alter ego

it's always my fault, isn't it?

[zeuskonaman]

If it’s worth the effort, why does it cause such immense pain?

[zeuskonaman]

been crushing on you for 8 years now, deleted 2 tumblr profiles, and yet i still come back to see if you're still here! dang how fast time flies

Hey there! Unfortunately, I rarely update this blog anymore, but I appreciate you taking the time to visit. Take care, Boo.

[zeuskonaman]

Invisible to you, but visible to my heart,

I'll chase the love we've yet to start.

With every step, with every sigh,

I'll follow you, until you see my eyes.

[zeuskonaman]

I am enough, or so I thought.

[zeuskonaman]

I hope you let go of things that hurt you even though it means losing. At the end of the day, it's not about getting lost in the process of holding back. Trust me, you need yourself more than you need them. Love and free yourself further as you move on. It's tough, but it's worthwhile. The battle lies within you now.

[zeuskonaman]

It took me four years to move on and I am now in a happy relationship for more than a year now. Just like a flower, I continue to bloom. Always be kind to yourself and give people a chance to love you just the way you wanted to be loved. You are enough, you are desired and you are worthy of the world.

Like I said before, I only use this blog when I get sad and hurt, but I'm now going to take a few steps to write down how blessed and happy I am with my relationship regardless of whether I feel happy or not. I would show the part of me being happy, not just sad, because at the end of the day our purpose is to make people feel alive, not dying. Cliché as it may seem, but everything will fall where it belongs.

Look after your heart and begin to move forward.

[zeuskonaman]

Fact: People who promised to stay in your life, will eventually the first one to leave.

[zeuskonaman]

Don’t beg for someone’s attention. If you feel ignored, let go. True love won’t make you feel unwanted.

[zeuskonaman]

something’s missing with me and it’s you. i never thought that morning like this can be sad and empty too. it’s like getting a nightmare in daylight.

[zeuskonaman]

You know no one will like you, that’s a sure thing, boo. No one will love you like I do, that’s for sure, too. No one will stay in your life longer than I have. They cannot stop me, they will not; don’t dare try, love.

People always tell you things like they’re here for you, They love you and understand you, but that’s not true. I mean, they don’t even know you, they’ve got no clue. Have they seen you at your worst and how you outburst?

You say you’re fine with everything, but was it true? The anger that boiled up inside was drowning you.  The fear that you keep to yourself, they’re eating you. The exhaustion, oh the exhaustion, they killed you.

I have seen people get tired of you being you; Have heard them sigh when you start getting high and dry  You blame me, they blame me; but was it only me? Was it all my fault that you fell in love with me?

I have protected you from almost everything, I have kept the walls high in case someone get in. I am at your highs, lows, even at your freak shows. You wanna get rid of me? Sorry, that can’t be.

But everything’s temporary, except me. People come and go, leaving you more broken, though. But I am here, the closest friend you’ll ever know, Closest friend they’ll never know, ’cause you never show.

- Anxiety

[jokerinyaraizi]

[zeuskonaman]

You gave me suicide pills, Now you’re coming back. I’ve been molded by experience, Changed by pain.

You bought sweet-coated lies from the pastry nearby. I accepted your desserts, Living a life of rainbows and unicorns.

You injected me a tranquilizer Soothing the pain, Relieving the tension you caused me. Temporarily sedates my active core.

You offered me ecstasy. I had taken it like a candy, Under a spell of happiness. An evident look euphoria in my face.

You induced procaine. Expecting that it would take effect, as you walk away leaving drugs run through my vain. You didn’t know that I am already numb.

[zeuskonaman]

Fucking fuck

[championsaremade]

Listen to me. This is your life– no one else’s. At the end of the day, it is you who has to be happy with the choices you are making, food you are eating, things you are doing, goals you are pursuing. Do not let the opinions and judgments of others stop you from doing what you feel and know in your heart is right for you. Eat the food that makes you feel best. Do what makes you feel at peace. Surround yourself with people who make you feel good, who make you laugh, who sincerely make you smile. Go after what you want– not because someone else is telling you to, but because you want to. Listen to that inner voice, trust your gut, and trust yourself.

[zeuskonaman]

How can you easily let go of someone you said you love the most?

[zeuskonaman]

“I think I can wear your smile even on days I feel like I don’t deserve to be happy. Trust me enough to let me know the song which makes your heart bleed the most of its contents; I’ll give new stitches, which I promise won’t let you seep out of love which you always give. The future lets me see nothing every time I imagine it without you in it. Still following the dreams we made together before we woke up.”

[zeuskonaman]

I like your eyes, I like your smile, I like your hair, I like your lips and more importantly, I like you. Nothing more, nothing less.