Zleepy smoking hours

~ trying my best to recover ~ possibly tw for sh/ed related + other cringe emo shit I post, I don't tag usually sorry

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Vent alt blog

ed and sh recovery <3

I'm sorry I don't tag much really

(probably plural of some sort) ❤️💜💙🤍☄️🩷🎀🐾🪽

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"I feel like everyone is going to leave sooner or later!"

You reap what you sow, words have power, you're practically manifesting it.

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Please stAy

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Every years a reset here

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"You got me messed up, stressed, depressed!

Rotting in my bed, overthinking every single word you said!!!

'Cause I'm too invested, I feel possessed!

Am I crazy for wanting us to be mutually obsessed?

Look me in the eye, say you need me to survive!

Anything to make you mine, even if it's only one more night!!

So do you think life is hell and I'm your one stroke of luck?

Or do you know that I can tell that you don't really give a f-!!!

Oh I think, I'm addicted, I'm addicted to love!

I wanna scream, so conflicted, but you're making me blush!

Oh-oh I think, I'm addicted, the adrenaline rush!

I know you're lying to my face but I won't ever call your bluff!!!

And I know that it's a waste of time!

But I can't survive without the high!

So-oh I think I'm addicted to the concept of us!

But with the way you look at him, I know I'll never be enough!!!!!

I'm so hung up, I've had enough, I wanna quit this!!!

I'm so fed up with lust and love, don't know the difference!!!!

Am I a whore if I adore this cheap ambivalence?!"

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Why do we even keep on hoping and caring anymore

You don't care enough about me anymore

I was always secretly second place.

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who decided that telling people they’ll have ugly scars for the rest of their life is a good way to convince them to stop self harming like o you know what really makes me not wanna cut myself? having permanent features of appearance harshly criticized!!! like self harming is obviously Not Good but your scars look fine, you look fine, there’s nothing wrong or ugly about carrying marks from the bad times with you on your skin

[ocdiscourse]

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Why do I keep just settling with the shit that I have when I deserve better people around me who actually care about me more and understand ugghhh idk

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I'm sorry for those who I accidentally ended up hurting in some way during those times

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You ever read a couple of your old posts/vents out of curiosity and realise how absolutely fucked you were and so disordered holy shit bro chill you are NOT! The devil!!

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I wish I used to be pretty

I wish I was ever pretty

[kumkaniudaku]

And then you can’t even say shit about bc people start trying to put you in a jacket and shit. Like omg it’s so strict???

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Step one of accepting it: assume everyone is stupid.

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Ughhh I'm sorry

I'm sorry

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Yeah thanks for each one of these stupid splits or whatever

Fucking hell bitch

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Just things of never being taught love

Fuck my life dude