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more on my endless emotions that seem to be plagueing my night: ive always had friends from different groups in my life. i thought that was a healthy thing, showing that i was keeping a balance in my life or something. tonight MULTIPLE friends from DIFFERENT groups decided to leave me out of whatever they were doing (parties/hhn/movies). these people dont even know each other but i guess theyve mentally come to a consensus that im not worthy of an adequate friendship with anyone. i never thought i would say this but i really miss the days of public school where i would see people everyday and at least put up the illusion of being sociable. now i am just a loner. its confirmed.

im used to not being invited to things, so you would think that it would hurt less over time. you would think getting to college would mean that ive at least come to terms with how i am. im not a person that can make friends easily. you would think that i dont cry myself to sleep everytime i see every single one of my “friends” leaving me in the background. i dont want to sounds whiny but it is SO hard. ive tried to meet people. ive tried to find a place. no one seems to care. why am i here. whats the point if u have no one to share it with.

boysaresuicidal2

I’ll always be that friend

#im back guys #i feel this so hard right now #i feel like i lost all my friends #i dont have anyone anymore #college sucks ass #everyone left me and im still here #the friends i thought i have never cared about me #thinking about this is making my chest hurt and my arms tense up

sunbvrnt

2017………is……in….less…than…………..3 months

Oct.3.2014

#literally every presentation i get marked off for this

gimmekurtisconner

a conversation with god.

sharltonspensiter

I’m so mad at this

bobbyverse-deactivated20191221

I’m so confused by people who are constantly with 5+ friends every day in their posts and snap stories. Just basic stuff, like “gettin a taco for lunch” but it’s a party. How?? I have plenty of friends but I swear it takes 4 days of back and forth to coordinate getting 3 people in the same place at the same time.