Dumpster Fire

16 Don't talk to me. We're both at rock bottom (This is tumblr, dude. We're disgusting)

[stay-close]

“If nothing else, one day you can look someone straight in the eyes and say ‘But I lived through it. And it made me who I am today.”

— Iain Thomas, I Wrote This For You

[zazawhereyabee]

Yeah, but who cares to listen?

[lovewarmsoftdeers]

it’s so painful to watch yourself grow cold, bitter, and resentful, even toward small, irrelevant things, when all you’ve ever wanted was just to be warm, gentle, kind, and loving.

[zazawhereyabee]

:(

[star-struck09]

I grieve the little things I did not get to say to you and the things I never will.

[zazawhereyabee]

Even through your addiction, I still seen the big heart you have, and when you got clean, I could see how amazing it made you feel when everyone started to notice that big heart as well and now even though you are hurting and are defeated don't worry I ain't looking at you different I still see that big heart and that smile and the wonderful Son, Brother,Uncle, Great Uncle, And Dad you became I love you and whatever comes next I will be in corner to maybe help carry that heavy load or I will live by these words and everything you've ever told me every moment every laugh every picture every conversation so when we see each other again I can look at you and say "It gets better through the thunderstorms through the floods there is a peace and there is quite.

Love

Me (Sorry, my name seems a little unrecognizable rn)

[zazawhereyabee]

I understand why he never wanted to go to that hospital. I don't think I will be able to after he's gone either.

Please don't do this to him. He doesn't deserve it. I will do anything to take his place. Let me go instead of him :(

[zazawhereyabee]

What have I done?

I lost my 3 year old cousin at 8 and watched my family slowly fall apart. That should have paid the karma. I was betrayed by someone who I thought was my friend as she watched her boyfriend hurt me at 13/14. That should have paid the karma, not even the cops would do anything about that situation, and that same girl stalked me and threatened me just for the high school we were going to turned a blind eye that should have paid the karma. But yet here we are, and I'm slowly losing my Uncle I will yet again watch my family slowly fall apart and won't be able to do anything about it cause I'm just as broken as they are.

[zazawhereyabee]

"I didn't know you were struggling that bad"

"You looked okay to me dude"

At the start of the first semester, I would never miss a class and never missed a day of school for anything. Until the middle of the semester, where all that suddenly changed I was skipping class and getting noticeable fucked up in the bathroom and then i just stopped coming to school and dropped all communication and deleting my socials I started online school and then just stopped doing that as well when I turned 16. But you're right. How could you notice I didn't say anything.