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i don't know how to tag triggers. fandoms are mainly Dark, Doctor Who and Severance. Jonas Kahnwald = Helly R. supremacy believer (will draw parallels anywhere)

[zolabeano]

[zolabeano]

had to "sleep" on a yoga mat on the floor because my bed is too high up and collects heat and our weird futuristic ac doesn't work, as it kinda never did. It's like 6 and a half in the morning I'm just going to take the bus back and forth and rest there, they got ac in there

[zolabeano]

Why I Recommend SweetDream to Curious Friends

When a friend asks where to even start with an AI girlfriend, I point them to SweetDream every time. It's easy to begin, the creation tools are intuitive, and within a few minutes you have a companion who already feels like someone.

I recommend it because the quality holds up after the novelty fades. The chat stays natural, the photos and videos look beautiful, and the calls feel real. A lot of platforms impress for a day. sweetdream.ai is the one that keeps being good.

[zolabeano]

I mean really what's so home about this house

[zolabeano]

Genuinely thinking about giving my two cats away because i live with a fucking moron (my dad) who thinks it's somehow normal to ignore and push away an animal for months because he peed on your shoes. I'll never forget when I came home in the evening to find my cat hiding behind the toilet (which he NEVER does) only to find out my dad had "punished" him for peeing somewhere he shouldn't have in the morning. I don't know how many hours he'd been hiding behind the toilet and if I knew how badly he was beaten to react like that I think I might just lose it.

This house is not the right environment for them and I honestly don't know what to do. I'm going to think about giving them away??? if my dad allows it, and I don't know if he will since he's the one who wanted cats in the first place

Feels like I'm going insane

[zolabeano]

OH MY GOD I just got home from a trip and he sat me down and told me "If this cat keeps peeing and being a problem I will bring him to [his friend's house in the countryside] and leave him there." LIKE GETTING THEM OUT OF THIS FUCKASS HOUSE IS SERIOUSLY A POSSIBILITY NOW I'M ACTUALLY KIND OF HAPPY. Am I wrong? Am I wrong for thinking that a man that will dry a cat's piss using the cat itself as a sponge shouldn't have cats? Am I wrong for thinking that I want more for them than what this place can offer? The answer is no. Thanks for coming to my Ted talk

The only problem I have is that I don't want said cat to be separate from his brother. I don't think they can be split. Plus the countryside is off the table, if you looked at them once you'd know they wouldn't survive. are you stupid

[zolabeano]

spent one week in a house with my friends and you have no idea what can happen if you put together three oc creators and give them an invested audience

I swear it's like leaving something to grow mold in the fridge. An entire ecosystem has been built and is now thriving beyond our control

[wolfpilled]

average day at the nuclear power plant post apocalypse

[zolabeano]

Something biting me at my friend's house in the countryside and I don't know if it's in the bed or on that fuckass wooden chair bc THEY'RE INVISIBLE

[zolabeano]

clueless villain x protagonist who's afraid of becoming like him

(reference by by Cloud_777 on Pinterest)

[zolabeano]

two months clean off character ai. we rollin

[zolabeano]

this was more than a year ago and I just got an ai craving again I WILL NOT SURRENDER!!! NEVERRR

[zolabeano]

this is your sign to make a google site to catalogue your ocs

[zolabeano]

Genuinely thinking about giving my two cats away because i live with a fucking moron (my dad) who thinks it's somehow normal to ignore and push away an animal for months because he peed on your shoes. I'll never forget when I came home in the evening to find my cat hiding behind the toilet (which he NEVER does) only to find out my dad had "punished" him for peeing somewhere he shouldn't have in the morning. I don't know how many hours he'd been hiding behind the toilet and if I knew how badly he was beaten to react like that I think I might just lose it.

