lost-cat]

sorry. the crying wasn’t very manic pixie dream girl of me

[zaphs-lost-cat]

i’m your manic pixie dream girl

except im not a fantasy. im just someone willing to sever limbs to stay your girl.

[zaphs-lost-cat]

manic pixie dream girl is sad today

that’s not very manic pixie dream girl of her

[zaphs-lost-cat]

when I think of slitting my wrists

it’s out of pity for the poor wretch that’s trapped inside my head

god rest her motherfucking soul

[zaphs-lost-cat]

at the end of it all

I think i’m just a girl who took off all her clothes

[zaphs-lost-cat]

except you’re not really here are you

& I am what I always am

naked and alone in my bed

[zaphs-lost-cat]

I am

endlessly hungry for you

deeply ashamed of the wanting

desperate for you to want me too

[isbergillustration]

You Have So Far Left To Go (I Don't, Though; I Can Levitate)

[zaphs-lost-cat]

i’d give anything to rip this voice out of my head

[zaphs-lost-cat]

you’re fucked up & I will always forgive that. but I told you the not knowing would haunt me & you left me with this goddamn ghost anyway

[zaphs-lost-cat]

I can’t be the emotional support puppet for every man in a 100mi radius, except, tell me what you need? tell me you love me & i’ll be the person you think you love. look at me & i’ll look at you back with eyes that promise. i’ll hollow myself out. none of it will be a lie. I really will be nothing more than what I mean to you.

[ruhaniya]

You left like a season—slowly, beautifully, and all at once. Now every breeze feels like a memory