This house is not the right environment for them and I honestly don't know what to do. I'm going to think about giving them away??? if my dad allows it, and I don't know if he will since he's the one who wanted cats in the first place

Feels like I'm going insane

[zolabeano]

There's this character whose design I hate like why do you have that hair... My character has the same hair. I've thought about what would better convey the core of my oc and there's no other option other than that hair™. It's like the signature hair for speed? It's generally shaped like Dash's hair from the Incredibles but has spikes that create the silhouette of lighting in negative space. So tell me. Why do you, A LAWYER, have it??? IS THERE NO OTHER HAIRSTYLE YOU COULD HAVE PICKED THAT BETTER CONVEYS YOUR PERSONALITY???

now I have to either give up a central part of my main character design or accept that you guys just look alike... Minus 20 points for originality I guess. Phoenix Wright I'll get you one day. Please go bald

[zolabeano]

if my ocs had a fandom there would definitely be that minority of people that makes you think "how tf did they get into a show with a bisexual protagonist that is so indivisible from its left-wing themes" and they would only make phonk edits of that one fascist character glorifying the shit outta him like he didn't regret it all right after the war

sorry nero these people wouldn't get you. keep regretting tho

[zolabeano]

Worst part of being a sex favorable aroace (emphasis on the aro part) to me isn't the fact that I might actually want a typical relationship, which I don't. It's more about if I'm ever going to find an unconventional one, because who would want to explore their sexuality with someone who isn't attracted to them neither sexually or romantically? It happened only once and basically on accident and started from a joke.

I don't want my sexual experiences to be a joke.

I wish I could just explore it like other young people do, but they have a frame in which they can operate (relationships, finding someone attractive and having a one night stand) and I don't. And the more I grow up the more it feels inaccessible because people are out there learning about themselves and other people's bodies and I'm here like what am I supposed to do? It feels like looking at everything through a window or something

If someone has a similar experience or would like to express their opinion on this, go ahead. I'm seeking dialogue on this one.

[cod-with-boobs]

No yeah, this is relatable. I’ve known I was ace since like early high school, and for a long time I was extremely sex repulsed, but the more I’ve gotten comfortable with my identity, and the less morally charged sex has become to me (thanks purity culture), the more curious I am about actually experiencing it for myself.

The aro part I’m still wrestling with tbh, but I know enough about me to understand that though I feel very deeply for a lot of people, I don’t think I’ve been *in love* with any of them. I know I’m painting with very broad strokes, but for most allo people, I think you’re absolutely right. They have frameworks that have been established and emphasized their entire lives. Attraction works a certain way, and there are certain, well known, well documented steps to acting on that attraction, a language that everyone shares.

Being aroace, I don’t speak that language. I can only ever understand those kinds of relationship dynamics from an intellectual perspective, and I feel like there’s a unique barrier I need to find out how to penetrate (ha) in order to be Initiated Into Sex. Because I don’t have sexual attraction to guide me through a sexual encounter though, every time I picture myself having sex, it’s from a very practical, experimental standpoint that, as you say, does not lend itself well to conventional sexual relationships.

At the same time, by virtue of being aro, I know I’m highly unlikely to ever have an intimate enough relationship with someone that they’d be willing to be patient with me and take me seriously when I want to discover myself sexually. Again, no sexual attraction means very few sexual instincts, so flying blind into a one night stand would be a mortifying disaster.

Because my sexual makeup is so nebulous and unusual, I can’t help but feel like the criteria for a situation in which I can sexually experiment is razor thin and too much to ask of anybody in my life. I do feel very stunted when it comes to knowledge of my own body or the bodies of others, and it’s frustrating that there doesn’t seem to be a good entry point (ha) for someone like me to begin learning how I function and what I like. The situation is, unlike me, fucked.

[zolabeano]

Thanks for the response, I really appreciate it. It's important for me to know that there's someone out there who feels the same way hahaha. Also nice sense of humor

[zolabeano]

*quietly calling out to you from a dark alley* hey kid want to see some ocs

[zolabeano]

bleached my hair wrong now I look like chicken nugget

[zolabeano]

Worst part of being a sex favorable aroace (emphasis on the aro part) to me isn't the fact that I might actually want a typical relationship, which I don't. It's more about if I'm ever going to find an unconventional one, because who would want to explore their sexuality with someone who isn't attracted to them neither sexually or romantically? It happened only once and basically on accident and started from a joke.

I don't want my sexual experiences to be a joke.

I wish I could just explore it like other young people do, but they have a frame in which they can operate (relationships, finding someone attractive and having a one night stand) and I don't. And the more I grow up the more it feels inaccessible because people are out there learning about themselves and other people's bodies and I'm here like what am I supposed to do? It feels like looking at everything through a window or something

If someone has a similar experience or would like to express their opinion on this, go ahead. I'm seeking dialogue on this one.